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featuring
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finn it's it's
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it's like uh it's like a music video
00:13
when they have like so many features
00:16
uh-huh
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i have yeah
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let's be very popular
00:27
okay then oh crap
00:30
they already know that i'm talking to
00:31
you
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okay i spoiled it uh okay
00:39
whoops okay uh hello everyone
00:42
i'd like everyone to welcome finn
00:46
you look like [ __ ] minecraft
00:52
oh god it might be mine
00:58
uh oh there you go
01:02
well yes oh wow
01:08
yeah it is maybe if i turn off this
01:12
um i i a region thing
01:16
oh yeah like the signal is like 11
01:21
okay so wait how do you can switch it on
01:24
your end right
01:27
okay we are now utilizing brazil
01:31
as a
01:34
but it seems fine so far anyway okay
01:36
we're good it looks good
01:38
yeah i'm gonna be talking about the
01:40
absolute best connection
01:45
yeah that's like flip your hand that way
01:47
it looks like i'm talking to you like
01:48
i'm just like
01:50
and i'm looking thank you how are you
01:52
doing today
01:54
i'm doing well yeah really
02:01
holy [ __ ] you're giant this is nuts
02:06
oh god this echo oh i'm sorry it's
02:10
probably on my
02:11
own oh wait yeah okay i fixed it you can
02:14
still hear me right now all right
02:16
yeah no i think you're fine i mean video
02:18
stream and i'm i'm
02:19
you know i'm just using this book
02:22
because i heard you twice and i was like
02:23
oh god
02:25
i'm watching you as well it's like this
02:27
is that like sun
02:29
like like daylight on the back of your
02:32
is it like really like that's what it
02:34
looks like at 4 30.
02:36
yeah it's it's like 5 a.m
02:40
it's like summer so like the sun's
02:42
coming up really early i guess
02:43
so that works i don't know how time is
02:45
it yeah the days slipping by for you
02:47
like they are for me i feel like i feel
02:49
like ever since corona
02:51
i've just lost track of what day it is
02:53
what time it is nothing the time doesn't
02:55
exist anymore
02:56
i mean like you normally like stay in
02:57
right
02:59
yeah i mean in all fairness i guess i
03:01
don't go to work lucky
03:16
walker
03:18
it's it's totally innocent absolutely
03:22
am i buying something but like i yeah i
03:25
guess you can say like
03:26
the the most uh easiest way i'm an
03:28
essential worker
03:31
yeah yeah i work essentially essentially
03:35
i work
03:35
so yeah are you a domino's delivery
03:38
driver
03:44
i find i sell things i'm uh i mean you
03:47
could say i'm in sales you could say
03:49
i take shipments
03:53
what's the what's the word they use in
03:55
business like buyer to buy
03:56
a b2b yeah like b2b business to business
04:01
yeah like yeah like i've done that
04:02
before too like i used to be a
04:04
buyer as well like it's just basically
04:06
like selling stuff to like companies and
04:08
or like buying or like just negotiating
04:10
prices dude there was like i jumped
04:13
i don't know if it's still going on in
04:14
my head it's phased out do you remember
04:16
the whole like drop shipping
04:17
trend yeah yeah everywhere for a little
04:21
bit
04:21
that's how i learned about that about
04:24
how that language just like
04:26
it got all these ads that were like hey
04:27
do you want to make 50 000
04:29
right now you've got an hour i can make
04:31
you a millionaire today
04:34
and then i learn about all these things
04:36
and then you kind of talk to people that
04:38
have done it
04:39
and then you realize you can really mess
04:41
yourself up from
04:42
you can i mean like you have to like
04:45
figure out like what to actually
04:47
sell it's pretty much like oh you tell
04:49
someone something and then from that
04:50
point
04:50
you buy from the site it obviously
04:52
doesn't like cost you as much i would
04:54
say you set it up automatically right
04:56
yeah it's sort of like i guess you could
04:57
say sort of like creating your own
04:59
t-shirts
05:00
or something like that yeah well there's
05:02
a there's a bloke there's a bloke that i
05:04
know
05:04
um i won't say his name but he basically
05:06
he started off a company he used to be
05:08
in minecraft servers and then he kind of
05:10
like got out of that and he made tons
05:12
from minecraft like he's i love your
05:13
[ __ ] name
05:14
i don't even [ __ ] do it dude
05:18
there's there's stick on nails that i've
05:20
like painted myself
05:22
and it took like two hours
05:26
i like shaped them these are like square
05:28
hold on there's like a box
05:31
uh no i can't find them they're like
05:33
square they're like what are they called
05:34
coffin shaped nails or whatever and i
05:36
have to like file them like file them
05:38
now
05:39
it's terrible i don't recommend it just
05:41
go into emails though
05:42
is it like like your defense mechanism
05:45
like when you go out
05:46
late at night i know that there have
05:48
been like streams like where
05:49
you're like literally out in the night
05:53
i think like one of them was like you
05:55
like
05:56
a van like tries to like pick you up
06:01
dude that's like the only time i've ever
06:04
been scared in
06:06
on a stream there was like there was
06:08
this
06:09
the people that haven't watched it there
06:10
was this i was going on a late night
06:12
walk
06:13
i think cosplaying is like belle
06:15
delphine you know
06:18
yeah it was in the game over onesie and
06:21
everything
06:22
and then all the pink hair and
06:23
everything yeah and uh this
06:26
this was like just at the brink of
06:28
lockdown so like there were barely any
06:30
cast on the roads it's like none and
06:31
it's also like 3am
06:33
so a car going by is like news like one
06:35
comes by every
06:36
20 minutes and uh this van came up the
06:40
road i was walking along and just
06:41
it got to me because it was black man it
06:43
got to like
06:45
20 feet behind me and then it slowed to
06:46
a crawl and it kept doing that all the
06:49
way up my wrote like
06:50
walking speed just following me oh my
06:52
god i kind of said that
06:54
thing oh i don't like this would you
06:56
would you have gone in
06:57
if it was if it said free subs painted
06:59
on the side of it
07:01
freestyle yeah i mean yeah i mean if i
07:04
could hit that sub goal
07:07
it might be worth the race
07:12
dude it's a dude you know twitch like
07:15
takes like 50 percent of sub revenue
07:17
oh yeah it does
07:20
i think but if you're partnered which
07:22
you are congratulations uh
07:24
you get a little bit don't you get like
07:26
a little bit more
07:28
you get i think you get more for
07:29
different tiers but i think it's still
07:30
fifty percent
07:32
like if tier one serves it's still fifty
07:34
percent sucks dude
07:35
yeah just just creating only fans
07:38
creating only fans and then have them
07:40
not only i know
07:50
i thought about it right because i used
07:52
to do uh
07:53
patreon right and then there are like
07:55
times where like would like release like
07:56
certain photos and stuff like that but
07:58
nothing to
07:59
like like when i tell people i'm totally
08:01
innocent i'm like
08:03
but people don't believe me somehow like
08:05
they i'm not really sure why i'm not
08:06
sure if you get that too
08:09
oh no i am innocent oh okay
08:13
welcome to i'm i i am truly innocent i
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haven't
08:17
done anything straight i mean i did wear
08:19
a bikini that one time
08:20
that's probably the worst it's i think
08:23
that's innocent
08:26
you're wearing a bikini i've seen i'm
08:28
pretty sure innocent people burger king
08:29
and stuff like that yeah people you
08:32
don't have to be
08:33
some sort of only fan stop for um
08:39
i think that's probably the most because
08:41
that was like uh
08:43
yeah that was the most of my body i was
08:45
sure but i still
08:46
didn't stand up i didn't i didn't even
08:48
show the bottom half of me i think i
08:50
like showed like from there like oh i
08:52
never even showed them
08:54
it's like oh i don't know you gotta be
08:56
safe it's a thing but that's it's
08:58
very very tricky when it comes to like
09:00
doing you know a bikini or like swimsuit
09:02
next thing you know like you know you
09:05
know there's like
09:07
talking and all that oh yeah never tried
09:10
that no
09:13
maybe i just have one
09:17
like wait no like you've never needed to
09:19
or know that you would never do that
09:22
i i guess you could say i have a need
09:25
i have it really like i don't think i
09:28
tried like
09:29
i just basically like i'm not sucking
09:32
right now okay
09:41
i think the best part is just like not
09:45
think it is not innocent thoughts
09:48
or something
09:53
i'm just gonna clip this and send it to
09:55
me on twitter
09:57
someone's gonna send this [ __ ] to me and
09:59
be like what the [ __ ] is working um
10:11
how do you be stereotypically asian oh
10:14
for some reason it just didn't click in
10:15
my head
10:29
not to brag or anything but if i was
10:32
gonna wear that and show it off i would
10:34
need to talk
10:35
uh and i i did
10:38
that's a program uh but now the um i
10:41
tried it
10:42
and it didn't go very well like every i
10:44
don't know i read i read a wiki how i
10:47
tried it out
10:48
it was very bad and i just decided this
10:50
is not gonna this is not gonna go my way
10:52
i'm just gonna
10:53
not stand up and also you know i guess
10:56
you can like don't go
10:58
like where like those really really
11:00
tight shorts and just
11:01
you just can't breathe underneath and
11:04
then you just like
11:06
funny the only thing is that you can't
11:07
drink especially like if you talk
11:09
because you gotta go like take a leap
11:11
take a leak that's that's like one of
11:12
the reasons why i don't like talk
11:14
or stuff like that because yeah i drink
11:16
at night
11:19
i don't go out i mean as much as i do on
11:21
stream i don't go out
11:23
i've never gone out like uh dressed up
11:25
or anything
11:26
yeah i mean i used to like do it for
11:28
events i used to like it for like anime
11:30
conventions made cafe
11:31
or if i like uh hang out with like
11:34
friends or like people like come
11:36
fly over to visit over here i basically
11:39
like
11:40
you know i do that and then we go grab
11:42
drinks and then just talk chill have a
11:43
good time
11:44
like you know just dress up i don't have
11:47
that confidence man
11:49
i don't know it's like um i feel like it
11:53
looks
11:53
it it looks significantly i've always
11:55
said it looks i think everyone's
11:57
i get to i think i get too much phrase
11:59
that it looks
12:00
good on me but in real life it looks it
12:03
always looks worse in real life than on
12:04
camera in my opinion
12:06
would i most likely i guess it's the
12:09
pans
12:11
it's really really japanese there's two
12:13
slides there's people that like
12:14
it's it's it's some people's it's like
12:16
in insane in real life it's great and
12:18
then other people it looks
12:20
worse like celestia celestia vega right
12:23
yeah
12:24
she just so she's choosing on the boat
12:27
of um
12:28
that it looks better on camera looks
12:30
miles better on camera which i'm
12:31
i also mean but then i've spoke to
12:33
someone else that was like oh no no no
12:35
on camera it looks terrible it looks
12:37
like you can't see the detail that i've
12:39
put in
12:40
uh and it's better in real life oh
12:43
to be honest with you right sometimes
12:44
like when i do makeup right like
12:46
it looks better irl it looks like [ __ ]
12:48
on camera
12:50
so it basically depends on what type of
12:52
makeup yeah
12:53
yeah it's like like more like
12:55
exaggerated it looks better on camera
12:58
yeah and like depends on the camera and
12:59
the lighting and like all that stuff
13:01
it's it's a lot of work but i think
13:03
what's great is basically if you just
13:05
like
13:05
if you are like livestreaming outside
13:06
you all have to just use like your phone
13:08
your phone is fine
13:09
your phone your phone will have to make
13:11
it a weird built-in beauty filter
13:14
a lot of the time like it just blows
13:16
yourself
13:17
perfect that's what it's most likely
13:18
like the upload rate too
13:20
because you know you're uploading to you
13:22
know
13:23
so sometimes like my streams don't go up
13:24
like to to
13:26
720 or like 1080 depending on like what
13:28
service i get and then like oh wow you
13:30
look so pretty
13:31
you know because you know your minecraft
13:33
blocks on like on the face or something
13:35
like that you know your minecraft skin
13:37
looks so great
13:39
so there's that i mean you ever like
13:42
like if i i may ask like what uh
13:46
[ __ ] you to like dressing up and oh
13:50
uh there was like oh man i don't think i
13:53
thought about it
13:53
yeah the i mean it depends what you mean
13:56
right
13:56
because originally it wasn't ever on
13:58
camera because like there's a
14:00
i think i told the story before but
14:02
there's two versions of it there's like
14:03
the story of why i'm doing it on on
14:05
on youtube and on twitch and then
14:07
there's the story of like how it got
14:08
stuck
14:09
it's like asking like hey what's your
14:10
life story oh
14:13
okay short version of like how it
14:15
technically all began is like i was
14:17
always one of those kids that was like
14:18
uh
14:19
friends with a lot of girls and
14:21
inevitably when you're friends with a
14:22
lot of girls they want to try and put
14:23
make on you
14:24
yeah uh and then i think that happened
14:26
so much
14:27
like that and i was just like oh okay
14:29
this i got like acclimated to it i was
14:31
like this isn't that big of a deal
14:33
after a while so i was kind of okay with
14:36
it
14:37
and then later on when i was doing
14:39
youtube um
14:40
i i like more ease my friend my friend's
14:43
really into
14:44
rupaul's drag race oh yeah yeah
14:47
yeah and she was she was i think she
14:49
she's wanted to put her boyfriend in
14:50
drag
14:51
for a really long time and he would
14:52
never let her and she's been asking me
14:54
it's an honor
14:56
it's not every day that people you know
14:58
their girlfriends ask them hey i want to
14:59
dress you up
15:02
i want to try it i don't think it's
15:04
don't think it's his thing
15:05
he's like a bouncer
15:08
he's not really the type um but no she
15:12
she i think she has eventually cracked
15:14
that because i i think she definitely
15:16
has but um
15:18
at that time uh deputy chef but she
15:20
wanted to put someone in drag
15:21
and i and i said i was talking to my
15:23
other my online friends all the time i
15:25
was like i
15:26
told them that exact thing and uh they
15:28
said oh dude let her do it and i was
15:30
like nah and we i think we put a bet on
15:31
it and i lost the bet and then
15:33
we i ended up letting it do it and i
15:34
didn't mind that much we did it and it
15:36
turned out just
15:38
i was like video it's got it's on video
15:40
actually it's on a video that's never
15:42
been uploaded or anything
15:44
um but it's like a it's a it's a feed
15:47
from my like old logitech webcam
15:49
i was sitting on that on the bed eating
15:51
pizza and hurting my makeup and then
15:53
there's a moment where i turn to the
15:54
camera and see myself for the first time
15:56
i'm like oh yeah like
15:59
damn very very different very very
16:02
different
16:02
like uh with that so like for you like
16:05
you said like you didn't mind with it
16:06
like
16:06
when we first started but then like
16:08
after that like i guess
16:10
how how's how do you deal with like the
16:13
i would say
16:14
the attention in terms of uh when people
16:16
like see you like that
16:18
like like do you feel like
16:21
i feel like oh the uh
16:24
i guess like i don't know i feel like i
16:28
already
16:28
i was a youtube i was like i'm a
16:30
youtuber like on my main channel coming
16:32
for a completely different thing and
16:33
i've had a face cam there for
16:35
you know for two years i guess when i
16:38
when
16:38
by the time i first did anything dressed
16:40
up right
16:42
but oh yeah that's the by the way the
16:44
first time i dressed up that was how the
16:45
first omega video happened and then that
16:47
video got like a ton of views as well um
16:50
and that was like why i then carried on
16:52
with it but either way like i would
16:55
i feel like i was already used to might
16:57
be a bad answer but i feel like i was
16:58
already used to it like a bunch of
17:00
people saying like
17:02
um they'll you know just kind of you get
17:05
the
17:05
hate and praise yeah you get used to
17:07
that as doing anything on social media
17:09
yeah but that's good so you're like
17:11
conditioned your condition like
17:13
if i do anything like whether it's like
17:15
bad or good if people make money with
17:16
that
17:16
like it's just what it is like hey
17:20
oh no one knows hate comments add to the
17:23
algorithm they boot you it's all it's
17:24
all interaction rates my god
17:26
uh but yeah yeah uh
17:30
the only thing that was weird and
17:31
changed was like when people start
17:32
putting you in your pro
17:33
in their profile pictures oh yeah that's
17:35
the word
17:37
like dude
17:42
that was the only thing that really was
17:44
like oh [ __ ] that's that's
17:46
nuts like just facebook accounts that
17:48
like like
17:49
pretend to be you
17:52
i think there's one of you i think
17:55
there's one of you like what there's an
17:57
instagram one too when i dm'd them i was
17:59
like
18:00
it's so creepy it's so creepy
18:03
if you know when like they post your
18:05
photos and they're like
18:06
hey like i got the the one that was
18:08
doing me on instagram like one of them
18:10
was like
18:11
hey just recording a video on on uh
18:14
i'm gonna stream in a bit and then i
18:16
didn't but like it's just
18:18
they're just pretending to be oh god
18:20
it's so creepy it's the worst
18:22
wow maybe maybe they're like stands like
18:26
maybe they
18:36
dude i imagine you must have got like a
18:38
bunch of those like like
18:40
when you because you have your videos
18:41
before when you were doing a megalon
18:43
the voice the voice tutorial and stuff
18:46
yeah i imagine that was like you
18:47
you blew up pretty hard from those
18:49
videos got like 100 000. i don't know
18:51
how it's like
18:51
over 100 i think for the voice one was
18:54
like 400.
