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let's go
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one year
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f1nl [Music]
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three months
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oh damn [Music]
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let's go [Music]
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thank you foreign [Music]
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foreign [Music]
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champ I'm trying to rip the [ __ ] stitches out of my ass
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Tuesday stream there's a stitch that I want it's real itchy when it when you
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that's hold on this is a pain in the this is a pain Hold On Spot us this I I was wearing my skirt
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and I was like this [ __ ] [ __ ] the back of my like you know okay you know your tailbone and [ __ ] months punk I
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that's it's so sensitive my tailbone is so sensitive right it's a [ __ ] scratchy
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aggravating [ __ ] 10 months uh tag so I'm [ __ ] cutting it out hold on
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there's two right by my one of them is on my [ __ ] bro 23 months already
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to know the washing instructions dude I don't care I don't wash my clothes what
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are they stupid who doesn't have my God anyway
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hold on what the [ __ ] why are you just gifting Subs now I'm listening to
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fireflies labels of the back there's labels everywhere you just where's the state
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Tripper I have a knife why would I use a stitch Ripper when I have a knife a stitch Ripper is what um old women use
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because they don't want to buy a knife because they're too scared and trembly
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okay that was me okay right I don't have any uh hate towards the
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showing profession but you know quit being [ __ ] you know uh
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[ __ ] hold up so you don't rip the fabric I don't care if I rip the fabric guys 20
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I'm ripping is like right the thing that I'm ripping is the safety shorts and I'm sure obviously you guys would
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not want a hole in the safety shorts what if what if some what if you saw something you know that'd be awful
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where the [ __ ] okay hold on I'm gonna put on a little bit of music just for just for half a minute
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one minute [Music]
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foreign [Music]
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[Music] two months already less than three
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[Music] Frieza left the dangle window open
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where he's left the jidang window open and spiders get in
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[Music]
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three months baby let's go can I get her here
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oh by the way you know you asked about the dragonfly thing it's basically
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there's a there's a thing there's a there's a channel on YouTube called 8-bit universe and I'm totally not just
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stealing my content um it's it's it's just on there every song that I play is on there because it's skirts copyright because you know
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[Music] it's very good anyway fellas
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I look so I look okay look I did a photo shoot today I had a uh it was the most
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boring photo shoot that could have possibly been the most boring photo shoot on Earth
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ah okay hold on let me quickly like let me let me just show you me I'll explain I
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look so I look so manly
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so you know okay look I know I look a little more masculine
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than usual but I'm sorry I had business to attend to
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so last day as a sub what a time to share the recipe
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there's something after this um like a couple days of not uh like a
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couple days after the eyelashes have been put on is like Peak you know
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oh oh so popular having a great day less than three and Finn no you don't look
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manly at all amount [Music] are my muscles genuinely getting smaller
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no surely not hold on one minute I gotta
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look I gotta Google a thing I gotta look something up one minute one minute hold on uh
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Finster muscle
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what are they
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definitely clocking feminine as per usual d
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what happened what the [ __ ] it's not Photoshop by the way it's just
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a screenshot from a string damn well I gotta work out again too hard
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oh I figured it out holy [ __ ] you know that one Rick and Morty episode
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similar right and I figured out how I'm posing hold on I figured it out I figured out how I was posing okay cool
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no never mind never mind never mind pretty good pretty good still got the muscle mass let's go let's go
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um I was gonna say Jesus I look so strong there um pretty cool pretty cool too much
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testosterone sorry bro where's my hold on let me
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so much I gotta like I gotta start working out more I want to be the I want to be a muscle muscle man
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[ __ ] anyway nothing I know this might come as a surprise but taking hit
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bro how's the voice uh what voice what is the [ __ ] does that mean the voice like
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you mean the voice training I mean I don't know what the [ __ ] do you mean but so okay uh
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I got a DM from Kim literally uh at 6 30 p.m today tomorrow so
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what oh a random thing that I found on Etsy pretty cool right I don't usually buy things I don't usually buy just
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shirts chat okay Technic look okay technically
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it's not a girl shirt it's a unisex shirt but when I took it but I saw it and I I
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wanted it when I took it into a skirt it's gonna look cute okay
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when I talked it into the skirt it looked cute I think it's fine
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I gotta do this [ __ ] I'm [ __ ] look let me let me have my [ __ ] Bishop shut okay let me let me be a guy please
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please pretty please it's a berserk it's berserk it gets past
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is that cute [ __ ] yeah so in all it takes is Anime and I get to do what I want nice
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okay you look cute and you look cute also it reminds me of like of every girl
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that wears their boyfriend's shirt
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listen I don't get a couple listen I don't this is my fashion taste I don't get complimented on shirts that I own
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hitch I am live streaming like right now oh my God okay one minute
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okay it was fine dude whenever um whenever I'm [ __ ] uh
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dude whenever I got a call from [ __ ] dude I'm gonna call from these people Jesus Christ something's gone wrong it's
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one of my employees actually it's the person that's been bullying me okay I don't know if you've checked my uh oh
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God God what do you want to hear okay chat what do you want to hear about first my uh my my employees my staff
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members uh bullying me or do you want to hear about the photo shoot I did today
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also hold on
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[Music] okay let's go it's pretty 50 50. fine
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bullying listen so okay uh you guys haven't met him oh no you might have met him uh hitch is uh
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the one of my longest known uh friends online and I know you're not supposed to hire your friends and it's probably
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gonna go wrong but I did and they're like management and um like they basically manage me 16
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months and the problem with that is the problem with that is I'm not allowed to be late to anything now which involved
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me yeah okay so on on my Instagram I did this story for it I'm not allowed to be
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late to anything now and I was late to record an intro clip so what I had to do at [ __ ] two or three in the morning
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is get fully dressed up and hitch insisted insisted that it must be must
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be like full makeup it can't just be like a quick thing just wear the dress have the eyelashes no makeup no it's
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gonna be the full thing it's always like [ __ ] got fully dressed up at 3am for no one
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other than to record One Voice line she's a little bastard can I get a middle finger in champ for
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hitch chat can I get a quick can I get some middle fingers
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middle finger emojis please I don't like that you're descending Hearts instead of the middle fingers
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yeah we got a few [ __ ] you hitch [ __ ] you head
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uh 30 months that's better that's more like it I've been Subs so long I can still
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remember when you looked like a guy anyway thanks it's been fun
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I do look like a guy I just I just grew my hair out a little bit
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look okay come on and then if I sit
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hold on one minute one minute give me a sec
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hold on oh [ __ ] hold on hold on give me it stop
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is it working I post like a how do I position my face
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like a dude
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that was okay it's just the eyelashes Madness
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I can't do it I can't do it man okay I could do I could stop lesbian bro
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it's just that you've seen this so you've visualized that gamer girl do you know where our princess is
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still oh sorry uh hold up so
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yeah the uh why am I doing them bro that's just embarrassing why did I
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do like a like a deep voice you like how um you know like how like when okay you know when bro that's impressed sorry you
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aren't like a you know what like a like I did a guy voice like what the [ __ ] was that
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you know when girls do an impression of a guy and they they go yeah bro like they do that I did that thanks for all
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the content you create definitely makes my days better heart
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I think I was looking at me and then going I gotta try a little harder to act like
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a guy I'm not you know anyway so where did I put it oh okay
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where the [ __ ] is this so
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fellas fellas it's too late don't even try I'm working
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on it hey Hobbit what the [ __ ] okay fellas let me tell you about what I did today
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it's the only thing I did today besides a Minecraft video it's also I was the TV head from the stream the other day
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thanks for the 10 on the outfit Camp tie 1831 hardcap Thai
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1831 heartcap Thai 1831 heart [ __ ] yeah dude the TV Dude
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the TV had one was [ __ ] awesome you are so cute today thank you and um
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I kind of am so okay let me tell you about what I did you may read it in the title so today
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I wanna I I so you may remember wait Chad how much did you guys give me to do the uh how much did you guys give me to
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do a uh girls driver's license photo
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I suggest you play the stories for chat there is a thread about them on Reddit you want me to you want me to play the
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stories before we get into it do you want me to play the stories
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let's see I know the one you want me to show
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[Laughter] sorry I posted I posted something on Reddit and um
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I think people liked it quite a lot where are they
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what the [ __ ] it's my exact wig hold on my exactly wake my exact beanie
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as well where where did I do it holy [ __ ] that's a lot of upvotes
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where's the thread about it is there a thread oh okay so
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I know the one oh Helen linked it [ __ ] okay is it this one I know the one that you want me to show
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um so this is this is the explanation that I gave fused it is
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5 a.m right now and I got dressed up fully because my
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this is by the way I don't know why this is so good on blurry but this is like the 24 hour lip stain [ __ ] and it's
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still not completely off I have an assistant now called hitch [ __ ] you I know you're watching this [ __ ] you who
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absolutely insisted insisted that I get 100 fully stream ready
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24-hour [ __ ] red lipstein the last like years
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chat with me I'm not I'm not seeing your support first for this [ __ ] chat
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[ __ ] him to record One Voice line in a video for the intro it's coming out
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tomorrow thank you I'm being bullied by my employees please help me [ __ ] you hit I'm just kidding
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they're not employees they don't have rights they're contractors legally they're not employees they're uh
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they're subclined anyway so uh here's the other stuff I posted here storm that was beforehand very nice
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um then there's the next one and they say one month's party yeah I I did this
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little video very nice here's the here's me posing very nice
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I did look very good would you like a cookie they are pumpkin spice and then and then um
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listen you haven't felt a little cute before you know you know if I lose and I look good if the setup was there [ __ ] it
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why not you know uh so it was pretty good it was pretty good right so
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yeah so anyway that was that story anyway um
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Rose beautiful as always the FM boy UK is starting to rival you see his last
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stream I'll let him bro let him I've uh I'm I'm I appreciate the Rivalry rival
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why why would we I want to fight someone someone's got to get up to my level before I can [ __ ] start like getting
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in a boxing ring with them you know I like to let people uh I I like the I like to let people on organically grow
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see what they do and then I can [ __ ] fight them in real life just like I did juicy boy kicked his ass
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that's why he's so short I knocked her foot off his height by doing that like Donkey Kong bonked him to the ground and
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that's why he's four foot two uh
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anyway so um tell juicy boy sorry oh I just I said oh
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God you're looking for a tick tock Club because he's on takes like okay there's um so uh me and juicy boy went on a date
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uh we went to we went to my favorite restaurant in Birmingham and now we met up I texted him beforehand how wait how
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tall are you and he refused to tell me until I got there and then I got out the cab and then very loudly went [ __ ] me
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you are sure hey
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I know we went to dinner and we had a great time we had like a three hour uh lunch
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um and it was great talked about just everything it was a great great guy I did call him short to his face and in
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public though um so juicy anyway
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um ah just posted a selfie on Instagram yeah yeah this one oh my God Helen
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what are you what are you Lincoln oh yeah
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there's there's me and him you can tell how just gargantuan I am you know like when you see like a monster in the
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background like with uh like in the mountains and they're sort of like faded out a little bit like the parallel like
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uh this is me standing about five meters back from juicy like I am really far away because he
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wanted us to be like almost like head level wow so many months I'm just a very big guy and uh
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I'm just kidding I can't do Juicy's makeup I can't even like I I don't think I could stand Juicy's makeup like on my
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face because he's very good at it which usually means that he's using a lot of it and I can't do it so let me tell you
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about today because it leads into it um I have my makeup right now is a
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little bit more natural a little bit more normal a little bit more day-to-day you might not even be able to tell I'm wearing any because I'm
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naturally like this um you keep posting these stories so people click on Reddit that's good yeah
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that's fine I like I like it when they do that also I like the quick little notes it's nice much love Chief it's 24K
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[ __ ] hell what that it was twenty four thousand dollars for the girl license bottom
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Jesus well I'm glad I did it well I'll tell you about it though so okay I
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didn't know this but apparently um more than 24. how much was it the girl
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license photo uh
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go use writing to the service I'll put it down 30k
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was it okay [ __ ] all right listen okay I'm not
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gonna get an answer so here's what I did today you guys decided that you wanted to pay me uh well okay you guys decided
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that you wanted me to uh have a uh goals driver's license you know
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I think I I remember it being like 20 to 25k 20 uh something like that so
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um I said sure but I'm gonna charge you a [ __ ] lot because that's the you
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know driver's license I have to show to everyone when I want to get something so it also means that I have to sort of look like that in order to get anything
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or I bring my [ __ ] like passport along with everything and no before you ask I'm not changing my goddamn passport
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ever for any amount of money um hello Mommy can Rose come out to play
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with chat today maybe maybe I might upgrade the makeup a little bit lesson
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story bro how are you so on top of this [ __ ]
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Helen okay well all right this is good imagery so
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all right so I've got a friend uh I don't want to mention him I don't know because he's got a special job so
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um I've Got a Friend a photographer friend that I've worked with before a ton he was the he was the person it's my very first photo shoot right
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um and since then if I ever need to something to look good or I ever need me to look good or merch look good I will
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go to him and he's great so I decided if I'm gonna do if I'm gonna
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take a picture and set it as my dvla official driver's license photo that
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sticks around for like how long is that like five years I'm not changing my name or pronouns on my on my legal dot no
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um it was 69 it was 16 it two it was 26 969.
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nice pretty pretty cool okay so you know what I decided I want
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to do it well but I have I I'm really sorry I can't show you it
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like I'm not I can't show you what it is yet
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but it's good it's pretty good [ __ ] I can't show
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you what it is yet so I went over to I went over to hold on I went over to Ace's house
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um and I I took uh oh [ __ ] whoops I think it's fine I've talked about this before but anyway I went over to his
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house uh we took photos they're they're my they're my fellow is look at him he's great I had to sensor out his feet
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um scam I knew a Moya would be watching nope so
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the uh oh I got my driver's test photo it was the most boring photo shoot either as I've been a part of but we had
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fun it was just I did my makeup Pretty Natural because you can't go like overboard there's no edits to this photo
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this is so far the most natural photo the most like there's there's nothing there's no
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like that it's a [ __ ] I just got used the camera that's it
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don't say scam I can't show you it I just can't I just can't show you it it's for a good reason though it's for a
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very good reason I can apply for it online now how long does it take to get it changed change drivers I literally
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did it I did it at 2PM today I haven't looked until 3 P.M today I haven't looked into it uh
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photo change how do I do that
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stop saying scam bro no shush find a driver's license
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okay ah dude oh God is this gonna make me change my [ __ ] passport
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oh
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how do I do this
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oh wait do I need to use my draw my passport [ __ ] if I have to change my
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[ __ ] passport I'm I'm not gonna do it I'll try hold on this doesn't feel like it's the right
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place I'm trying to I'm trying to don't say scam I'm gonna I'm doing it look listen it's been taken the photo has
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been taken stop saying don't stop calling me a scam look I'll show you no I'm not gonna show you
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um change it in person you can't do your password uh you know
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how to do your license how do I do it I can't show you yeah I can show you it but not now I I I need
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an answer from them of if it if they're gonna let me do it because here's a here's two problems number one I did
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something that they're definitely not gonna like and I can't tell you what it is because
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it's so funny and I want to save it that's why the other thing is that these
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eyelashes are definitely not allowed right like they can't be we were looking
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it we were looking at it and they can't be allowed there's no way that they'll let it through
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there's no way now mate tons of girls get those yeah but like on a driver's license photo
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because they're gonna say like I don't know you could go to the main post office how
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do I do it I can always print it out but I've got the actual like file how do I do it I
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don't know how to do it to renew online do I have to renew otherwise to apply by post by post
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ah this is gonna suck
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do not sign the back of the photo photo oh okay I can I think how long does it take you to do it
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okay I just have to print it out I think yeah I am giggling a lot because he
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figures something very important about the photo and you'll probably figure too there were a few things that were
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supposed to be on the pick Pepe Lahey figure oh [ __ ] what
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yeah that's what I'm on oh no I wasn't that's a good thank you thank you stuff
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oh and I was on this because the first start now when I was weird
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go driver's license application Mr of the title can I just write anything
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in there doctor bro I can just be a duck what
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what is it I know that I was gonna say I could wear a choker but there's litter I looked it up and there's no [ __ ] way
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that's gonna happen I don't think it's possible to do and I'm already I'm doing a thing that you'll like more
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okay I'm doing a thing you'll like more cutie trust you gotta trust me on this okay it's really good
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um no not doctor that's actually a crime if I put doctor okay you're telling me if I
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start calling myself Dr Finster then it's a crime it's a crime to impersonate medical
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staff didn't think so lock me up then
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because I'm gonna doctor what if they let it through though
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what if they let it through though
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okay like what if someone what if someone what if I get lucky and I like they [ __ ] up and it's and they do print like doctor
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who can't do that [ __ ] hell
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you are stupid I'm not let me do it why are you guys so
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mean to me it's fraud ah frauds more let me [Music]
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what else can I do Reverend I could be a reverend
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uh I'm changing I want to be a reverend
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oh [ __ ] uh I have uh technically I'm in two different houses
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I don't know what I'll just do the old one I'll just do the old one I can always run oh no should I do the new one
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no I'll do the old one I've got to be here for like six months oh [ __ ]
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uh why can't I try MX General neutral I
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don't wanna also I think you actually have to change your identity it's not just like change this thing if you ever like wanted to do it
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oh hell yeah okay next how many years have you lived here two
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I'm gonna guess hey chat how long ago was how long ago did I move in here do you guys remember
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you're officially a lady no check my DM check stuff DM oh you're gonna warn me about not using
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doctor oh here have some doubloons
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I need to go into the actual passport I need to go into the actual post office physically to just do the driving
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license I can't change it online
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what the [ __ ] I can't I can't get it changed online unless I change my passport photo
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brother why oh that sucks that blows what the [ __ ]
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that blows God damn it so do that too
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chat chat I need to travel like worldwide I'm not gonna put I'm not
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gonna look like this for my [ __ ] passport photo
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I can get away with awkward social interaction in England I want to present my passport to the agent in Dubai and
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they're going to go I don't know about you buddy you know uh I don't
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particularly want to take that that chance uh why not guess
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my God so you know you really look like a girl well you know what if I wanna what if I
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want a guy mode for a while you know what if I want to like you ever got you're never gonna go to
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Dubai what if I am though what if I have plans
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to okay I don't have plans to do that in for like years but I do plan to
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I do plan to I gotta I got a plan got an idea
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also you can shoot a case over there you can shoot guns over there and there's a better chance of me getting in
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there than America and there might be a better chance of me surviving so who knows Dubai isn't that interesting
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they've got that big tower that's kind of the nice thing about it you'll have more viewers than amaranth
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right now it's probably because she just started a stream it's not really you know amaranth goes offline you know
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you've got more viewers than amaranth right now hold on I bet you it no she has seven thousand what the [ __ ] are you on about
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anyway um not even true yeah so anyway Dubai is the tallest no what
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tallest North American suburb Dubai is the tallest North America what the [ __ ]
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yeah the golfer girly license photo was ended in was ended at twenty seven thousand and forty two dollars and was
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hit in the 24 hour stream I think you can go to a post office for it babe okay I will but it's annoying it's mainly
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annoying because I've got like a 4K photo it's not even 4K it's like 8K like I've got this insanely detailed photo so
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detailed you can zoom in and clearly see like the veins in my eyes it's nuts you
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can see every eyelash every pore of my skin it's that detailed and uh [ __ ]
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yeah uh and I I wanna but it's gonna be reduced to 200 by 200.