18:56
yeah yeah 400k uh but after that i was
18:58
like
18:59
let me just i hermited myself and like
19:02
got into my bag am i doing this right is
19:03
this right for me like
19:05
it took a break man that's not what you
19:07
do i did it wrong
19:09
i know not like a friend told me like yo
19:13
blondie you should be like with this
19:16
long island you should be doing this you
19:18
have to strike when the iron is hot
19:19
but like for me i guess i wasn't just
19:22
acclimated to like dealing with like
19:24
so much attention that i had to like oh
19:26
it's that work is that like yes
19:28
because it was like is it hard for you
19:30
stop
19:31
uh like not necessarily i mean like my
19:34
first video was like just playing like
19:36
video games with a friend and then from
19:38
that point i was like hey
19:40
i want to be able to like present well
19:42
in real life because i have
19:43
i used to go to like conventions like
19:46
you know anime conventions
19:47
i also used to like work for like the
19:48
maid cafes over there
19:51
so in order for me i'm sorry
19:54
you worked for him like you're a mate
19:56
yeah i've worked for like quite a few
19:57
maid cafes
19:58
uh so that's how i actually like really
20:01
really
20:02
started getting into like cosplay
20:03
cross-dressing
20:05
yeah i did that like like my origin
20:07
stories like
20:08
my friend was like yo there's an anime
20:10
convention blah blah like they have like
20:12
a maid cafe you know i'll apply
20:14
as butler and blondie you should apply
20:16
as a maid i'm like
20:18
i'm like you said as a joke but then i'm
20:20
like hey
20:21
let me do it so i applied i went through
20:24
the video interview
20:25
uh and you know i got hired and
20:28
they the person they didn't get hired
20:31
but like
20:32
still like oh and then basically i had
20:35
like my first convention it was amazing
20:37
then after the convention i'm like wow
20:38
this is awesome it feels awesome to be
20:40
blah blah
20:41
so i applied for other makeup made
20:44
convention make cafe conventions and
20:46
then i would
20:47
do that and then from that point there
20:50
was a time when i couldn't afford to go
20:52
to a convention and then
20:53
i was like crap what do i do oh i'll
20:56
just dress up tonight and then i'll go
20:57
on
20:58
uh i'll go on like a chat thing with my
21:02
friend and then we'll just play video
21:03
games and record it whatever
21:05
so i did that and that was like my first
21:06
video that i uploaded probably so that's
21:08
how
21:09
i did that so that's my original instant
21:12
nice was it was it was that first as uh
21:15
popular or was it just sort of like the
21:17
first everyone's first video where it
21:19
just like sits in like
21:20
three views for like a month for
21:23
me in particular
21:26
i can't even remember i think like just
21:28
it was like a thousand
21:30
views but then like once i started to
21:32
get into like the omega stuff
21:34
you know because i utilized that as like
21:36
practice in order for me to like get my
21:37
makeup right you know i started doing
21:38
like my own makeup right i started like
21:40
doing the outfits uh and all that stuff
21:43
that's
21:43
yeah the mega was a really good test
21:46
like uh i think when when i first
21:48
like when that first thing like my
21:50
makeup got done
21:51
and i thought it was nuts because
21:52
obviously i thought it was nice but i
21:54
didn't think it was like passable
21:56
um because you know you can see yourself
21:59
right through it
21:59
right so i i the argument between me and
22:03
my friends was like
22:04
i don't think it's that possible and
22:05
then they go no it looks insane
22:08
and then we went on a megal to to prove
22:10
it in my mind
22:12
you can see through it and then that's
22:14
the practice
22:15
i think like yeah for me that's why i
22:16
like started investing like high quality
22:18
cams
22:19
etc just so i can be like hey can this
22:22
translate well
22:23
my makeup look look good uh you know
22:27
on camera really could look good out of
22:29
cam you know
22:30
basically practice for that um you're
22:33
uploading again
22:36
sorry i just checked your channel
22:40
went to you i went to your channel again
22:41
and um oh you uploaded like five minutes
22:44
ago two years ago
22:45
yeah i just you know figured hey why not
22:47
why not like
22:48
for old time's sake for all time sick to
22:50
see if i like still got it
22:53
yeah dude that's got that video's got a
22:54
hundred percent like ratio
22:57
that's not so damn
23:00
that's uh that's impressive that's uh
23:02
loyalty that's true
23:06
my sense energy or something like that
23:09
for lack of a better
23:10
wow it's got one dislike and a 3000 view
23:14
video that's that's kind of dope
23:17
my videos like as soon as my like a
23:19
video that i just uploaded will get like
23:21
10 dislikes
23:22
like the first minute i mean like
23:25
ratio you know no 100
23:29
less that's less than like 0.5 percent
23:32
dislike that's like
23:36
as a ratio i think mine's set at like 95
23:39
and then on the second channel it's
23:40
lower i don't know it's not enough okay
23:44
second channel is actually more liked
23:46
than my main chart
23:48
the second channel wow in the fin
23:50
channel is the second one
23:51
and then there's the uh minecraft one do
23:54
you know about that
23:55
actually i i remember uh
24:00
i remember like speaking with chat over
24:01
here like oh yeah you should like uh
24:03
talk to finn
24:04
you know chill like you guys both do
24:06
america and stuff like that i'm like
24:09
oh i don't know i'm not really i'm i'm
24:12
very
24:12
i would say introverted in terms of like
24:15
going out
24:15
to like talk to people like that yeah me
24:19
too
24:20
i'm the same i think i've just the way
24:22
that i think i watched a pewdiepie video
24:24
and he said uh he said something that
24:27
like clicked with me really well is that
24:28
like you basically an introvert with an
24:30
extrovert's job
24:32
that's so right like i my first video
24:36
with i think youtube and twitch i i
24:38
really like a ton
24:40
because youtube helped me go from like
24:42
really awkward would mumble everything
24:45
to like i can actually hold
24:46
conversations now ish
24:51
it's nice it got me out michelle okay
24:53
there there you go that's where you put
24:55
it and then
24:55
it kind of became more of like a you
24:58
gotta have enthusiasm for it
25:00
yeah and that's something else
25:03
but yeah twitch is more like with twitch
25:06
you gotta be always on and with youtube
25:08
you kind of like you can take breaks and
25:09
recording and like stuff and start
25:11
because
25:11
there's editing again like i got 15
25:14
hours of raw footage to like four
25:16
minutes of final footage
25:18
crazy
25:21
hey i mean like it's definitely great
25:24
because you know you feel like you're at
25:25
home
25:25
like and you literally are at home like
25:27
when you're uh
25:29
on twitch so you're like at a
25:31
comfortable position right
25:32
people it's not like you're meeting
25:34
people who don't know about you or
25:35
anything like
25:36
you meet people who want to see you who
25:37
want to like you know chill and hang out
25:39
with you which i feel like is awesome
25:44
the reason why you should continue with
25:45
youtube and i'll give you uh
25:47
i'll give you
25:51
do it i don't know i can't think of the
25:53
word it's 5 pm okay
25:58
but it grows when you do youtube it will
26:00
grow your twitch yeah like
26:01
i learned that like i started doing
26:03
twitch and then people started uploading
26:05
clips of me on highlight channels and
26:07
stuff
26:08
and then i made a highlight channel and
26:10
then my twitch went up
26:11
quite a bit because yeah youtube's just
26:13
way better to get views on
26:15
because the video sits around like
26:17
people don't really watch twitch photos
26:19
exactly and it's like you know the
26:21
people who like really [ __ ] with you
26:22
that kong switch
26:23
you know like everything trickles down i
26:25
remember like
26:27
there was like these tips on like how to
26:28
like grow your twitch channel and like
26:29
they basically said you have to be on
26:31
other social media platforms the other
26:32
social media platforms that they value
26:34
on
26:35
they you know you can use that to like
26:38
move to a different platform
26:40
which i think is great dude every
26:43
every like streaming site dude how often
26:45
have you seen the
26:46
how often have you seen the headlines or
26:48
like people on youtube talking about how
26:50
youtube
26:50
or twitch is a [ __ ] it's all going
26:52
downhill everything's burning
26:54
and you need to go to the different
26:56
things that you know
26:57
and it's not going to last another year
26:59
the thing
27:01
oh my god i think i think youtube i was
27:04
just having a conversation about it with
27:05
some minecraft youtuber friends i think
27:07
youtube and twitch are more
27:09
youtube more than twitch but i think
27:11
youtube's more stable than people give
27:13
it credit for
27:14
because we're just thinking like they're
27:16
like the only
27:17
video website yeah it's getting
27:19
mainstream but
27:20
it's like depending on who you are and
27:23
like what personality you bring on an
27:24
individual level
27:25
i think like depending on who you are
27:27
and like how you
27:28
play it then you'll be fine
27:32
yeah you know i agree and also you got
27:34
to keep trying because the
27:36
people fall off because they give up
27:38
yeah it's basically my
27:39
thoughts on it like uh people like they
27:42
either get to a point of success with
27:44
like i don't really need to try and so
27:46
they stop
27:47
or they uh or they just
27:50
they either stop trying as hard or they
27:52
stop uploading as much
27:54
um and that will kill a channel yeah but
27:58
you know if you're still like doing good
28:00
and if people wanted to
28:02
like subscribe and watch your content
28:04
originally then they'll still stick
28:05
around
28:06
if you're still doing that content
28:07
that's the true owen fans these are the
28:09
true only times
28:12
we're only sensing i don't know i don't
28:14
know how
28:20
i don't know i didn't actually hear
28:22
anime but i'm just every time i hear
28:23
conventions i think anime
28:25
yeah um but you've done no i've done
28:28
bdsm conventions fan i'm really
28:31
no
28:36
the uh was i was damn okay i was gonna
28:40
ask about um
28:41
have you ever had like a professional uh
28:43
photo shoot
28:45
a professional one to be honest like i
28:47
haven't or at least like
28:49
some i haven't i mean you've never even
28:52
had those like people at conventions
28:53
with cameras they're like let me take a
28:55
picture of you
28:56
i have but um for me i i don't really
29:00
think of it too much i mean like like is
29:03
there anything that like interests you
29:05
in regards like
29:06
getting professional photoshoots
29:07
pictures taken are we going are we gonna
29:09
go the only fans
29:11
but we're gonna do uh the sneaky type of
29:14
thing
29:15
that's why i brought it up i was gonna
29:16
say it's ever since like people
29:19
found out about me i think they've been
29:20
like they compared me to like sneaky
29:22
hecking like a baby to you sneaky uh
29:25
there's another twitch stream of the
29:27
the different ones i'm like a vulnerable
29:30
alien
29:31
alien yeah the one that does the
29:32
runescape and they have like steel
29:34
chairs yeah
29:35
yeah yeah
29:39
yeah i tuned into one of their streams i
29:40
i like someone linked i was reading a
29:42
reddit thread
29:44
and someone said like oh this reminds
29:45
like i did a i forgot it was i think it
29:47
was like a roast
29:48
i put a roast me out i got a bunch of
29:50
likes and read it and then i was reading
29:51
through the replies and like this
29:53
reminds me of that twitch streamer that
29:54
like
29:55
was doing it just for a joke and then
29:57
they got facial reconstruction
29:59
yeah i noticed that that's what i've
30:02
been actually been thinking something
30:03
i've been
30:04
going fast like
30:07
how far do you think you'll go how is
30:10
that how is it
30:10
how like how just a meme is it is that
30:13
what it is
30:15
it's still it's still like i think it's
30:17
like saying it's just a meme
30:19
is i guess it's technically not accurate
30:22
but it is for content it is just for
30:24
content like it's not a part of my
30:26
identity or anything
30:27
that's not like it it was literally just
30:30
like
30:31
i mean somewhat it's a hard thing for
30:33
people because it's like
30:35
in a lot of people says it's either like
30:36
it's either your thing or it's a
30:38
or it's like your identity or your trap
30:41
yeah
30:41
or whatever but in couples it's kind of
30:44
interesting
30:45
eggs i didn't know if you knew the term
30:48
i'm pretty sure you've got people
30:49
calling you you're an egg you're just
30:51
waiting for yeah i was yeah
30:52
i was like top voted for like in in one
30:55
of the comm in one like a week's
30:57
uh thing on a guy rl on reddit
31:00
like someone put anyone oh uh but yeah
31:02
no the
31:03
heck was that about oh yeah uh so i
31:05
think it's like
31:07
with that i think with me specifically
31:10
it was just the perfect string of events
31:11
it's like i'm a youtuber
31:13
so i knew how to be on camera i knew how
31:15
to like make things entertaining with
31:17
that
31:17
yes and also i somehow impassable as a
31:21
girl
31:21
and i figured out a good way to monetize
31:24
it and
31:25
all those things together i think that's
31:26
that's the thing that's like very very
31:29
important i mean like you know as you
31:31
say you're innocent i'm totally innocent
31:32
too so
31:33
i i don't think we're ever going to get
31:35
into uh adult entertainment
31:38
anything like that so low although
31:42
money would it take although how many
31:45
subscriptions to an only fans would it
31:46
take
31:47
i have my number you have yours you're
31:49
live
31:52
oh my god everyone's got a number
31:55
everyone's got a prize
31:56
right yeah everyone tells me everyone's
31:59
got a price
32:00
just let me know blah blah blah um i i
32:03
really
32:03
haven't thought about that i think maybe
32:05
that's why i stopped for a bit
32:07
like i don't want to attract too much
32:09
heat to a point where like oh god
32:11
i'm doing things that will be forever
32:13
posted
32:14
yeah i i did have a moment exactly like
32:18
that before
32:19
okay bless you
32:25
do you do people say bless you in new
32:26
york no they don't i had an ex that
32:28
basically said like
32:29
oh whenever you yawn or you burp right
32:32
uh
32:33
part of your spirit goes out they were
32:35
asian thank god
32:37
i've lost all i've been trying to get
32:39
this soul out of me for a long time
32:42
oh god like that oh like avatar like
32:46
it just goes to the spirit world there
32:48
you go that's a much easier way of
32:49
looking at it
32:50
but no the uh what about like uh
32:54
when i when i when i was doing streaming
32:55
when i started streaming and everyone
32:57
was like giving me a ton of praise for
32:59
doing more and more like one-upping the
33:02
last stream
33:03
that i had a moment where i was just
33:04
like this is it got i think it got a
33:07
little bit overwhelming for like
33:09
a week until i figured it out because
33:12
i don't know if you you i don't know if
33:14
you've ever had a moment like this this
33:15
is this
33:16
you're probably the only person where
33:17
this would be relatable to maybe
33:19
because i'm a youtuber yeah
33:36
it was this weird thing where like i had
33:38
to very quickly i had all these people
33:40
questioning my identity which has never
33:43
happened before
33:45
and like no i do
33:48
it's it's really weird being suddenly
33:50
thrust into trying and it's having some
33:52
existential crisis on like
33:54
[ __ ] what gender you are how do you
33:56
want to present yourself
33:57
is this like dude no one i have never
34:00
had to think about
34:01
am i trans and i feel like it was like i
34:04
know i just figured out that i wasn't
34:05
it's just a lot of like
34:07
people going like you were this or you
34:09
might be this and then like
34:11
i think things have happened yeah it's
34:13
sort of like uh
34:14
like let's say you know once you start
34:16
dressing up and stuff like that right
34:17
people
34:18
are already um they're gonna be asking
34:21
you questions like oh does that mean
34:23
that you like
34:24
men are you like this or you like that
34:26
like they they start
34:28
putting out the stereotypical
34:29
assumptions on like
34:31
hey what do you what you do and then
34:33
like you're at a crossroads because
34:35
you're thinking that oh uh this is this
34:39
something
34:39
new to me is this something
34:43
like is this really me is that you is
34:45
this me you look in the mirror and then
34:46
you like the mulan song plays
34:48
like that okay maybe i'm going
34:51
to start questioning yourself
34:55
but then you don't know if you're doing
34:56
it for like people who actually follow
34:58
you
34:59
know a lot of people like to like lump
35:00
things in together or they like to see
35:03
their ideal version of you
35:06
right there's a lot of like there's a
35:08
lot of like um
35:09
trans people lgbtq people that like come
35:12
into the streams
35:13
like he is a member of us like and
35:15
that's what they want
35:17
and then there's the other people like
35:18
oh he's a he's a it's a trap which is
35:20
what they want i think i'm closer to it
35:22
yeah better and there's people either
35:25
think you're gay you're straight i don't
35:26
know
35:26
that's whatever no i i totally feel yeah
35:28
uh with that
35:30
because i think it was really weird kind
35:33
of eventually just labeling yourself
35:34
cross-dresser i think i was weird
35:36
because i always had like a
35:37
uh not a negative perception of the word
35:39
just like something i never thought i'd
35:41
group myself in with but then it's like
35:43
it's kind of the most
35:44
apt thing to be honest with you it's i
35:46
feel like it's like the same thing like
35:47
like whenever like someone says that's
35:50
like
35:51
transvestite i feel like a [ __ ]
35:53
sounds weird
35:54
mineral like a [ __ ] rock like
35:58
oh you're you're this you're that okay
36:01
like that's i'm not super crazy about
36:03
labels uh and i kind of really just
36:06
didn't want to fit into one
36:07
for me i just do what i do and
36:10
that's pretty much the end all be all
36:12
because you know you're going to get
36:13
called a lot of things that you're most
36:15
likely not i think that just comes with
36:16
the territory
36:18
when it comes to like content creating
36:19
or like doing something
36:21
yeah i think it's like
36:24
someone someone um well like there's a
36:26
bunch of people who want to say
36:27
non-binary now but the uh
36:28
yeah someone said something to me that
36:30
was pretty apt
36:31
they said like uh like they just said
36:34
why the clothes why don't why did
36:35
why do clothes have to be gendered he's
36:38
like oh yeah i guess that makes sense i
36:40
guess like
36:41
it doesn't like it it doesn't change
36:44
just because
36:45
just because you like wear something
36:46
that's like over the difference i think
36:48
the the answer to that
36:49
is uh youtube views
37:07
twitch was so weird because twitch is
37:08
like the epitome of like
37:10
you you can either make nothing or make
37:12
tons and for me i just did not care
37:14
about making any money on it
37:16
but uh it's it's just it feels nice to
37:19
grow
37:20
an audience i think it's great
37:21
especially like if it's organic and you
37:23
know it helps you continue to do
37:24
what you do you know i think there will
37:26
be a lot of people
37:27
i'm sorry it's all bob it's all parts
37:30
it's not organic
37:33
stop calling a human's boss this isn't
37:36
cyberpunk yet
37:37
game hasn't even come out yet
37:40
today oh by the way today i learned if
37:42
you wear eye contacts it makes you a
37:44
cyborg
37:45
really yeah are you calling me a cyborg
37:48
now are you like labeling
37:50
do you have coffee oh yeah like
37:53
you're a cyborg look i don't know i'll
37:56
google it
37:57
cyborg definition okay listen it's
38:01
defined as a person whose physical
38:04
abilities are extended beyond normal
38:06
human limitations by the mechanical
38:08
elements built into the body
38:10
now technically it is built into your
38:14
body because it's inside
38:15
your body when you close your eyes like
38:17
it's literally inside your body yeah
38:19
yeah you're a cyborg or if you ever have
38:21
like a metal
38:22
a metal like plate put into your arm
38:24
after you broke it
38:28
this is the point that we're at this is
38:29
this holy [ __ ] it's fine
38:31
yo stay walk stay walk
38:34
we're totally forever i hijacked your
38:37
stream to talk about
38:38
that i learned that cyborgs are among us
38:42
it's okay premium content premium
38:58
i did have you ever taken a gender test
39:01
i've never taken a gender test
39:03
i've taken two two generations what
39:06
gender are you
39:07
yeah green the
39:10
green yeah it's been the whale uh
39:14
so the first one i think this it's on a
39:17
highlighter
39:21
oh yeah you can hear me because you've
39:22
got the poor void wireless headphones
39:26
uh i used to have them they're great
39:29
the but no the um i i did i did a gender
39:32
test for the first time
39:33
and it was just like this super short
39:35
one and then someone on twitter and i i
39:37
forget who it was linked me a
39:39
160 amp question one
39:42
like 160 question dsm iv related tests i
39:46
think it was made
39:48
so the asm the sm5 is like what we use
39:52
to diagnose them
39:53
yeah like body dysphoria or gender
39:55
dysphoria
39:56
well like it's that big part of it it's
39:58
like that's how you die you
39:59
it's like the it's like how it's this
40:03
psychiatric uh something or that i don't
40:05
know it's for
40:06
if there's diagnosing like mental
40:07
illnesses uh
40:09
he thinks such everything everything it
40:11
diagnoses anything to do with mental
40:13
health
40:14
um and the dsm4 is the last version of
40:17
it
40:17
i think it was based on the dsm4 they
40:19
mentioned it in the notes in the end
40:21
page
40:21
but it just it usually says just dsm but
40:24
my ver
40:24
my my version of it was that uh it was
40:27
the i
40:28
it's not reliable because it was based
40:29
on the dsm4 so i don't have to trust it
40:32
because the dsm-5 is the new one that's
40:34
a new like 20 years old
40:35
but um the patched version
40:40
[Applause]
40:42
exactly uh yeah no i think it gave me
40:45
the answer of like
40:47
i think it the exact answer was don't
40:49
judge me it was like
40:50
um transvestite that doesn't want to
40:54
commit to being
40:55
to going through a transition you're an
40:57
egg
40:58
that's that's basically egg right yeah i
41:01
know about it which sucks because that
41:03
was the meme on the channel and i was
41:04
like no i'm not an egg and then i did a
41:06
test for it
41:06
everything
41:10
oh god okay what's that but then
41:12
streaming does skew the results a lot
41:14
because it's like you answer no to
41:15
everything and then it's like have you
41:16
ever changed your body to look more like
41:18
the opposite sex
41:19
like yeah it was for the content
41:23
yeah it was really good it's like i
41:26
didn't think you get the exact play man
41:27
it'd be funny right if you like like
41:29
answered all of that stuff right and
41:31
then like the result came out
41:32
youtuber or some [ __ ]
41:38
it's just thank you yeah i think we need
41:41
to update it update it dsm six
41:43
let's go dsm flicks is gonna add in for
41:46
content
41:48
but what really [ __ ] me up about it
41:49
was that was my first excuse that i came
41:51
to
41:52
and then i read it and it was like at
41:54
least drag queen so clearly like
41:56
it you could have got the answer of a
41:58
drag queen which
41:59
if if you were following if like on if
42:02
on paper you wrote
42:03
everything i did you'd be like oh it's a
42:04
drag queen because like it's just for
42:06
like a performance right
42:07
content yeah but i could have got it and
42:10
i didn't
42:12
so what the [ __ ] blondie what the [ __ ]
42:14
is going on
42:19
i'm not an oh my god trust me i'm still
42:21
trying to i guess
42:22
i don't know if people say like you're
42:23
still trying to find yourself
42:25
right now maybe you're still trying to
42:27
find yourself i mean how long like in
42:28
terms of like years in terms of like how
42:30
long have you been
42:31
is this like like like a year or two
42:33
right i think that's fine
42:35
oh during this like yeah like like like
42:37
cross-dressing or like uh yeah
42:40
about just over a year like a year and a
42:41
half a year and a half i guess right
42:43
year and a half yeah just think of it
42:44
like a baby
42:44
you're a baby a year and a half right
42:46
you don't know what the [ __ ] you're
42:47
doing right you're just doing [ __ ] that
42:49
you know
42:50
your instincts you're following your
42:51
instincts and then like maybe like
42:53
when you're like like oh wait maybe i
42:55
like doing this
42:56
maybe it teaches you more about yourself
42:58
maybe it's maybe strictly for the
43:00
content maybe
43:01
it's something subconscious or like
43:03
innately within you
43:04
like like hey maybe i'd never like throw
43:06
this it's just a way of just me getting
43:07
it out
43:09
that was what i mean that was what i
43:10
mean with the whole like when when
43:11
people like they've
43:12
asked me a bunch and it got overwhelming
43:14
for a bit because like
43:15
i had that just immediately i was like
43:18
uh you got to figure this out
43:19
now oh man i've had a few moments like
43:24
that man
43:25
there that's weird it's your chat finn
43:27
has red claws
43:28
oh my god they're pointy as hell as well
43:31
these could hurt uh dsm dominant
43:34
submissive man
43:37
it's not that i hate that like we live
43:41
in
43:41
two different time zones and [ __ ]
43:44
yeah well one time that we're not in two
43:47
different times
43:49
yeah what wait where are you at in
43:50
america you are america right america
43:56
um yeah i mean yeah in america
44:00
like america like new york i live in new
44:02
york
44:04
uh okay brooklyn new york
44:11
you live in a more dangerous place than
44:12
me well i guess
44:14
america is i guess
44:18
we have guns illegally like there are
44:20
people who have guns here illegally
44:22
in this state same here same here okay
44:25
so
44:25
i guess my city is the highest for gun
44:29
crime and knife crime in the uk
44:31
no i think my crime we might be tied
44:33
with london because i'm in birmingham
44:35
birmingham
44:36
the highest hanging gun activity sorry
44:40
that makes it like sound so much worse
44:42
when you were doing that stream
44:43
like in a van in the background that
44:46
makes it sound so much
44:47
people were so worried about me oh my
44:50
god
44:52
i'm in my hometown this is my parents
44:54
house i've been here forever like i've
44:55
never lived anywhere else i know this
44:57
area like the back of my hand i feel
44:58
extremely safe here that's what i mean
45:00
like that's the first time i ever fell
45:02
inside
45:16
a lot of outfits and stuff like that um
45:19
yep okay i gotta ask you a question
45:21
though yeah
45:22
it's weird it's weirdly universal is it
45:25
do you don't do you do this in like just
45:27
free time for no reason just like unless
45:29
it's full or something
45:30
i mean for me uh
45:33
i would like i guess i could say i would
45:37
dream wise i guess you could say i would
45:39
like to my channel i like to like
45:41
sustain myself like doing stuff like
45:42
this but then i've been like
45:44
like doing a lot of research in terms of
45:45
like streaming like
45:47
it most likely shouldn't be your main
45:50
thing
45:51
because you need time to take a break
45:52
any time to like refresh you have to
45:54
like
45:54
work on other things like if you're
45:56
streaming like let's say 40 hours
45:58
uh a day a week a week
46:01
a day i don't think there are 40 hours
46:03
in a day yeah
46:04
um when you are in the third dimension
46:07
yeah
46:09
it gives you less time to like to work
46:12
on like
46:13
things that are interesting like oh here
46:14
i go i am coming
46:16
another day streaming uh
46:19
so i think it's great to like do it part
46:21
time like give people give yourself and
46:22
give people breathing room
46:24
to do it uh you know because
46:28
wow if you think about it like streaming
46:30
every every day and then like
46:31
you're thinking about like content or
46:33
like stuff like that that you got to do
46:35
you know well the weirdly enough
46:38
streaming was that for me
46:40
like it was like my escape from youtube
46:43
oh wow yeah wow like uh
46:47
we did like i think youtube's youtube's
46:50
something you can easily get
46:51
really in your head about and then i
46:54
kind of was like
46:55
[ __ ] it i'm going to do twitch for a bit
46:57
and just like just because i think i
46:58
wanted something i wanted to put content
47:00
out that i didn't have to care as much
47:01
about
47:02
so i could just like just play video
47:04
games and talk to people because
47:06
the best bit about like anything social
47:09
media
47:10
anything like doing as a job is you get
47:12
to talk to fans and twitch is like
47:14
the ultimate talk to people that don't
47:17
like you
47:19
yeah yeah to be real with you like uh
47:23
you know if you stay on youtube you like
47:26
st you know youtube if you think about
47:28
it like let youtube be your primary
47:29
thing twitch uh
47:30
it depends on how many people take it
47:32
some people can take it as jobs
47:34
so like oh i go on twitch i have to get
47:35
this certain amount i have to like get
47:37
this sub count i have to do this i have
47:39
to do that
47:39
right it is a lot it yeah it can be a
47:43
lot of stress
47:44
and then basically you're gonna think of
47:46
twitch as
47:47
a job that's something you probably may
47:49
not want
47:50
to do because you're already like doing
47:51
well on youtube right but i think twitch
47:54
is a great way to like really unwind and
47:56
like
47:57
like just chill which is definitely my
47:59
unwind thing it's like
48:01
it's not i wouldn't call it relaxing but
48:03
it's definitely like
48:04
it's like it's a hobby it's nice yeah
48:06
it's like uh it makes it it makes
48:09
i i genuinely don't know how much it
48:10
makes i've never really tallied it up
48:12
um i think that it's more just like
48:16
i think it's just like it's just fun to
48:18
be honest with you like
48:20
that that's how it should be that's how
48:22
it should be like hey i'm live insurance
48:23
today like if people want to hang out
48:25
they want to go drink they want to like
48:26
do something
48:27
chill that's a really fortunate place to
48:29
be in though right that's a privilege
48:33
the money doesn't matter i'm just gonna
48:34
do it because i mean that's the best
48:37
part as long as like
48:38
like you're i guess you could say
48:41
you would think of youtube like dude you
48:43
feel like more of it like work
48:44
i would probably most likely think that
48:46
because you edit your own videos right
48:48
i added my own no i don't i i have
48:50
editors editor oh
48:52
nice i have two editors for my main
48:55
channel
48:55
and then i edit the second channel
48:56
videos on my own which is why there's
48:58
only three on the second channel oh
49:04
two of them are on the main channel and
49:05
then there's one working for the
49:07
highlights channel they they do great by
49:10
the way i i pay them like
49:12
i think we and we're gonna end up doing
49:13
like they get a percentage of what the
49:15
videos make
49:16
because they just run the whole thing
49:17
they like they schedule uploads they do
49:19
ads they make the thumbnails they do the
49:20
ideas and they edit
49:21
that's great i feel like that's
49:22
something that i like i need but i've
49:24
just never really
49:25
like you know i told you before i'm like
49:27
very introverted like i don't know what
49:29
to do and people
49:30
offer help like i don't know you like
49:31
don't touch me yeah
49:34
well they were just doing it and they
49:35
were doing a good enough job at it that
49:37
i basically bought the channel off the
49:38
it's my content i could have just been
49:40
like
49:40
if i really wanted to i could just be
49:42
like no no content gets uploaded it gets
49:44
re-uploaded from my
49:45
[ __ ] from my videos but i think that
49:47
it's great that that you're able to like
49:49
work with people uh with that you know
49:51
it helps them it helps
49:52
you it helps you know the fans people
49:54
who want to follow you so it's all
49:56
not just a win-win situation the win win
49:58
win situation
50:00
it's great like the people that want
50:02
content good content the people making
50:03
it get paid
50:04
i also get i also get the exposure right
50:07
everyone wins you're able to live yeah
50:10
it's just that first like i think i'm
50:12
paying them like twenty dollars to edit
50:14
a video right now and they do everything
50:15
and that's that is by the way
50:17
nothing for what they for the amount of
50:19
work they put in which is why we're
50:20
gonna especially in america
50:22
but yeah i think that's great yeah what
50:23
you're talking about the percentage i
50:25
think like that's
50:26
really really good you know it's a
50:28
growing thing
50:29
what happened
50:33
with movement do you like the freedom of
50:34
movement that skirts off for you
50:36
i just it just took me off guys
50:41
how do you feel how do you feel when you
50:43
dress
50:44
when you dress up do you feel like you
50:46
feel like a little bit different
50:48
um yeah that oh that's so weird you feel
50:50
like
50:51
you change your like persona like oh
50:53
yeah
50:54
it's like a character i mean i'm not
50:56
like i'm not i don't think i'm like uh
50:58
i go into like girl mode but
51:01
there's definitely like there's
51:03
definitely a confidence that comes with
51:05
it because it's almost like a character
51:06
like i think i talked about it on stream
51:08
recently it was really weird thing that
51:10
popped up
51:10
it's like i realized i never take
51:12
pictures of myself that are good
51:13
like normally i've never there is no
51:16
photo of me online that exists where i
51:18
look good on purpose
51:20
it's all like [ __ ] that people have
51:21
taken from a screenshot from
51:23
i purposefully try and look bad because
51:25
i feel like it's cringe to try and look
51:27
good
51:29
but then complete flip i try and look as
51:31
best as i can when i'm when uh when i do
51:34
all of that i think it's because i put
51:35
work into it you know
51:37
i think like like a way that you think
51:39
about that like hey you're trying to
51:41
like
51:41
uh be you're trying to like like hey
51:45
like if
51:46
if i was like fina or like i don't know
51:50
then yeah you obviously want to like
51:52
look at your best i guess you're like
51:54
you're subconsciously putting like maybe
51:56
like what girls think
51:58
like what they think about yeah maybe
52:01
maybe i don't know it always just felt
52:02
it feels like a bit of a character
52:04
um so it's really easy to just kind of
52:07
pretend to be someone else it's fun
52:09
yeah it's like improv like okay like
52:11
let's say like you're a girl and then
52:13
you're like
52:13
walking in birmingham and then like a
52:16
van pulls up right
52:18
and you're like thinking oh and do i
52:20
want to get picked up by them
52:26
i wasn't picked up in the van therefore
52:29
i need to like
52:30
upgrade my how i look so i can get
52:33
picked up
52:34
be like what's happening i'll look good
52:37
enough to be kidnapped maybe one day
52:39
maybe one day maybe one day i'll get
52:41
free subs or free candy from them
52:45
when i was rejected by those kidnappers
52:47
you'd never feel the pain that i felt
52:50
oh man
52:53
i had the i had hair extensions put in
52:57
yeah because my dad does my dad actually
52:59
for a living does like hair replacement
53:02
and he's been doing that for decades so
53:04
um
53:05
i was so i think we had a i had a sub
53:07
goal i was like fine i'll get extensions
53:09
and then we hit the goal and i was i
53:11
remember texting him and i was like hey
53:13
hypothetically
53:16
hypothetically if i hit a sub goal and
53:19
it was like a lot of money i think it
53:21
was like
53:22
uh i think it was like a thousand subs
53:24
it's like two and a half grand
53:26
hypothetically if if someone
53:30
has donated that amount of money would
53:34
would you know where to get hair
53:35
extensions and
53:37
make them look good and he went hell
53:39
yeah because he's great
53:40
uh he wouldn't hell yeah i've got a look
53:42
in mind i'll talk to you in the morning
53:45
and we did it first of all i'm happy to
53:47
hear that you're
53:48
you know your dad is able to like you
53:49
know do that for you
53:51
oh yeah again i'm very lucky i got like
53:54
a perfect
54:01
that's great and i think like it it
54:04
speaks volumes
54:05
i guess that's why there are people who
54:07
like look at you and they're like wow
54:08
like this is someone to like
54:12
you know look up they're like really
54:14
[ __ ] with and like you know
54:16
i didn't think i don't know whether
54:18
that's a good thing yeah
54:20
like it's very strange you ever had like
54:22
uh
54:23
like like uh subs or followers or like
54:25
commenters who are like
54:26
wow you're a real inspiration and it's
54:29
something that you may not really
54:31
like what what what am i exactly
54:33
inspiring
54:34
what exactly am i inspiring like dude
54:37
let me let me be honest with you real
54:38
quick we're gonna have a bit of a
54:39
therapy session right now let's go
54:41
that's gonna be what you're gonna be
54:42
like dr k
54:44
yeah hold on no no i'm you're gonna be
54:46
the doctor okay i'm gonna prevent
54:47
you from [ __ ] hold on how are you
54:49
feeling
55:04
you need like an armchair like a really
55:06
old armchair
55:09
how are you feeling
55:12
okay okay uh i think the the the weird
55:15
thing with the
55:16
with comments like that right it's kind
55:18
of [ __ ] me up a bit because
55:20
if you don't like on youtube it's always
55:22
like a thing of if you get hate comments
55:24
like you're gonna get hate comments you
55:26
just are it doesn't matter what you're
55:27
doing
55:27
you i make minecraft videos i get hate
55:29
comments stupid but either way
55:31
you're gonna get them you need to learn
55:32
how to ignore them but it comes with
55:34
ignoring all the compliments as well a
55:36
little bit
55:37
not ignoring them in terms of pretending
55:38
they don't exist but like they kind of
55:40
go in one ear out the other
55:42
and i was having it i i think i talked
55:44
to a couple of my friends but i talked
55:45
to murray
55:46
about this [ __ ] before it was like um
55:49
i've i've said how like i don't i can't
55:52
do compliments anymore i just don't
55:54
i don't know how to compliment people
55:56
and they don't they go in one ear out
55:57
the other to me like someone
55:59
like my friend my friend messaged me
56:01
yesterday let me find this message
56:03
uh he which he literally said like
56:09
he messaged my a yeah he messed me a
56:11
love heart he's like oh
56:12
he said finn he's this is a guy as well
56:14
straight guy this is a friend of mine
56:17
and he's another youtuber he goes finn i
56:18
love you people don't realize how much
56:20
of a great individual you are i was like
56:22
how the i don't know
56:23
i was like hey thanks respond to that
56:27
it's such a heartfelt thing and it's
56:29
like i can't i can't deal with it i
56:31
don't get it
56:32
okay so let me tell you what you're
56:33
feeling right now in
56:35
america we can call it economics like
56:37
when it comes when people applaud you
56:39
for so many things
56:41
uh it feels great the first time but
56:43
then again you're getting it
56:44
so so much to a point where you're not
56:47
able to reply to all of these people
56:49
like you know to like really give you
56:51
know your thoughts you like like
56:54
your complete thoughts about it which is
56:57
fine as long as they're able to
57:00
like understand that that
57:04
if once they said it to you and once you
57:05
hear it it's
57:07
fine like i think the only people who
57:09
would get upset at that
57:10
are people who technically just want
57:12
your attention all the time hey if i say
57:14
something nice to you all the time
57:16
right then maybe you'll maybe senpai
57:19
will notice me
57:21
getting traded yeah maybe they'll notice
57:23
you
57:24
you know so basically like okay you say
57:26
like oh thanks right you know
57:28
like the people who like really [ __ ]
57:30
with you understand that you're busy
57:32
that
57:32
you you have a lot of people to reply to
57:35
if
57:35
someone pretty much took replies to you
57:38
and says
57:38
that uh oh i sent you a message how come
57:42
you didn't reply to me
57:43
then that person has an ulterior
57:46
ultimate
57:46
ulterior motive an ulterior motive
57:49
that's like oh i want to be friend or
57:50
maybe they are standing
57:51
so i think you're dealing with it
57:53
correctly
57:55
uh you're doing you're doing completely
57:57
fine i think the only thing that you
57:58
have to get over
57:59
is that it's normal we all want to try
58:03
and be nice people we all want to give
58:05
our time to like
58:06
every single comment that gets posted
58:08
however
58:09
we also have our own you know we can't
58:12
give 100
58:14
or at least five percent to everyone or
58:16
else we have no percentage
58:17
for ourselves so i feel like
58:21
when you think about it uh and uh
58:26
go at it at your own pace people who
58:29
love you
58:29
for what you do they can send a message
58:32
if you
58:34
can if you see it and you reply that's
58:36
great if
58:37
you see it and you're unable maybe you
58:39
have other personal things that you have
58:40
to deal with
58:41
right that's completely fine as well
58:44
because you're focusing on creating the
58:47
content that they enjoy
58:48
and that that they come back to
58:53
that's a good therapy set yeah thank you
58:56
thank you for
58:57
calling me a good therapist just don't
58:59
put the space
59:00
between the e and the t in therapist
59:10
so yeah i feel like that's i've dealt
59:12
with that before
59:13
too like oh my god this part like they
59:15
really really care and
59:17
the thing if i feel like i have like a
59:19
little bit of time i will do my best
59:20
like if you had like a lot of time
59:24
don't feel bad about it because
59:28
because you're doing your best and they
59:29
see that you're doing your best when
59:31
you provide when you provide that
59:33
content
59:35
i've been reading your chat your chat's
59:37
got a good uh
59:39
first of all uh trample of 11 great name
59:42
agrees with your uh dr blondy's phd
59:46
theories but like someone just someone
59:49
said like uh
59:50
it's just called getting like someone
59:52
just says you're getting jaded
59:54
and i was like i googled the word
59:55
because i was like oh yeah that's what
59:57
that is
59:58
that's i'm getting jaded like
60:00
compliments mean nothing to me anymore
60:01
there's no enthusiasm in it
60:03
i feel like it's i also it's it's even
60:06
like a uh instead of like a
60:07
oh you can't reply to all of them it's
60:10
also
60:11
weirdly enough like i don't know how to
60:14
i've forgotten how to compliment but at
60:15
least i don't see a
60:17
great way in it maybe it's just like i
60:18
think it's just a personality type
60:20
like uh you know like you have those
60:21
friends that you're like oh my god
60:23
you're professor
60:24
uh you're really really phd
60:27
it's like yeah uh you know like when you
60:30
uh
60:31
when you've got that friendship where
60:32
it's basically you insult each other
60:34
i love those i love that's the best
60:36
those are like my favorite finn
60:38
[ __ ] you oh yeah
60:42
those are all my friendships they're
60:44
great um
60:46
i don't know if that's weird or not i'm
60:48
glad that you because they it's probably
60:49
normal but yeah
60:50
i think there's people there it's
60:52
definitely a weird personality clash
60:54
when you find people that
60:56
don't get that you know um
61:01
i i agree with you i agree with you i
61:04
feel like
61:06
the reasons like when you're close with
61:09
friends
61:09
you know and you're comfortable with
61:10
them and they're comfortable you
61:12
you know they know what type of person
61:14
you are and you're able to make jobs
61:16
that's
61:16
sort of the best because you know why
61:18
when they make those jokes right
61:19
sometimes it's not for themselves
61:21
sometimes it's just for the whole
61:23
atmosphere around them about like hey
61:26
[ __ ] you like i [ __ ] hate you i love
61:28
you at the same time like
61:31
those are just like the best moments
61:32
like when i talk to like everyone in
61:34
chat right if i make fun of you that
61:36
means i
61:36
really [ __ ] with you like yeah you know
61:39
it's like a level of comfortableness
61:41
it's like yeah because
61:43
it's like it's it's to me it's like kind
61:44
of saying like i'm so comfortable
61:47
with you that i know you're not going to
61:48
be upset by this because it's a
61:50
because you know you know like it's a
61:52
yeah yeah it's like i don't know brother
61:54
brotherhood sisterhood it's you know
61:57
it's having a good time you stay for the
61:59
good time and like
62:00
yeah like you know i have a friend who
62:02
does that as well we
62:03
[ __ ] on each other all the time we show
62:04
each other all the time right but we
62:06
love each other like
62:08
we love each other you know that's like
62:10
the best relationship because you know
62:11
we tease each other but then you know
62:13
what's very ironic is that you're you're
62:15
if you say that to a regular person
62:17
they're gonna
62:17
probably get mad crying like [ __ ] you up
62:19
right
62:20
yes but if you say like your best friend
62:23
right they know that it's a joke
62:24
you know like really yeah there's a
62:26
reason why small fork isn't consisting
62:28
of insults it's like
62:29
trying to be very nice and then
62:31
gradually when you
62:33
top of the morning to you
62:36
it's just the first time you met someone
62:40
i mean like what did they talk about
62:41
like it's brick ice you've got to get
62:42
like a feel for people
62:44
physically mentally right definitely
62:47
there's like a
62:48
there's like yeah you got to get to a
62:50
level of understanding their personality
62:52
before you can like
62:53
[ __ ] with them a bit until you can mess
62:56
with them
62:56
yeah and i think that's like
62:58
relationship wise
63:00
yeah you've got to learn what really
63:02
hurts them and then use that
63:04
oh my god that's like you
63:07
you just find their personal traumas
63:11
as long as you don't put it out on blast
63:13
for like youtube
63:15
them especially for youtube
63:18
oh my god i feel like
63:21
okay i feel like i'm getting
63:24
some sense of uh you've had this
63:28
with your youtube with other people
63:30
you've worked with on youtube
63:35
how do you feel about them oh have
63:37
someone troll you on youtube and then
63:38
you feel like that you're friends but
63:40
then
63:41
maybe there's something that they've
63:42
overstepped it but you're playing it
63:44
well just so it doesn't create any