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but I've got it like you know it's pretty cool it's a really good photo I've got it uh I was gonna say should I
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let me show you it real quick
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uh let's see okay I don't want to show you it
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I want to keep it as a surprise actually
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I'll talk about it everyone be quiet just keep secret for Twitter all right so there's um
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that's going to be by the way edit that out the video I want to keep it a secret for Twitter
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you're not allowed to tell anyone okay Tick Tock channels like the only reason because you've tried to weaseline again
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and got caught by chat again science a good thing she is pretty chat all right
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anyway so anyway here's what I'm gonna do uh as
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soon as like as soon as I can I'm gonna go to the Post Office print that photo out I don't know if I should get it out print should I get it printed like
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professionally or something that's got to be a thing right like a like a like a really like a really good one
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I don't know sometimes you can technically put lady on your title wait can I offense that you can
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technically put lady as your title on your license oh because I own the land right
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wait hold on can I
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can I [Music] okay if I can put lady
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but then it's gonna be like my name it's not going to be like it's like gonna be lady Jude you know
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so it's gonna be like my real name
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you want to land yeah I do I wait if I own land can I not set
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it to like Colin can I use Lord if I own land
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under common law you may legally call yourself LED Lord or lady as long as you
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do not do so to obtain money by deception
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in in England
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dude I can totally say Lord hold on I can put Lord I can be a lord
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like lady Rose for the win I can be a lord you're joking
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hold on let me go I'm going back on like my little application thing just to see if that's an option
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oh there's no okay there's an other and I guess I can type Lord
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not Lord lady I'm not gonna do that come on Lord
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I don't want to put lady on there you know you got certificate Finn uh you got one
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in appear but you know but I like myself like I did get the land certificate but like me myself I own land because I own
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this I own this house and I also in that other [ __ ] house that I'm desperately trying to get out
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of this one so I can recoup my [ __ ] money that I spent on the other one and then so there's like you know so I can
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get out of debt so but I'm still I could still be a Lord because I own land
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that's not how land ownership in the UK works what so okay you can't I can't be a lord I
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own a home I own land I can't be a lord
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Freehold yeah I can totally be a lord
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would be how it works Lord Jude it has to be Scottish land dumbass it has to be Scottish land
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oh so I'm stuck with lady someone bought me someone bought me land in Scotland and and they and they've
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called it and they've said I'm my title is a lady
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am I stuck with lady as my options no it can be either Lord or I'm not sure
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if I bought you lamb [ __ ] yeah don't give you money for those
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not untrue you can get a piece of land in Scotland online yeah yeah so they did that and
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they got they they gave me a title of Lady uh Rose Elizabeth Evergreen
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dude I saw that I saw a clip of uh I saw a clip of of me doing the [ __ ] I saw
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a clip of me like choosing the name while I was making my Instagram page I don't know who uploaded it but it's me
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you can very clearly see me going like chat I have no [ __ ] clue what to name myself because you've already picked
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Rose at this point and everyone was going through like what it was gonna be and there were some good options and for
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some reason Evergreen stuck out to me and it's the dumbest name it's the
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stupidest name for my character my God I don't think people really call me Rose though do they like even now
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stop wriggling three months swooped
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of course we do all the time am I should call you fan yeah it gives
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you the initials re and if it's lady Rose Elizabeth are
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going to be Larry Larry Milady Milady Rose have a blessed day smiley
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face celebrating my sub anniversary hibiscus hibiscus hibiscus hibiscus yeah
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[Music] four months tell you you can buy small plots of Scottish land for like 40 quid
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totally worth it for the driving license it's pretty cool you are rose why
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wouldn't we call you that because I have like three names now and I'm cycling between them there's now rows there's
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Jude the original and and Finn and Rose is the newest one but it feels
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so cringe It Feels So cringe the poor but oh don't get me started on Paul and the
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Audi I think I'm just gonna burn it I think I'm just gonna get the Audi and burn the
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thing uh three months to go I think I'm just gonna get that piece of [ __ ] car and just burn it because it's not worth
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anything it's broken it needs so much repair I'm just gonna burn it like exploded or something surely I can do
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that can I take it to like a demolition range you want us to call you Ella instead
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okay John all right actually we're actually we're digging into my past I see we're digging
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into my my that's a that's a niche reference Tick Tock definitely calls you Rose first before they call you f1nn
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maybe that's more of a question for tick tock what do they initially think when they look at me Rose or Finn
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a wait what the [ __ ] was I doing oh I shot put him look what I saw the other day
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there's not the other day look what I saw an hour ago so look at this
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let me introduce hold on there's a clip Channel there's a clip Channel
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and I noticed something do any of these thumbnails stick out to you chat
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meow do any of them seem a little different to one or the other
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I have no memory I have no iron dude
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28. this can't be me
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look oh bro there's no [ __ ] like scroll through the video
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what the [ __ ]
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well it's so quiet yeah look okay [ __ ] it what is this when was this when was this
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we don't have audio neither do I apparently tab muted is it no I don't know it's
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just really quiet there what the [ __ ] is this haha yeah I saw it on Reddit Shannon
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posted it on her Instagram when
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this is oh bro I gotta have a speak to Shannon man I gotta talk to that
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[ __ ] I'll be just posting this [ __ ] you know like okay Chad you know when I said uh
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there's images of me that should never see the light of day oh we're getting close
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we're getting close we're getting close it's in the we're getting close the makeup looks good well yes because I didn't do it uh
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this is Shannon's handiwork um howing said that I don't remember it much like
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I don't it looks like I'm outside I can't tell where the [ __ ] this is
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because that to me looks like bro I'm wearing a coat why would I be outside like why would I go outside
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I don't bro I I don't know I don't I do not know
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if Shannon uh then it was from a long time ago yeah from [ __ ] um heavy makeup very Shannon tends to do that uh
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from 2017 November November 2017. Christ it was almost exactly
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five years ago maybe a Halloween party or some [ __ ] foreign
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terrible terrible even taking girly walks for five years
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apparently this is news to me as well man I don't
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know I remember this [ __ ] I remember the eye shadow at least
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I remember it sucking really bad because it's like it has glitter on it and it's like actual like pieces of glitter and
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eyeshadow and it was awful it sucks so bad um so that was fun truth comes out what do
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you mean no [ __ ] Shannon do our makeup once upon a time I don't know where the what's [ __ ] how drunk I was
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to not remember this situation why was I outside I wouldn't have ever opted to be [ __ ] outside the house
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[ __ ] okay yeah I saw that and I like got scared I don't know what the where the [ __ ] the photo came from
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anyway so let's put let's put Tick Tock people and I oh hold on as for tick tock
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and what people uh use I run Finster clips and I am both and I use both Finn and Rose holy [ __ ] use you run Finster
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Clips [ __ ] yeah hey man selectively funny good name for that evidence says
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otherwise it's a deep it's a deep fake it's not me it's just it's just someone that looks a lot like me
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oh my God
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don't worry about it don't worry about it hold on I gotta close out of Lord and
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Lady tabs okay not remembering situation remembering that oh shut up
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look there's there's a very good reason why I remember the pink eyeshadow uh more than I remember the situation is
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because again it sucks they were like so look I don't there's a reason why I
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don't use glitter anymore or as much as I possibly can avoid it I don't like own it I don't own it I don't own any
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glittery eyeshadow any glittery anything because I know you people will abuse that
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knowledge if you know that I have some it's terrible it's awful damn it's that
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hey hey Google thanks for the 10 gifted Subs it stays on for years
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I'll I'll be finding it like months and months later yeah there's literally there's glittery
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there's glittery lip gloss THX for all the answers to be yourself
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there's no sub goal there's no reason to give me money there's absolutely none you must suffer to become sparkly
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glitter is the Hobbies
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what there's no cure to glitter man uh that was a brief time period where
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everyone sent me glittery [ __ ] do you remember when someone sent me uh glittery uh it was like glittery pajamas
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10 subs for five years of girl month
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oh this is I haven't I've not been doing girl month for fight I've not been doing
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girl month since [ __ ] I refuse to believe it's going to be a year remember the silver glitter uh
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remember the silver glitter lip color you once got
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no I have this this is like the glitteriest thing I own
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and I don't think I've ever worn it no I haven't oh no have I
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I didn't even take the plastic off it have I ever worn this do you guys remember this at all
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yeah the plastic's still on it I have that foreign this is the yeah bro I've never [ __ ]
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used this thing so I have this this is the only thing I have that's glittery and then the other and then the normal
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glittery lip gloss is this one but it's not really quite the same level
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wait do I have anything else yeah and then I've oh no I do have this this one's also pretty pretty bad
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yeah this and then I have this one that's like the pinkest glittery on Earth
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but then again I don't wear it because good Lord it is it sucks so bad
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mute Minecraft I'm going crazy oh
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um hold on
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um one one minute give me give me just a give me give me just a give me hold on
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just oh no hold on give me one minute
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did I did this did I scare you because I I disappeared
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I turned into the chair did I scare you
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anyway the next PO Box room dude wait the next PO Box stream will likely be an Xmas uh
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PO Box seven finros seven Rose uh Christmas gift by typing PO box and chat oh good yeah I don't
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know okay so I don't know if I should save stuff for the PO Box I think I should though I yeah
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I think I should I'm Gonna Save everything for P.O box but there's been some good ones that I see in there
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so you did or didn't pass your driver's license what the [ __ ] does that mean I have a provisional license so I'd be
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applying to renew my provisional license I don't have a what's it called
52:53
you're gonna have some great news I finally figured out that my gender I finally fill out my gender and I'm buying a 5 50 cc motor this Saturday
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nice I think that I am a guy because of I think that I what
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hold on let me re-read this I have some great news I'm I am finally figuring out my gender and I'm planning
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to buy a 50cc motor this Saturday maximum glitter attack for Christmas P.O box nope so I think I am a guy because
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of this but it would be amazing to be a trans girl on a modus on a cross motor what do you
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think you bought a motor you bought a motor and you're like well I'm definitely a
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guy I just bought a motor so I'm I'm
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women don't women don't drive women don't
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oh man that's a risky joke uh there's no women women uh
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women don't women don't know what uh what motors are what's a cc huh
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I should give 60 Subs one for every girl month LOL
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[ __ ] it's like no one knows what they don't know what
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it is but I do it's cubic capacity women they don't have a big girl's license lol
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uh no I don't I have a provisional license I even I I yeah
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where's it Chad you're getting weird
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where's the dress to get rid of my boner you're you get a little you're getting a little um
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you're a little odd here's the keyboard typing
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it was my butterfly knife this sounds a lot like a keyboard sometimes cubic centimeters my guy
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1000 cc is a liter is that like uh wait why hold on Michael
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has one liter does that mean it's a thousand CC it's pretty cool it's a lot right
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[Applause] thank you for the five gifted some snork
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I love that that's a good name I like that name hold on I saw a thing that I
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want to that I wanna I wanna take a look-see at one one minute look at this ah hold on
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so a while ago there's a member of our chat chat that is here today
55:34
and he played it he made a video that I really made two videos [ __ ] there's a new one he made one that I really want
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to watch can I can I can I be a react Andy for a bit I want to watch this
55:46
video it's about me and I want to stroke my ego okay and I promise to you I will do some some
55:52
better makeup okay all right okay I'm gonna do it thank you okay look at this
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this is by 416 Hobbit it just says the conspiracy was real so I watched until about a minute and then I paused it so I
56:10
could watch it on stream the Miss thank you five thank you for five guys that's the Mystic robot oh robot's pretty funny
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all right thank you for the [ __ ] Subs I have it okay let's do it oh that's the
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bro hold on I clicked I think what are your next set of nails going to be I
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don't know [ __ ] don't let me pick only was true accountable
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Elizabeth Evergreen I sent you a gift a while back and it should be there by now it should have been there a while ago I
56:47
really hope you can find it it's the nicest thing I've been able to send so far oh damn cold [ __ ] it
56:59
the names are getting a lot better as you go thanks for all the gifted subscribers
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all right
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you will need a big girl's license to get your own Iowa class battleship
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why is it why is down there it's my view accounts blurred out [Music]
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oh good yeah okay so this is the point that I sort of stopped watching because I was like he's filmed something man
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[Music]
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holy [ __ ] thank you
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but this is ominous
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love you
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[Music] sake uh I've just been practicing my
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lower effort makeup I [ __ ] good Lord even in this even in this like lore
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video there's Karam Finster law hmm
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we're going we're going by she even here it's garment even on the [ __ ] into interwebs you know just the daily sort
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of thing I you can't even tell the eyeliner I [ __ ] up it doesn't look great but it
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doesn't look bad um but my eyelashes are like 50 50 because I haven't got them done but it
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does suit an eyeliner look and also so what I did today
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bro this is a movie the thigh highs wait what the thigh highs and wig what do you
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mean hold on what oh I didn't [Music]
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sfw tires I didn't even see that do it oh bro are there Easter eggs that
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I don't know about wig okay so what I did today I didn't even notice that the effort put
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into this [ __ ] oh my God
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oh and they're in a special folder
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[Music] oh there it is okay I'll prove it a bit
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it's an unedited photo but it will give you a good idea of what type of photos
59:50
I've cropped it put it that way anyway there's so many gifted subs today what the [ __ ] thank you for the five gifted
59:56
Subs man what the [ __ ] oh damn you know I won't go there thanks for the 20 gifted sub Hobbit uh you know like
1:00:03
you know look especially good one day dude what the [ __ ] oh
1:00:08
oh I I probably should I oh
1:00:17
sorry I know you guys oh no I have something
1:00:24
I was like I reacted so badly
1:00:33
never gonna get her attention with gifted Subs especially after Daddy
1:00:41
I hope you had great time with family those photos and Instagram stories were
1:00:47
topped here I was there for a very long time and I mainly just ordered food
1:00:55
never mind I'm [ __ ] stupid 16 months of this wish I knew how to quit you
1:01:02
I'm going to help you Hobbit but I saw them like once and I alerted
1:01:08
them I'm invested [ __ ] it's about 10. and barely any of
1:01:13
them were [ __ ] like Saturday hey Tim dude at a random time how all of
1:01:22
you just alert and here all around [ __ ] thank you for the thousand dollars Jesus Christ also hello Hobbit
1:01:28
he didn't even say hi to me he gave me a thousand dollars and said hi to [ __ ] Harvey
1:01:34
he's not even talking to me [Music] they're working together I don't know
1:01:41
there's lots I mean thank you but like yeah get
1:01:47
ghosted okay uh let me
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should we get dressed why are there so many of you gifting things really what the [ __ ] why I'll
1:01:58
take it but there's like way more than usual right there's no one else okay oh
1:02:03
I get it like X I get it that's that's that's that's pretty clever that's funny
1:02:10
I don't know why I didn't get that for ages
1:02:16
okay what the [ __ ] X's 10 trying to help Hobbit okay hold on chat we're four minutes in
1:02:22
there's like a storyline that I'm still trying to unravel anyway so I've got
1:02:27
this I love it I think I can get away with this without
1:02:33
just a ton of money not Coke Zero terrible but I will I I'll
1:02:40
be nice
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should should I be this snatched like 50s housewife [Music]
1:02:50
scam don't call it a scam some rest
1:02:56
you'll call anything a scam if I say like you know what I'm gonna wear three inch heels today instead of five [ __ ]
1:03:03
scam bro stop it of course
1:03:09
what the [ __ ] I don't know okay sorry this is like I remember this exact stream I remember
1:03:16
the I remember everything about like what was the back and forth here and that they were like talking to each
1:03:22
other and [ __ ] I hmm do you have any more photos of the
1:03:28
office this is a this is such a trip bro yeah
1:03:35
you can see that oh wait the off the shoulder dress uh
1:03:40
maybe oh [ __ ] let me see
1:03:45
but like it was a really good dress old [ __ ] god good Lord hello Hobbit
1:03:51
you're just talking to each other hey Tim how's it going this is [ __ ] this
1:03:57
is upsetting I'm just being ghosted by all my 13 it's been a long time since I was oh that hurt Hobbit that hurt
1:04:02
they're just talking to each other yeah to be honest with you it's just variations on the same picture
1:04:08
as a photo day today I just took like a mirror photo and then a selfie in
1:04:13
different variations of how my hair was and then it was the photo
1:04:21
of a video you know wait what
1:04:26
am I going to do a bit of analysis what [ __ ] food is this what is that down there is it is that
1:04:33
cheese and crackers that's pretty epic if 10h cheese and crack is I can I I can you know that
1:04:41
plug
1:04:46
oh it's peanuts understood no or do they think you're trans
1:04:53
I don't know we've never talked about it
1:04:59
I've never had this so I'm I don't know so much money that this is the easiest
1:05:06
way to cook bro I want to believe this is actually
1:05:12
10 and I'm typing to each other like so badly
1:05:18
peanuts and cheese is it peanuts and cheese I love pile of money right
1:05:25
money is the marketing department gonna get paid this year or are we getting another gift cards
1:05:34
gift card well that's what I take out money for anything a dumb femboy very nice can I be
1:05:41
dominant listen oh bro I kind of want a wheelchair that'd be pretty cool but I do have a
1:05:48
wheelchair hey I forgot I was like I could move around that'd be awesome and I forgot about
1:05:55
that like you know the words okay okay listen you went on a wheelchair just to
1:06:00
play around on for a little bit come on what do you mean wheelie chair yeah like gamer epic anyway
1:06:06
oh [ __ ] well okay well I don't know if this is going to really work for the dominant sort of thing but
1:06:13
anyway I've got a corset to put on Ethan
1:06:19
as long as you're using it for evil I can respect it this must be so screwed up for you
1:06:24
because you're just looking at I'm just trying to like force this [ __ ] dress okay thanks for the 19 gifted Subs tent
1:06:31
Jesus hello are you just reminding me you're here as soon as he brings up the
1:06:36
the acting pen thing girl grinder dude oh [ __ ] I gotta talk about that in a
1:06:42
second not me by the way just I'm prefacing but you know my C10 doesn't want to take Hobbit's number one gift to
1:06:49
Tiger wait hold on I just realized these are like edited in like this is like a whole dude I didn't even realize this
1:06:55
this is like a perfect Recreation of my [ __ ] Dono like this it's got all the
1:07:00
right fonts the colors looks pretty good people are flirting right in front of our salad Sesame I wish Fen was more
1:07:06
dominant oh my God oh wow oh that's cute I didn't know know
1:07:12
why you gifted 19. oh oh that's so sweet that's so sweet
1:07:18
oh that's pretty cute watching a romance between Hobbit and Hobbit and 10. oh that's that is cute
1:07:24
why are they what [ __ ] I'm trying to do this oh my God okay [ __ ] it hold on I gotta like
1:07:32
I don't know the storyline I think we're flooding with it
1:07:37
[Music] that's funny all right just in case I turn the camera
1:07:42
on you see me like I did because the camera uh just just know that uh not tickling
1:07:53
bro okay this is deep law there's a more and more you're in the universe I'm not
1:07:58
here Hobbit see you you're in the H you're in the hcu Amaya I'm ready I'm done ready
1:08:06
three two one it is really weird to watch my own streams back like this my God
1:08:14
[ __ ] kind of goofy moment what the [ __ ] is
1:08:23
what do you think I wanted to clip it housewife
1:08:29
what do you think yeah so there's one of
1:08:36
one video oh yeah look at how perfect that is
1:08:43
oh my God so wow wow amazing right it's great I'm still
1:08:49
wearing just [ __ ] Odd Socks but you know again not a Coke Zero um so here's the other thing right so I
1:08:57
tied this bow perfectly I tied the bow behind the back of my head perfectly all amazing but there's a little bit of a um
1:09:07
a joke that's been going on so long that it's really hard to know when the
1:09:13
joke ends like I don't know like how many hours
1:09:18
I'm getting mixed signals from Kyle every now and then you know like uh sometimes sometimes it's a little flatty
1:09:25
sometimes he ain't I don't know much oh yeah
1:09:33
did Kyle make this this was that tweet that got it crazy
1:09:39
I'm looking for like where's other Reddit what's what's been going on on my Reddit I'm guessing another 10.