63:49
no i feel like i'm that guy
63:52
you're the person okay so you're the
63:54
offender
63:55
i am definitely the opponent because
63:57
i've definitely made i've definitely
63:58
done that sort of make jokes where i
64:00
like push it a bit too far
64:02
i made it the first time i met the first
64:04
time at like
64:05
my uh my friend did youtube called
64:07
skeppy it's called zack i'll call him
64:08
zach it's easier for conversation the
64:10
first time i've met zach in america
64:12
we've been friends for like a year at
64:13
this point we talked
64:15
all we talked all the time we've done
64:17
videos together we're very comfortable
64:19
with each other
64:20
however zack is five foot seven
64:23
i am five foot eleven i took the piss
64:27
it's the first thing i said to him when
64:29
we met him at the airport
64:31
i was sitting on my luggage and as soon
64:33
as i first saw him he was like oh hey
64:34
finn i was like oh hey zach
64:37
i'm about your height now while i was
64:38
sitting down
64:40
and he didn't like that one bit
64:43
oh my god it was like even as a
64:46
he like did like people oh no he didn't
64:48
like it
64:51
but it sounds very funny to me
64:55
maybe in america right
64:58
like some people can get very very
65:02
uh sensitive about their height their
65:05
height because
65:06
they feel like only like like when it
65:09
comes to like
65:09
the women in america they tend to take
65:13
taller
65:16
and they i mean that's my the best
65:25
he's by the way it's worth noting he's
65:27
got everything going for him though as
65:28
well like he's like
65:30
he's rich and he's actually really like
65:33
attractive too
65:34
like he's a he's like he's a good
65:35
looking guy he's physically fit he's got
65:38
a good he's got a good
65:39
face you know i took the piss out of his
65:41
eyebrows i will admit that
65:43
because you got a poke floor you got to
65:44
poke i can't exactly poke
65:46
yourself
65:50
[Laughter]
65:54
that's what it is uh no i think it's
65:57
just like a
65:57
it's a friendship thing every bit like
65:59
you kind of like i like pushing it a
66:01
little bit no i think not i think that's
66:02
that's definitely great
66:04
like like you you've established
66:06
yourself in terms of like when it comes
66:07
to like
66:08
real true friendships you're able to
66:10
like make fun of
66:11
you know whether it be qualities or
66:13
things about you right
66:15
it just depends on like hey how far i
66:18
can
66:18
go i think you have like a great
66:20
relationship uh with them
66:22
in terms of like uh you know creating
66:24
content you know when it comes to that
66:26
specific friendship
66:27
a lot of it comes from content and then
66:30
i don't know maybe there's a possibility
66:32
that they may have been expecting more
66:35
or maybe more like
66:40
i mean that's one way to look at it in
66:44
my eyes using friendships as that
66:47
it's perfectly understandable do you
66:49
feel like that they
66:51
uh exhibit that like they understand
66:54
definitely like that's
66:55
definitely like every again i think the
66:57
people that i i
66:58
end up hanging out with they're the
66:59
people that like you can poke funny like
67:02
they're very confident and i think it
67:03
comes from like
67:04
being fairly confident in yourself to be
67:07
able to like
67:08
in the same like you can take it you can
67:10
take a playful insult because you know
67:12
it's not going to affect you
67:14
you know and especially with youtubers
67:17
because
67:17
i mean we're used to people kind of just
67:19
shutting us up [ __ ] on us just in
67:21
comments or whatever so it's like an
67:22
insult doesn't mean
67:23
as much maybe maybe it's partly to do
67:26
with that but i guess
67:39
maybe there's a subconscious meaning
67:41
that's
67:42
like hey i'm taller than you hey
67:45
hey i'm talking i'm your same height
67:47
right if you
67:48
came in crosstalk then maybe it would
67:51
have been a different story like
67:53
oh no i would have been in heels that
67:54
have been a lot taller
67:58
maybe they should have been inhaled
68:01
maybe
68:03
thank you for that and so i'm going to
68:04
use that
68:08
no i like i love the dynamic you know i
68:10
feel like it's fun because you know i
68:11
have people who i make fun of
68:12
and they really focus me sometimes like
68:14
they get to my skin right but at the end
68:16
of the day i know they're not doing it
68:17
to
68:18
you know to like put me down they're
68:20
doing it like hey
68:21
no it's sort of like you go to a pub and
68:23
then like you know you
68:25
you drink and you got someone who's like
68:28
busting your balls but then you know
68:29
they don't really they're good people
68:33
they're good people they're people who
68:34
wouldn't want to
68:37
for like wish anything negative upon you
68:42
you should do you should do a therapy
68:43
sessions with chat one day
68:45
get them to tell you their problems
68:46
people diagnosed or
68:48
help them i've definitely done that
68:51
before but you know i'm no expert in it
68:53
and i don't want to be responsible
68:54
if they do something crazy who's that
68:58
they told me to do it look look at the
69:00
stream
69:00
[Music]
69:02
ability so i mean like have a little
69:04
practice in the bottom corners like i'm
69:06
not responsible for
69:07
what i'm saying i'm not a trained
69:09
perspective i'm just [ __ ] around
69:11
yeah i'm not under influence so you
69:13
can't you can't
69:15
take everything that i say
69:19
how do you do it with the uh so once
69:21
someone asked me
69:22
if someone has something in chat
69:26
yes i got finn to work for me today yes
69:31
no they just reminded me of something uh
69:33
how do you deal with um
69:35
how do you have do you deal with a lot
69:37
of the people that like
69:39
the creepy people no no anyone no one in
69:41
chat was creepy
69:42
i'm not saying that but yeah i mean like
69:44
it's all reminded me of it
69:46
um creepy people i mean like like like
69:49
okay
69:50
what's your definition of creepy or like
69:52
like let's say like what
69:53
makes you uh call them oh look like let
69:56
me
69:57
our guy immediately pop to mine let me
69:59
find it uh discord dms
70:01
um [ __ ] what was his name
70:05
it was like basically i got a dm that i
70:08
wish i could
70:09
i don't think i should read word for
70:11
word out loud um
70:13
if if it has like not safe words uh then
70:16
it's completely fine
70:17
i guess the only the only thing that i
70:19
would probably ask is just to
70:21
uh do not disclose the person's name but
70:23
feel free feel free if you want to read
70:25
it word for word
70:25
no i've done a lot of i've done a lot of
70:28
quote unquote
70:30
silver lining questionable things over
70:31
here a lot of it is
70:33
uh can be seen in the clip section
70:37
so if you want to push boundaries then
70:39
yeah i give you permission
70:41
that's it it's nothing to nothing too
70:43
bad but i'm used to being on a bunch of
70:44
pg streams
70:45
the minecraft youtuber oh no no it's
70:48
fine i understand where you're coming
70:49
from but
70:49
uh please feel free to make yourself
70:53
comfortable don't think about the
70:54
content creation about my stream if you
70:57
get me back
70:58
i'll just have to be like wow i'm really
70:59
good friends friends with finn
71:01
you must really like me a lot for me to
71:03
get banned onto it
71:06
that's a joke i like i really committed
71:08
to this where like we already
71:09
we already talked about the you're
71:11
wearing contacts but you've still got
71:13
glasses on
71:18
[ __ ] uh like there's this guy in my
71:20
dms i was streaming um
71:22
every time it's the weirdest thing in
71:24
like it's happened like three streams
71:25
now
71:26
but you know when you're streaming it's
71:27
like going discord goes into stream mode
71:29
and you can't hear any notifications if
71:30
someone calls you blah blah
71:33
there's been i've got two people in mind
71:35
i'll give you both because the other
71:36
one's a great story but um
71:38
okay this guy like this guy dms me
71:41
after like after the last stream after
71:43
other streams every time i'm dressed up
71:45
it's like
71:45
oh i wish you were doing this to me
71:47
right now like i wish you would
71:49
i would oh man it's the creepy if you
71:52
want to like
71:53
read it and i it if if
71:56
i if i say stop i'll give you my safe
71:58
word
72:01
i am trying to fight i'm trying to find
72:03
out dms in the meantime
72:07
i'm just going to go to the league right
72:09
now because i have like so much stuff
72:11
i'm going to grab like i guess my last
72:12
beer
72:14
last beer uh but yeah but we will
72:17
do that we'll do that uh if you want you
72:20
can feel free to entertain chat do
72:21
whatever you like since i'm not going to
72:22
be in this room
72:23
you know i won't be long i promise you
72:25
for two minutes
72:27
i just got to leave i'm trying i will
72:29
attempt i'll leave this position
72:32
all right now like she's gone i can ruin
72:34
the stream
72:36
god i don't know your pronoun by the way
72:38
i don't know where it's called you're
72:38
here or she
72:41
dude wait what i don't i i genuinely i
72:43
don't think we've ever had this
72:44
conversation i don't know what to call
72:45
you
72:48
although i don't actually think you care
72:49
that much
72:56
i can hear you playing christmas
73:06
that's great i'm glad i'm a part of this
73:11
this is just
73:34
you know what yeah you're right okay i'm
73:38
gonna go through i think i've got a good
73:39
way of finding this i think i took a
73:41
screenshot of it i'm gonna
73:46
this is just [ __ ] man oh i'm just stupid
74:01
did you
74:05
are you currently i'd i
74:08
uh-huh
74:11
oh okay exactly so making sure to get
74:14
rid of all the corona
74:17
i i just i swear to god i think this guy
74:20
might have deleted this discord but i've
74:21
got a screenshot for him
74:23
i've got a screenshot from our first and
74:25
second dms
74:27
so he he messaged me going
74:30
yeah that's i can't search him on
74:32
discord anymore it's so annoying
74:34
he uh he must have been going um just
74:37
sort of like
74:37
while i was streaming he goes i'm
74:42
because by the way it's important to
74:44
know his profile photo is him shirtless
74:47
uh he goes yeah he goes [ __ ] you look so
74:50
good right now winky face
74:52
and then new message so clearly there's
74:54
you know when a new message happens it's
74:55
like
74:56
there's been a waiting time oh anyway so
74:58
make something about that adds to it
75:00
because never stop dressing up as a girl
75:02
lick your lips for me
75:04
uh and then new message that was a new
75:06
message another new message can't wait
75:08
to see you in that bikini
75:10
god i want you to suck me out uh
75:15
new message god i wish you were sucking
75:17
me off right now and then i reply
75:18
wow that's hot because i'm hilarious
75:20
okay
75:22
i like how you're you know but hey
75:24
there's a meaning behind that
75:26
i think like it's how do you feel how do
75:28
you feel like when you receive these
75:29
messages
75:31
oh that one that one was very strange
75:33
it's worth noting that's like the one
75:35
out of a thousand messages like that's
75:37
not a
75:37
super common thing i think the more
75:40
common thing is just like
75:42
uh i just get guys just like
75:45
i mean it's not really even creepy but
75:46
like just people expressing interest in
75:48
me
75:49
or whatever and i'm just i'm i'm not
75:50
really i'm not into i'm number one i'm
75:52
not into editing number two not even
75:54
yeah dating guy i think i'm not into
75:56
guys so it's kind of like an
75:58
instant reject on all fronts no i think
76:00
that that's like you know where you
76:01
stand which is great
76:02
you know i feel like when you like do
76:04
things like that you know you're you're
76:06
also thinking about yourself you're not
76:07
really thinking about
76:09
hey if you can catfish them or you can
76:11
like string them along for like a really
76:13
really long time so that's
76:14
really really great you know some people
76:16
are like that some people are like that
76:18
like hey they'll talk to people like oh
76:20
yeah you know they'll like they'll do
76:21
like the full thing and string them
76:23
along for like a very long time
76:24
to like milk them for like what they are
76:27
you know
76:28
that's why like it's great it's great
76:29
that you have youtube youtube is
76:31
something that
76:32
where you know you you're if i can
76:35
assume like living decently off
76:37
of right and then like twitch is like
76:40
something that's fun like for me when i
76:41
did like my stuff right a lot of it yeah
76:44
really started from comedy but then as
76:47
i like continue to do this right i
76:49
happen to get
76:50
a lot of a lot of uh provocative dms
76:54
or like messages like stuff that i never
76:57
thought that i would like to receive
76:58
before like wow
76:59
this is how it feels to become a girl
77:02
you know yeah that's weird right
77:05
that's a whole other thing that was a
77:08
whole other thing
77:09
you know when you let you first like
77:11
have the weird switch
77:13
dude ever okay that was oh man okay
77:16
it was such a weird thing i talked about
77:18
it for a while when it was first
77:19
when it was first getting popular on my
77:21
channel but like you know when you just
77:23
like guys get no compliments you get
77:25
like a compliment a year that's what
77:27
you're allocated to
77:28
someone says like your hair's your hair
77:30
or your shirt's nice and then you'll
77:32
remember that for the rest of your life
77:33
you'll remember that that's what you
77:34
think about on your deathbed that one
77:35
compliment you got 20 years ago
77:37
as a guy however yeah you have to filter
77:41
out like which one which comment
77:42
compliment like the best when you're not
77:44
that bad what are you like yeah out of
77:46
all ten that you've got
77:47
uh i don't know you don't get like
77:50
random compliments on your parents like
77:51
no one there's no girl stuffing you on
77:53
the street going hey
77:54
hey babe you look great that doesn't
77:56
happen anyway
77:58
but uh well i mean okay maybe it does
78:01
for like
78:02
models i don't know uh maybe it does for
78:05
attractive people i'm not sure
78:07
the uh but as soon as like uh the the
78:10
goal thing
78:11
when i started to do that and it got
78:12
popular it gets so
78:14
many compliments and it's weird it's so
78:17
strange it's such a weird
78:18
switch from immediately just like people
78:20
complimenting on your own looks
78:22
like the best compliments i got were
78:23
like oh man your videos are really funny
78:25
i got that all the time which was always
78:27
great but like dude no one's ever talked
78:29
about my appearance before
78:30
ever and then immediately just like oh
78:32
[ __ ] you look so hot and that's
78:34
that was and it was that was so weird to
78:36
deal with
78:37
you've done this really yeah look like
78:38
yeah i ain't gonna find like
78:41
to be honest it's it's definitely true
78:44
it's definitely true that you know when
78:46
you do cross play crosstalks and you're
78:47
able to i don't know password like very
78:49
attractive you will get compliments like
78:51
that you will like it's just
78:53
something that happens it's like i don't
78:56
know i don't know
78:56
it wasn't like that thing it was
78:57
flattering it almost was too big of an
78:59
ego
79:01
it is the thing that you can't get you
79:03
can't completely get trapped
79:04
quote-unquote trapped like within that
79:06
because then it can morph
79:08
you like i've seen some people like
79:11
oh they get so many compliments it may
79:12
get to their head to a point where
79:14
they may uh explore other avenues
79:20
like an only fans account
79:23
or something that's the people that
79:25
judge things
79:26
uh without analyzing them see i think
79:29
the
79:30
they don't fairness it does really help
79:31
to have like at least a little bit of an
79:33
analytical sense of like
79:34
well if you were going to go and do this
79:36
how much money would you make is it
79:37
worth the career like
79:38
you're probably going to lose like if i
79:40
didn't only fancy let's say i
79:42
let's say i just [ __ ] lost it and i
79:44
did an only fan
79:46
that was like and only fans you know not
79:48
some like pg mimi one like an actual
79:50
only fantasy
79:51
it would probably cost me more in every
79:53
other part of the career than the only
79:55
fans would make
79:56
so i it makes no fun i agree with that
79:59
i i completely agree with that because
80:01
you know you you've built an audience
80:03
you have you've built
80:04
something that people are accustomed to
80:06
like seeing you do
80:08
like sort of like let's say like when an
80:10
actor like
80:11
they get big roles they're not for being
80:13
an actor but then they create
80:15
group or like they create a company that
80:17
can when they [ __ ] it
80:18
all up and then like from that point it
80:20
brings down their style
80:22
you know yeah it's good now ever now no
80:25
one can look gwyneth paltrow yeah
80:26
seriously nothing's like really taken
80:28
care of you made the smell of my orgasm
80:31
is a candle yeah
80:33
oh jesus i'm gonna buy it one day
80:38
i've got enough yeah this is also this
80:41
is what like you're like thinking about
80:43
like like maybe we'll think about like
80:44
oh forever everyone like buys like that
80:46
specific handle right like wow
80:48
so this is like whatever
80:55
yeah [ __ ] i don't know yeah the thing
80:57
with like getting a bunch of compliments
80:59
like
81:00
you the scariest part about that and
81:03
this is something i
81:04
think i think about frequently another
81:06
therapist moment here
81:07
but i mean well if yes enough but
81:10
the it's something i think about every
81:12
now and then it's like you'd never know
81:14
right you'd never know if it's affecting
81:16
you
81:17
oh because like you wouldn't
81:20
because that's the whole point because
81:22
if you knew then you'd stop being a dick
81:24
but if you'd
81:25
no dicks know their dicks like
81:28
no one being a dick is like going yes
81:31
i'm being a bad person right now that's
81:32
just what their
81:33
sense of okay is i would never [ __ ]
81:36
know if i was being a dick
81:38
that's the wit that's the most worries
81:40
because like
81:41
i like i don't know yeah but yeah you
81:44
like to think about it think about it
81:45
like
81:46
what makes you feel that you're a dick
81:47
like like do you feel like you're
81:48
publicly
81:49
like like swayed by uh your comments or
81:52
your thing like
81:54
that's one thing this is the i'll talk
81:57
i'll talk you through my mindset and on
82:00
how it's worrying to me
82:01
right because i don't like the i don't
82:03
like the whole thing of like you're
82:04
changing in a bad way like
82:06
yeah so however
82:09
because of that whole like everything
82:10
you've got to kind of make
82:13
the the influx of messages like
82:16
and like views and stuff like that
82:17
you've got to make that okay you've got
82:19
to make that sit right in your mind
82:21
and that's why people get like an
82:22
inflated ego because they're like yep
82:24
this is
82:24
this is the normal sense everyone
82:26
looking up to me this is normal
82:28
and that's my that's my baseline so
82:31
the reason why i fight and that's that's
82:33
kind of half how you have to be or it's
82:35
going to [ __ ] you up
82:36
um because like you can't constantly be
82:39
be feeling
82:40
overwhelmingly happy that a hundred
82:42
hundreds of thousands of people are
82:43
watching you
82:44
or you it's gonna [ __ ] you up and you
82:46
also can't be like
82:47
constantly receptive of all like the
82:49
negative comments as well because it
82:51
will [ __ ] you up
82:52
so that's how you got to level it out i
82:54
think what
82:55
when it comes to that look like i mean
82:57
like when
82:58
it comes to that receiving the positive
83:00
and negative things right
83:01
you know like this is in the sense like
83:03
you know when you hear people say be
83:04
yourself
83:04
do what you do right you hear that i'm
83:06
pretty sure you get that all the time
83:07
right
83:08
and when you think about it right you
83:11
have brought yourself to this point you
83:14
brought yourself to this point you're
83:15
already known for doing what you
83:16
normally do and it's working right
83:19
the positive and negative comments you
83:21
know like whether
83:22
like you know they're all they'll always
83:23
grow they always grow but you are
83:25
yourself growing so you just have to
83:27
completely just continue to do
83:29
what you do yeah it's good to take fan
83:31
uh opinions
83:32
to take it's good to take criticism or
83:34
hater insult opinions
83:36
as well right but you're already on
83:39
maybe nothing would really need to
83:40
change
83:40
i think the thing that's uh maybe
83:43
affecting you right
83:44
uh may be that you're starting to
83:49
you're starting to care more you're
83:51
starting to care more about
83:53
you know the whole fan the whole thing
83:55
because you want to be
83:56
able to take this as far as you can but
83:59
you're already doing stuff that's
84:00
already great and
84:01
you don't you're not seeing any
84:02
different bling point right now you're
84:04
not you're not seeing anything like that
84:06
i would
84:06
assume no i think it's more like uh
84:10
i think it's more just like the whole
84:12
thing if you wouldn't really
84:13
understand if you were because um have
84:16
you ever had a
84:17
as a youtuber or something you kind of
84:18
like you have the sense of like
84:20
well i've only got x amount of
84:22
subscribers i can't go and message
84:24
someone with
84:26
[ __ ] five times the subscriber's
84:27
account it's just not like you're not on
84:29
the
84:30
oh wow it's sort of like me and you
84:34
yeah exactly i'd never talk to someone
84:35
like you uh this is a one-time
84:37
thing i'll be taking my check in the
84:39
mail for this appearance okay how much
84:40
was that again
84:41
wait
84:52
that's a really [ __ ] up version of the
84:54
[ __ ] corner
84:55
of like the pizza guy i don't i can't
84:57
pay for this
84:59
it's just some weird stuff
85:02
let's make the [ __ ] up our dynamic
85:04
version of that that's a great idea oh
85:06
my god
85:06
yeah there's no pepperoni i got the
85:09
pepperoni right here
85:24
i apologize i apologize for like keeping
85:25
you up
85:27
no you're not i was editing anyway yeah
85:30
don't worry
85:30
um i'm i have the worst sleep schedule
85:33
anyway
85:34
that in the same way that like you
85:37
wouldn't go and mess it as a youtuber
85:38
you wouldn't go message someone higher
85:39
up on the scale than you
85:40
you also look down on people but and i
85:44
i will admit to this there's a certain
85:46
level of like
85:47
even i do this where like someone will
85:49
tweet me or follow me and i check there
85:51
like someone will tweet me something and
85:53
the level of importance it's gauged on
85:56
is how many likes it gets
85:57
okay i know that's [ __ ] up but that's
85:59
just kind of how it works
86:01
it's like social media i don't know it's
86:03
it's i i understand
86:04
i completely understand that you know
86:06
like it's not a bit [ __ ]
86:07
isn't that like a little bit messed up
86:09
like that it sounds vain it sounds like
86:11
you know like it's like
86:12
company type stuff like first of all
86:14
like you know i'm appreciative that
86:16
you're able to like
86:17
come and like you know speak with me
86:19
speak with me because like you know i
86:21
like i'm like i don't know probably like
86:23
washed up or whatever like
86:25
you know like if anything if i were to
86:27
ask if i were to ask like
86:30
what made like you did well i mean i
86:33
know of you because
86:34
uh i mean i've watched your content
86:36
before and it's like it's you were like
86:38
doing what i do but before me
86:40
so obviously i knew about i knew about
86:42
you right and then i think we met on a
86:44
on a different discord
86:45
oh that was my oldest word that was my
86:47
oldest score but then i couldn't handle
86:49
the pressure from this
86:51
and then i remember i remember our first
86:52
encounter right and then basically it
86:54
was something along
86:55
lines i was talking with someone else
86:57
about like ring lights or like like
86:58
something about
86:59
yeah camera setup yeah
87:06
but then that's and then that's home and
87:08
i i knew your name um
87:10
because of that like i saw that i saw
87:12
the voice tutorial
87:13
obviously didn't understand still can't
87:14
do it bad voice tutorial
87:18
just didn't didn't like it okay maybe we
87:20
can have a different session
87:21
on voices thank you you can teach me
87:25
i will do my best that i'm relying on
87:28
you know
87:29
you've already signed up
87:45
just like three minutes yeah that's nats
87:48
is really simple
87:48
i mean it's even quicker when he's
87:50
explaining it to you so the reason i was
87:52
i asked him about it was like right
87:53
here's all you gotta do watch mean girls
87:56
do their voice until it works
87:58
and that was nat's whole thing uh his
88:01
his
88:01
the best i think his advice was like do
88:04
a really stereotypical gay voice
88:06
and then change the pitch like you got
88:08
to get the gay voice
88:10
down because that's like the way you say
88:13
words like there's like two things
88:14
there's the pitch and the way
88:15
gay voices with finn but that's already
88:17
okay i'm not gonna do it
88:21
but yeah uh he's like the way the way he
88:23
put it is like you gotta do try and do a
88:25
james charles
88:26
impression
88:32
here's why i can't do that though is
88:35
because
88:36
uh number one i'm living with parents
88:37
and i don't want to be going around the
88:38
house in a high-pitched voice that
88:40
doesn't sound very good
88:41
number two uh the
88:44
wait what the [ __ ] was that about oh
88:45
yeah the reason why i can't do the
88:47
complex right
88:48
number two it's like there's i can't
88:51
physically practice it
88:52
and also because i'm british if you
88:55
imagine
88:56
my girl voice is relying on a valley
88:58
girl accent
88:59
it's not going to sound good at all so i
89:02
can't really do it
89:04
because i'm british ma'am
89:07
if that's the case and just practice it
89:09
with a british accent
89:11
yeah but we say things differently i
89:14
need to find like
89:15
i'll just like try and mimic like emma
89:17
watson talking something like that um
89:29
what's the british analog of valley girl
89:31
accents oh thank god you have
89:33
thank goodness you asked because i can
89:35
give you a resource for this here's what
89:36
it is
89:37
it is uh the is what go watch made in
89:40
chelsea or like
89:41
uh the only way is essex the only way is
89:43
essex is
89:45
oh oh oh it's beautiful
89:48
great or like any any like reality to
89:50
you any reality tv show has the thickest
89:53
worst british accents that you can get
89:55
to uh
89:56
they're great if you want to learn a
89:58
british accent that's convincing
90:01
watch those but there's so many
90:04
different british accents though
90:05
yeah the pokemon that everyone
90:08
interested go try and learn in london
90:09
the
90:10
cockney one london is one i think that's
90:12
the most recognized
90:14
hey you sounded
90:17
new and uh
90:28
i don't even recognize a single word of
90:29
that what
90:31
did you say like chat
90:37
i've got a friend like that he's called
90:38
zach he is like
90:40
he comes from london he speaks exactly
90:42
like it's so fun to make fun of him
90:44
because he calls everyone big man like
90:46
he's like
90:58
i can slip into that if i really need to
91:00
i could slip into the uh
91:02
really chatty uh accent
91:06
like part of the thing like in terms of
91:07
like what you you're just like
91:10
building up skills like with lulls and
91:12
then you just happen to
91:13
obtain them
91:23
is a bit british instead really
91:26
you're like wait southern english
91:27
southern british or southern america
91:29
because also
91:30
because like that's a really train what
91:33
a really different thing that's like the
91:35
everyone in britain does an american
91:36
accent as if they're from
91:38
the deepest parts of louisiana
91:44
yeah yeah because you can't really do
91:47
like a
91:48
[ __ ] white california accent i guess
91:51
you can but like
91:52
it's it's such a weird it to us that's
91:55
like okay what do you think about
91:56
america
91:58
oh i hate you all right and this isn't
92:00
there's no single one that i met tonight
92:02
that no
92:02
uh i went okay the only time i went to
92:05
america i stayed in
92:06
uh la in like beverly hills which is
92:09
apparently notoriously rude
92:12
right sadie like people don't yeah
92:15
arrogant the the nicest people
92:18
that i met compared to here like that
92:21
everyone's like
92:22
talk the difference of like if if that
92:25
is your version of
92:26
like mean and snobby you all come to the
92:28
uk
92:29
you all want to die it is so much better
92:32
i like had
92:33
full conversations with uber drivers i
92:36
have never
92:37
in my life talked to an uber driver
92:40
about
92:40
anything meaningful until i went to
92:43
america
92:44
because everyone in the uk everyone
92:45
that's a uber driver
92:47
dude they either like barely speak maybe
92:49
it's just my city because
92:50
they have a very like multicultural city
92:52
like there's different languages
92:53
different
92:54
usually they don't really speak that
92:56
great english you just can't talk to
92:58
them they
92:58
it's you can't even like even to the
93:00
point where you can't even say that hey
93:01
drop me off there they won't understand
93:03
that it's
93:03
you can't speak it doesn't matter i had
93:05
full conversation with the uber driver i
93:07
spoke to a cashier
93:08
at the checkout boy it doesn't
93:11
happen here it's it's not because like
93:13
i'm gonna tell you i'm gonna tell you
93:14
like
93:15
in in for uber right or over here right
93:17
you know people are
93:18
they they want like you know capitalism
93:21
right
93:22
like he wants to like provide service
93:24
like there's there's an incentive
93:26
behind like being nice or like being
93:28
this or that
93:29
there's always that there's always that
93:30
like oh you gave me a good like oh i
93:32
remember like one dude i was like please
93:34
give me your five stars
93:35
rating and a good compliment after
93:36
you're derived after
93:38
like okay sure yeah you know like but
93:40
only if you let me sit in the front seat
93:41
okay sir comment like
93:43
then yeah that's like yeah sure like
93:46
this person let me sit in the front
93:47
i've never i've never been out by an
93:49
uber driver i take a lot of groups i've
93:50
never been asked to give a rating
93:52
yeah in america it's like it's a little
93:54
bit different because you know
93:55
as i said like a lot of it's based upon
93:57
like depending on like what the driver
93:59
wants what they value like the score or
94:01
like their things like that they're
94:03
yeah it's not just a service it's just
94:05
it's it's
94:07
service with everything like in terms of
94:09
like we really really care about like
94:10
how
94:11
we treat people and hope that we get
94:14
recompensed like i don't know if like
94:17
they put people tip over there
94:20
no we don't i mean it depends it's not
94:23
really expanded i mean
94:24
in a restaurant you kind of do but it's
94:27
um
94:28
it's it's it's honestly you could you
94:30
could not tip and it's like it's it's it
94:31
is extra money
94:33
yeah i mean like i mean it's it's still
94:36
a courtesy to to do so but it's
94:38
definitely not
94:40
mandatory something it's not mandatory
94:42
but i've heard it is in america which is
94:44
really strange
94:44
in america it's because you know people
94:46
are entitled like hey if i did a good
94:48
job i'm gonna get mine
94:49
like i remember like right uh like going
94:51
through chinatown
94:52
uh in new york and then there was this
94:54
lady like
94:55
like this person who worked at the
94:57
restaurant going outside to chase the
94:59
customer
95:00
how can you leave no tip
95:04
that's that's nuts i feel like i mean
95:07
then again
95:08
i have no comprehension you know it's
95:10
fun you know what's really fun
95:12
about my extremely privileged life so
95:14
far
95:15
is that i've never worked a real job
95:17
i've always just been a youtuber it's my
95:19
first job
95:19
but i did like are you saying that
95:21
youtubers are not don't have real jobs
95:24
oh no every no we don't
95:27
don't lie to me you you know that it
95:29
depends on how much you make i i would
95:31
say
95:32
whether it's yeah i mean no i definitely
95:34
have a real job with how much to make i
95:36
get really lucky with that but like
95:38
um there's if there's like one thing
95:40
that i can say that i was
95:42
really good at with youtube it was
95:43
monetizing everything like i figured out
95:46
like
95:46
because this here's a bit of my life
95:48
story i dropped out of i dropped out of
95:50
school
95:50
and uh i had to make a really i was just
95:53
very depressed i wanted to die
95:55
so bad i wanted to uninstall game
95:59
not like seriously oh no definitely
96:03
no uh it's i think i've told the story
96:05
before and i'm
96:06
watching your stream i can't really
96:08
explain everything in 40 seconds
96:16
more than happiness
96:20
oh yeah well basically just uh
96:23
i think when i when i was in when i was
96:25
in a level things got
96:27
things things are just really stressful
96:28
in school like a level in
96:30
in the uk is like the equivalent like
96:32
being a senior in high school so i'm a
96:33
high school dropout
96:34
fun but uh i think it was just i had a
96:37
girlfriend at the time that was real
96:39
stress
96:39
uh youtube wasn't doing as well as i'd
96:41
have loved it to do at the time
96:43
i think was it like 10 000 subscribers
96:45
it was doing okay but i was i was making
96:48
about
96:50
uh i want to say like a thousand dollars
96:52
a month not like
96:53
definitely not you know definitely not
96:56
drop out work
96:57
like not being able to work at least
97:00
yeah
97:01
uh no yeah i could make more from any
97:04
minimum wage job um
97:06
but either way and then i think it was
97:09
just like
97:09
school's always been really stressful
97:11
and if you're doing badly at school if
97:13
you're doing badly at all the things
97:14
career-wise you kind of have a moment of
97:16
like
97:16
oh [ __ ] if i was i'm not an amazing
97:19
student i think i was like
97:21
uh it's hard to say in the because uk
97:23
versus us like
97:25
uh education systems if the system's
97:27
different but i'm a c
97:28
great i was a c grade student got a
97:30
couple of bees went to a really good
97:33
at least for my area a really good um
97:36
a level or a college for us basically
97:39
it's like a second a different school
97:41
for uh being a senior in high school
97:43
the equivalent and then
97:46
i did uh so we i did um
97:50
i wasn't doing very well in any of my
97:52
classes i had to drop one of the classes
97:53
just wasn't doing well it was too hard
97:55
of a school i couldn't handle it
97:57
uh it seemed like everything was going
97:59
down i was i went from being a c grade b
98:01
grade student to like e and d and f like
98:03
just everything going down
98:05
i was spending the main problem was that
98:07
i was spending like
98:08
100 hours i was doing 100 120 hour work
98:11
weeks like i would my sleeping schedule
98:14
consisted of and this school was far
98:16
away i'd get a bus and a train to get to
98:18
the school
98:19
so what i do is that i would wake up in
98:22
the morning
98:23
at whatever get boston train school
98:26
i'd get that i always got there 20
98:28
minutes early just because of train
98:29
schedules so i went to
98:31
i went to the uh the corner shop bought
98:34
a pack of uh off-brand red bull because
98:36
they were cheap
98:37
and i would drink that yeah they're like
98:39
what they call cheap [ __ ]
98:43
literally enough it's like energy energy
98:46
pack
98:46
i don't know what the [ __ ] is this i
98:49
remember
98:49
it was the specific one that i always
98:51
got it tasted exactly like red bull i
98:53
kind of regret not taking a picture of
98:55
it because they're really good
98:57
i love that but there are like some red
98:58
and black yeah
99:00
but i used to do that and then i i drink
99:04
all four of those throughout the day and
99:06
then i would go home
99:07
record and edit videos and then not
99:10
sleep that night so i could edit
99:12
the videos and do like basically do an
99:14
all-nighter every other night so i get
99:16
like
99:16
and then go to bed the next day with
99:18
like going to school do that whole thing
99:20
again
99:21
falsely get like four hours of sleep and
99:22
then so i get like four hours of sleep
99:24
between like two days
99:25
just a terrible schedule um and uh
99:28
that if anyone that knows anything about
99:30
men's health it's like that'll [ __ ] you
99:32
right up that'll just
99:33
mess up like just chemicals in your
99:35
brain for no reason even if you're
99:36
perfectly happy or just
99:38
give you the unhappy chemicals um that's
99:41
how i felt like yeah on saturday like
99:43
like okay i gotta do this like oh i
99:45
didn't stream on friday i gotta go like
99:46
this yeah i feel yeah
99:50
but when you think about it right now
99:52
they
99:54
it doesn't like wouldn't would you
99:56
rather be
99:58
someone crazy it's a video for someone
99:59
who would like like let's say you did
100:01
well in school
100:02
you got like a great job no i would have
100:05
hated it i
100:06
i dropped out because i got to so after
100:09
after
100:10
and then because of all of that like
100:12
schedule i got like
100:13
i thought i was bipolar at some point
100:14
because it was literally that big of
100:16
changes just all the times i was happy
100:18
one day i was happy when i was recording
100:20
i [ __ ] wanted to die all the time i
100:22
thought it was bipolar and i went to the
100:24
school counseling and they were like
100:25
no you're not you're just like you're
100:28
just depressed
100:28
go go to it go to it we can't diagnose
100:31
you but you seem
100:32
like you you're having a bad time go to
100:34
a gp i went to a gp which is just a
100:36
doctor
100:37
um general practitioner is what they're
100:40
called gp
100:41
he said you need to go get therapy and i
100:44
went and i think at that point
100:46
he said like hey you need to go get
100:47
therapy or we can give you
100:48
antidepressants and i was like
100:50
nah i'm gonna deal with this [ __ ] myself
100:52
yeah i
100:54
didn't like the idea of it i think it
100:56
was literally an ego thing
100:57
it was genuinely at the time it was an
100:58
ego thing i was like i think it's funny
101:00
i don't know
101:00
like i feel like it works well for you
101:02
like for me like like i used to like
101:03
whenever i get hungover when i drink too
101:05
much right
101:06
i would take advil the next day but i
101:07
stopped taking whatever
101:09
just because like i don't want to [ __ ]
101:10
up my liver more because i already like
101:12
[ __ ] up
101:13
like if that's the case i should just
101:15
probably like her like a better word man
101:16
up and like just deal with the hangover
101:18
yeah
101:19
i don't like relying on things like that
101:21
you know that's great
101:23
and i feel like it reflects it reflects
101:25
within what you do right now because
101:27
you know you may not have like the most
101:30
cookie cutter life in terms of like
101:32
getting into like school like like
101:33
getting into like a college or uni
101:35
and then but for you you work better on
101:38
your own
101:38
you're independent you don't have to
101:40
really deal with
101:41
uh what people have to tell you you've
101:44
done well for yourself and just like
101:45
creating a community and channel uh you
101:48
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you find yourself really invested and
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you don't have to like that uh
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you know a lot of people would actually
101:54
be able to with you know
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find that you would not be able to do
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that
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i mean i i dropped out because i just
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knew at that time
102:03
and after going through all that after
102:05
being like nah i'm gonna do it myself i
102:06
just realized that if i didn't
102:08
go and do the youtube thing if i didn't
102:10
go and put full time into that actually
102:12
try and grow it as a business like get
102:14
what i mean
102:14
business get editors yeah that's perfect
102:17
you know
102:18
it's basically like through like just
102:20
comes with the territory
102:22
i like i'd always just be i dropped out
102:24
because i was always i know i'd just be
102:26
always thinking for the rest of my life
102:28
like what if i didn't want to deal with
102:30
that
102:31
you know so you're like because like you
102:32
imagine you're going for bro yeah
102:34
like obviously yeah exactly
102:37
i think that's great i just knew i
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wasn't going to be happy if i didn't do
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it
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and i was i was immediately just a lot
102:45
happier i wouldn't it's not an immediate
102:47
fix obviously but
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yeah uh i think it's just you know like
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just a
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just culminating just like when you hit
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like
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a couple series of bad like really bad
102:58
things in a row
102:59
okay and then you just kind of like and
103:01
that that will [ __ ] you up for a little
103:02
bit well
103:02
like the story is the sad bit
103:06
uh i told this story on the stream and
103:08
because i'm a man i didn't cry but i was
103:10
close
103:11
uh i think it's funny yeah
103:15
i won't uh well i mean like it's fine i
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feel like
103:19
you know like like a man that doesn't
103:22
cry
103:22
does it for his pride right a man who
103:24
does cry
103:25
right he's not afraid
103:28
he's not afraid yeah i feel like i just
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like i mean
103:32
in all fairness i i got close on stream
103:35
but i i talked about it like a few times
103:37
now and it's it's a good it's
103:38
it's it's it's it's not a sad story it's
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a happy story because there's a good
103:42
ending to it
103:43
but um the my
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girlfriend cheered on me of like two
103:48
years at the time
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after immediately
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this was two years ago i'm over that oh
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wow
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oh so this is one this is like two or
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three years ago this is ages ago don't
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worry
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uh but she chewed up she cheated on me
104:04
with a friend of mine
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uh and then weird situation with that
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fun
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story she chewed on me i went oh [ __ ]
104:11
okay
104:12
let's take a break for a bit we did for
104:14
a week she sent
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she gave me like a handmade box with art
104:18
she was an artist
104:19
with artwork on it she wrote in the box
104:22
little notes with memories the
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stuff that she liked about me it was a
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wonderful gift and i was like okay
104:27
situation result and then immediately
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she went
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i got to tell you something though
104:32
during that week where we were on a
104:33
break
104:34
i send nudes like
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okay i'm done
104:40
this is not this is stuck so we broke up
104:44
for good good um and
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then so the the actual sad bit was like
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the i remember that that just [ __ ] me
104:53
up real bad for like
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months it was that was the hardest thing
104:55
to get over and i just dropped out
104:57
so now like i'm thinking money's an
104:59
issue i gotta make youtube a career i
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gotta make money out of this
105:03
girlfriend broke up with me there's no
105:04
one backing me at this point
105:06
and i was like i just wanted to i
105:08
genuinely this is like the most
105:10
suicidal i ever got i wrote down however
105:14
but i was so i wanted to just hear
105:17
stories from people at the time
105:19
so i went on to read it uh and i went on
105:21
to like i forgot it was like a slush
105:23
depression or something i don't know
105:24
what it was i just wanted to hear
105:25
stories of people
105:26
and i read something that whether
105:28
someone's like someone wrote is
105:30
almost an offhand comment that like uh
105:33
someone wrote like
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uh i i said that i was they said they
105:38
started out was like
105:40
i said that i was gonna uh commit
105:42
suicide when i was
105:44
10 30. i'm reading someone else
105:47
uh they said like they said uh they were
105:50
gonna they were gonna commit suicide
105:51
when they were 30
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and they were 29 and they were really
105:54
worried about it and i went
105:56
it's not a bad idea oh my god
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giving giving yourself a date is better
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than just like
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doing it because you feel like it this
106:06
is a good thing for me
106:08
and like when i was i think i was like
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16 at the time and
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i wrote down on my desk so i wouldn't so
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i wouldn't forget it i wasn't going to
106:16
write it down on a note
106:17
i'm like well i i'm into pen knives
106:19
completely irrelevant but i like nice
106:21
it's like good for machining i don't
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know but i
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i'm right on it now i wrote down the
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number 20 as my date
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that i was going to do it i am now 20.