1:09:48
oh [ __ ] oh [ __ ]
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he walked out of the wheelchair yeah I'm guessing not a real wheelchair
1:09:58
well I mean real wheelchair
1:10:04
[Music] about that one
1:10:10
try ran Machan from Rand mahalf oh yeah the [ __ ] is this
1:10:19
this is this is the video okay I have now found the law I have found the video
1:10:25
oh God this beer now reveals its ugly side here's Lily with a
1:10:33
story thank you Oliver
1:10:43
in other news there was high drama on finster's Twitch stream last night where democracy
1:10:51
chat this is when it was this is what I'm hearing a little dirty voice chassis you
1:10:56
stopped being horny ten do a voiceover for this [ __ ] meme
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yeah is it okay for K5 yeah
1:11:14
hold on one minute this is
1:11:22
this is an excuse you could totally take this off by the other side but from the other side of the door
1:11:27
no I can't uh-huh I have to put it here I'm gonna jack off oh my God
1:11:35
foreign it's my dress it's my dress
1:11:42
dude this is some [ __ ] workload that went into this oh God the money's coming
1:11:47
out it goes into a normal like you know it's on the cashews
1:11:55
I don't know what brand of alcohol this is so metal ideas anyway but dude
1:12:02
who knows I thought it was out for a minute dude it's an AI voice it looks like I
1:12:09
they're just oh
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I gotta know whether it was a 10 whether whether the whether the voice in that video was it
1:12:21
was 10 Muses or not why not latex made what the [ __ ] chat because I've got to be around my friends
1:12:30
that's the world's first financially sits through a 10 minute video it's about me oh of course I will like dude
1:12:37
okay it's like um it's not really this I'm not really trying to impress my friends so like I'm
1:12:43
not trying to look to hook up with anyone like normal out
1:12:49
me you know I think people believe it's an anal Voice or a bunny outfit oh my God is this whole video
1:12:56
the conspiracy around this that's pretty [ __ ] one bit pretty good Hobbit
1:13:02
but yeah push the Instagram story this is assaulted I feel like yeah
1:13:10
from the hotel what does it look like it doesn't look like it looks cute but like yeah dude
1:13:15
there's a filter I got freckles on here there's a filter
1:13:21
I wonder but I'm actually sure I use the voice of Timmy's substitute for the original oh my God so when you start
1:13:28
arguing about whose dress it is the egg is starting to crack who's dressing oh [ __ ] sake nothing
1:13:35
report videos absolute pleasure working with you it turns out the Finster is a lot smarter and sharper than we ever expected who knew
1:13:42
wow a 12 minute and 40 second video to
1:13:47
explain this intro
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just this in other news there was high drama on
1:14:02
finster's Twitch that was the most drum that was the most high drama High highly
1:14:07
dramatic that was so great that was a work of art very good jump of it what on Earth
1:14:14
there's also another one by the way but it's another 10 minutes and I haven't seen a thing of this do you want to
1:14:21
watch it because there's a there's more I think but I don't know how
1:14:26
this is wild yeah okay [ __ ] it I really want to watch
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it too thank you let's go here he's our he's our oh he hmm
1:14:38
someone's gonna stick into the Garment rules he's our Rose floofy polka dot
1:14:47
BBC television nine o'clock me my country my country I love BBC
1:14:54
foreign
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Bebop shirt if so we own the same shirt also one liter is a small engine your
1:15:05
car needs a turbo and taken around the Nurburgring with Jimmy Broadbent it's a
1:15:10
berserk shirt by the way it's a it's a it's it's it's a berserk shirt but it is
1:15:16
Anime you'll have what not the British Broadcasting Channel I love the British board casting
1:15:22
Channel otherwise known as the BBC I like the British Broadcasting
1:15:28
so it is channel right I don't know what it is Channel you're all right I might get like
1:15:34
copyright claimed here but this feels like copyright free I don't know is it
1:15:42
uh I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know Corporation British Broadcasting Corporation [Music]
1:15:50
maybe if I just break it up enough that and I keep talking through it YouTube approved it oh and I'm about to touch
1:15:55
but we'll see look how good I am at cooking
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foreign
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I gotta bring that dress back holy [ __ ]
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[Music]
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from a bit of a bit of a uh a bit of a whiplash from from the types of things I
1:16:30
do on stream I guess oh about
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[Music] foreign [Music]
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[Music]
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oh this is cool [Music]
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I was just about I was just like I have memory just long enough to remember
1:17:07
seeing stuff like title cards like this I'm just that I'm just that old he's our Rose was broadcast and recorded before a
1:17:15
live twitch audience [Music] anyway boys
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[Applause] [Music] [Applause]
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I need it I need this I need this is an effect this is sick [Applause]
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[Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause]
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it's like one it's like one divisioning right now have you noticed that air dry hair so good wrong it gets so frizzy
1:18:06
that was one division
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does it make me sound more or less do you cringe at watching it so I was gonna say do I sound less funny when this when
1:18:20
there's a laugh track behind it it makes me it makes me sound like oh God I do cringe a little bit but that it's
1:18:27
really cool it's enough editing right now
1:18:38
here's the thing I'm gonna try and emulate hold on remember the middle one right yeah
1:18:50
how to help me okay good news is we'll try to we'll try it we'll try it we'll try cleaver
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[Applause] the [ __ ] the [ __ ] Round of
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Applause after I say we'll try cleavage that [ __ ] dude I need that how can I
1:19:06
get that set up with like twitch emojis or something like whenever you emote in chat it like plays enough it plays like
1:19:12
a sound effect that's gotta be a thing I can do [ __ ] that's cool
1:19:17
[Applause]
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that's not funny I'm gonna look hot clothing oh my God
1:19:37
print putting on corset for example
1:19:43
[Music]
1:19:50
now I went to do I went to Brighton and I had to like be eating while I was in
1:19:55
front of people that helped me very well but I ate like less I think I woke up today and my weight was
1:20:03
62.9 so I'm just going to call it 62.
1:20:09
oh bro even I can't read the chat 62 kg I've met
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you have not met dogs that weigh more than 62 patients I'm 63 right now sort
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of I'm 63.5 so I'm I'm all right I'm doing okay I got very very very drunk uh
1:20:28
one night here and then I woke up and weighed less so I guess maybe just drink alcohol and then you lose weight fun
1:20:34
fact okay if you have a dog that weighs 138
1:20:41
pounds not own something something could easily kill you I've met
1:20:47
someone that owns a snake and that's the reason why I have this opinion you're not a snake person dog person or dog
1:20:53
person okay now listen even now look I I made the joke I made
1:21:01
the joke that I should do hydrate I don't know any water I made the joke that I should make this but I just realized how like I would write I this
1:21:09
would drive me insane I'm like skimming through a little bit of the video look I'm just coming through a little bit
1:21:15
yeah we put on my other silver area oh maybe dude this is why I like twitch so
1:21:22
much is because I can't hear you [ __ ] if I could hear you if you could talk if you had voices that
1:21:29
weren't like you know my God it'd be it'd be insane I am in this video okay let's go
1:21:35
Gaslight stream I don't think that you guys know what a
1:21:42
petticoat is I think you just want to make me feel uncomfortable I think that's it
1:21:49
all right that dress does look like [ __ ] without it
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oh my [ __ ] God yeah I couldn't I I couldn't do it you don't want to hear the voices believe me
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[Music] God you can't hear us
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okay I can only okay I can hear some of you if I can hear all of you 3 000 people shouting at you at the same time
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yeah can you imagine the rallying cry if I'm like guys I'm thinking this outfit needs bigger titties
1:22:24
just [ __ ] I'm a [ __ ] 3 000 voice criticals going
1:22:31
I could set up a voice call I wonder if anyone's hold on one minute
1:22:37
let me just quickly check something
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every now and then there's people in my [ __ ] Discord and they're just chilling
1:22:48
and I think they hate me UF one and then those who are both fun one to make
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hey guys oh what [ __ ] this is bad my discord's going
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through this yes
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[Music]
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we're seeing what would happen with the with the voices you know I'm going to
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the streams I love you so sorry
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you see what I mean I'll be going on did you even know how about again what did he do
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ah no please please not another video no no I'll replay it I didn't see it pop it
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thank you f1nn those who are both fun one to make
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they were both great oh my God
1:24:10
I'm sorry that I didn't see it I watched an entire video that started off like I
1:24:17
can't believe he missed this donut I'm gonna VIP Hobbit
1:24:23
I'm very paying 416 Hobbit the [ __ ] that that's the most deserved VIP that's
1:24:29
sick I'm so I'm so I'm easy can I can I get a can I get a uh some can I get some
1:24:35
what do I do oh sevens did I spell it wrong no I did uh can I get some 07s in Trent thank
1:24:41
thank you for your service Hobbit congratulations congratulations on your new VIP Hood
1:24:48
and what it means nothing it means absolutely nothing it means you've got a little you've got a little Mark by your
1:24:54
name saying that I like you foreign I don't know put it on your CV you know
1:25:01
put it on a put it on an employment application and form somewhere and they'll let you write in I promise
1:25:11
yeah okay I've got like I'm running on like three hours sleep today
1:25:17
hello every stream you have the mods in a VC and they laugh at you the whole time
1:25:23
yeah I absolutely hate you for doing that I'm so glad it wasn't spam before people fully dry
1:25:29
I just ruined some poor like people's game of Among Us because now there's like 20 people in
1:25:35
that [ __ ] Channel all right Mod's here to bully you this happens already yeah but oh yeah sorry by the
1:25:43
way Hobbit [ __ ] Jesus they're playing Among Us it was already one true I really want to play Among Us in VR Among
1:25:49
Us um that was in the voice chat chilling with camera on BTW nice talking to you
1:25:55
for two minutes LOL you too it was so pleasant
1:26:01
also there's been two games I want to try I want to try Among Us VR but apparently it's not that great I looked
1:26:07
at it on Twitch and basically no one was streaming there was like the top streamer in English was like 50 viewers
1:26:14
or something so is it good or is it bad I don't know if people give a [ __ ] about this game or
1:26:20
not the other one you might care about more have you ever heard of Rumble
1:26:27
you've heard of Rumble VR if there's gonna be a if I'm gonna do a a VR stream
1:26:33
uh what the [ __ ] if I'm gonna do a VR stream again I'm gonna do it in this
1:26:39
Rumble no no oh God no no look rumble's great okay I want to play dude it's so
1:26:45
[ __ ] fun I'm like a okay it is Earth bending in in virtual reality but it's
1:26:52
so difficult it's so hard and I've learned a bunch of these diff
1:26:57
I've learned some cool moves I'm pretty good at it I think for like a tier one but then the first time I like went up
1:27:04
against someone in a match uh they stopped playing because they're out of pity because they wanted to show me how
1:27:10
to learn the rest of the moves but it feels like I'm pretty good at it I've it's fun it's really fun Earth
1:27:17
Nation VR yeah it's so good I I wish the rumble team goes and makes like [ __ ]
1:27:22
fire bending and water bending and [ __ ] that'd be cool but yeah
1:27:30
I will be like it will be like the gun repair stream you mean the gun repair stream that
1:27:37
is now a functional thing I broke it
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oh [ __ ] hold on is this
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what oh
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[Music]
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okay so don't do that um
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foreign buddy
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[Music]
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Jesus Christ that's so fun
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that's so fun that's so fun
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that's so cool am I allowed to own that what was wrong with it just wasn't working
1:28:59
wasn't the slide was locked and it just the cape's pellet proof yeah clearly
1:29:07
it's a nice soft gun what it does [ __ ] it Helen can you let me the clip I want to see that because it felt insane
1:29:13
that's how you shut yourself in the stomach that one time yeah I know I didn't think about it but
1:29:19
you know [Music] wait if I do this hold on
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[Applause] [Music]
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this is so cool this is awesome this is so sick
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[Music] it's got Auto bro
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[Music]
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this is so [ __ ] fun so fun this this is so fun this is
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awesome oh that I shouldn't have done
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what happens if I tip it upside down it goes like yeah did you see all the smoke that came
1:30:12
out of that okay all right it's out
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it's out it's out of yeah no Magnum I mean I could do a full like a full
1:30:24
Magnum right I could but I don't know if look I've got to pick up all the BBS I kind of want it right
1:30:32
sick I forgot to send it but Finn the proto-american
1:30:37
I'm walking on it I'm getting there with a fast enough tree you can send even semiological before this is fully
1:30:44
auto I [ __ ] I'm gonna I'm I'm gonna start bump firing my can we please not shoot Alfred
1:30:51
please it's hurting my heart he's such a good Target
1:30:56
all right I'll stab him now this knife is probably worth a
1:31:03
little more doing that you got a license for that airsoft gun no I don't even think you need to
1:31:11
guess we'll find out uh I've bought a ton of uh airsoft guns and I bought a ton of um other ones I do technically
1:31:18
have a license for that just FYI I have a uh I have I'm insured as a as a
1:31:23
filming company so I can own them without the like orange tips so technically I am allowed to own them
1:31:30
why are you jumping like you are scared of it you are such a weakling on Keck
1:31:35
such a dainty little princess also don't shoot the neon or the AC if you keep
1:31:41
shooting over there with OE come you will end up shooting your windows
1:31:48
but I wanna sorry there's a little bit of paper on it so I'm just like getting it off with a knife
1:31:53
but I really wanna you just don't want me to shoot Alfred okay you're too protective over Alfred I
1:32:00
just want to shoot him a couple times please from joining your server two years ago that's the first time I saw
1:32:07
you in voice chat to be fair you should do voice chats more often mate I'm also
1:32:13
from UK yeah I want to do um there's a few
1:32:18
things I should have wanted I want I mean the problem is with voice chats uh is that they get ruined immediately uh
1:32:25
because it takes like one dude that's just being loud to be loud and it's I'm saying do it but I mean 12 year old like
1:32:31
there's gonna be one kid that's like just going uh and then like a like a fire alarm and then it's gonna ruin it
1:32:37
for everyone it shocks I need I need to be I need to have like a um like a Subs only call
1:32:45
the thing went down right after the gun do you want me to do it again because I've been I'm holding it now I really wanna
1:32:51
band kids yeah
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what is this stuff that I'm putting in this just by the way I know it's called green gas but I don't
1:33:02
actually know what it is
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and I can just keep going I don't know how much I'm supposed to fill it
1:33:16
CO2 how much am I supposed to fill it
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I feel like I'm making a pipe bomb because it's just still going
1:33:32
until it explodes fair enough [Music]
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it's got gas I still remember the time you were in VC in Discord you probably saw my HD face glad to be a part of that
1:33:46
[ __ ] yeah oh I'm breathing in that stuff
1:33:53
this is so fun it's not CO2 chat yeah yeah hold on
1:33:59
what does it look like [Music] okay that hurt a little bit
1:34:05
[ __ ] that's so cold there's like gas coming out the back and it like froze my hand a little bit look at that
1:34:12
can you see it when the gas comes out look at this [Music] dude
1:34:18
that's fun this is cool [Laughter] this is so fun
1:34:25
can I like just keep doing can I shake it around what if I put it upside down foreign
1:34:32
kicks out wrong [Music] if you want to avoid the screaming kids
1:34:38
on Among Us VR there is an adult Among Us Discord I can send you the invite if you don't have enough players Maybe
1:34:50
this is so fun I love this I love this I love this this is awesome
1:34:58
Auto foreign this is so fun this is so fun [Music]
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it's so fun it's out now that's so fun it smells so bad in here
1:35:09
it's definitely oh it's so cold oh it's oh that's like really [ __ ] oh
1:35:15
bro this is awesome
1:35:20
three-year-old frog Joanna Wick cosplay dude I've got like
1:35:27
it look at this so a bulletproof fast well no I mean I'm
1:35:33
assuming it's Bulletproof I've I've yet to test it how do I get in this
1:35:40
I don't know how to put this on do I like put it over me I don't know how I do it and my boobs gonna fit through this
1:35:47
chat are the titties gonna cause problems
1:35:54
how does this work I'm gonna put it on I'm gonna put it on I'm gonna put it on
1:36:01
right now can I take the titties off maybe the titties I don't know how it was how this is Which Way Forward
1:36:08
foreign I'm playing with firearms
1:36:15
I don't know which place forward is it is it does it matter thanks for the raid Nano undo one side
1:36:23
how do
1:36:31
how do I undo a side doesn't seem like that's the way to do I mean I can do them
1:36:39
that foreign
1:36:44
[Music] velcro there's no Velcro
1:36:51
it's like a different thing
1:36:56
huh oh I can undo this one
1:37:05
but not the other ones so should I
1:37:13
I don't know how this [ __ ] Works hold on one sec what's that I was like should work with titties let me try it one minute I'm just gonna like cringily just
1:37:20
I just want to put this over my head ah [ __ ] it you know you can see me do this wrong hold on let me just see there's no way I
1:37:26
can't just fit through this if I just my head doesn't go through this [ __ ] man
1:37:35
I feel like this can work uh sort of except my shoulders are not unrelated
1:37:40
but if I send a pic of my setup can you and chat rate it entirely up to you
1:38:02
I'm ready
1:38:08
I'm doing it I'm protected I am a soldier ah
1:38:14
ah [ __ ] I'm so tactical oh [ __ ] hold on
1:38:22
I'm getting hair in my eyes Chad I don't like this how do I get in it how do I how do I get in the thing
1:38:29
oh [ __ ] are you velcro oh that's why my hand's getting stuck
1:38:37
oh oh wait how's the rest of it look
1:38:49
it's from a different side oh what the [ __ ]
1:38:55
ah okay so I did that but how does the rest of this [ __ ] work
1:39:01
how do I put the rest of it on okay so I did this
1:39:12
there's seemingly no other Velcro can I fit this over my ass
1:39:18
can you imagine now imagine Britain had constriction can I fit this over my ass probably oh [ __ ] maybe hold on
1:39:25
the [ __ ] hold on no this is gonna pull my skirt
1:39:30
up hold on
1:39:36
I can't get this out of my ass bro I can't get this out of my ah [ __ ]
1:39:43
fellas I think fellas I think I goofed I don't have to do here
1:39:51
open slideship oh no and I'm too far into it
1:39:59
I'm protecting the most important parts John's Salty's perfect seasoning for our popcorn
1:40:15
what's John's salty about that I'm doing it wrong and John owns a real gun it's
1:40:20
not your fault you have a dumpy
1:40:25
oh it's over the ass it's over it's over the body hold on
1:40:31
[Music] Finn I don't know how you managed to do
1:40:38
it you make watching you do things extremely painful like always unclip the
1:40:43
sides you bimbo you then put it on like a belt I don't know how and guess who [ __ ] did it John that's right
1:40:51
me I did suck my nuts all right hold on how do I do like
1:40:59
one sec and then I go this strap what the hell
1:41:06
okay you and I think I can just like do it and then put my arms oh no I can do I'll put
1:41:12
my arm through and do that and then strap that there oh okay totally
1:41:19
it's backwards
1:41:24
I I swear to God if someone tells me it's backwards is it or is it not
1:41:33
probably which way is forward hold on I haven't done this trap oh it's
1:41:40
definitely [ __ ] backwards isn't it it's backless [ __ ] on the one time
1:41:48
this isn't a joke but your attack vest is on backwards I swear to God
1:41:56
okay all right now there we go that looks better oh my
1:42:02
God I got my oh God hold on okay right
1:42:07
right right right right right right right I'm I'm nailing it this is so masculine I know I know it is let's see
1:42:14
okay I got there that's it oh you just don't do that and then grab
1:42:20
you grab the strap and then right up there protect the vitals
1:42:25
besides the bossy or besides the balls why don't they make these to protect
1:42:31
balls ah [ __ ]
1:42:36
God how do I get the other [ __ ] okay
1:42:46
oh [ __ ]
1:42:51
dude my titties are pressed up against they do my titties are pressed up against this [ __ ]
1:42:58
like they call it a growing plate okay it's on
1:43:06
yeah hold on where's my actual Glock oh my not my actual but you know the dangerous one
1:43:12
Still Still egg all right can I like put this in some [ __ ]
1:43:18
oh do I not have any I want like a thing to put it in I want like a thing you know
1:43:27
Finn your backwards vest is on backwards I hate you so much how does this work
1:43:33
wait is this the thing why do I do it or do I need like a thing you're looking for a holster I know I am
1:43:40
but I figured they came with that how am I what am I supposed to do with
1:43:46
just this thing protect me from bullets that's lame
1:43:59
doesn't even look that cute it's not even a crop top what the [ __ ]
1:44:06
since we are doing tactical Femme boy you could get the leg harness and chest harness someone missed got you it's a
1:44:14
bit more aesthetic if you want to try chat do you wanna see Army Rose
1:44:19
I'm working on Army Rose but I want to put this in something
1:44:26
[Music] holster it in your brow
1:44:44
chat trying to troubleshoot his just as much entertainment as the stream itself
1:44:50
laughs
1:44:59
that's funny sorry Jesus Christ these there's these like
1:45:05
these things I feel like this does something oh
1:45:14
wait a minute
1:45:39
yeah dude I I know that's not what it's for but I'm gonna do it
1:45:45
damn it has side pockets does it how does that work I don't know how that
1:45:50
works unless it's this thing but it doesn't feel like it's this thing God damn I'll send you a real vest all set
1:45:57
up ah bro this is sick and please do
1:46:05
awesome
1:46:14
yeah I feel so Tactical
1:46:20
you know
1:46:28
I need like two magazines will this go into the other one probably not
1:46:35
oh what okay so I have to wait is that how do
1:46:40
you hold magazine you could fit so many lipsticks in that thing you totally could this is awesome
1:46:46
this is not TOS I don't know maybe not it's Airsoft [ __ ] okay hold on there's nothing
1:46:51
this one isn't okay so he's [ __ ]
1:46:59
I need like a hold on what if I like set up something on the ground
1:47:04
because I want to be able to drop it you know I want to be able to drop the magazine like
1:47:11
ah cute she finally has yeah
1:47:18
it's cool that's pretty neat the imported at the
1:47:25
screen that is TOs s sorry I won't do it well the thigh
1:47:31
holster I can do that it's a magazine just drop it I know but it's a it's a b ond it's got a gas cylinder in this so
1:47:37
it's gonna like I don't know burst or some [ __ ] apparently you can pull up you can pull
1:47:43
up the entire bottom half of the front to get the clips from the side
1:47:56
foreign [Music]
1:48:07
utility does this serve though
1:48:24
you're moving towards what the hell how does this work pretty neat
1:48:31
I don't know how it works though does the other one go into let me check if these if these both go
1:48:37
into each other or only one goes into the other whoop oh
1:48:42
no okay that one doesn't go into that one but it does go into both of them go into this one okay interesting
1:48:53
is to release the sides oh okay
1:48:58
oh like an open pocket this thing don't call me dumb this dumb bimbo all my life quick
1:49:05
release the best joke on the field is pulling your friend's quick release oh
1:49:12
fair enough can I like Drop That yeah okay Nifty
1:49:18
so [ __ ] cool don't you ever see those people on like
1:49:23
Twitter or some [ __ ] have you ever seen them when they do the like the little the reload the Tactical reloads and [ __ ]
1:49:29
you look like a trans school shooter [ __ ] hell don't I don't you wait till I get my
1:49:37
crossbow I'll be like Kevin
1:49:45
it's a I mean it's a it's an interesting look
1:49:51
you know like
1:49:57
I don't know it's assassin GF on this episode of femboy firearms
1:50:06
foreign
1:50:16
if you lift the flap again and pull that velcro up that how you get in
1:50:21
how you get in new video idea
1:50:27
uh sass injury yeah true
1:50:37
pull on the velcro that is tucked under the front to take it off call Freddy for
1:50:42
help all right how does this show work let me put these in the right
1:50:55
all right which one oh so it's like
1:51:03
oh oh that's how you take this [ __ ] thing off all right fair enough
1:51:11
how do I do the rest of it oh is this thing and I can just like
1:51:18
what [Music]
1:51:26
this is proof that Finn got famous for Minecraft and not FPS games
1:51:32
that's very true but I own that it's cool I've got everything working I've got this working
1:51:37
I got that working this is great all right room temperature IQ
1:51:44
but no I'm so clever
1:51:49
okay oh that's the right magazine yeah
1:51:56
anyway everyone a bullet stream of finally figuring it out I'm so I'm so clever yeah
1:52:02
harnesses are the way to go I've got the harness somewhere uh because I've put I put it down
1:52:09
somewhere I just don't remember where
1:52:17
[Music] those are knee pads you look very cute tonight babe I don't know where I put it
1:52:24
sorry John lost it anyway and thank you thank you so much
1:52:29
uh I mean what I miss I missed I missed straightfin I
1:52:36
miss manly Finn uh this [ __ ] sent me 35
1:52:41
notifications holy [ __ ] you're in danger to yourself
1:52:49
America call with the bulletproof vest I've never met someone so brainless good night
1:52:58
my literally the manager of my company
1:53:07
I miss I miss girly fem and she's still here what that was a valiant attempt at Matt at manly Finn
1:53:14
yeah let me okay maybe we could organize like a man's stream I don't know what we
1:53:21
do yet though I don't know what we do because I don't oh my God they [ __ ] texted me
1:53:27
again PS render yeah [ __ ]
1:53:33
it is rendering little dumbass
1:53:39
we don't have a HR team just by the way so everything we say is fine
1:53:46
it's fine you have makeup in the title yeah because look how good I look
1:53:54
I mean I do really suit natural makeup I don't
1:54:00
know why you know maybe it's because of I'm naturally beautiful
1:54:09
you know
1:54:15
you know so manly so manly sorry
1:54:21
they create very true very true
1:54:26
lucky now [Music] where did I put my [ __ ] on
1:54:33
really a [ __ ] okay natural hormones just not her original oh my God
1:54:40
look at how
1:54:48
I am on I have my original hormones I promise you you see the Lightroom [ __ ]
1:54:54
you hold on one sec what the hell I remember having a conversation on Reddit about this we could try to see how good
1:55:01
we can make you look wearing men's fashion I want to shoot I want a suit we
1:55:07
passed a suit now how do I buy a suit I'm gonna buy a suit right now I'm gonna go on next and buy a suit
1:55:12
next is a solid place to buy a suit right it's not gonna be like super expensive we walked into an X and
1:55:17
they had suits should I buy a suit I'm gonna buy a suit from this place men's
1:55:24
suits can I how do I a three-piece suit what is it what type of suit do I want
1:55:32
what I don't like trans 90 of the time but you are quite chat why aren't you
1:55:38
pretending to have female voice add voice
1:55:51
I was gonna say is it offensive I was gonna say it's funny I mean that was uh
1:55:58
it was um well I mean I'm not trans uh I'm just a dude I just look a little like this you know
1:56:06
um and but he did like my Chad voice I have a Chad voice yes it's offensive
1:56:12
yeah but he called me a Chad [ __ ] yeah [ __ ] yeah you do have a women's suit I
1:56:19
sent you one that's not what I mean and you know that's not what I mean I want an I want
1:56:24
a men's suit I wanna a guy suit am I good yeah I want a guy shoot this
1:56:30
what I want what what do you what do you think I should get here so it looks like a teacher lame uh
1:56:41
they all look the [ __ ] same don't they though there's just different photos
1:56:53
anything from La Perla [ __ ] hell uh
1:56:58
do what I don't know what size I am jacket size
1:57:05
what am I bro [Music]
1:57:11
new challenge try to make Finn look like a guy challenge you're 100 just going to
1:57:17
look like a hot lesbian Finn I like that I'm not going to spend much
1:57:24
on us on a [ __ ] suit oh could be a new project cross-dressing
1:57:29
as a guy I [ __ ] hate you so much uh this has like this has like is this a
1:57:36
three-piece suit I could go three-piece suit because otherwise I look like a
1:57:42
businessman I thought what I was saying was a compliment to you keeping your or in your voice Im so confused no need to
1:57:50
unban me just don't think I was being rude you woo he said we gotta unban him he said
1:57:57
um uh I think it was that you said I don't like trans 90 of the time everything
1:58:03
else uh was probably all right but that was that was the uh the thing
1:58:09
all right fellas should I buy this suit is it black it looks blue
1:58:15
get a Scottish suit oh that looks completely different
1:58:23
[ __ ] should I buy a suit if you're going to buy a suit get it measured properly ah why I don't want to
1:58:30
pay for it I don't want to pay to just I don't I don't wanna
1:58:36
it's for a meme I just want to sit I have I'm never gonna wear it I'm never gonna wear it oh God is transphobic true
1:58:44
there was that what I do be an adult I don't what I want I want to stay inside
1:58:49
and I want to go outside I want to
1:58:55
you don't need to pay for it though as you install to tailor it they have to right
1:59:00
if you want cheaper suit go to next reminisce in person that's the plan next has some cool dresses though not
1:59:07
that that's hold on if you're going to buy a suit going and get it measured properly trust
1:59:15
me you'll regret it otherwise because it won't fit properly I know I know I know I know I know I
1:59:23
know I know I know I know and I will and I will and I definitely will
1:59:29
but hold on
1:59:46
hold on I'm looking at mini skirts just
1:59:51
just give me a minute okay I'm looking at something else just give me one second one second
2:00:00
do you even know what your men's sizes are anymore
2:00:14
yeah I do man I'm medium that's actually you know what I don't know you're talking about it like okay hold on
2:00:19
that's not a no I'm a medium that's what my sizes are I am a medium I know this
2:00:25
because my entire I I've done this for a year I don't forget that easily I am a
2:00:30
medium that's what it is it's the easiest size to remember I bought that size oh my God I'm like I am a medium
2:00:36
everything I buy is medium besides this shirt because I want it to be like you go into next or something you can get measured for a suit and also browse the
2:00:43
pretty dresses while there win-win
2:00:49
foreign sub for you no freebie from Daddy Bezos
2:00:59
thank you thank you for the dear one though thank you for the five month day one there's a and yeah I know uh you
2:01:05
lost a fair amount of weight uh you're small to medium now okay no so would it be fair to say this time that it
2:01:11
actually has been a year it hasn't been a year
2:01:18
Jesse can you do some Maths for me thank you I need you to find out something
2:01:24
okay if you're counting this if you go consecutively it is not consecutively
2:01:30
been a year consecutively it has been one two three four five months
2:01:37
it's been five months with six on the horizon right one two
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three four five six and before that there's a ton of breaks and then do we even count these you know
2:01:50
so
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okay you know
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consecutively it's been consecutively it has been you can secular consecutively it has
2:02:12
been five years five years in five months it has been five months it's only been five months and you guys
2:02:18
are trying to Gaslight me into thinking it's been a year it's been five months
2:02:24
just because I'm streaming for a while it doesn't mean I've been doing go month for
2:02:30
not five years five months it's been five months I want a Red Bull really bad
2:02:36
what can I give you to watch while I get a Red Bull you know what I think uh genuinely
2:02:42
changing me is I'm getting way better at this
2:02:48
and it's so much more often I feel like I'm morphing into the character a little bit you know what I mean
2:02:55
have you guys okay I've noticed this about me no I've noticed this about me
2:03:03
that was pretty good so I've noticed this thing about me right um
2:03:09
I feel like I don't say [ __ ] I'm gonna say this once and then I'm not letting
2:03:14
you bring it up ever again I feel like I've got
2:03:25
you just call me an egg [ __ ] good Lord like
2:03:31
I've got a little like my my my actions have got a little more feminine you know what I mean insert witty sub comment
2:03:38
here [ __ ] sake oh well never mind I think thank you for the 13 month Prime
2:03:44
step one month past year let's go shall call your neck anyway you know
2:03:49
getting over this four no my God no this has been a recent thing and I need
2:03:57
to get back to my roots I need to play Rumble and get high
2:04:03
I'm gonna go drink a Red Bull I'm gonna go drink I'm gonna go drink a Red Bull and
2:04:09
[ __ ] scream all right give me a minute I'm kidding I'm not gonna get high I got
2:04:15
[ __ ] to do all right I might play Rumble though
2:04:21
mods can you do a poll if I should play Rumble at least for a little bit it's a VR game and I really want to [ __ ] play it anyway
2:04:27
um but I don't know if I should play it on stream and it's also gonna be I I'm also really bad at it
2:04:33
give me a minute I'm gonna grab a rebel [ __ ] you [Music]
2:05:44
thank you [Music]
2:06:46
foreign [Music]
2:07:36
listen
2:07:45
oh no
2:07:56
oh no you said you wanted to back to your roots but your roots is rebelling