106:38
i turned 20 in april and i
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can confidently say i'm the happiest
106:43
i've ever been
106:44
and it's great i am so glad i chose to
106:48
wait like four years
106:50
but it was something that kept me like
106:52
as i every time i ever felt like
106:54
felt like i wanted to i could just look
106:56
at that and be like
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i'm not going to yet i'm going to see
106:59
how things turn out
107:01
what's the matter and then what what was
107:03
the change in that
107:04
like like what made you feel like you
107:05
wrote plenty on that desk right and then
107:07
like
107:08
what like made a change
107:11
um i wrote 20 because i think it was
107:13
like when i dropped out i wouldn't
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really it's
107:16
it's it's i think i was so upset about
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it
107:19
about everything because it was the fear
107:21
of the unknown really
107:22
because like broke up with the golf i
107:23
don't have a girlfriend anymore
107:25
i don't have a career path laid out for
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me i just don't know where anything's
107:29
going
107:30
um so i figured three or four years is
107:34
enough time to be able to work through
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everything
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and just really try it this one career
107:40
and then it worked
107:40
for me now it could have not and
107:43
honestly looking back on the content
107:45
it's not even that good and i wasn't
107:47
making
107:47
it was a bad decision to drop out at the
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time but i'm glad i did it because it
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turned out to be the best decision i
107:53
ever made
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so it was like explained a lot to be
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honest with you like it
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sort of explains the reason that we're
107:59
here right now
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yeah it's it's a it's a lot of like uh
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probably contributed a lot towards
108:06
confidence stuff like that
108:07
a lot of things that people need to
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really search
108:12
like i i
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you shouldn't be doing this interview
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called maybe maybe with dr
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gay or something
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right no i i don't think i'd maybe at
108:27
the time maybe three years ago dr k
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would have been able to help quite a lot
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but uh
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no right now i'm i had a moment the
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reason why
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i did the reason why i think it's such a
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good story
108:39
like it's such a happy story instead of
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a sad one is because i was talking to my
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dad like a year ago like
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six a few months ago it was within a
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year ago i think we were just coming
108:48
back from the city
108:49
and i've i said to him just like we were
108:52
just like kind of walking back at the
108:53
in the city at night and i was just
108:54
looking everything i was like holy [ __ ]
108:56
i'm like
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this is the first time that i i just
108:59
feel just satisfied
109:01
with life i'm just happy like this is
109:03
just
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i don't think i've ever felt like this
109:06
before this is just i just kind of had
109:07
the realization like holy [ __ ] i beat it
109:10
you know like i'm not inexplicable were
109:12
there any things that
109:14
uh contributed to that happiness that
109:16
you developed
109:17
over time like it's just like this was i
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i dropped i dropped out
109:22
worked and everything became successful
109:25
at what i i
109:26
accomplished my goals uh of what i
109:29
wanted to do
109:30
and there's like there's always like up
109:31
and downs but at least
109:33
i got to the point where every bit of
109:35
the unknown was
109:37
done like i didn't i worked out i i
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figured out i didn't need
109:41
a girlfriend to be happy i figured out
109:43
that my i
109:44
i managed to make the career path that i
109:46
chose work and it's a dream job so i've
109:48
got
109:48
i've got a dream job and i'm perfectly
109:50
happy like with um
109:52
with who i am which is like what people
109:55
strive to
109:56
to reach the realization of like i've
109:59
accomplished so much
110:01
like for what i did that it's just like
110:03
i realized that i
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beat i beat the depression i won i did
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it
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so i've one
110:11
it's like a teacher yeah
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i'm telling a lot of people they don't
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beat that they don't you know
110:18
i'm like to be able to at least
110:28
a while ago maybe not in this level of
110:30
detail but
110:31
i i told the gist of it on stream
110:35
i think i got it like you know i feel
110:37
like maybe
110:38
it's good to like hear a voice like go
110:40
back and forth like actually look and
110:42
talk to the person that you're speaking
110:44
that way oh yeah yeah
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okay together
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it is oh it's literally because i've got
111:08
like white walls there it's like
111:10
bounces off hold on but i've i've even
111:12
like taped down
111:14
the uh the curtain that like that does
111:16
it because i know it looks bad
111:18
but if you were gonna uh matter yourself
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in the past okay what would
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what would you say to your like to my
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past
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like five five year ten year olds up
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well i mean
111:32
five years ago 10 years ago whatever
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years
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well i would say to myself is to
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probably tell myself
111:46
that
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to not be
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i would tell myself to not be
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comfortable
111:55
to not be i'm telling myself to not be
111:57
comfortable and be more honest with
111:59
people who i speak with
112:03
i would tell myself because like there
112:06
are times like
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for me i'm not very high maintenance i'm
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not i'm not a high maintenance person
112:10
like i could be probably
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like just eat like live often yeah
112:15
i used to be very empathetic look i'm
112:17
not apathetic apathy but i don't really
112:19
care like i just go through the motions
112:21
right but i really thought that like
112:25
hey i should be doing something i should
112:27
be doing something like why am i being
112:29
selfish why
112:30
am i just you know why am i being
112:33
selfish like why am i doing that
112:34
why am i you know
112:38
it's interesting because that's like the
112:39
opposite of what everyone says like um
112:41
usually people say to themselves to be
112:43
more apathetic like
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more just like don't listen to you know
112:47
don't listen to the people that are
112:48
trying basically like the advice is just
112:51
don't listen to people
112:52
yeah but like that's the thing like if
112:54
you go if you're like that then you're
112:55
stubborn if you're stubborn you don't
112:57
necessarily
112:58
grow so that i feel like it's like it's
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like a two-way
113:02
to you know it's like a double related
113:04
sword like it's like a claim or some
113:06
[ __ ] like that
113:07
where you have to like really think
113:09
about like what you really really
113:10
want what you really really want i never
113:13
saw myself like
113:13
being as a streamer like doing youtube i
113:16
never saw myself like that
113:17
right because i thought that maybe hey i
113:19
was empathetic
113:20
maybe it builds like a little bit of
113:21
conceit like maybe i was
113:23
too arrogant oh i'm too good
113:31
i guess for me like it's just basically
113:33
like really chase your dreams like
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really
113:35
even if you may not make it or anything
113:37
like that like at least
113:40
do it as a hobby at least have something
113:42
inside to keep yourself occupied you
113:44
never know because it may make
113:45
you may do well for you know like maybe
113:48
if you never in your life
113:51
you're gonna get like at least some
113:52
level of um
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what's it uh some level of contentment
113:57
out of just doing the hobby that you
113:59
want to
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you know and it's a hobby yeah
114:06
they're like look when you think about
114:07
it when you edit your youtube videos
114:09
like
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yeah it can be a pain like for me like
114:12
when i like i was like oh what am i
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gonna wear today
114:14
oh god it's streaming day what am i
114:16
gonna wear right but once all that's set
114:18
up and then like
114:19
once you're in the stream or like once
114:20
you post that video right you're like
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holy [ __ ]
114:23
you don't think about that it's like
114:24
what you like you don't think about you
114:27
don't think about
114:28
uh the you putting on your makeup wrong
114:31
because this is going to be good
114:32
it's already up there and there are
114:34
people who already love you for that
114:37
people already love you for that yeah
114:40
there's a in all fairness i didn't
114:42
realize that that was a relatable
114:44
problem
114:44
but damn what am i gonna wear for my
114:46
stream
114:48
welcome i've been doing this for like
114:50
three years
114:53
dude i've ever been to like two months
114:55
and i've already ran out of [ __ ]
114:58
there's actually there's something
115:00
there's something about like
115:01
not wanting to wear stuff twice yeah
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god oh god
115:08
you'll get past that we'll get past that
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all right you
115:11
just thought that's kind of less all
115:12
right you stopped thinking after that i
115:14
was like
115:16
my paw's like and then like you know i'm
115:19
pretty sure you're going to have the
115:20
same problem or you
115:20
already may have the same problem why
115:23
the [ __ ] are they
115:25
[ __ ] sharp yeah
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right now these are the uh these uh due
115:31
to
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due to a um due to a stream
115:35
uh youth weights this sub goal these are
115:38
like the only pair of uh
115:40
uh trousers related things someone that
115:43
i'm allowed to be wearing
115:44
uh great sub goal uh
115:50
you know i remember when we had the
115:51
conversation where i was just like yeah
115:53
you know i don't really care about the
115:54
money
115:56
yeah but then i think i do a lot of
115:58
stuff for money
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that's the thing like to be honest like
116:03
i'm gonna tell you that
116:05
money like i'm gonna tell you this money
116:07
it's fine
116:08
like like it's not just the one specific
116:10
thing it's not yeah
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it's definitely not the route to
116:14
happiness it's not the roots of
116:16
happiness but like you know i think
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you know you have you have money right
116:20
okay okay but
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let's say like let's say you're dirt
116:23
poor and then okay you get money right
116:25
but then that cafe have all the money as
116:27
i guess you would say humans right like
116:30
you'd want something else yeah
116:33
it's like you know it's i just go by the
116:36
mouseless hierarchy of needs thing
116:38
that's just the way i view things which
116:40
uh
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if you're unfamiliar it's just the whole
116:42
like you need to secure like
116:45
you need to be stable on each of these
116:47
levels going up until you reach the top
116:49
level which is self-actualization
116:52
um but the the very foundation layers of
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that
116:56
are stuff like a stable source of food
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and shelter stuff like that right
117:02
it applies to every day now as it did to
117:05
caveman and
117:06
caveman times and then the next one off
117:08
is like finding a partner friendships
117:10
love
117:10
stuff like that uh but yeah if you
117:14
i think that the people that say it's
117:16
like it's uh
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in terms of like oh that's a question
117:22
yeah let me google this
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let me google it so it goes
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it goes physiological needs stuff like
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food water
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uh shelter clothing yeah
117:34
uh and then safety needs security
117:37
equipment personal safety employment
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which is like
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you know like a course of income and
117:43
yeah
117:43
and then like property or something like
117:45
that and then you go into
117:47
uh love and belonging which is
117:49
friendship intimacy family a sense of
117:51
connection
117:52
and then it goes to esteem which is just
117:55
freedom strength recognition status and
117:58
then self-actualization which is the
118:00
desire to become the most that one can
118:02
be
118:03
now i honestly think i'm still on
118:07
safety trying to get food or something
118:10
like that early
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no okay that's like physiological names
118:15
that's the bottom one safety is like the
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one
118:17
up from the set from the last one i feel
118:20
like that's what i'm working on because
118:21
i'm not actively working on
118:24
finding uh finding a relationship so i
118:26
guess i wouldn't be at that level yet
118:28
just wait what would you put yourself i
118:31
would probably
118:32
be
118:56
i think for me it's like very different
118:58
it's actually a little bit different
118:59
that that probably explains as to why
119:01
i'm like
119:02
not oh that it is literally just a
119:04
theory it's not
119:05
yeah i know it's not like the rule of
119:07
life but it's it's a great guideline
119:09
for like people who want to like know
119:12
that's what i think
119:15
i think it's a great guideline it's
119:16
definitely a great guideline it's like
119:18
just like the regular like like to i
119:21
would just like to live regularly but
119:25
it's a good mentor it's a good measure
119:27
like a
119:28
good measure of where you place yourself
119:30
i feel like i'm i'm i'm on the i'm on
119:32
the safe i'm still working on
119:33
what your classes employment just kind
119:35
of gay engaging i feel like
119:37
do you do this [ __ ] too i section out my
119:39
life really weirdly i think in my head i
119:41
don't want to work on getting uh
119:43
getting a relationship before i like
119:46
don't have to work again like i want to
119:49
build up
119:50
enough income that i don't have to worry
119:52
about money for a substantial period of
119:53
time
119:54
to be honest i'm on the same level as
119:56
you if you're going to think about that
119:58
i'm on the same level as you like
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if i like okay i think we're obviously
120:02
beyond
120:03
uh physiological means like we're here
120:06
yeah
120:06
we're doing the things that we don't
120:08
like right
120:10
for safety needs personal security
120:11
employment resources health
120:13
property uh i i think i'm good over
120:16
there
120:16
right i think you know i'm employed like
120:18
i work and i still work through the
120:19
virus and whatever right love and
120:20
belonging right
120:22
you have significant others and people
120:25
esteem respect like respect recognition
120:27
strength freedom
120:29
i think when i think about it right i
120:32
don't have like the most money to like
120:33
make me feel comfortable right but i'm
120:35
kind of like at the self-actualization
120:37
part
120:39
right it's like you kind of skip a
120:41
couple steps and you kind of work on
120:43
them
120:44
like the the way that works like it's
120:46
more just stuff you have to have like
120:47
you're not gonna feel
120:49
complete if you have a steam and you
120:52
don't have
120:53
food and shelter like yeah like that
120:56
have you ever
120:56
like make sure that you're you're yeah
120:59
however
121:00
you can implement it yeah but you know
121:03
you can also like
121:04
have someone to love and also maybe not
121:06
have a job like it's not it's not a
121:08
perfect guide
121:10
but it's stuff that like you'd wanna
121:11
you'd wanna
121:13
tick these boxes right so
121:16
i'd say that i i say that family i have
121:18
a really strong
121:19
you know connection to family so
121:23
i'm not sure about like um and then uh
121:26
esteem i'm gonna change your steam's
121:28
definition a little bit to just
121:29
confidence
121:30
like uh because there's
121:31
self-actualization which is basically
121:33
[ __ ] like
121:34
enlightened i guess there's more
121:35
self-respect just kind of being
121:38
one with self congruence as they say
121:40
that's the other way to put it
121:42
um it's very strange because like
121:45
there's some people like who
121:46
they they may have all of these things
121:48
right but then
121:49
you know they they're not
121:54
they actually i guess you could talk
121:56
about priorities
121:57
priorities in terms of like what is more
121:59
important to you some people we don't
122:01
even really care about
122:02
our physiological needs as opposed to
122:04
like our
122:06
uh self-actualization if you know what
122:09
i'm talking about some people like
122:10
really care about like other people and
122:12
but don't really use it
122:14
like i think i got the top and the
122:15
bottom two boxes
122:17
i'm still working on the other the
122:18
scheme wasn't the bombing
122:21
like everybody feel like like like like
122:24
in terms of like i guess you could say
122:26
dreams like let's say sort of like you
122:29
take money out of the equation you take
122:32
that like you you're perfectly fine yet
122:34
because you can eat any time you have
122:36
like
122:37
your safety like you fight if it's it's
122:40
like if you had enough money on in the
122:41
world if you had a yeah
122:43
like would you like it what would you do
122:50
yeah i mean that's kind of hard to say
122:52
right because um i think the
122:54
i think a lot of what i do now just
122:56
comes from building a
122:59
you know building a way to sustain
123:02
yourself
123:02
loving an empire legacy
123:08
like the foreign
123:20
we'll find someone the fourth one has to
123:22
be found what
123:24
yeah [ __ ] probably uh
123:41
sneaky as a patreon with just ass like
123:44
yo because the power couple power couple
123:47
with his uh
123:49
his girlfriend would be insanely
123:51
attractive
123:54
yeah something like that but like dude
123:57
like
123:57
sneaky as a guy is
124:01
i don't want to [ __ ] i don't want to
124:03
talk [ __ ] to the guy he's
124:04
he's not he's not like uh he's not he
124:06
doesn't seem like the type of guy that
124:08
gets that type of girl holy [ __ ] he just
124:10
went live
124:11
he's [ __ ] listening to it i'm saying
124:13
no
124:15
we gotta grab this situation
124:18
no he's like he doesn't seem like the
124:19
type of guy together type of girl like
124:21
she's
124:21
insanely attractive but it's like
124:25
him as a girl is kind of like okay
124:26
listen i'm not i again i'm fairly
124:28
confident in my sexuality but like
124:30
sneaky is a
124:31
sneaky [ __ ] got something about sneaky
124:36
man
124:49
this wasn't sneaky like wasn't sneaky
124:51
watching
124:52
uh [ __ ] [ __ ] at some point like didn't
124:54
he do that on stream like didn't he
124:56
accidentally get caught with that on
124:58
stream
124:59
no i didn't even know you did
125:02
join me to bring you a video to change
125:05
your opinion of it yeah sure we'll play
125:07
it right now
125:11
basically i think it was just he someone
125:12
sent it so someone sent him something on
125:14
stream and he clicked on it like to open
125:16
a youtube video
125:17
and because it opens up chrome it opened
125:20
up his income
125:22
oh those are the favorites oh god it's
125:24
fun favorites and automatically like
125:26
no it's not he was on he was like who
125:28
was half scrolled down a page of
125:30
uh something or other but like yeah
125:33
everyone just called
125:34
yeah i think everyone called it like uh
125:36
gay porn
125:37
and i was like it was barely and then i
125:39
was like looking at i was looking i was
125:40
looking through the comments because
125:41
someone brought up to me i was like
125:43
talking about snoopy and the fact that
125:44
i've
125:44
i've been trapped by sneaky before
125:47
because my [ __ ] editor sent me a
125:48
picture of
125:49
him and they were like hey look at this
125:51
girl
125:52
no it was the it was the [ __ ] one
125:54
with the purple bikini and i remember
125:59
the long hair purple
126:04
and uh yeah that that got me because i
126:07
didn't realize it right away and then
126:08
you can tell
126:09
sneaky has a thing that does his
126:11
eyebrows like there's sneaky's face is
126:13
very
126:13
uh you can tell uh that it's sneaky i
126:16
couldn't tell that it was a guy but i
126:18
could tell it was sneaky
126:21
it took me like 30 seconds i was like oh
126:23
damn she's my editor had
126:25
done had set it up so perfectly she used
126:28
to send me
126:28
she sends me like these these girls that
126:31
she she's i don't know why i think she
126:33
like when i was doing like when i was
126:34
first doing
126:34
streaming and stuff okay or when i was
126:36
first like doing the ego
126:38
like doing the girl stuff on on the
126:39
channel she'd like send me all these
126:41
things it's like oh you could wear this
126:43
and so
126:43
i'm used to getting a bunch of pictures
126:45
of girls in our dms that she finds
126:47
that she likes the look of and uh and
126:50
then one day
126:50
she and i always give my opinion oh that
126:52
looks good bubba
126:54
and she sent me sneaky one day i was
126:55
like oh she's a shirt she's she's
126:57
i feel like i said like ah she's hot and
126:59
then and then
127:00
i had a moment of like i waited a second
127:02
they didn't respond and i was like
127:03
wait wait no wait no no no
127:07
no no [ __ ]
127:12
i think you know like when you think of
127:13
when i think of lester lynn and sneaky
127:15
it's a power couple you know esther lund
127:17
has
127:18
experienced to rather be patreon or
127:20
depends whatever right speculation but
127:22
like basically being a cosplayer is sexy
127:24
from like provocative nothing to
127:26
provocative cosplayer right
127:27
and then for her to apply that to sneaky
127:30
who has
127:31
already has a following within
127:33
professional esports and
127:34
to do something off on guard that can
127:36
shape the world
127:37
i think that's a very amazing marketing
127:40
tactic
127:41
it's kind of nuts because i think sneaky
127:44
was still like
127:45
a million subs or something like i don't
127:47
know what he was like
127:48
tons of people followed him from esports
127:50
like he was already like
127:52
he was already like [ __ ] a celebrity
127:56
in the esports world and then he did
127:58
this and now he's like
127:59
that was just his yeah and they uh they
128:02
make so
128:04
much more if i were to like remember
128:06
anything uh
128:08
if i can say you're speaking in
128:10
particular if you have like
128:11
approximately
128:12
1600 patreons just to get like even
128:15
yourself at like five dollars for a
128:17
month
128:18
five times five times sixteen hundred
128:20
five times sixteen hundred
128:22
is eight thousand thousand a month
128:25
it's probably times that by twelve uh
128:27
eight thousand times well
128:29
that's ninety six that's almost a
128:31
hundred that's almost six figures
128:32
yeah here so it's like extra income
128:36
yeah it's like it's that's why we have
128:38
to start an only time
128:42
only for the patreon of [ __ ] snapchat
128:45
premium
128:47
that's it's so weird because he's got 1
128:49
500 patrons i'm on it right now
128:52
yeah um and then it goes from like two
128:54
dollars to
128:55
40 or 50. um i'm assuming
128:59
a few people have what like i think i'd
129:01
estimate like he probably makes uh
129:06
probably like 10k a month from it i
129:07
don't know like
129:09
roughly even so like but that's only for
129:12
patreon
129:12
like you have to like consider like yeah
129:16
he quit
129:19
i mean it's weird though because like
129:21
he's like he gets 4 000 people 5 000
129:23
people every stream
129:24
he does youtube and he makes a ton from
129:26
that is he's
129:28
i'd say like the cosplay stuff is a
129:31
minority
129:32
vastly by by what he makes
129:35
which is really weird that it continues
129:37
because i genuinely don't think 10k is
129:39
that much
129:40
uh sneaky at this point but yeah from
129:43
like knowing
129:43
similarly sized channels and streamers
129:46
like
129:47
i think that i think at most that's
129:49
probably
129:50
30 30 of his income
129:53
uh because he's got merchandise
129:57
sponsored i feel like maybe like uh
129:59
maybe what
130:00
if that's the case then what would drive
130:02
them to like create a patreon or like
130:04
you know like like other than like they