2:08:03
against gender stereotypes and playing Minecraft Minecraft bad play Rubble
2:08:09
um what did I do I walked into something I
2:08:14
shouldn't have Maria's staying with me and if you don't
2:08:20
know Marisa there's only fans [Music]
2:08:32
[Laughter] uh
2:08:38
I didn't see anything by the way it was just I was like oh hey you're here and she was looking at it and she
2:08:44
was looking at me going like and I went what she was like
2:08:50
taking pictures she's doing her job she's doing a job
2:08:59
first almost being two years old I said oh nice and I grabbed
2:09:04
so I said oh awesome so I grabbed myself a ripple I said do you want one
2:09:11
so that was fun Jesus Christ foreign
2:09:17
there you go she walked in on you so fair play true when I was watching your video she
2:09:23
walked in oh my God
2:09:30
how about hey you die you drink in Rumble there's no like well
2:09:39
well you gotta move to a bigger place I know I gotta oh my God this [ __ ] guy's
2:09:46
texting me oh
2:09:51
my [ __ ] hitch go the [ __ ] go the [ __ ]
2:09:59
to bed for a fitness androgynous and plays with
2:10:05
bala songs Just she's just like me for real for real I mean am I better than you with Balo songs
2:10:11
that's the main thing apparently not there's like
2:10:16
I I know three moves or a little more but I know a couple moves that's one
2:10:22
that's two of sort of a similar thing um I got that one I got that the one
2:10:29
that every every video game does which is this is the easiest one to learn
2:10:34
uh what else oh there's this [ __ ] one that I can do 50 of the time
2:10:41
okay hold on the next time we're gonna get it [ __ ] okay I'm just getting unlucky
2:10:48
oh nailed it also should have asked her if you can
2:10:55
join some money no uh the one where you flick it and then
2:11:01
drop it that's the other one oh yeah I mean and then there's like the fun one which
2:11:08
is just this I just do that all the time it's great anyway
2:11:13
they're very fun do I know any other ones even tried to learn but I can't actually do it
2:11:18
counter of how many fail let me do it let me do it once or I'm not gonna be satisfied that was fun
2:11:27
ah
2:11:32
it's so sketchy but it sort of worked
2:11:39
there you go I did it slow mode ah
2:11:44
[ __ ] it that counts screw it the last three of those technically I didn't drop them
2:11:54
oh my God okay caffeine's like a dude I haven't had a lot of I haven't had Red Bull I
2:12:00
haven't had a rebel in ages you know what I saw in the fridge well I was looking for energy drinks I saw myself a uh I saw myself my Red Bull
2:12:08
cans that I usually drink and then uh Maurice's white monster cans and I know
2:12:14
for a fact that is a pipeline I don't want to start drinking monster Ultra yeah I really or I really I really will
2:12:21
be feminine that's the difference Red Bull sugar-free is a drink of men
2:12:27
oh damn I'd say monster Ultra that I've never drank before
2:12:35
thank you oh Bailey thank you thank you um
2:12:42
we're both full fat or nothing neither the same bro I'm gonna say uh okay look
2:12:49
I've got all three I've got like I've got the hip I've got hippie drink
2:12:55
but for the people that think they're better than everyone I've got a twink drink
2:13:01
and I've got trans girl drink I've got it all [ __ ]
2:13:06
and then a classic Chad I have like packs of these things this
2:13:12
is what I go through most but if I need Angie bro perfect you ticked every box yes
2:13:20
sugar-free is a drink of woman why why not drink the sugar-free one
2:13:29
that face when no Daddy Coke Zero could hold you down what
2:13:35
is the Starbucks new menu item twink drink
2:13:42
bro let me yeah okay gamer stops
2:13:54
gamer Subs can I have a flavor and I want to call it twink drink
2:14:01
please please please artificial sweetness is
2:14:07
bad for you says who you read a Facebook page there's there's literally no evidence that the that what is it called
2:14:12
it's the one that they don't like is actually one that they're using that's called like aspartum whatever it is
2:14:18
there's no evidence for it being bad at all aspartame yeah yeah there's like no evidence for that it's the same as like
2:14:24
MSG it's just like [ __ ] fear-mongering um
2:14:30
alcohol sugars except my tummy there um [ __ ] bossy juice bro dude
2:14:38
twink drink bossy juice uh
2:14:49
Fanboy bath water could work pretty well for a game of Subs flavor pilk oh never mind
2:14:57
what else
2:15:05
bossy juice dang boy milk oh boy milk boy milk's pretty great boy milk's a
2:15:11
good name I okay that's pretty good that's pretty solid
2:15:17
boy milk is so far my number one boy milk is so far my number one
2:15:24
hey what's that drink oh it's gamer Subs flavor boy milk I'm drinking
2:15:31
please I've gotta um
2:15:36
I'm torn on twink drink or boy milk boy Mill sounds sickening yeah I only
2:15:45
don't like it because of milk the ads write themselves yeah yeah yeah please I will promote so much oh I actually do
2:15:51
have dude okay I still okay look it's been a year now [ __ ] it I want to do something right can
2:15:58
I introduce you to a thing I can chat I need a hand with this I want to let me show you a thing
2:16:05
look at this on gamer Subs [ __ ] you hold on let's I
2:16:10
don't let me click this thing can I yeah so gamer Subs make this thing called
2:16:16
waifu Cups now these [ __ ] sell out immediately sold out sold out sold
2:16:22
out sold out sold out sold out sold out sold out they all sold out all of them
2:16:27
it's all titty women gross there has not been one single guy
2:16:36
ever season two [ __ ] it's sold out sold out sold out there's not been one femboy
2:16:41
ever ever put on one of these cups never once
2:16:47
never once [Music]
2:16:52
eyes bull liquid hates me again I tried to get unbanned because I like your eyes
2:17:00
look I need I need a femboy cup and it has to
2:17:06
be me I need it please I am quite possibly the world's most popular safe
2:17:12
for work femboy on the internet was gone for a while I've gotta be right please
2:17:21
if there's somewhat pleased gamer Subs we work together I look I gotta talk to
2:17:27
you about this one thing chat I need you to lobby for me a little bit here use I'm safe for work it's I'm very safe for
2:17:33
work just don't think about it too hard I'm safe for work bro didn't Schleich get a cup no snack and
2:17:39
go suck it and suck I mean I love slacks the company
2:17:44
um these [ __ ] things are the I've ordered 15 months punk I'm
2:17:51
so I'm a little bit uh I'm a little bit of a goblin and so they send me packages
2:17:56
all the times all the time and they sent me some of these and they're basically okay have you ever had Rice Krispie
2:18:02
treats just like ricegum like the marshmallow rice crispy are they called rice rice crispy cakes
2:18:09
Rice Crispy Treats they're like when they're a bar you know what I'm on about am I why why
2:18:14
is [ __ ] this open why are my fake nails okay look yeah these little these little bars
2:18:21
yeah yeah okay yeah these things okay these things right this is basically oh
2:18:28
sorry these are Rice Crispy Treats but they've got like a hundred calories in which is really good they've got eight
2:18:35
grams of protein in it only a gram of sugar and I swear to God they are addicting they slap and I've looked up
2:18:44
Alternatives because so okay I looked up Alternatives and [ __ ] because this is in America and I thought that like oh wow
2:18:50
okay so 48 oh no sorry 20 24 of these 60 bucks that's I know it's an American shipping but I looked and there's
2:18:57
literally nothing this good there's literally nothing I fat I'd looked at Amazon I looked on protein websites it's
2:19:03
all like uh it's all like [ __ ] 300 calories and two grams of protein it's annoying as [ __ ] I want a little snack a
2:19:09
little protein bar it's [ __ ] awesome 60 bucks yikes dude 24 of these pots
2:19:15
higher protein than an egg right and it's 100 calories it's less it's less calorie is it less calories and more and
2:19:22
higher protein than an egg and it's so good they're so [ __ ] good I have no
2:19:28
drinks to promote to you this is the [ __ ] best thing they make right now I it's so good I myself personally I
2:19:36
didn't even I I dude I didn't even get free [ __ ] from him I personally ordered
2:19:41
[ __ ] I think I ordered three of these I ordered three of these for myself
2:19:46
because I go through them so fast I have like they're a great like dessert but also makes you feel a little full
2:19:52
because I got a bit of protein in them they're great they're [ __ ] awesome I know I'm marketing to you but like they're [ __ ] awesome and I really
2:19:58
want a fanboy cup I never asked you this ever again chat but
2:20:07
if you buy some [ __ ] I can convince them to put me on the [ __ ] cup I will make boy milk real I'll do it oh my God
2:20:15
you're a real Sheila wait what the [ __ ] Sheila what well I don't know about Sheila
2:20:23
huh
2:20:28
I'm so confused oh my God is there any kind of [ __ ]
2:20:34
oh my God it's all about never mind but um
2:20:42
they're great I only stopped drinking them because I only stopped like um so gamer Subs I've asked them to send me I
2:20:49
didn't realize they make it but they make like a non-caffeinated version because I really like how they all taste
2:20:54
it's just that I can't keep drinking them because it's like drinking red bull as like just at the thing you drink it'll make you like the hyper because
2:21:01
there's stomach like caffeine them but they make non-caffeinated versions and I've got I'm shipping them to me but they're very cool
2:21:07
I think it's called eagle when you buy if you buy some [ __ ] it's
2:21:12
code eagle and they're [ __ ] awesome but yeah that's that's sick I would really recommend the [ __ ] this the
2:21:18
snacks they're [ __ ] awesome especially if you're in America if you're not in America
2:21:24
so she was saying before about 40 more in character
2:21:30
so you're saying before about being more in character oh I want boy milk
2:21:38
it's called Eagle yeah use code Eagle at checkout it's awesome what's with the what with the boy clothes
2:21:44
sorry Chad I forgot I've been wearing I've been wearing guy clothes for a while um I'm sorry about the shirt chat I Hold
2:21:51
On where where this shirt really should be he's right like right over there
2:21:58
what it should be right it should be right in in that box over there this
2:22:03
shirt should be over there but the thing is I don't know
2:22:09
what do you think Chad what do you think
2:22:15
should I have to put the shirt away or no because
2:22:21
I don't know I'm so comfy I don't want to walk all the way over there you know
2:22:34
it's such a cute shirt too what do you think you know I like the outfit
2:22:41
chat do you not like my uh do you not like my boy clothes today no foreign
2:22:49
[Music] but which flavor should I go for
2:22:56
oh okay well listen I'm look I'm a bit of a goblin and I like sorry
2:23:03
I'm a bit of a goblin I don't like the flavors I mean I don't so dragon fruit is okay mango good the one the only one
2:23:11
that I really like is the lemonade one what the [ __ ] is this hair
2:23:20
Jesus how did I do this hair what the hell blue rice is good dude I
2:23:27
like the I like the lemonade one a lot I I put a little bit of real lemon juice in it and it tastes [ __ ]
2:23:33
I'm not so vanilla oh [ __ ] you Hobbit if any remember when you said you wanted to
2:23:38
do a bikini-esque knife stream is that still in Plants you should also do
2:23:44
another topless Sky Twitter post that tweet will be bangers please don't Bonk
2:23:49
me I mean I haven't like made any uh made any physical gain progress I have the
2:23:55
type of hairstyle that would like want to come over to my place and watch berserk maybe after I know you wanted to
2:24:02
play Dungeons and Dragons today but the new episodes out that's stupid that's I know it's old
2:24:09
trying to think what what do I I look like a typo I'm so peeved right now I can't do dinos cause
2:24:16
you're in the UK loudly crying oh what what is what is that a thing just send just what
2:24:23
what do I look like I play nerd girl yeah right oh [ __ ] can I like
2:24:29
not [ __ ] up my hair if I try and like get glasses oh my God
2:24:48
it's pretty cute it's pretty cute it's pretty good it's pretty cool
2:24:54
it does I look like old internet you know like when I
2:25:01
I look like old internet like Harry Potter you shut the [ __ ] up like um you know when they like took
2:25:07
photos like [ __ ] I I can't describe this because everything was selfies
2:25:13
or they'll do like that that I nailed that what the [ __ ]
2:25:19
that that like exact pose the Tumblr the [ __ ] dude foreign
2:25:25
you didn't see my recent what are they called on Tumblr are they tumblr post what are they
2:25:30
because Twitter their tweets what are they on Tumblr
2:25:36
post they just post oh blog okay you didn't see my recent Tumblr block it
2:25:42
got like a thousand [ __ ] hold on I can do this what what's the it was a reblog yeah you
2:25:50
didn't see my recent tumble post it got like a thousand reblogs
2:25:57
where is the makeup optimized she might
2:26:06
I tweeted my Wattpad fan fiction between Harry Potter and Malfoy and people loved it
2:26:14
my God this is like the all like the very quirky and [ __ ] I like that not
2:26:20
the fan fiction Pro I don't know what they do on Tumblr it's that Tumblr to me is like porn and fan fictions
2:26:27
foreign Folly on Temple I have a tumble I just haven't posted anything but I got the
2:26:33
profile I'll post porn on them
2:26:41
it's not gonna be me it's just gonna be random porn uh you know you know the art skills to be a quirky girl
2:26:50
I could [ __ ] are these blue light blocking glasses holy [ __ ] they are it's actually kind of cute
2:26:56
that's kind of nice there's utility in these what's it like a what's a 2014
2:27:03
sort of thing to say 2012 internet girl you know
2:27:08
new style right used Cody girl on a 50 purchase Now give me the non-binary
2:27:14
version of good girl please smile
2:27:19
huh oh [ __ ]
2:27:24
[Music] I don't know YOLO oh [ __ ] sorry Yolo's pretty great
2:27:33
foreign I can't I can't bring myself to say it
2:27:40
[ __ ] yeah the raw XD was the ooh before uh
2:27:45
the rar
2:27:53
God it's so cringe okay the um what if I don't know what the non-binary version of good girl is
2:28:01
I wanna I'm good um
2:28:06
give me the non-binary version of good girl who's a good day then you are
2:28:14
good job good job today you've been such a good day then
2:28:19
good kitty good day bad not good MB Envy I guess so is that
2:28:27
oh I guess so and wait what's NB oh like the letter N so I [ __ ] dude I always
2:28:32
like in binary it's like I swear I hadn't heard that one before
2:28:38
[ __ ] I'm just like an idiot
2:28:43
good living thing good creature of the night [Applause]
2:28:51
good good skin walker you know good good
2:28:56
[ __ ] my God good them is trans saying good them is transphobic
2:29:06
I don't know [ __ ] good [ __ ] good [ __ ]
2:29:13
miscreant sorry that was I don't know what I don't know what the
2:29:18
dude [ __ ] do non-binary people come under the
2:29:24
umbrella term of trans I think they do right I think that they that's or I don't know probably like a
2:29:29
how you personally I don't know if I oh my ear dude I just got the best scratch in my ear oh my god oh apparently this
2:29:37
is a debate okay a lot of people said most people said yes okay cool um Nifty right fair enough cool cool
2:29:45
dude I do feel pretty cute with glasses the only problem is with glasses like they really really emphasize my nose I
2:29:52
look like one of those you know when you like um you know the the fake glasses and the
2:29:58
nose prop unless I wear them like there then it's insane why are girls allowed
2:30:04
to say girlfriend to refer to a platonic friend but I can't say this is my boy twink male wife Finn
2:30:12
you can foreign
2:30:20
dude holy [ __ ] I wanna dude with the Red Bull too with the like Quirk with the
2:30:26
quirky Red Bull sugar-free and the glasses and the Tumblr blog I really am
2:30:31
like I really am uh that girl
2:30:37
I need like a lightsaber or something or like a picture of
2:30:42
I need a Harry Potter Gryffindor flag and a lightsaber these glasses and this
2:30:47
Red Bull
2:30:54
dude exactly I'm sorry no I take that back I also need a poster of uh My
2:31:00
Chemical Romance or like just it playing in the background absolutely stunning look babe
2:31:09
yeah I do look a little bit like a chick a little bit
2:31:15
what do you think I'm not like those other girls I'm a man
2:31:22
damn right I made that a shirt once before you know realizing that's probably not the the best thing MLG in
2:31:30
the background too yeah like a little like a little Snoop Dogg photo you know
2:31:35
weed or something Oh you mean a lot I forgot what I said oh with the a little I mean you know
2:31:43
look a little bit like a chick like a superwoman in disguise
2:31:49
yeah I got into an Uber today um and I genuinely thought like ah so I got into an Uber today and was
2:31:56
like uh I'm not gonna finish that thought let's move on let's carry let's carry on just
2:32:04
throw the an underbus corset over the shirt and then it looks girly yeah I could just yeah in all fairness
2:32:11
but I really like the design for it and I do have an underbus corset no no let's say it finish it continue
2:32:17
well what I was gonna say is that if I do learn the girl voice
2:32:24
I'm sort of certain that on so I was thinking about this in the Uber right
2:32:30
if I could do the girl voice and I tried like this hard with makeup
2:32:36
which is like just do the normal makeup I guess and yeah and specifically I didn't like
2:32:43
I just wore some [ __ ] like this I think I pass Maybe I think I could genuinely like get into
2:32:50
Ubers and get a higher rating because you know they wouldn't think that I'm a [ __ ] you know dude whenever I get in
2:32:57
whenever I get into Ubers I will like I'll do either two things I'll put my cap down so they can't see my eyelashes
2:33:03
and be like hey bro there you know off we go we're going to Tesco's or I'll do the opposite where I
2:33:11
there will have already made eye contact so they see the eyelashes and they might think girl and then I just don't talk as
2:33:17
long as I possibly can or I'll do this thing or I'll go like I'll I'll set like they'll get in and be
2:33:23
like long drive and I go um and then never talk and then as I'm
2:33:29
getting out I I [ __ ] it up and I go bye bro see ya have a good day and then uh shut the door and then uh my Uber riding
2:33:36
goes [ __ ] down it's so annoying ah
2:33:42
it's it's it sucks bro my Uber writing goes down when I'm in Birmingham so hard
2:33:48
I go to Brighton five if I stay in Brighton for a month my
2:33:53