130:05
can garner that extra it's just great
130:07
it's this thing it's this thing i
130:09
guarantee you so so basically like
130:11
sneaking inside
130:12
is like basically oh this is like a
130:14
[ __ ] episode of uh like i don't know
130:16
drummer elimination like why the doctor
130:18
disrespect it like why does sneaky
130:22
sleep the thing is i'm it's not like i'm
130:25
saying a twitter i think i'm saying like
130:27
i think it's like i'm i'm happy for it
130:29
like someone in the comments said it
130:32
pretty well
130:32
uh from the video i watched some i was
130:34
talking about sneaky about that whole
130:36
thing that i got trapped and they were
130:37
like oh didn't sneaky like get caught
130:38
watching gay porno like there's no way
130:41
you know and they linked me the video of
130:43
it and it's he tabbed into this um
130:46
this site of like you know guys dressed
130:49
as girls sort of like
130:51
whatever yeah and that's very hard to
130:53
like really you know
130:55
like yeah but if you have it there
130:57
already
130:58
you can't he couldn't he didn't explain
131:00
he was like oh how did
131:01
he the video is so good i gotta link you
131:04
this
131:04
i gotta link you it after but like the
131:07
way his
131:07
his reaction is like he just goes oh i
131:10
don't know how that got there
131:12
it's so good um even though
131:16
uh i don't think he loves the people
131:17
bringing it up because i think
131:19
the clip includes like a donation
131:20
message that he completely ignored
131:22
about it but either way someone in the
131:24
comments put it fairly well that was
131:26
just like well
131:27
if like if he's um if his girlfriend's
131:31
like
131:32
he's like just living a [ __ ] dream at
131:34
that point right like if it's his thing
131:36
like he's got like a really attractive
131:38
girlfriend and he gets to
131:40
live out his like fantasy of doing that
131:43
and he's also making an insane income
131:45
like sneaky's got it
131:46
made like he's doing great you know this
131:49
is
131:49
it returns us like it brings us back to
131:52
uh
131:57
self-actualization okay you have this
131:59
you have the physical
132:00
snake you can eat sneaky has a place
132:03
sneaky has love and friends
132:08
like oh god i've gotten everything that
132:11
i've wanted
132:12
right i've never really done anything
132:14
for myself
132:16
let's watch
132:33
and then you'll have people like your
132:34
family people who support you like
132:36
okay i'm with that if i can be
132:40
like sneaky i'll watch gay porn
132:43
i don't know speculation i've gotta link
132:46
to this
132:48
second video it's so good
132:52
um
132:55
okay while you find that i'm gonna go
132:57
see i'm like really
132:59
again i
133:11
it's the first what a great thumbnail
133:12
it's the first um
133:15
30 seconds of that
133:19
while i'll watch it let's go
133:22
see nice sneaky i don't put enough
133:24
clippers just to make sure there's
133:26
nothing
133:26
going to show that's going to get um
133:29
that's very considerate of you
133:32
oh it's such an open reaction
133:36
like normally
133:40
okay there's i i don't think there's
133:42
anything that will there's nothing it's
133:44
it there's these they sense it out stuff
133:46
but you can still tell
133:47
what it is so i don't know whether you'd
133:49
want to watch it on stream just because
133:50
which isn't good but yeah
133:53
i haven't been given i haven't been done
133:55
yet
133:56
been banned yet
134:10
okay
134:24
what they form
134:27
is there a market for that i don't know
134:38
okay
134:40
okay this is like very zoomed in
134:43
yeah i'm trying i'm trying
134:48
this whole streaming thing is getting
134:49
difficult
134:53
you you just like enter the battlefield
134:56
of like
134:56
just like streaming so just be prepared
135:00
be prepared
135:01
be prepared
135:11
i definitely got it all right
135:16
yeah it's literally like 10 seconds 30
135:19
seconds
135:20
but you could it's
135:28
i actually can't tell it's like a
135:31
dark cat or something i haven't
135:35
okay for the few videos
135:40
oh i don't know what that is oh yeah
135:43
that was
135:44
it right holy [ __ ] it's his voice
135:47
i can't hear it on the uh on the wait
135:49
actually i don't know i'm not listening
135:50
to your stream video
135:52
you gotta go okay so this is it this is
135:55
what we're
135:56
uh looking at yep that's what sneaky was
135:58
uh
135:59
in the middle of which was just
136:01
something
136:02
his reaction after his golden hold on
136:08
okay i don't know what that is
136:14
holy [ __ ] i [ __ ] love that i love
136:16
that
136:18
i don't know so someone sent them that
136:21
link or was that something that they
136:22
already had
136:23
some of the tabs that was on an
136:25
incognito tab they opened it to go click
136:27
them they opened chrome to go and click
136:31
poor guy on it sucks that that was like
136:33
or something
136:35
like look you can see chrome's going to
136:36
go he's halfway scrolled down the page
136:39
as well that doesn't happen oh
136:40
yeah yep
136:46
i'm pretty sure that there has to be
136:50
something
136:52
on that second picture down below there
136:54
has to be something over there there's
136:55
no reason why
136:58
two women would one would stand and one
137:02
would be like
137:02
really below um
137:07
it's not a question of whether it is
137:08
what it is
137:13
just yeah there's that it's
137:17
definitely a moment of all things
137:20
but either way it's a good if you read
137:23
the comments on that video it's like
137:26
there's there's people going like like
137:27
people are overwhelmingly supportive
137:29
it's like of course you're like like
137:32
hell yeah dude
137:33
man's man's living his best life like
137:36
he's doing good
137:37
i respect it yeah that's the great part
137:40
it's like you're unfiltered you really
137:41
don't have to
137:44
censor yourself i don't think he pulled
137:46
i don't think he's talked about it since
137:48
i think he's just kind of pretend blah
137:50
didn't happen
137:51
it works because you know people are
137:52
gonna like forget about that stuff
137:54
but like until you know i didn't really
137:56
thinking
137:58
so you're like really thinking
138:01
yeah i mean like black clip got what 270
138:05
000 views that's like what nothing
138:08
i mean
138:13
it's not like societal it's like
138:16
societally like
138:18
compromising like right now like the hot
138:21
topics right now are like
138:24
yeah it's not something that's like
138:27
it's there's nothing like no one's gonna
138:29
what
138:30
yeah it's it's like a perfectly fine
138:32
thing i think
138:34
when you think about it right maybe
138:35
they're like oh my god what did i just
138:37
show
138:38
everyone know that it's not oh my god
138:40
right now oh god
138:41
what do i do what do i do should i just
138:43
watch the
138:44
continue to watch this thing like when
138:45
i'm shooting like people know that i am
138:46
or do i just like
138:47
before i avoid it and like just continue
138:49
i'm sure there was like a conversation
138:52
with him uh and his girlfriend like
138:54
after that we just went
138:55
ah i don't know whether i don't know
138:58
what to do
139:04
oh no no that's the no that's the thing
139:07
she definitely
139:08
is like she definitely knows it like
139:10
she's definitely like
139:11
a part of it
139:15
like yeah there's no yeah there's no way
139:18
it's like
139:19
there's no way she's not right i mean
139:20
either way i mean it feels weird like
139:25
what what number three number four
139:38
i mean the third i mean the third or
139:40
fourth time that you've gone for
139:42
you know gone for a piss i don't
139:45
i don't i've heard too much already it
139:48
feels like the 12th
140:00
yeah i drink i don't drink often but i
140:03
drink dreams
140:04
i don't drink often but when i do oh
140:07
when i do
140:09
i'm not drinking for drink that's not
140:10
the british air man
140:13
this is i've got some strange follows
140:15
recently
140:17
the uh there's some
140:21
well somewhere like a some
140:25
there's a there's a uh fairly popular
140:28
only fans uh crossdresser that followed
140:31
me
140:31
and i only know noticed because like
140:35
uh the person like it's there's like it
140:37
puts it in the front
140:38
four from the notifications when they've
140:39
got a lot of followers and they've got
140:40
like 90 to
140:41
93 000 followers and i was like oh
140:45
that's interesting that like i'm in that
140:48
community
140:49
right like it's
141:04
yeah it's kind of weird when you figure
141:06
out what communities you're in
141:07
like especially with reddit with
141:09
something that was like that because
141:11
i think at some point i was on the front
141:13
page of reddit
141:14
like it's like a there was a like 40
141:17
something
141:17
thousand upvoted post of a meme that i
141:19
was in
141:21
um it was with me and matt you know that
141:23
one i don't know if you've seen that one
141:25
it's like the most vital thing ever
141:34
yeah exactly it's like why are you so
141:37
[ __ ] ugly bro
141:39
it's that one it's yeah it's it's not in
141:42
me and then like
141:44
it's it's
141:56
[Music]
142:01
yeah it took too much surprise
142:13
like what do you think about it like
142:15
when you did this stuff like like if
142:16
you've never done this stuff right if
142:17
you've never done no mecca you've never
142:18
done anything like that right
142:20
we would
142:28
you know what's crazy about like i mean
142:30
that clip's got like i think just if you
142:32
ever if you took an estimate from across
142:34
the internet
142:35
it's got to be in the hundreds of
142:36
millions at this point
142:38
like a view because like just like one
142:40
of them got like
142:41
a few million views on just like
142:43
instagram and like one of them got like
142:46
1.5 million likes on tick tock and then
142:54
my most popular memory clip was not from
142:56
youtube
142:57
it was from facebook someone like
142:59
reposted my stuff right and then it went
143:01
to nine gag
143:02
and then i had like pewdiepie look at it
143:06
pewdiepie sir pewdiepie's thought like
143:09
there's a video about
143:10
like where pewdiepie reacts to it and
143:11
then there's i have another video where
143:14
pokeman
143:14
reacts to it this is
143:26
that's so crazy like you never really
143:27
think about that
143:29
we had like one youtuber reacted to it
143:31
it wasn't even a good reaction
143:32
you ever heard of upperville he's
143:35
usually probably like as well but like
143:37
he didn't even say anything about it he
143:38
was so annoying
143:39
very upset by that because he he watched
143:41
the video and then he was like
143:42
i know he was he watched the video he
143:44
was just like he like just smiled
143:46
through it and then he's like
143:48
ah and then he made some comment and
143:49
then moved on it was like okay
143:51
that's the thing like it feels nice like
143:53
for me like when i got the peep my
143:55
reaction to it right and just
143:57
laugh you lose stuff right like oh god
144:00
like
144:00
oh it's a dude like no one blah blah
144:03
like no one has an
144:04
umaru pillow or whatever like an anime
144:06
pillow whatever
144:10
man if i didn't have that maybe
144:18
there's also like a thing of like
144:20
guarantee you a big youtuber canceled if
144:22
they left or something like that because
144:24
like
144:25
oh someone ever told you you're
144:26
transphobic
144:30
i haven't told them i've had one person
144:33
but like
144:34
after like after like it was on a
144:36
youtube comment right but then after
144:37
that
144:38
like after the video started getting
144:40
more high pipelined right i tried to
144:41
find that comment again but it was
144:43
deleted
144:47
like i got one on a youtube video and i
144:49
was like oh [ __ ] that's funny
144:50
what did that say because i [ __ ] have
144:52
that in the back of my head all the time
145:07
oh yeah definitely oh my god that's the
145:10
whole thing the uh some
145:11
i got i said maybe i was in the wrong
145:13
for this one you know
145:14
in in the defense of people on twitter
145:16
but uh i think i
145:18
i said that i said the r word i said i
145:21
said the r word
145:22
on a video
145:28
i don't even care about it i i said
145:30
research i said a reason on stream
145:32
like yeah i said i said some i said
145:36
someone made a dumb comment on on a
145:38
youtube it's on it's not my youtube
145:39
video
145:40
and uh i said that and i was like
145:43
and i was like because it's it's such a
145:46
like
145:46
it's the it's a it's [ __ ] is offensive
145:49
because
145:50
the same reason why old outdated medical
145:53
terminology is offensive
145:54
for no reason it's not anything
145:56
specifically to do with any like
145:58
mental health issues it's literally like
146:00
stupid is the same level of offense as
146:03
that word it's just people have picked
146:06
yeah the other people have picked that
146:08
one today
146:10
but everyone calls these people to put
146:11
them down but those are the same medical
146:13
definite
146:14
someone that would have been mental uh
146:16
medically diagnosed with being
146:19
being [ __ ] back in the day 100 years
146:21
ago
146:22
could have also been diagnosed with
146:23
being dumb or lame
146:25
or stupid and it's just common insults
146:30
yeah like that's not the right like like
146:32
sort of like i don't know for like
146:34
that's what it's [ __ ] or uh
146:38
that's not really a twat's not offensive
146:40
i mean it's it's
146:41
it what does it mean americans are just
146:44
like it's just like fuzzy right like
146:45
it's fine
146:46
like
146:59
it's definitely not like
147:05
if someone's not gonna be okay with [ __ ]
147:07
they'll be
147:08
gone if someone's not okay with [ __ ]
147:11
then
147:11
also not okay with any other swear word
147:14
there's not going to be someone that's
147:16
like you can swear but just don't say
147:19
[ __ ] it's it's really weird oh like but
147:23
no
147:23
i've never met anyone like that uh
147:25
usually it's just like all or nothing
147:27
is what i'm trying to say over here like
147:30
if you're not any like public
147:31
social media i think they'll slaughter
147:32
you like oh the c word or something like
147:35
that
147:37
the c word you [ __ ]
147:41
like just
147:51
although americans say [ __ ] for some
147:53
reason because they're stupid
147:57
what are your favorite words
148:01
from the british from british pine or
148:03
english oh
148:04
twat's definitely up there it's what's
148:07
definitely up there
148:08
oh actually there's definitely one i
148:10
can't remember it
148:12
so that's definitely one of the there's
148:13
um
148:15
[ __ ] i like that one pretend
148:18
i always thought it was pronounced cry
148:20
but some people say greeting
148:21
yeah treatment
148:27
it you can easily say it you can easily
148:29
slip it into say
148:31
[ __ ] crap
148:35
it's like that's that's like it's when
148:37
it's equally offensive but it's also
148:39
funnier
148:41
i like it i feel like if i would like
148:44
think about it like
148:45
i think like that's quite a popular one
148:50
yet again
148:55
because i used to watch like a lot of
148:56
like uh griefing
148:59
briefing videos where you look at the
149:01
person their grief
149:02
was like scottish you [ __ ] get uh
149:06
when you mean sweaty made like like some
149:07
[ __ ] like that
149:10
solid british british uh aggravated
149:14
slang is
149:15
is pretty it's pretty fun um
149:19
is there any american ones that i don't
149:20
know
149:30
the most recent shows like fuckboys and
149:33
sam but that's like internet
149:45
it works well it works well
149:49
that's the thing how many how many
149:51
gifted soaps does it take to make a sin
149:53
that's the real question
149:58
i have no idea i have no idea but
150:02
you know the size there's a guy that um
150:06
there was a guy that um in the period of
150:09
like
150:10
24 hours donate like gifted like a
150:12
thousand subs
150:13
across the two streams
150:22
i feel like you know if they're able to
150:24
do that as long as they're not like
150:26
living behind a starbucks you ever hear
150:28
the drama behind
150:30
the sick
150:34
oh wait well yeah i do is do you mean
150:37
the
150:37
one the guy that sued twitch oh no
150:40
that's actually something different but
150:41
yeah there's like guys because like
150:44
that's [ __ ] hilarious did you read
150:46
the report of that god
150:48
but then again he's known for like suing
150:51
companies
150:57
yeah someone's my editor she sent me and
151:00
it was like hey look what's happening i
151:01
was like and i at
151:02
the time i was like oh is he winning
151:03
because like you should you read the
151:05
headline you're like oh
151:06
so so they lost like twitch paid out 25
151:09
million dollars
151:10
there was a for explanation there was a
151:13
[ __ ] there was a guy that sued twitch
151:15
for 25 million dollars because of
151:17
provocative streamers because he had a
151:19
masturbation addiction
151:21
and or something like oh he had like a
151:22
second english
151:25
turkey oh no he he no it was it was that
151:30
it it's the f it's even funnier than
151:32
that uh it's that twitch
151:34
he sued twitch because twitch hosts
151:36
provocative streamers like pokemane
151:39
which make them which make him so
151:41
compelled to donate his money to
151:43
that he feels like he should sue and
151:46
that was his reasoning they were
151:47
explaining like
151:48
he was like saying that he had like
151:50
wrist issues after that
151:54
but then again that person in particular
151:56
is like he's known to like
151:57
he stood like blizzard before eric eric
152:01
something
152:02
his name was like eric something yeah
152:06
i don't know absolutely just just
152:08
hilarious
152:09
it's all great what's crazy is that they
152:11
made a lot of major headlines like
152:13
their newspapers published us yeah
152:15
because it's funny as hell
152:17
it's a completely nothing suit but it's
152:19
so funny what was the other what was the
152:21
uh behind the starbucks drama
152:23
oh like basically like there was like a
152:25
simple hey
152:26
like like basically there's a person
152:28
like uh who's known for commentary
152:30
channels they
152:31
you know they talk about like you know
152:32
they're free they speak their opinion
152:34
and everything like that right and then
152:35
basically they had stated that hey
152:38
um you know there's this person that's
152:40
like simping for
152:41
pokemon right okay like like hey like
152:44
give a thousand dollars
152:45
and oh yeah i'm gonna be homeless
152:48
tonight right but like hey
152:49
as long as i can like go to my starbucks
152:51
and then like at least
152:52
send the money to pokeman yeah cookie
152:54
squad or whatever like
152:55
they get their lives for it it sounds
152:57
like a name but really
152:59
for sure i think you know it might not
153:01
be true it just could be like
153:02
satirical right it could be right
153:09
yeah there's like that like 0.0 you know
153:13
like that just
153:14
tiny percentage of people that's like i
153:16
would do anything
153:21
like yeah so basically that uh he made a
153:24
20-minute video on it and then basically
153:25
what happened
153:26
was um pokemon she saw that video
153:30
right and then it necessarily wasn't
153:33
talking about her it was talking about
153:34
her sims
153:35
like basically you know the person and
153:37
then she was like oh wow
153:39
someone's gonna talk spend 20 minutes
153:42
make a 20 minute video
153:43
about me right about me it wasn't right
153:46
but
154:03
in all fairness in all fairness i'm on
154:05
whatever side keemstar isn't
154:08
uh i the guy
154:12
the guy i don't like he
154:15
well okay it's fine if you do all that
154:17
it's it's literally just like a
154:19
he makes good content but like as a
154:22
person
154:23
he's awful it's it's like
154:26
and you wouldn't know this a lot of the
154:28
times it's like because i was a i've
154:30
i've uh i followed keemstar's content
154:33
for a while
154:34
and i've seen it before before it does
154:36
provide like you know he has a very good
154:38
narrative in terms of like way of
154:39
persuading but then like once he's
154:40
caught in like
154:41
some stuff he just ignores it it's
154:43
really good it's
154:44
not even that there's it's it's it's a
154:46
very this is a very anecdotal thing but
154:48
it
154:49
it's one of those things that just shows
154:50
like keemstar's a piece of [ __ ]
154:52
uh he i think he there was a brief
154:54
period of time where he was hosting
154:56
minecraft mondays and obviously that's
154:58
sort of my
154:59
my community of people i wasn't i wasn't
155:02
in it i didn't do streaming at the time
155:03
it was a streaming event and you need to
155:05
hit certain numbers which i wasn't
155:07
streaming so i wouldn't be able to hit
155:09
so uh and it's called like an
155:11
invite-only thing anyway
155:13
so but what a cup one of my friends got
155:15
invited a few befriends
155:17
oh my god yeah
155:36
so this one of my friends uh got in
155:38
there and you get to bring a partner he
155:40
brought his friend in
155:41
these things just continued for a really
155:42
long time like uh just minecraft monday
155:45
weeks
155:45
but it became evident that keemstar
155:47
wasn't watching anything and then out of
155:48
the blue he decided to kick a bunch of
155:50
people that had applied for the event
155:51
that are in the group because there's a
155:52
big group chat
155:54
this and this was like pewdiepie was in
155:55
this james charles was on this
155:57
this is a big event
156:01
really into it like that just yeah that
156:03
was the whole thing some phase man
156:05
that's ruined it like
156:06
tons uh but there was some like
156:08
minecraft people that were in it too
156:10
and they did that one day keemstar like
156:14
weak
156:15
[ __ ] channels i don't know it was a
156:16
long way in
156:18
uh at least a month after it was like
156:19
he's he just kicked a bunch of people
156:21
that are in it
156:22
for no reason again because like he's
156:24
saying like they don't meet the they
156:25
don't meet the criteria for streaming i
156:26
don't know these people
156:27
it's like you run the event you're in
156:30
charge of
156:30
he he clearly just didn't like he didn't
156:33
give a [ __ ] about what was happening it
156:35
was literally just a money thing for him
156:37
like so g fuel would pay him to sponsor
156:39
the event it was [ __ ] stupid
156:40
either way yeah
156:46
yeah but then uh this whole thing
156:50
see and then after the fact this is the
156:52
bit that was [ __ ] up i mean clearly
156:54
like
156:54
keemstar not managing his events that he
156:56
runs that he says he puts so much time
156:58
and effort into when he doesn't even
156:59
look at who's competing in them
157:01
sure lying to an audience is one thing
157:04
whatever
157:04
content creators do that more than you'd
157:06
think um about their opinions or what
157:09
all the work they do vulva
157:10
um but like and then afterwards
157:14
my friend called him out on it because
157:15
he was one of the people that got one of
157:17
my friends called him out on it because
157:18
he was one of the people that got kicked
157:19
without any notice like half an hour
157:21
before the event started he got kicked
157:22
from it
157:23
no notice of it uh and he went off on
157:25
keemstar on twitter he made a youtube
157:27
video about him
157:29
to which that got his attention because
157:31
i think that youtube video got a couple
157:32
hundred thousand views that got
157:33
keemstar's attention
157:35
and keemstar went straight to calling
157:37
him a pedophile oh
157:38
doesn't know him doesn't know anything
157:40
about him starts sub tweeting about him
157:43
and says about says how he's
157:46
sent an undercover agent oh my god
157:49
i've sent the thing blah blah blah
157:51
welcome
157:54
snatch complete bs because like he said
157:56
something like it was on discord and the
157:57
guy's like i don't have a discord like
158:00
it's literally just lying making like
158:02
just trying to shut him down calling him
158:04
a pedophile keemstar sucks as a person
158:06
like he doesn't want to listen to anyone
158:08
else's opinions he doesn't like
158:09
criticism
158:10
he's willing to stoop to the level of
158:11
ruining someone's career over a
158:13
year like i don't know like when you
158:16
think about it right like
158:17
whatever he'd like trust he like really
158:18
coax people
158:20
he coaxed people into like like
158:21
releasing information maybe that's not
158:23
even comfortable or like anything like
158:25
that
158:26
and then like you know calling other
158:27
people pedophiles and then like after
158:28
that like out of nowhere without any
158:30
like
158:30
source or anything and he says that he's
158:32
news this is supposed to be africa
158:34
you know go watch scared
158:37
basically go upstairs everybody that
158:38
scares us
158:40
everybody's good everybody's scarce now
158:42
today we've got a big story for you guys
158:45
last week i tried
158:48
i don't i used to watch a lot of philip
158:49
defranco and i don't anymore because i
158:51
don't want
158:51
like the whole like i feel like watching
158:53
politics just kind of yeah
159:07
it's just to put as a
159:14
have you ever like swallowed like
159:17
all the red pills at once
159:21
you know a red pill you're supposed to
159:22
say like one red pill but
159:30
uh what else am i men's rights activist
159:34
uh british
159:48
no i'm [ __ ] okay
160:02
i guess i am single now i can start
160:03
hating women that'd be good oh my gosh
160:05
if i start hating women
160:07
wait hold on you have to be careful
160:09
because
160:11
you have to be careful because they're
160:12
going to be people you're saying
160:17
yeah you have to be careful because like
160:18
if that's the case right if you say that
160:20
you hate women right then that means
160:22
that you like
160:23
cross-dressing and then you have
160:26
it's like you putting the sneaky card
160:28
like oh whoops how did that get there
160:30
midway scroll oh
160:45
that's why i'm talking to you like this
160:47
i'm supposed to use
160:49
over here okay there's like there's
160:52
there's a certain level of like dude but
160:54
you dress like one wall
160:56
[ __ ] you aaron no
161:00
there's a certain level of like how much
161:02
stuff could i say with while people are
161:04
like taking me seriously
161:05
like what if how much stuff would people
161:07
get that's the problem when you think
161:08
about what's the problem with comedy
161:10
like there's so many like amazing comics
161:12
out there right but they're not
161:13
able to like really make it the best
161:16
most funniest thing
161:17
because their freedom of speech is being
161:21
limited by political things like i
161:24
like have you ever had like an instance
161:26
like where you wanted to make a joke but
161:28
you couldn't because
161:30
yeah definitely yeah because there's so
161:32
much like a blockage in your head where
161:34
it's like you're kind of like you're
161:35
about sliced me
161:36
like a content creator right oh [ __ ] i
161:39
used to
161:39
be able to say [ __ ] on youtube no i
161:41
can't say it anymore
161:42
yeah unless it's like a really uh like
161:45
it's obviously like it's a
161:47
so far fetched a joke like there's a
161:49
there's a good clip of me that someone
161:50
took it was like
161:52
like i literally have a thing of where i
161:53
go like i'm doing like i'm doing that
161:55
gender test
161:56
and there was like a question on there
161:57
that was like would you
161:59
would you uh like someone less if they
162:01
came out as gay and i was like and i
162:02
just made a joke about how that's insane
162:04
look it's just like
162:05
an insane thing to think like or just
162:08
like how
162:09
we're doing a test to see if you're
162:11
homophobic or something like that
162:13
and it's like the question is are you
162:15
homophobic
162:16
like it's i just thought that was funny
162:18
so i made a joke that was just like oh
162:20
i sure do hate the gays and someone
162:23
clipped it
162:38
i've never done anything of course not
162:42
i could never do that you didn't believe
162:43
that right i've never
162:45
yep oh god guys been said it then
162:49
said that absolutely and i believe
162:51
that's totally innocent too
162:53
so it's funny because i actually have no
162:55
idea what you have and have not done
162:57
i'm just going by like that's fine it's
162:59
perfectly fine
163:00
maybe like i don't know maybe one day
163:03
like
163:04
there'll be a montage of like
163:05
questionably innocent things
163:11
i say that because you know i i i you
163:14
know i cater to the people who don't
163:15
think about medicine too you know it's
163:17
sort of like you listen to the negative
163:18
comments
163:19
it returns back that
163:35
yeah it's kind of weird because i think
163:37
i've been saying for a while like just
163:38
someone cancel me because this is it's
163:41
like
163:42
well because it's just funny like i mean
163:45
if someone's gonna take like the
163:47
percentage of your audience that's like
163:48
that can't take a joke with like any of
163:51
that
163:52
who gives a [ __ ] i don't want you in my
163:54
audience if you're gonna like take what
163:55
i say out of context
163:57
[ __ ] you i don't care
164:05
no you're completely right you're
164:06
completely right about that if that's
164:08
the case like
164:08
why are they following you like yeah
164:14
like they're pushing their ideal uh
164:27
i guess i did some research like sure
164:28
it's offensive but also stupid is
164:30
equally offensive it's like i just
164:32
it's the it's one of those things that
164:34
just we've just picked a word to be
164:36
offensive
164:36
and sure give it like two years and i'll
164:38
probably look back on this boy yeah i'm
164:40
in the wrong here
164:41
um so i get that like i think it's
164:44
i think it's really important to have a
164:46
level of introspection
164:47
of like what you would like look outside
164:50
yourself look at look at like
164:52
from an outsider but i think like you
164:54
know like how society
164:56
plus is how language evolves like if you
164:58
were to
164:59
if you ever said [ __ ] like let's say
165:01
maybe 10
165:02
10 15 years ago it wouldn't mean that
165:05
normal
165:06
but now people are getting more
165:08
sensitive or like
165:10
you know like a lot more sensitive
165:13
nowadays
165:15
so it's basically
165:18
language change everything gets more and
165:20
less offensive uh
165:21
in like no one calls anyone on nancy
165:24
anymore
165:24
it used to be a pretty bad input
165:32
or even like even okay something like
165:34
fairly
165:35
like uh it's calling some calling like a
165:37
gay guy a fruit
165:38
like you don't hear that anymore it's
165:40
barely offensive it's more funny it's it
165:42
is really offensive but it's just
165:44
funny because that we don't use that
165:46
language anymore
165:50
yeah yeah i mean i haven't had that
165:59
i think there's like a weird amount of
166:00
like it depends what language you can
166:02
use because there's definitely like
166:04
friends that like
166:05
like uh my friend my friend came out to
166:07
me a while which by the way
166:09
fun fact if you plan on coming out
166:10
someone it's like a massive uh
166:12
it's like a really big uh compliment to
166:16
be
166:16
came out too you know what i mean like
166:18
if someone comes out to you it's like a
166:19
lot of trust they put in you
166:22
yes
166:31
yeah yeah however i have
166:35
because we are we're like as i said as
166:38
we were saying earlier like the whole
166:39
like
166:40
we had that friendship of insulting each
166:42
other i've definitely caught him a
166:43
[ __ ]
166:46
but no uh that's obviously you know but
166:50
it's because it's like
166:51
yeah it's such a harsh word that's like
166:55
no one in their right mind would call a
166:57
gay person that
166:58
as a as like an insult it's just so
167:01
incredibly [ __ ] up that it's only used
167:04
as like between friends
167:06
it's and that's always been my opinion
167:08
with like
167:09
offensive language like that is like
167:11
you'd never call that to someone
167:13
like you would take offense to it you'd
167:15
never say that someone that would take
167:17
offense to it which is
167:18
kind of it's kind of why i agree with
167:20
the people that like
167:22
uh it's kind of i agree with the people
167:24
that on twitter at least in a little bit
167:26
that i was probably in the wrong for
167:27
that because i didn't i said it to a
167:29
friend
167:30
but i also put it in front of millions
167:32
of people that's the thing that's the
167:33
thing
167:34
yeah that's the thing you kind of like
167:35
like that's the problem like
167:37
like you can never really like i guess
167:39
you could say you know yeah like
167:40
when you go to like like online social
167:43
media and you go to like
167:45
like irl stuff you have to be
167:48
careful especially if you get very very
167:50
popular you're very popular because if
167:51
that's the case you know
167:52
one thing a lot of people are going to
167:54
focus on the negatives
167:56
they're not really going to care about
167:58
how you are as a person like
168:00
in real real real life how you are with
168:02
your friends so i'm going to
168:03
care about about how you know that's why
168:06
some people say like hey
168:08
it's you better just like treat this as
168:09
like a job as like a
168:11
profession as opposed to like just
168:12
really being spicy
168:22
alone in the room and then pretend that
168:24
100 people like
168:25
2 000 3 000 people are not looking at
168:27
you and just be yourself yeah
168:30
no i like that i like the whole um
168:33
the i i i started twitch to try and be
168:36
more open with an audience like i feel
168:38
like if i can't
168:39
just it's not like an opinion that i
168:41
hold real daily it's like it's not like
168:44
a
168:44
it's like i'm not like i don't know i
168:46
don't think i have any controversial
168:48
opinions
168:49
in the grand scheme of things i think
168:50
just twitter's just being twitter
168:52
but yeah no i don't think i have any
168:54
controversial opinions i feel like
168:56
fairly like i can just say anything
168:58
with like any true statement i guess and
169:00
it's like it should be
169:01
i guess it's kind of expecting a lot to
169:03
just know that other people will know
169:05
when you're joking
169:06
if then if it's not very clear but some
169:10
you know you understand
169:12
there will be people there will be
169:13
haters you know as
169:15
like the higher you grow right it's you
169:18
know you will have haters depending on
169:19
what's the highest the highest
169:23
popular societal opinion at that point i
169:26
think
169:26
i think it was just weird being called
169:28
ableist like i had to google it
169:30
i was like oh [ __ ] because i said
169:32
because i said research i was like
169:34
this isn't but it's it's
169:45
because you know you have a lot of
169:46
people that follow you and like the
169:47
people that
169:48
do that they influence that's what i was
169:49
afraid of because like you know
169:51
i used to you know i live in new york so
169:53
i like there are a lot of things that i
169:56
have said in the past that i wouldn't
169:58
say right now especially in front of
170:00
like a public audience and like
170:01
it [ __ ] sometimes kills me it feels
170:03
like i'm selling
170:04
myself you know if that makes sense like
170:08
you
170:08
so like just being yourself and then
170:10
like really truly being yourself
170:17
it's it's a lot i like looking at things
170:19
there's a value like there's a reason
170:20
why people like uh pewdiepie
170:22
because like he's really quite genuine
170:24
uh
170:25
i feel like anyone can be genuine with
170:28
an audience as long as you're not
170:29
like holding back for some
170:32
some reason it's like if you're a nice
170:35
if you're a nice person and like you're
170:36
not afraid to like
170:37
just kind of talk about you know
170:40
personal stuff then
170:41
people form that like connection with
170:43
you which is cool
170:45
um but it does come with that little
170:48
cost of like
170:49
you might make people on twitter a
170:50
little bit mad sometimes
170:52
and i'm talking like the people that are
170:53
on about this got like what
170:55
70 likes like it's not that big of a
170:59
deal
171:00
um it's just like one of those things
171:02
like oh
171:04
this like fringed group of people think
171:06
i'm an awful person
171:08
well they're not following me on twitter
171:10
so i guess it's fine they don't watch my
171:12
content who cares
171:13
it's like they don't understand like
171:15
it's so funny like they don't get the
171:16
chance to
171:25
speaking of awful people on twitter
171:27
minks tweeted me
171:29
what a dick
171:35
guys guys please stop asking me to
171:36
stream with vince that he's toxic
171:38
and it's because i've messaged her
171:40
saying um she there's a there's a
171:42
there's a musician that she likes i said
171:43
i didn't i don't like it
171:48
oh my god finn what's your favorite food
171:52
uh or like type of cuisine like
171:56
italian italian actually what's your
171:59
least favorite food
172:00
that i don't like i don't like tart
172:04
i don't like to either think of
172:05
something else
172:08
like something something that i like
172:13
hate
172:14
italian food i change my mind pastas
172:16
sucks oh my god
172:19
finn is so toxic
172:23
i'm saying on live stream finn is so
172:25
toxic because
172:26
they hate italians who kind of love
172:28
italian food
172:31
so so be mad at him everyone witch hunt
172:34
which which one this person then raise
172:37
your hand so we make sure you know that
172:38
you know
172:39
which one
172:46
it was not it was not even someone on
172:47
the austin show someone on radge at
172:49
ranch's show that was like
172:50
a singer he was doing a talent show and
172:53
they're called there's a guy called
172:54
peter that she was really she got drunk
172:56
in the stream and i was like really into
172:58
peter
172:59
and uh i uh the heck in
173:03
yeah i think in the the i i voted for
173:07
him in round one
173:08
and then he didn't do that well in round
173:09
two and then i dm'ed her and i was i
173:12
didn't oh
173:12
we were talking dm's i was like i'm i'm
173:14
gonna say it
173:15
i didn't vote for peter in round two and
173:18
she says
173:19
i'm gonna say i think you should burn in
173:22
hell
173:27
is one of those streamers that makes me
173:29
feel self-conscious of being
173:30
like dude she's so [ __ ] funny like
173:33
there are streamers like this youtubers
173:35
that are like holy [ __ ] i can't compete
173:37
minx is one of the streamers like damn
173:40
[ __ ] fun
173:41
but you you vibe with them like at least
173:43
you know they're able to like
173:44
like like send you a dm like you're
173:46
toxic but like do you think like
173:48
everything
173:48
seriously or like are you no no one's
173:51
taking you seriously
173:52
it's it's this that's the i think that's
173:55
a better relationship
173:58
yeah like as you say like you know like
174:00
i i'd like to be honest i feel
174:01
comfortable like
174:03
like making fun of people who i [ __ ]
174:06
with if i don't [ __ ] with them i don't
174:07
make fun of you
174:09
i don't know
174:12
it's like a bit of a playful playful
174:15
teasing
174:15
for uh for people that you like it's
174:17
nice and like like that the gym where i
174:20
said that person that followed me on
174:21
twitter that was like um
174:23
an interesting so the person the person
174:26
that did only fans like a
174:27
crusher or something i might i was i
174:30
didn't follow them back because it was
174:31
oh they unfollowed me
174:34
what the [ __ ] oh i guess that explains
174:37
well
174:38
i think i i think they would maybe try
174:40
to get i mean i didn't follow them
174:43
uh but they uh because i didn't want to
174:45
be like
174:46
it's it's definitely it's like someone
174:48
does only fans and they're popular
174:49
because
174:49
they get only fun it's like i don't want
174:52
to follow
174:53
because everyone's gonna like if someone
174:54
notices that i follow me you're like why
174:56
is finn following this person that does
174:57
only for this
174:58
dress that there's anything people make
175:00
something so i'd message them
175:02
because my message goes straight to them
175:03
on twitter because if they follow me
175:05
and i think i said something like hello
175:07
hello fellow fanboy hooters applicants
175:16
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175:19
like first of all like when you say that
175:20
right and then like you know
175:23
i'm pretty sure you have a lot of pmc a
175:25
lot of things like i was actually
175:26
surprised like
175:27
i remember like going to my friend's
175:29
list on discord and then being like holy
175:31
[ __ ] look open yeah
175:33
it was awesome you weren't through your
175:37
final list
175:37
holy [ __ ] yeah i went through my i don't
175:39
have a lot of friends
175:42
oh
175:49
and then from that point the way that we
175:51
started talking about dms was because
175:53
the score bumps up uh the most recent
175:56
accepted friends
175:58
oh hey you
176:01
did you send me a dm i'm sorry yeah
176:04
yeah i'm ready i was like oh no
176:08
i explained that day like oh and then
176:10
that point just
176:11
kept on talking from there and then like
176:14
i happened to be free like
176:16
i was thinking like oh my god
176:20
you know i know that they're busy i'm
176:22
not going to contribute
176:31
dude you know how many people like just
176:33
don't get it
176:34
there's a bunch of uh there's a bunch of
176:36
people that like i'll be
176:38
i'll stop even i'll start being friends
176:40
with someone and then i'll kind of like
176:41
explain like hey
176:43
i'm like usually when i make friends
176:45
it's like with a thing of like
176:47
i'm i like have a free period of time
176:49
where i'm not doing anything like even
176:50
today like
176:51
today i used it for editing and tomorrow
176:53
i'm gonna record a video and get some
176:55
work done but like
176:56
tomorrow i'm gonna i'm not unless you're
176:58
not gonna talk to anyone all day i'll be
176:59
busy no that's probably i always explain
177:01
to them
177:01
i always explain to them i'm like hey
177:03
i'm not gonna be this free
177:04
this is like an exception to this like
177:06
i'm i always fight and then i'm like
177:09
no trust me i get it like 100 i get it
177:12
like i understand the lifestyle and then
177:15
immediately afterwards it becomes a
177:17
problem
177:17
because they don't get it then i agree
177:20
with you
177:21
that because that's what you're like i'm
177:23
in the same way
177:24
i'm the same way because like sometimes
177:26
there are people like
177:27
you know like that's why i tell like
177:29
anyone who's on chat or like anyone
177:31
who's like
177:31
music right like hey i do not reply to
177:33
like my dms like
177:34
to be honest i guess like for it has to
177:38
like maybe
177:39
i would say it interests me or like i
177:41
have to like
177:42
really be you know there's sometimes
177:43
where i tell people like if you write me
177:45
an email right
177:46
and if i don't reply to it i apologize
177:48
for like you know i i already made it
177:51
i do i wish i could give you that time
177:52
button focusing on other things and i
177:54
hope that
177:55
you'll be able to understand that if
177:57
they don't and they get mad at me for it
177:59
then they just you could even that could
178:02
be
178:03
it could be a full-time job if i replied
178:05
to absolutely everyone it would be the
178:06
day
178:07
every day you just can't like the
178:09
information that people running
178:11
and that's just messaging them back once
178:12
if you message everyone back once but if
178:14
you message someone back
178:16
they're gonna want a conversation and
178:18
now that you've got [ __ ]
178:19
50 conversations running yeah like
178:23
like like it's like switching to like
178:27
if you get 50 emails right and you want
178:28
to reply to all of them right you have
178:30
to switch likes to different
178:30
personalities like oh how do i talk
178:32
about this bringing like i think
178:33
what's your relationship with this
178:34
person like oh then the next thing you
178:36
know you're [ __ ]
178:37
you're not bipolar you're like [ __ ]
178:39
50 or whatever
178:41
you don't want to give like the shitty
178:42
response of just like a one
178:44
line or one word question oh answer
178:46
because like
178:47
it's seen as like [ __ ] you it's almost
178:49
better sometimes not you know
178:50
it's [ __ ] youtube's issues anything
178:53
to do with like
178:54
the social media
178:57
that's the thing that comes you know i
179:00
guess you could say
179:01
success or popularity it's like
179:05
it's not that we don't want to replace
179:06
us that we wish if there were like 50
179:08
pins like
179:09
yeah if i had a team on it yeah it would
179:13
be nice
179:14
dude i just thought i want to go back to
179:16
a previous conversation
179:17
you know we were talking about like
179:18
talking about like the thing of uh
179:21
you get so used to like uh comments and
179:23
stuff like that you kind of like
179:24
become numb you get jaded to them yeah
179:26
right but
179:28
the other thing what if it just all went
179:30
away like what if it just stopped
179:32
i feel like that would be that'd be so
179:34
weird right oh it wouldn't
179:35
be so weird i feel like you'd be like
179:37
kind of like
179:39
i feel like i'm so used to it now that
179:42
like i can't really imagine
179:44
what it'd be like without it it feels
179:46
like it'd be like
179:47
it's like a part of my life and i don't
179:49
even remember when it became the part of
179:50
my life it's so weird
179:52
like i'm trying just
180:08
the most easiest way to think about it
180:09
is like hey chris but you're still doing
180:11
your stuff and it works
180:12
then wow holy [ __ ]
180:15
wow yeah if you're not thinking then
180:17
maybe hey is this
180:19
a conspiracy or something like that i
180:22
don't think
180:26
maybe like maybe all your fans like or
180:29
like everyone who follows you
180:31
actually listens to you and they like
180:32
they consider the fact that hey you're
180:34
busy but then again i
180:36
it's sometimes good sometimes it's good
180:38
to get a random message from like
180:39
someone who appreciates what you do
180:42
i guess it just depends on the amount
180:44
like let's say you're let's say you're
180:46
at
180:46
half a million half a million
180:48
subscribers right really
180:58
um but no one messages you right like
181:03
okay i'm doing anything right
181:04
everything's going right but then again
181:05
i'm not like no one's really messaging
181:07
me
181:07
so you know no one's showing their
181:09
appreciation that's the thing it's sort
181:11
of like saying like hey
181:12
i make all these videos right people
181:14
subscribe to me but i don't hear their
181:16
voices
181:17
it's like being deaf it's like being
181:19
that there's people like that
181:21
there's you know like kids kids channels
181:24
are like that
181:25
because because they have to be if
181:26
that's the case it's gonna be weird
181:28
like when someone's like a five-year-old
181:31
messaging you
181:32
and then you're like hypothetically a 30
181:34
year old 35 year old messaging okay
181:37
speculation there is that but i mean
181:40
like they don't even know about it like
181:42
there's
181:42
there's channels that i've seen that's
181:43
like oh [ __ ] they've got
181:46
five million subscribers but they make
181:48
like really uh content
181:50
like aimed at children like turns 10
181:52
kids and they've got like
181:54
3 000 twitter followers like it's the
181:57
ratios
181:58
it's just because like the audience is
181:59
just that young they just
182:01
the platforms they just don't translate
182:05
it's because five-year-olds uh are
182:08
they they don't know what twitter is
182:10
they don't know drama exactly
182:12
like it's not really weird they're like
182:14
that person's like just kind of going
182:16
through they see the views and they get
182:17
the money for it but like they never
182:19
interact with their
182:20
although they like the interactions with
182:22
fans is less than like what i would
182:24
interact with it's because uh because
182:26
the way that they
182:27
when when like if you talk about me in
182:29
here right where i guess you could say
182:31
personality and influence there's
182:32
changes right
182:34
we provide you know like the reason why
182:36
people like
182:37
like [ __ ] with us hypothetically like
182:40
whatever is because of the way that we
182:44
talk the way that we talk the way that
182:45
we interact with you is the way that
182:47
our style our style of like content yeah
182:51
i have more styles i have more style
182:53
than you i look way better of course
182:55
yeah
182:56
um
183:19
does box box still do stuff i haven't
183:22
heard his name in a while
183:23
i mean for box boxes
183:27
they were like really good like their
183:29
editing and stuff was like really really
183:30
good
183:31
uh i remember like standing next to the
183:33
box that's what's
183:34
all oh [ __ ] no he didn't he definitely
183:36
split this i just looked he's like oh
183:37
yeah
183:38
oh you know like i'm telling you like
183:39
when voxbox picks you up at the airport
183:41
right
183:41
he's gonna [ __ ] make fun of you
183:45
he's gonna sit down now we're at the
183:46
same height
183:51
the yeah i was i just lo i was like oh i
183:53
haven't heard of him though and i
183:54
googled him i was like i
183:55
i use i searched his youtube channel i
183:56
was like oh he uploaded three days ago
183:58
and got two hundred thousand views okay
183:59
yeah he's just doing
184:00
something he's really really fun like
184:04
like i think like when he has the
184:06
cosplay across like mentality so it
184:08
makes it even funnier
184:10
i think people sometimes seem to think
184:12
too serious
184:15
so they maybe they're beautiful but
184:18
he's live right now
184:32
[Music]
184:34
oh he's playing uh code vane
184:40
i've never heard of it
184:44
oh yeah i saw someone playing this i
184:47
remember
184:48
specifically i like the animations it's
184:50
so good
184:52
i think there might be a part too but
184:53
like it's really really fun
184:55
i would say like i would like other than
184:58
minecraft like you like
185:00
building games like what's your like i
185:03
like
185:03
with annoyingly enough i fit into a
185:05
category at all because i
185:07
i play a lot of factoria factorio and uh
185:11
heck in
185:12
i mean i play pubg cs go as well but
185:15
thank you
185:27
yeah [ __ ] man i feel like it's getting
185:30
it will do it i've been still on the
185:31
stream i probably should go to bed
185:34
yeah by all means then you know first of
185:35
all thank you thank you for uh
185:37
stopping by thanks for letting me [ __ ]
185:40
talk on your stream and being a
185:41
therapist
185:42
for me
185:58
mean i'm gonna i'm gonna go and message
186:00
you again for um
186:02
for help with a voice learning your
186:04
voice so yeah i mean like yeah we could
186:06
we can do that like
186:07
nana is really good too if maybe one day
186:09
like if you know me or not
186:12
or something like that or uh you know if
186:15
we can order
186:15
one maybe i'll do a stream where i try
186:17
and learn it try and
186:19
i'll learn it in one hour i can do that
186:21
right i mean
186:24
it depends on what you're looking for
186:25
but hey you know it's
186:28
less pressure the only idea is that you
186:31
think you're speaking to a house too
186:32
really but if it's like a one on one
186:35
it's the possible thing
186:36
so yeah as long as i can fool people and
186:40
i make all that's all i need uh
186:42
uh yeah oh i'll i'll uh what might be
186:45
getting
186:45
before you go okay let's just say like
186:49
are you casey like one two three
186:54
clothes and your girlfriend it's gonna
186:57
sound like mickey mouse i'm not gonna do
186:58
it
186:59
i refuse to why because i i refuse
187:02
for it to be the thing that my parents
187:04
wake up to today
187:08
you have to do that but okay yeah we can
187:10
go definitely go over
187:11
uh like i've been actually been thinking
187:13
about like future mega ideas as well
187:15
uh just uh like maybe
187:18
like you know how we have like i'll help
187:22
you out with a michael recording you
187:23
help me
187:24
out with the voice it's a big equal
187:25
right no yeah we can do that
187:27
but i'm like oh my god like so much like
187:29
look how we have like this stuff now
187:31
this is just hypothetically speaking
187:32
before like [ __ ] send you off um
187:34
yeah do you have a green screen i don't
187:38
kind of be thinking about that but when
187:40
we do if you ever do right
187:42
you'd like to just you know just
187:44
hypothetical
187:45
ideas like we can meddle together
187:49
at the same time
188:03
yeah we're girlfriends and stuff like
188:06
that we're here looking for like a voice
188:07
are you like some [ __ ] like that
188:09
yeah it's just an idea it's my other
188:12
girlfriend she doesn't speak she's
188:14
mute no your voice will i think
188:17
i can get your voice to transmit
188:27
[Music]
188:33
to all four of you like that i'll take
188:36
my truck in the nile
188:38
uh it's very enjoyable
188:44
it's been a while since i've been myself
188:47
uh but yeah everyone
188:48
uh please follow finn at
188:53
www.google.com
188:56
twitch or youtube also follow their
188:58
instagram and stuff like that they're
189:00
gonna be coming up with more cross blade
189:02
dress content it's been a pleasure
189:04
thanks for finding me on for this
189:08
no it was fun like to be honest with you
189:10
like oh god my my weekend went by so
189:12
fast
189:13
like really i had to like get my mind
189:15
out of track but
189:17
i think it's been great i think that for
189:18
the people who are here like who
189:19
normally come over here it's
189:21
definitely an experience finn thank you
189:22
so much get some sleep
189:24
uh anytime like if you're when i want to
189:26
message or anything talk about anything
189:27
right now i'll be down
189:32
a lot of stuff but there's a lot of
189:33
things that i want to say but i can't
189:34
say because
189:35
i need to get my food straight
189:39
we'll message you about it afterwards
189:40
your friends talk to we'll probably
189:41
we'll probably message
189:43
off stream as well but no doubt i'm
189:45
gonna go i'm gonna go
189:46
i'm gonna go i'm gonna go pass out and
189:48
maybe make a snack before i pass out
189:50
something i'll see you there