Uber riding's gonna be perfect five stars I come back to Birmingham and it plummet because there's so many there's
2:33:59
so much more like uh like very very hardcore religious people here so I'll get into cars and they'll have like
2:34:05
they'll they'll have like you know religious symbols over and they'll just I'll see them in the [ __ ] mirror just
2:34:11
like this [ __ ] like I'll see just their eyes going hold on let me let me let me set the
2:34:16
scene for you this is what I see hold on this is what I see when I get into an Uber is this [ __ ] okay hold on where's
2:34:24
the [ __ ]
2:34:30
where are we going today is it just this [ __ ] in the in the mirror
2:34:37
of the car
2:34:43
that and then my Uber writing plummets it's so bad
2:34:50
yeah um listen well you know there's plenty plenty plenty of troubles for uh for
2:34:57
gender non-conforming folks but the main one is [ __ ] [ __ ] Ubers my Uber
2:35:03
riding is going down don't offend the Muslims bro I didn't mention any religion
2:35:08
mention anything I didn't say a single religion I said religion it's a religious you're talking
2:35:15
to that one girl voice to improve your Uber rating yup yeah definitely says
2:35:20
thoughts there
2:35:27
the problem hat now it's the lighting see we got a light over there but um give them a lower running back I've
2:35:33
never rated an Uber less than five stars besides like I think a couple times ever the one of them was I one of them was we
2:35:40
were going to the airport and the [ __ ] it was telling me about I was driving like it was like an hour two hour drive
2:35:45
to the airport and the guy was telling me about like so like first of all I got in the car stunk of alcohol and as I as
2:35:52
we carried on going definitely weed like I don't know why I couldn't like figure
2:35:57
it out at first but it was like weeds what got one of those weird smells like you immediately know where there's weed but like I'm trying to give you the
2:36:04
benefit of that and just say like ah maybe his car's a little funky you know um but definitely weed and then he
2:36:09
brought up the conversation of like hey do you want a cigarette and I was like no I don't smoke uh not my thing and he goes like
2:36:15
Read Bad Evil weed and I got and I go like no and I smoked on my thing he goes like anything I'll
2:36:22
go well not cigarettes and he goes like ah yeah I've I've got a ton of it if you
2:36:28
want some I was like what do you mean you got a ton of it it goes like in the car it's like
2:36:35
wear my bags huh well I'm going to the airport and they have security dogs you bought
2:36:43
weed on my luggage bro
2:36:49
and then dude and then here was the other thing so I I didn't like that wasn't why I gave him force that wasn't
2:36:55
why I get by the way four stars not even like one the reason why I gave him three or four stars instead of the perfect
2:37:01
five I give every single person is um what's it called [ __ ] he was a
2:37:06
terrible like he'd stop on a dime he'd swerve
2:37:11
into different lanes and then like uh audibly go well my bad like
2:37:18
should not have been trying he didn't oh that was the thing he didn't have his seat belt on the entire time the entire
2:37:24
time oh oh my God 20 months simping that was the and that was the only time I've
2:37:30
ever given someone a uh a three-star Uber rating out of a five 10 out of 10 over was funny but [ __ ] it
2:37:36
hell thank you for the 20 oh thanks for the 20 months of simp Behavior
2:37:43
if being a [ __ ] is fatherless Behavior what is being a simp
2:37:54
I'm lonely oh God a king [Music] [Applause] [Music]
2:38:01
a king you looked confident when you streamed outside in the past it's sad that you
2:38:07
notice more discrimination now please stay safe Jude
2:38:13
eh I mean I mean not really I I I don't think I
2:38:21
was ever like hyper confident going outside I think I was very scared going outside but I was
2:38:27
like dressed up like I know that there was one stream I did where I was like I was in the uh like gray wig and I was
2:38:33
walking around in daytime as like part of a 24-hour stream it was like in the morning and I did it and I remember being [ __ ]
2:38:40
scared like so [ __ ] scared uh but like at least not scared but like
2:38:45
nervous I guess because I look like [ __ ] insane I don't know like I had like a lot of makeup on out of wig on I
2:38:51
was like very clear I was like talking all the time so there was no like and I was in like a dress so there was
2:38:57
no like dress normal and just like I wasn't in this this is like a normal outfit and just gone last week my Uber
2:39:04
driver side swiped a parked car pretty badly and drove away still gave five
2:39:09
stars and tipped good man good man he knows what he's doing
2:39:15
can we please get the street oh dude you know you guys you know you guys say I have a lazy eye
2:39:21
so when we got this photo shoot done for the driver's license photo I noticed something else about my face
2:39:27
I noticed one other thing I don't just have a lazy eye
2:39:33
have a lazy lip I don't know if you can spot it right
2:39:39
and I'm not talking it's not like that I'm not like not because of that but like if I look directly at the camera
2:39:53
and realize how pronounced it was look so I'm not
2:39:59
look at that
2:40:07
look at that entire face a bit asymmetrical yeah it is so like
2:40:15
this eye is more closed this lip is smaller I have like a guy's side and a
2:40:21
female side what the [ __ ] hold on let me like
2:40:29
even smile different this is so weird to me
2:40:39
what the [ __ ] why can't I do that I'm gonna do that
2:40:44
but I gotta oh bro this is so weird man is this dysphoria no do you ever run
2:40:50
into random Uber drivers approaching you on the street and offering rides while you're just sitting or walking around
2:40:56
kind of wonder if that's the thing over there no mainly because I look so unapproachable in person like I I don't
2:41:03
look like this I look like I I can't show I don't really have like a direct fault
2:41:11
I could make your lips lazy Capper
2:41:19
that's a good one that's a good one I just usually wear like really like I I
2:41:24
I'm usually in like a big coat or something because I'm outside like a mat like I'm not the sort of
2:41:31
person that like you'd approach you know some guy asked me to take their photograph once that was cool but like I
2:41:39
you know I I don't get talked to in public I really keep to myself part of me uh part of me is really worried
2:41:45
because I've been recognized a few times now in Birmingham like the city center bit it's been like five times that I've been
2:41:52
recognized so I go I go two ways if I don't look good that day I am [ __ ] I
2:41:58
try and put off the most [ __ ] don't [ __ ] don't talk to me Vibe ever like I've got like wired headphones and I got
2:42:05
wired headphones in both of them just [ __ ] one of them doesn't even work but I got both of them in don't talk to
2:42:10
me I got a cap on I'm looking down I'm [ __ ] got a mask on maybe just like [ __ ] it and I'm walking she's fast and
2:42:16
straight I'm determined to get to a place if I look good though if I look
2:42:22
good and I know that people sometimes recognize me I'll walk around like
2:42:28
with my YouTube channel out just you know like like accidentally holding my
2:42:33
phone the wrong way hmm uh
2:42:41
like do it where's my [ __ ]
2:42:51
oh silly me I'm spawning my phone the wrong way around it's
2:42:58
that's me no uh but if I if I look good I just don't really care as much but usually usually I've got like I've got a
2:43:04
camp here like my usual setup do I have like a coat of something
2:43:11
here I don't [ __ ] usually my setup is just like
2:43:17
and I don't like hair [ __ ] behind me like big coat on just
2:43:22
I'm just not like I just I'm just not in the mood to be [ __ ] I got like I'm
2:43:28
like don't [ __ ] don't talk to me I don't care like [ __ ] go in this way I'm going to the bus don't [ __ ] with it
2:43:35
yeah I got hold it halt brandishing a knife maybe that's why
2:43:41
I swear you looked almost feminine for a moment there bro
2:43:49
what the [ __ ] are you on about bro you calling me feminine dude you don't
2:43:56
even [ __ ] bro you wanna [ __ ] you wanna [ __ ] take this outside don't [ __ ] take this outside you're gonna
2:44:01
take it into the wait you wanna [ __ ] with me bro you want to take this into the bedroom bro yeah you want to [ __ ] me
2:44:08
bro you wanna [ __ ] me oh [ __ ] you bro you wanna [ __ ] me hmm yeah
2:44:18
foreign
2:44:26
[Laughter]
2:44:32
that's how I am in Birmingham any approach any approach is meant exactly
2:44:37
like that okay
2:44:42
uh meet and greet in bed yeah dude
2:44:48
keep your glasses on your eyes I am I'm walking right through them
2:44:55
dude it is cute I really miss the old internet poses and [ __ ] I really do like
2:45:01
okay tell me this doesn't look so [ __ ] cool like hold on like they're like slightly
2:45:06
they're a little bit messy hair and they're like they'll hold like
2:45:12
it looks so good it looks so good it looks so good it's my generation you
2:45:17
know old internet okay well you're not old internet I mean like decade internet decade ago internet
2:45:23
decade ago internet was Peak all right prove me wrong
2:45:29
again with Old internet damn Zoom is bro okay listen man I was there on the first
2:45:34
stage of every social media app that's what I mean by old internet like
2:45:40
you were 12 bro yeah what do you mean I remember it I was using the [ __ ] internet
2:45:46
I'm sure dudes hand get I dude when I was [ __ ] eight I saw a wait was that video real this is scarred into my brain
2:45:53
you know that one video where a helicopter Just Landing I did it again and he gets and the guy gets out the
2:45:59
helicopter and then puts his hand up and it chops It Off it was that a real video is that fake someone knows what that
2:46:05
video was that was a very viral video was that one fake because in my mind that's definitely fake but like I
2:46:12
remember seeing it when I was like I was on ER was that real
2:46:21
you telling me eight-year-old me I remember Lively you telling me eight-year-old me you saw that [ __ ] damn that brought probably
2:46:27
scar me yeah boxy bro oh my God I but the thing was I was on the tail end of like boxy in that era
2:46:34
because I wasn't really I wasn't really that involved in it it was definitely around the same time period but uh
2:46:40
I was using the internet before Google existed get off my lawn damn kids I was using and I wasn't using the internet
2:46:45
when Google had their old logo uh I got on the I got on the internet in
2:46:51
1995. sharks well how was the [ __ ] beep boop
2:46:57
internet back in the day listen I had I I have a vague memory of
2:47:02
beep boop internet um but it wasn't for very long like I mean
2:47:08
I have like two two memories of like you know I have two memories of beep boop
2:47:14
internet I never watched two girls one cup never
2:47:20
once I successfully avoided it for my entire life I've never seen it to this day I think that's a pretty good thing
2:47:28
I don't like watching goal and I'm watching I don't like watching gross [ __ ] I don't like watching horror movies and you know what I'm a better person
2:47:35
for it I really am I really am like I I'm so like good I dude I don't get
2:47:42
scared at night I'm feel completely fine going out in the street because I haven't watched some dude get murdered
2:47:48
like I don't I'm not scared of ghosts like I'm scared of real things like
2:47:53
sharks they pose a real danger to me living in the Midlands of England
2:47:59
but like it's awful bro it's awful don't bother yeah Jason's behind you Jason Jason the
2:48:06
[ __ ] uh Discord mod that would scare me um Finn girl no sadly sadly sadly not a
2:48:13
girl yet don't have [ __ ] I I can't Peg your [ __ ] Dad yet
2:48:20
but as soon as I get this dick cut off I'm gonna [ __ ] him in the ass
2:48:26
sorry I'm gonna like sorry I'm giving I'm giving Tick Tock too many [ __ ] um
2:48:31
I don't wanna and dude I got on to um oh just by the way let me make clear I
2:48:37
am a straight guy I'm so sorry internet don't fight me impression but like I I'm
2:48:43
a straight CIS uh white guy I'm boring as [ __ ] so I do this for fun though I
2:48:49
have it I have an interesting thing that happened you can cut me off for the textile clip though
2:48:55
there was um so I got onto a different side of Twitter recently and I think I liked it
2:49:02
just to see if I could [ __ ] with him a bit so I did I delete it no oh my God it's oh I
2:49:12
feel bad I'll now Scar the chat with a singular word reminding them of a very important video are you ready
2:49:19
jar another video
2:49:24
I feel bad
2:49:30
I like the tweets like uh I feel bad okay so I got on to uh
2:49:38
John oh dude are you the frail for the people that don't know do you
2:49:43
want to explain it John you explain what that poor guy does
2:49:49
oh Jesus I haven't even seen that video I just know exactly what it is anyway
2:49:55
fellas fellas I uh let me let me describe to you this
2:50:02
thing so I got on to uh
2:50:09
John
2:50:20
dude I feel so bad oh that was so stupid
2:50:28
so I was checking my quote retweets on a tweet I made Hello which you shouldn't do so I made this I made this tweet and
2:50:35
it got a lot of likes way more interactions than I usually get I usually hover around thirty thousand this is like double in fact this is my
2:50:41
most liked tweet uh uh yeah this is my second most liked
2:50:48
tweet that I've ever posted right so I was checking quote retweets and usually they're great man the things I'd let him
2:50:54
do to me like you know like step on me uh this guy scares me is fair but you
2:51:00
know hear me out they usually very me wait they're usually very good but there was one that I found very funny and it
2:51:07
was that I they were on I I apparently reached uh radical feminist Twitter
2:51:14
and yikes fellas the turfs know about me
2:51:22
oh so um I want it I didn't want to scroll
2:51:27
through all the crow Retreats and I was like and I was like you know I can subtly
2:51:33
say like I've seen this but I just I'm not replying nothing I can't I so I liked it
2:51:40
the Tweet when I liked it was on like 30 likes
2:51:45
it's at 700 now and I genuinely feel a little bad
2:51:50
because I didn't want to forward a bunch of people to this person um
2:51:56
even though they're almost getting ratio um
2:52:05
God damn it
2:52:12
okay I didn't really okay never mind I don't want to send anything anyone their way even if they even if I don't agree
2:52:17
but anyway they tweeted out I wonder what rad twit's opinion on this guy I have very mixed ones by the way into finding them gross fair enough I was
2:52:24
gonna actually reach out to them and I say like hey I'm sort of interested what your opinion is because genuinely I have no
2:52:31
necessarily I know that we might chat we might disagree I don't have any ill will on someone talking [ __ ] about me I'm
2:52:37
completely fine with it right I don't care um so I was gonna say hey I'm interested in your opinion and I read some of the
2:52:42
replies and I was like okay Nifty uh that like I didn't realize this like
2:52:48
people like this existed it's really interesting like um ah damn the thing is now there's like 50
2:52:54
replies but that was originally like 10 to 20 something like that uh
2:53:00
I'm just trying to sort let's see [ __ ] hell
2:53:06
basically he's just a silly guy who plays Joseph kind of um essentially these are the people that
2:53:12
like so these are the people that their their opinion their opinion is they're like
2:53:18
a guy dressing as a woman they're making a mockery of women it's like JK Rowling
2:53:23
Twitter right so that's like the uh that's like the thing
2:53:29
I didn't realize that if I liked it tweet it was going to put it onto so many people's writer hello
2:53:36
sorry darling where's your hair Gumi please I don't have one
2:53:42
yes I don't use one yes you had a year on the floor
2:53:48
yeah I took it where is it put in the bin I'm going to the bar
2:53:54
you wanna pop arcade can you can you beat me can you beat a
2:54:00
Street Fighter for me Guitar Hero yeah yeah not particularly
2:54:06
have fun I found it huh
2:54:12
impedo baiting grifter I wouldn't care if you didn't I wouldn't care if it didn't try and look like a
2:54:18
horny schoolgirl how is this a schoolgirl outfit by the way is this does this scream school girl to you what
2:54:24
score did you go to because my I'm very conservative we wore
2:54:29
a suit the women wore suits at my school what
2:54:34
like okay no one no one that like you live in porn if you think this is a
2:54:40
school girl outfit or even one mimicking it like this shirt's not a school girl outfit the skirt is checkered
2:54:48
[ __ ] Scottish people trying to dress like school girls with
2:54:54
their Kilts and [ __ ] um ah damn bro I think uh
2:55:01
[Music] oh yeah so look okay look at this uh I
2:55:08
think it's clear both him and the circle stands out with watch too much porn he has a twisted view a few view of women
2:55:14
as a result but as long as he Minds his own business and doesn't change the letters in his passport or demand access
2:55:19
to spaces designated women goals I think it's fine interesting and then uh so
2:55:24
there's like yeah so these are like um like the anti-transfolk and I've just literally never seen them before
2:55:30
it's so interesting uh because obviously
2:55:36
I I so oh [ __ ] Vince d m let's go you're wrong L doubles so like uh I know maybe
2:55:43
this is an uncomfortable thing but this is [ __ ] all new to me this is naughty um so like yeah I didn't I mean I know
2:55:49
that people existed but like I've seen him I don't even remember all that this is crazy do you watch too much porn you
2:55:55
know what I don't watch porn not much anyway like I'm pretty [ __ ]
2:56:00
got a pretty big brain just just think about [ __ ] you know that's it
2:56:05
who needs to watch porn [ __ ] dummies huh still couldn't find it does it did lead
2:56:11
to me not being able to find the clitoris though
2:56:16
um one of the one of the replies I
2:56:22
encourage more men to sexualize themselves and Pander to the patriarchy
2:56:27
you're so obsessed with other people's gentles yet they insist you trans women are the perverts
2:56:33
that's what obsessed with people's genitals I think a little bit it's interesting
2:56:39
it's really interesting you assuming of course he's doing it for attention he gets hundreds of thousands to sit around a skirt I would too damn I don't know
2:56:44
what this person said but [ __ ] yeah oh am I blocked yeah
2:56:49
um yeah it's really [ __ ] interesting there was one reply that I'm actually looking for by the way
2:56:56
um
2:57:02
stuff to bring down actual women what when the turfs know of you God speed 07.
2:57:09
people have used this stuff to bring down actual women and he looks like he would be rude to me at my job ah I'm so
2:57:17
nice I promise I'm so nice I promise oh that okay that one's that one hurt the
2:57:23
rest of it was fine that one that one answered oh that one was mean oh I
2:57:29
promise I promise I'm not oh God man you know what okay like okay
2:57:36
dude I swear to God I'd be I'd rather I'd oh wait hitch is this true what did hitch say
2:57:43
oh no
2:57:48
what happened oh it's a girl why is everyone saying 07. nah [ __ ] it I don't know what I did
2:57:56
yeah is this we will have hell yeah okay but like
2:58:02
uh find him gross hell yeah true so that one easy but oh god dude I can be called
2:58:08
slurs all day I don't give a [ __ ] because of a donor oh [ __ ] fair enough okay godspeed awesome so um there was um
2:58:16
I can be called slurs all day do not care uh but he looks like he'd be rude
2:58:22
to me at my job the male you like this
2:58:31
I feel bad though because I didn't realize it forwards it onto people
2:58:36
don't block me though so good on them pretty cool um
2:58:43
have you ever been to school this is literally a star I said yeah it's not a oh good lord
2:58:51
this is a big trends rent good Lord
2:58:58
oh wait was it this one whether you identify as a femboy or a trans woman or
2:59:03
whatever a man wearing Fake Plastic boobs and obviously a schoolgirl inspired outfit is sacross yeah and then how is it a school girl absolutely the
2:59:09
school girl one was always like the a weird one because that's the same thing that this one was on but dude this is so
2:59:14
[ __ ] interesting to me I wonder what he looks like without filter makeup
2:59:19
yeah I also hope he didn't have surgery haven't yet now I'm gonna make my [ __ ] longer bye
2:59:25
other than that seems like he needs to get out and touch some grass
2:59:32
unlike that the turfs are right bro yeah man I mean of course I'm dude what do you
2:59:39
mean saying bro I'm my my consultation for my for my uh
2:59:46
[ __ ] my consultation for my uh my leg lengthening surgery is so certain it's
2:59:51
like next week I go for uh it's you know that thing where they like those dudes
2:59:56
get like a like an extra inch on and then share like like it's like it's like the most insanely painful and awful
3:00:02
recovery from a surgery and you gain like two inches of height and it's like
3:00:08
you know Finn if you make it any longer you will pass out every time you look in the mirror
3:00:15
hell yeah [ __ ] you all the [ __ ] blood goes from my brain
3:00:21
dead length length it doesn't need length anyway shortening
3:00:28
uh
3:00:34
this guy literally gets paid to look like a chick because it was found by assassin too don't act like you wouldn't do this for a hundred thousand dollars a
3:00:39
month I don't make that no I wouldn't actually oh ratio oh [ __ ] hold on this is a thing never lose you ratio again
3:00:46
ratio of the ratio what the [ __ ] I know that kind of money I don't need that kind of money oh I much I much prefer having my
3:00:53
masculinity and self-respect oh oh bro okay hold on
3:00:59
it's boring but like dude kind of like this is this is pretty
3:01:06
sick what the [ __ ] is this
3:01:12
okay [Music]
3:01:17
this is nutty porn sick moyed what the [ __ ] is a moid
3:01:24
I don't know what moyed minimum orbit intersection distance
3:01:32
I'm gonna take a wild guess and say that's not what it means
3:01:37
moyed femcel ah moid or mascoid is a derogatory term
3:01:44
used by fem cells and other female members of the insults are against males also it's just like
3:01:49
it's like [ __ ] Stacy but like for men oh no it wouldn't be that it'd be like a
3:01:57
oh [ __ ] I don't know a lot of turfs are like also firm cells fair enough I've never really seen this
3:02:03
side of anything this is so [ __ ] cool it's like a little that was gonna be mean
3:02:12
okay I shouldn't say that but like Twitter's
3:02:17
an interesting place bro it's so enjoyed short for femoid I think it's male it's
3:02:22
male it's like man oid boy Boyd
3:02:28
[Music] what the [ __ ] he was better when he just
3:02:34
did to see porno I haven't done a porno yet I like adding yet to everything well
3:02:40
that's hold on hold on let me scroll past that one um but pretty cool
3:02:46
um you know the [ __ ] [ __ ] yeah
3:02:51
oh the show more replies button's dangerous this is like what this is like the the ones that really went hard
3:03:01
Fair oh this is the one okay sorry this was
3:03:06
actually the one I think I was looking for so this one I found interesting enough to like I wanted to save the
3:03:11
conversation while I'm Pro dressing feminine and still acknowledging your mayonnaise and manhood it still has a
3:03:17
weird piece he still has weird giant fake boobs and dresses in sexy school girl style outfits that I consider
3:03:23
rubbing shoulders with pedophilia interesting that every all of these
3:03:28
[ __ ] people go to Children also Giant buddy these are [ __ ] bee cups
3:03:38
be couldn't be you exposing of yourself
3:03:43
couldn't be you huh hmm Giant
3:03:52
absolutely unhumanly massive
3:03:58
Iraq I've changed who I think I can be with this hold on I think I can be a femme
3:04:04
cell uh I think I could do this with this look um what would I do let me do like
3:04:09
backwards here they wouldn't no they do like no okay I'm gonna go for like extreme side
3:04:16
part I know I was just working at Twitter but oh my God because I want to see it just
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slowly deteriorate into complete inexistence I can't look like a I can't look like a femme cell I could try my
3:04:28
all that this is the face I imagine like all all
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like the I I imagine like Skrillex oh bro don't do that to me you
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know like the uh like the the what's it called anyone that this like the the people that are like anyone's like I
3:04:46
don't like this group they're all like this I always imagine them like
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that how do I do that
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that's what I imagine them talking like ah my [ __ ] eye Jesus
3:05:09
man someone replied saying every time you put your glasses on I
3:05:15
start to listen more intently do I sound if I did a British if I if I if I did like more of a British accent
3:05:22
more glasses would would I sound smarter do I have a book
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do I have a book yeah I do hold on worry about this wine glass all right I
3:05:34
reckon I can sound smart if I grab myself a book if okay I reckon I can sound smart if I
3:05:40
like do an English if I if I more heavily if I if I more heavily talk in my English acts if I'm if I'm
3:05:46
more heavily talk in my uh British British accent and um I put on some glasses I talked to a
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matter of factually I'll read a book now
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that's just not correct um
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so E equals m c squared and mm-hmm
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[Music] if you look at a schoolgirl outfit and
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immediately have sex with the wearer then that is on you you need therapy I
3:06:26
would agree as Sigmund Freud once said that's all about [ __ ] it's all about
3:06:32
the parents and the fact how you are kids and [ __ ] you know that's what he
3:06:39
said these people like uh what's it called these people are insane man it's but
3:06:44
it's fine I don't wanna I don't want to like be insulting to anyone but like it is like really interesting to read
3:06:50
other people's opinions that like completely like these are people are completely outside of my sphere right uh
3:06:57
and I I really do like it I really do like seeing it uh I'm gonna [ __ ] Jesus not like I wanna
3:07:03
I'm gonna don't any female social yeah he's gross don't let any female socialized idiots
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on here make you feel bad about it most dudes who do this [ __ ] have a fetish why does he need boobs
3:07:15
why does he have to do what does he have to do with uh what what does that have to do with gender non-conforming
3:07:21
interests or expression I don't know maybe just one
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that's fun oh my God so I see you're studying for tens UK
3:07:35
visit yeah I'm working on it
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if then when you're gonna re-pierce your ass um um
3:07:47
tells you scrolling Past come dog trending what
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what the [ __ ] is come dog oh it's football
3:08:07
I thought it was gonna wow I'm way more gross than well I'm way more gross than [ __ ]
3:08:13
anyone on this app I thought of it like uh like chili dog but like come dog
3:08:19
you know like it was a hot dog but with
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I didn't all right well I'm I'm just gross I guess
3:08:34
please just do the ears do what do what do what do you mean do the ears
3:08:46
foreign
3:08:51
what is happening
3:09:04
in the comments on your post about that streamer why are people in your community such [ __ ] okay [Laughter]
3:09:10
that's funny there's 17. children are just evolved cream pies
3:09:18
oh man
3:09:24
oh man now I feel well not really
3:09:30
the insulted John for being they insulted John for being French
3:09:36
ugly pansexual now listen I can get behind a good french insult
3:09:42
but don't you [ __ ] with my buddy John yes a bit [ __ ] up to insult someone
3:09:48
sexually something's old enough to know what you're doing yeah very true but I mean like
3:09:54
okay listen this is like the it's not a phase mom
3:09:59
sort of thing you know uh
3:10:05
17 year old white radical feminist son
3:10:13
this is the it's the this is what dream SMP stands grow into taking it's good to
3:10:18
see you LOL that Reddit thread was something else
3:10:24
which one oh the [ __ ] oh dude with the with the Instagram stories [ __ ] yeah that's
3:10:29
awesome radicalized fin fans are you just trying
3:10:36
to earn the libs nah they're like uh they said they used to watch Ellie streams yeah yeah I was
3:10:42
really interested in that so I read the I read the comments of what they uh of what they said
3:10:48
um because it was much less before and I was like that's really interesting so like what changed I wonder
3:10:55
they were reviewer at some point it's interesting so I'm new do you want
3:11:01
to fully transition no next no I I don't but so here's my thing
3:11:09
I was I was misjudging this I thought the people that would really don't [ __ ] with me are like religious people
3:11:16
yeah I didn't realize turfs were like a big thing well maybe they're not a big thing but I didn't realize they were
3:11:22
like a thing so it's interesting like I didn't quite realize that there was
3:11:28
such a big deal usually it's like American Christians or some [ __ ] they're like [ __ ] you know [ __ ] you know you
3:11:35
know what I mean I don't want to you know what they say uh dog you live on Turf Island I don't see many of them I
3:11:42
guess or I don't like no I don't I mean it's not like it's not a part of my life like I don't go out uh I don't look I've
3:11:49
never been yeah I don't know I don't I don't know any I don't talk to any I don't look at social
3:11:56
media about it it's not the life that I live I don't really I don't really lean into politics much because I'm
3:12:02
relatively privileged enough to not need to like I'm sort of good there's no like I don't
3:12:08
like I don't really uh probably a Fortuner and listen four
3:12:15
channels can can four channels is not a uh you know it doesn't mean I don't know I
3:12:22
I have some I have some level of appreciation for the people unfortune they sometimes they're quite funny
3:12:28
ask Gabby and she'll tell you how bad it is I dude uh so me and Abby were uh
3:12:34
texting a bit before and she actually recommended a uh a voice trainer that she that she works with so that was
3:12:40
pretty cool so at some point I gotta go meet her in London that could be fun
3:12:47
I think she's online for London yeah who's Abby uh philosophytube
3:12:53
Abigail Thorne uh most famous UK trans woman I believe
3:13:00
I think I don't know if that's true but it is in
3:13:06
like my field of knowledge so far yeah yeah I just I'm not good at it
3:13:14
this person which is great uh I've watched like a good couple I've
3:13:19
watched like I don't know this shows us like a little bit but like I've watched some I've watched some I watched their
3:13:25
coming out videos great you know uh maybe on this account but I've watched it it was great uh Nifty
3:13:34
oh my God my [ __ ] but yeah we texted back and forth I talked
3:13:40
about like the what [ __ ] that cool [ __ ] that they're doing they ran like a Broadway show so they run like a like a theater performance show it's [ __ ]
3:13:47
awesome new video 11 and 10. I haven't seen it production value honor videos yeah dude she sent me [ __ ] photos of
3:13:52
like the behind the scenes it's wild there's like five people and there's
3:13:58
like a lot of people there's like a production [ __ ] assistant there's someone to do all the makeup and [ __ ] because I text her I was like I don't know how the [ __ ] you can do that makeup
3:14:04
and she's like I don't show me a photo of the uh of the person that does her makeup it's great
3:14:09
yeah they're great they're they're really cool I'm glad that I know them they're really interesting to talk to as well they don't [ __ ] Discord though
3:14:15
and I don't I can't play video games with them which sucks
3:14:21
that was too smart for um too smart for playing video games on Discord I guess
3:14:28
yeah lots of turf uh did it describes uh
3:14:33
it describes um what's it called
3:14:39
what the [ __ ] is this hold on
3:14:46
turves one is to 41 centers [Music] Jesus yeah Turf stands for Trans
3:14:53
exclusion radical feminist it's like uh basically the opinion is like they've shot they're feminists that are so far
3:15:00
so very into feminism that like they don't see uh trans women as women and
3:15:05
they see them as like taking away from women's rights because they're like they're they're invading their spaces
3:15:10
and [ __ ] and that's the overall uh overall opinion of of that group I guess but like you don't hear about them much
3:15:17
I guess so um you know it's not really been been on my radar so it's kind of new to me
3:15:24
ufland not actually into feminism you know
3:15:30
you know how it is the trans women are taking our jobs
3:15:40
[Music] the trans women are taking our jobs the trans women take out they're packing our
3:15:46
husbands I've also heard the term feminism appropriating radical transphobes fart for short that's pretty
3:15:54
good it's pretty funny that's pretty interesting they're super into traditional gender
3:16:01
roles they're often super conservative but also like very liberal because like they're very like women you know very
3:16:08
women's issues and everything like that which is what transphobiophobic
3:16:14
the deal on some they chat though uh
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oh well the trans women can have my job damn damn bro don't give up that easy bro dude
3:16:28
don't give up that easy man please my uh my my my uh my company management role
3:16:36
oh
3:16:41
I think yeah you know what I believe you know what I'm a Turf now Maurice is coming for my job she's getting more likes than me on Twitter
3:16:47
it can't well not since the most recent one but you know so
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um yeah I'm I'm completely for this I'm I'm a Turf now I reckon I reckon I cyber
3:16:58
this except that I really don't like women
3:17:04
what's it called if I don't want if I don't like Marisa and I don't like women or
3:17:14
I'm [ __ ] around go
3:17:22
stop oh God I'm just kidding I'm just a piece of [ __ ] yeah fair enough fair
3:17:28
enough yeah no I'm just [ __ ] around in cell actually yeah
3:17:34
um let me just [ __ ] oh no but it's so easy it's so easy to make fun of women it's so easy nothing without it too good
3:17:42
complaining about trans folks to you and expecting you to agree but you are trans
3:17:50
nothing more Awkward than a Turf you yeah I've had that before weirdly
3:17:56
I've had that I just wanted to say thank you you helped me realize my sexuality
3:18:02
through your videos it made me accept a lot about myself
3:18:09
did it not tonight no I mean like I've had that conversation I don't agree but I better smile when's the last time you
3:18:16
were angry do you open or close up during conflicts if I may ask
3:18:23
[Music] I don't I you know what I don't tend to get
3:18:31
angry well okay I have before
3:18:38
but like if I speak I am in trouble you know
3:18:43
like I can't really talk about [ __ ] anything like you're already like it takes a lot it takes an awful lot to
3:18:50
make me genuinely angry like I remember being like I I'm I get more sad or uh I
3:18:56
get more sad or like uh or I just deal with the problem I
3:19:03
just deal with the problem man to be perfectly cleared out usually I am for women's right but also we can cheat on
3:19:09
the women's wrongs [ __ ] yeah
3:19:14
there's um boy okay can I ask you a question why be why be angry at anything
3:19:19
when you can just fix the problem quit being a little wimp about it
3:19:29
so easy you just figure it out takes a while it's hard I just figure it out bro
3:19:34
are you stupid or something if you look at it through a policy lens
3:19:40
it is often contradictory but viewed as an often reactionary hateful more emotional exclusion of others it just
3:19:47
follows the long history of people lashing out at other minority groups instead of being productive hmm
3:19:53
I guess make the feminist face [ __ ] is the feminist face my mom's a big
3:19:59
feminist that was a that was a thing that so actually [ __ ] it do you want to talk about me being dumb when I was a kid uh I
3:20:07
think so listen I was born in the year 2000 right so so I was born in 2000 20 21st of April
3:20:16
2000 right so when I was 16 it was 2016. and the internet was [ __ ] wild I'll
3:20:24
never forget the story about the feminist who lived as a man to see how easy we have it and she actually left
3:20:29
the game of life after 1.5 years of being treated as a man L plus ratio
3:20:39
yeah that was a sad one also it wasn't like she it wasn't yeah
3:20:44
that was a sad one it was like uh that woman that did like the study hang out in men's circles and [ __ ] and then
3:20:52
very sad but there was uh when I was when I was like when I was 16 right that
3:20:58
was like the bent in 2016 internet was wild before I had apocalypse I think so it was like Ben Shapiro it was Ben
3:21:04
Shapiro everywhere Milo Milo yiannopoulos remember that [ __ ] it was
3:21:10
the Trump sort of coming in sort of error 2016 was [ __ ] wild internet
3:21:16
died in 2011. Internet died in 2015. okay so people have different things Milo bro
3:21:23
so this was like dude oh so I forgot that loser dude
3:21:31
it was wild so if you go back to my first video on that channel and I try and be as open about this as I possibly
3:21:36
can because I was a different [ __ ] person like I dude
3:21:42
I was a different [ __ ] person and I genuinely feel like it's pretty important for you to know that about me
3:21:48
um because let's say you go on to why am I at users what the [ __ ] won this first video right
3:21:55
there's a bit of a cringe moment but like oh yeah so let's go
3:22:03
was it [Music]
3:22:09
um
3:22:17
hey bud when did I [ __ ]
3:22:23
do this [ __ ] so you can see in this [ __ ] this oh yeah yeah there you go there you go she was
3:22:28
kind of chill she kind of she bro me in 2019 bro or was when was this yeah
3:22:37
February this was when I was 18 years old right she kind of changed my mind about the uh on my mind on the whole
3:22:43
only two agendas thing opinion also live on video bro crazy so like
3:22:50
me was a different person back then bro I was the only two genders you know [ __ ]
3:22:55
yeah Council pretended to be a girl
3:23:01
look I did I [ __ ] but anyway the character Arc yeah yeah yeah so like
3:23:07
uh look I postpone it in 2016 two I don't know what the [ __ ] internet was
3:23:13
like with two set before 2010 it wasn't I just wasn't on it but like
3:23:18
yeah that was just that part of the internet you get sort of sucked into at the time there was a bit of an old [ __ ] alt-right pipeline you know
3:23:27
uh but it was mainly just like those videos like it's like it was very similar to the Andrew Tate thing now but
3:23:32
against like feminism which was so [ __ ] interesting like because it was you're a big red you know all those
3:23:39
videos that used her in the thumbnail all those [ __ ] YouTubers that had like um they were all like animated uh
3:23:46
pictures and they'd react it was like reaction content and be like this [ __ ] famine
3:23:51
is so goddamn stupid doesn't she know these studies wrong and that sort of [ __ ] this is [ __ ] funny man like uh
3:24:00
Annoying Orange different different time period but like Rebel media sjw compilations that [ __ ] yeah so that
3:24:06
that's like a that was like a pipeline thing if you were 14 back then Sargon of a cad bro
3:24:15
oh oh turfs one fin zero are we good what
3:24:22
happened even my inter everything was fine what was that it just said reconnecting
3:24:29
I didn't do anything that is so odd
3:24:34
very weird we're good okay cool anyway
3:24:40
I was yes
3:24:45
that's in that's absurd you're awesome
3:24:52
[ __ ] yeah thank you for the 14 months of let's go thank you
3:24:58
talk about Sagar more I don't remember much about it see what the stream does I
3:25:03
don't so listen Saga made two long videos sorry guys back guys I don't [ __ ]
3:25:09
know pink guy so much Nostalgia well that was just funny um
3:25:15
but I see you more as a woman than as a man no problems with it because I got good
3:25:20
dude me with no makeup on looks like this [ __ ] too like I have the eyelashes
3:25:25
on all the time I can't not do it I have the nails on all the time [ __ ] hairs this long I'm not really dressed up at
3:25:31
this point I just [ __ ] woke up man I just woke up and put on a bra and that's all I did and now it looked like this
3:25:38
and some glasses and I'm sending a picture but you know and I do I am wearing some makeup but not a lot like just a little bit [ __ ] but just get a
3:25:46
little more even though that's it foreign
3:25:54
there was a couple seconds blackout 27 months POG by the way tell us got me bro
3:26:00
that's got me bro I'm so sorry I'm sorry bro how do I how do I how do I uh what
3:26:06
do you like to do when you're not working any special routine during a bad day I like you you ask good questions I
3:26:13
really like you thanks Stewie um oh yeah you asked by the way about the
3:26:19
like temperament temperament thing I remember giving like a bit of a half answer like um your lips are interesting
3:26:26
so so there was uh basically I don't get
3:26:31
like I don't get angry I tend to if I there's if I I tend to every now and then it's happened a few times I get
3:26:38
like overwhelmed and that's about it like I'll get overwhelmed I'll go on a walk clear my head about it and then I
3:26:45
should have just go about two full of years what happened to my
3:26:52
120 XD
3:26:58
it's mine I spending on that I spent it on a Domino's one Domino's order
3:27:03
in all fairness it was 120 it probably bought me some latex thank you but
3:27:09
what do you like to do when you're not working any special routine during a bad day uh I don't not I don't necessarily
3:27:15
not work um there's never like I live for answering [ __ ] emails man like
3:27:20
answering dis like answering DMS about work so I only really consider me working like the on out like on camera
3:27:27
hours um but there's a lot of there's so much [ __ ] that I do off camera but it doesn't
3:27:33
feel like work it's just [ __ ] answering emails and answering questions like all I'm doing is like telling
3:27:38
people what to do I'm just being a boss but like it's not on camera it's [ __ ] easy it's so easy
3:27:43
it's so easy I won't dude it explains why you ignore my DMs true but like dude
3:27:49
it's the it's so easy answering emails is work it is but
3:28:03
it's kind of relaxing you know it's I can kind of get into like a bit of a
3:28:08
Vibe with it you know there was um you know you can like you can listen to music
3:28:13
there's no part of my job that I can listen to music and just like chill because it's all on camera work it's all talking it's all voice you can like just
3:28:19
[ __ ] listen you can sing aloud and [ __ ] watch a YouTube video playing [ __ ] relaxing yeah well let's okay let's say
3:28:26
someone gives you like terrible news right or like a big problem it's like Okay cool so now it's just on the
3:28:31
schedule to do and then when I have to do it like for me anyway all that stuff
3:28:36
is like you know when I have like I get told like ah this didn't work out you gotta go do this thing and I go okay
3:28:41
cool future me problem and that's like an on-camera work thing or go do something in real life thing and that
3:28:47
would that's more what I consider work but the actual just active like telling people that you will go do a
3:28:53
thing in the future [ __ ] yeah who cares it's nice or like uh or like answering questions
3:28:58
and [ __ ] like that side of business isn't too bad it's all right it would be so good an office job I'd it'd be
3:29:05
mind-numbing the only thing about like answering emails it's like a nice monotonous task but if it was all I did
3:29:11
I feel like I'd want to die that's that's what I mean like the um if
3:29:17
it was all I did yikes like that that's rough but like it's part of like like it does it's not
3:29:24
like energy draining it's pretty cool it's all right my office job is awesome it's because of
3:29:30
who I work for yeah it's definitely made or bro and also I'm in a fun industry like the the questions and answers I get
3:29:36
is like oh the the [ __ ] that goes wrong is like uh a Finn like I I get like um
3:29:44
essentially like this guy [ __ ] up you're now making way less like you okay
3:29:50
now you lose a bunch of money like I look like a guy [ __ ] up
3:29:55
I paid him to do a thing he didn't do it and now I make like and now we missed the sponsor opportunity and then like I
3:30:01
lose like a few thousand right but like man that's like the worst news I ever get
3:30:06
but then on the flip side of it it's like when something goes right I make like [ __ ] normal VPN pays me a few
3:30:12
grand it's pretty cool you know [ __ ] who cares it's like the up sort of they're all down that's nice
3:30:18
uh would you be a PA would you be a PA on Femme for 200 000 a
3:30:25
year pound
3:30:31
nah that's more work than I do now you mean like Nine's five nah it's not working it's not worth it not worth it I
3:30:38
just stream if I could just I'd stream and earn almost the same amount not quite like I
3:30:46
definitely do if I did like everyday streams
3:30:51
then that'd make like 100k a year something like that
3:30:56
[ __ ] yeah nah this is way more fun than being a PO
3:31:02
always play vpns are not worth the money they gave me for free it kind of is so I I paid for nordvpn
3:31:09
for a very long time it's great it works really well especially for me I got banned on a megal so it's really worth it and I
3:31:15
don't quite know how to set up my own proxy servers or whatever the [ __ ] so like end user average you know like me
3:31:22
yeah how does sponsor even keep track of their talents controversy controversy
3:31:28
controversies they don't I mean uh they don't usually they might have a person
3:31:33
for it to look into it a bit more but it's usually the popularity it's all uncharts like if you want to look up
3:31:39
exactly how many views a streamer has they've got there's a website called selenome or twitch tracker twitch track
3:31:44
is not as good but like solenoam it goes like this is the average person CCV or how much they get views per average
3:31:49
stream this is what their Channel content is here's their demographic you know here's how many women watch it men
3:31:56
so okay okay cool tons of women watch it you're more marketable and in the age range of 18s 25 you're marketable for
3:32:03
like makeup brands or fashion brands if you're a guy you'll be more perceptive to like video games do you like that
3:32:09
like that's how advertising agencies look like that look at it like that or they have their own like they know what
3:32:15
their demographic is and they're trying to match it up as best they can to to the thing no women watch the stream to
3:32:21
be honest no straight women no no straight man watch this stream
3:32:30
um [Music]
3:32:35
oh yeah the outside honestly the whole gamergate slash feminist Stone compilation eru exposed gen Zed to a
3:32:42
bunch of far-right ideas but the apparent outcome for the majority of gen Zed was creating a generation with much
3:32:49
stronger opinions why lgbtq and minority issues are important
3:32:55
yeah I'd agree with that [Music] um the only thing is now it makes both
3:33:01
sides worse right because you have one side going like really hardcore on one way and it makes the other people go like those people seem [ __ ] crazy
3:33:07
like it's the same on both sides if you're on the far I've left far of right
3:33:12
they both seem like and then the people that are sort of there see like those guys are [ __ ] crazy those guys are
3:33:18
[ __ ] crazy and then they just sit in their little Bubbles and they get slowly further out until they both think that you know it's like I always you know
3:33:25
it's a bit like that
3:33:30
I don't know maybe it's like a feeling thing but uh I don't know it feels a little more divided than normal but then
3:33:36
again what the [ __ ] uh sorry I gotta DM on
3:33:42
Twitter got a DM on Twitter that was [ __ ] unhinged everyone's nuts it's just a matter of
3:33:48
time yeah it's just a matter of time until people accept it everyone's nuts in their own little way and it doesn't matter literally none of
3:33:55
it that's great um just in time politics talk I don't think I'm really doing politics in my
3:34:01
mind I'm like Tick-Tock [ __ ] yeah oh no I'm all right uh
3:34:07
what are we doing before this is uh true uh
3:34:15
how is the girl Force girl Force coming so far so long what
3:34:21
you mean the girl voice I mean the best the best like uh girl voice I've done on stream was the uh was that one where I
3:34:28
said uh thanks that's a fellow plant consumer rate your rolling skills out of 10. thought you mean vegetarian I was
3:34:35
really confused uh zero absolutely zero have you ever tried doing it with these [ __ ] things I'm just buying it so
3:34:41
much easier and better and better quality it's less convenient but like wow it's very convenient oh bro just use
3:34:47
it so much businesses for whatever reason came to an end and you had to get a real job TM I can see you as a project
3:34:54
manager yeah I mean
3:35:00
essentially look if I ever had to write a CV I'd be
3:35:06
screwed I'm not good at a lot how's hair removal going well the next the next one is on the 11th I think 11th
3:35:13
or 12th it's exactly a month away from the last one every single time my laser beaming
3:35:18
hair removal my laser hair removal is exactly one month one month one month one month like that
3:35:28
are you on LinkedIn uh I don't [ __ ] use it but I'm almost certain I've got
3:35:33
an account but like um I don't use it
3:35:40
I was HRT going it ain't what do people think of it people have
3:35:46
thought of it I'm on HRT for two years now or something and does this look like a face that's been in HRT for two years
3:35:58
I'm gonna fight so [ __ ] hard I'm gonna mute my mic holy [ __ ]
3:36:04
anyway
3:36:10
well you're saying yes bro I mean all right
3:36:17
don't say sniff can I say success chat [ __ ] hell
3:36:23
when I had my two centimeters Nails I went from an eight to a nine Bad excuse LOL really
3:36:33
nah two centimeters
3:36:41
it's so easy to use and always works it's I it's just the worst way to do it
3:36:48
it's just a worse way to do it
3:36:54
bro you have valuable skills I have friends who make good money as social media managers and your career is a
3:37:01
giant portfolio for it long not that you would but you certainly could
3:37:07
yeah I mean look who knows where life takes me I don't know to be honest with you I have absolutely
3:37:14
no formal educational training uh if I ever have to get a job it will most likely just be with a YouTuber friend
3:37:21
um there's been a ton of people that like the plans you guys plans to talk about is not legal in the UK please stop
3:37:27
trying to bait Finn into incriminating stuff any more than he already does which I'm not saying that I do anything
3:37:35
because I don't we're vegetarians the plants that they're talking about
3:37:41
uh spring rolls and you know what the nails do suck for
3:37:47
Rolling those [ __ ] the rice the rice what are they [ __ ] rice paper sprinkles they do suck a little bit but
3:37:52
you know what vastly Superior you you stick a bit of if they only weren't so high calorie bro they're like 150 per
3:38:00
one of those things and the same way for a big tortilla is like 150 so it's [ __ ] ugh but they taste so good like
3:38:06
dude oh my [ __ ] a bit of soy sauce on I use like corn but you should use like
3:38:12
chicken and then like I cut up like vegetables real fine long strips of like a bit of cucumber some carrot a little
3:38:19
bit of leafy a little bit of uh chopped spring onions bra cook uh that like corn slash chicken
3:38:25
thing and a little bit of soy sauce slap it on that thing bitter bitter Spike bitter Bittersweet uh bit a little bit
3:38:32
of sweet chili uh on that [ __ ] roll it up
3:38:37
badly in my case and then just [ __ ] gnaw on that [ __ ] it's so good
3:38:43
spring roll wrappers like 150 dude look rice paper
3:38:49
is it what are they called what rice what are they called it's not rice paper is it rice paper what is it the thing
3:38:54
you get wet and then you roll it what is that I'm hungry thanks I'm hungry I'm so sorry but they're so good rice paper
3:39:00
rolls it is rice paper calories
3:39:07
uh wait 30 to 40.
3:39:13
I feel like I've got some and it is not low calorie
3:39:20
they're low in carbohydrate I love how every time he says mother effort he going full American accent [ __ ]
3:39:28
dude and in my head I'm thinking like mother
3:39:34
freaker dude that hurt like a butt cheek on a stick not good but it's honestly it's it's a bit of both
3:39:41
apparently I say water uh if I it's I'll default to like water
3:39:47
sometimes and uh like I get these weird American my my americanisms are like
3:39:52
certain words they're not even like my overall accent [ __ ] dude
3:40:00
mother trucker dude yeah water yeah
3:40:07
would you like a cool all glass of water how does American sound man I don't know
3:40:14
what they sound like uh what's an American thing
3:40:20
you sound West Coast I hate this let me do it yee-haw no one says
3:40:26
[Music] I've been I've been calling I've heard Yeehaw before I've heard that yelled at
3:40:33
me hey you [ __ ] [ __ ] you come out hey
3:40:38
now that's one I've heard before uh
3:40:46
what was it yeah oh okay come over here
3:40:52
you sound like a fake Texan yeah no [ __ ] it's like out I don't know you've got to really train that because
3:40:58
it sounds American redneck that's the only version that do you prefer bimbo or skank I definitely prefer bimbo to skank
3:41:05
don't call me a skank man what the [ __ ] call me I don't know I like um
3:41:12
I I re you know what I really I've learned to love I love when Americans [ __ ] up like British slang like when
3:41:19
they say like [ __ ] you know or some [ __ ] like that when they don't know how the [ __ ] it was or like um
3:41:25
oh they say like cretan no it's a [ __ ] [ __ ] you [ __ ] you know
3:41:32
like I I they never say it right they say like [ __ ] where did that [ __ ] come from
3:41:37
everyone who hit who like ah terrible but what the [ __ ] bastard
3:41:44
[ __ ] is painful yeah yeah [ __ ] minion [ __ ] oh I've heard an
3:41:51
American say minging it's [ __ ] minging you're not supposed
3:41:57
to pronounce it nasty [ __ ] I blame British YouTubers indoctrinating me as a child
3:42:04
yeah my vocabulary is a bastardization of American English with a smattering of
3:42:09
British words my family Flames me for it yep we're flipped
3:42:16
because I'm sorry
3:42:24
if you don't want to be poor and work a regular job in the future you should start collecting your vids and picks for
3:42:30
a while you still have that feminine sexy body and then just post them daily when you turn 30.
3:42:40
moving on with no answer to that question because I feel like it's obvious um
3:42:45
someone I someone so the reason why I laughed so hard was someone put the most British thing I've ever heard you'd
3:42:52
think it'd be something like hey would you like some tea and crumpets with that um what the [ __ ] you know but like would
3:42:59
you like some tea and crumpets for afternoon afternoon uh lunch no it was someone's let me read that [ __ ] what
3:43:05
what the [ __ ] you said out it was like
3:43:10
they said what the [ __ ] I'm trying to find it now uh they said
3:43:18
well I can't find it [ __ ] they I think all they said was like make that Calypso is [ __ ] minging
3:43:28
[Music] a Calypso Calypso do you guys [ __ ]
3:43:33
have those in America is that a thing that's the I don't know if this is a thing in America maybe you do and this
3:43:40
is [ __ ] oh you do bro all right no these things
3:43:48
wait what the [ __ ] this is wrong
3:43:54
oh [ __ ] calipers this thing this [ __ ] this [ __ ] you have these things Clippo this [ __ ]
3:44:01
around that thing close to Lemonade no no no that's gotta be British what the [ __ ] is
3:44:08
that it's a little tube you [ __ ] like you are both the model of inspiration and jealousy for all trans girls I for
3:44:15
one salute you keep being Femme glad I could catch a stream I think you give me
3:44:22
way too much credit like way too much credit hold on let me talk about this real
3:44:27
quick and I'll come back to it uh it's this thing you [ __ ] it's a tube you slide it out it's like a completely
3:44:34
solid block of ice and then you just like you know and you like slowly wear it down over
3:44:40
time
3:44:47
no one have this one's the only good one they also make a lemon one I think it's pretty pug but
3:44:53
a push pop I guess so uh also uh yeah no you give me way too
3:45:00
much credit I don't think that what am I what
3:45:05
I feel like I could always do a hell of a lot more
3:45:10
that's but the problem is it's kind of really [ __ ] hard to know what to do I
3:45:17
don't know what I should do I don't know if it's my place a lot of the time can I talk to you about that for a minute
3:45:22
because I really do want your opinion on this because it's sort of an insecurity of mine
3:45:27
uh dude does it not okay
3:45:35
so I don't I'm in a bit of a weird category
3:45:41
right where I'm like I'm a straight dude do I get involved in trans issues
3:45:49
is it I I I'm like a public figure in in hello hello trans people you know like
3:45:56
that they I felt people tend to know me but like do I talk about it I don't want to talk on behalf of people that I I am
3:46:03
not part of the group I'd like to exp I'd be an ally yeah I'd like to express you know [ __ ]
3:46:09
advocacy yeah yeah but like a lot of the time you sort of hear like
3:46:14
if you say an opinion then you sort of get like well you don't speak for a sort of thing so I it's a bit of like I don't
3:46:21
know if this is uh thing that I should touch I want to help but I don't particularly quite know how
3:46:27
I have one good idea but I have you know I can't really tell you because it's better as a surprise
3:46:35
um ask Ariza well there's a couple things I've got a good idea but the problem is
3:46:43
it's very small scale but it'd be really nice to do
3:46:49
for a person but the problem is it would be for a person because I the whole like I have my
3:46:57
issues with like donating to probably any Charities especially ones that just do like Outreach and [ __ ] because a lot
3:47:02
of the times they're just like it's like a board of directors that are getting that are paying like [ __ ] 10 grand a
3:47:09
month to someone that tweets the hashtag you know every day and they get like 20 likes
3:47:14
so I don't know I feel like there's a lot of money wasting that and what if I was
3:47:20
gonna do like a like specifically charitable thing I'd want to do it directly and not through a corporation
3:47:25
because it feels so soulless I don't I want to like see who it's affecting you know I would love to have
3:47:33
you be an ally you are an inspiration to a lot of trans women perhaps you could consider starting a
3:47:39
foundation to help with transition costs how would I do that
3:47:45
so I so okay you would be a far better representative than Caitlyn Jenner I
3:47:50
don't know what I can tell you no I would not I I don't know what I can tell you
3:47:55
um
3:48:05
I don't know what I can mention but I also don't like the answer to be like trust me I'm working on it
3:48:12
because I want to have like a real thing you know
3:48:18
but like I've got a company made for a thing that I want to do
3:48:24
that's for that's to help out trans women and reasons part of it but we'll tell about trans people
3:48:31
but I don't know how much I can say and I don't know
3:48:37
because everything is always up in the air especially with new companies
3:48:43
it's hard but anyway I do want it but you said enough
3:48:51
yeah yeah so like there's like um
3:48:57
combination of self-assuredness and acute insecurity is very confusing sorry
3:49:02
uh I think I have like a better App Center than Blair White
3:49:07
is play right away representative um
3:49:13
the fact that you worry about these things shows everyone your heart is in the right place
3:49:20
ah I don't know I get the thing is I tend to get a lot of credit for uh I
3:49:27
think things that are undeserved like I'm sort of just uh being me I guess on
3:49:33
the internet I try and help as much as I can if there's something if there's any questions I'll give you every answer you
3:49:39
need but like you know bro if you like trans women you
3:49:44
want ffs I got a great place for you to go through I got that information eroding trans
3:49:50
rights are not asking for permission and although you don't get out much a good portion of people would like nothing
3:49:56
more than to remove feminine men from society if they could true yeah
3:50:02
but you know I I I always sort of wish I could do
3:50:08
more you know it's a bit of a yeah
3:50:13
because you guys are very nice you know nothing but nothing but well you know and mostly nothing but good things from
3:50:20
uh from from trans community and they're uh pretty great [ __ ] you guys are really uh quite cool and I'm happy that
3:50:27
like very I've uh yeah I was I think I was a very different I was a very different person
3:50:33
and [ __ ] it's been great I've you've done a lot for us I have not I have not I don't I
3:50:42
don't I I I have not there's like I have done
3:50:47
at the very least uh oh sorry at the very most um
3:50:53
I I really like the comments that I get that was like the like you know you really changed my
3:50:58
mind on this or like because I get those a good bit like a lot of those DMS so when you I love that
3:51:06
that's a really good one like when it's like someone that was just thought the whole like trans thing was weird they're
3:51:13
limited uh interaction for it but you know when they see sort of like something that is
3:51:18
let's be real sort of in the middle uh then they then that they can more easily
3:51:24
relate to just sort of in a way we're just identifying as trans is more motivational for me to conquer my
3:51:30
anxieties and be myself if f1n can do it then I whose life it is and actually
3:51:36
identify that way can most definitely do it
3:51:42
God that's sweet what the [ __ ]
3:51:50
that's very nice to you I'm glad
3:51:59
very cool very cool
3:52:04
thirsty but also uh
3:52:10
no I'm not emotional I am actually just very sad that uh it was not emotional
3:52:18
I'm just thinking of uh that you said if Finn can do it and I read that as you
3:52:23
think I could read that as a if Finn can do it and he looks like that then I can
3:52:29
do it I like I like that I like that a bit better actually can you give me more of that one that's that's good
3:52:34
[Laughter] um
3:52:40
if you don't uh Jesus Christ
3:52:48
I'm not gonna I want to say that word I want to say what you said neon soup but it's gonna [ __ ] naturally do it if I
3:52:53
say it awesome I want to finish and drunk not wholesome it's like my dick
3:52:58
we love you a lot Bud you've been there for so many of us without knowing including me and honestly I was at a
3:53:06
point where your streams and my mom were the only things stopping me from mending it thank you for being you smile
3:53:16
yeah there's
3:53:23
I wish I was better at this you know like the um yeah I think that a lot of the things is
3:53:30
I sort of wish I had the right things to say you have probably unintentionally prevented a lot of men from from
3:53:37
slipping farther into the outright pipeline TBH that's awesome that's that
3:53:42
that one is my own little personal mission actually I think if there's if there's a
3:53:48
crowd I can change the mind of it's that one that's that's my little personal goal
3:53:54
um that's why I like uh sort of that's why I sort of like hearing it I
3:54:00
guess uh because it's sort of like you know like when uh I can still like I can
3:54:05
see myself in you like this is like I can see a path that I could have gone uh
3:54:11
I could see myself a new phrasing shut up I can see like um
3:54:16
I can I you know I I can see that like path and I was like I'm glad they're selling Christmas
3:54:22
or scratch and sniff no
3:54:30
but people don't think about whether they are doing bad only good people do that your insecurity in action really
3:54:37
shows how much you care we love you
3:54:45
you're very nice too nice too nice genuinely two nice genuinely I worry about my ego and it's
3:54:53
the anti-tate [ __ ] yeah I thought my titties were sagging never
3:55:00
mind their pokey pokey is all hell um is this the mission to make think right
3:55:05
you literally can't you literally can't make me cry I'm so [ __ ]
3:55:10
stable I'm still I'm so I'm yeah
3:55:16
you can never make the bottom G cry the Trevor Project is uh hotline for all
3:55:22
the beauty because it's a good charity done it too I agree uh that was if I have one uh that's usually the one I
3:55:28
recommend if anyone asks but not enough e yet to cry
3:55:35
damn bro it's just my high testosterone never shed a single tear you actually uh
3:55:40
people don't know this but your your tear ducts actually uh get smaller when you're on when you when you're [ __ ]
3:55:45
when you're on testosterone I've been taking testosterone chat you have no idea this is me two years on
3:55:52
this is it's not been me on two years of HRT it's been two years of me on testosterone bro
3:55:58
hey diversary ago but you have a wonky eye and suck at battleships and connectful
3:56:03
incorrect I'm very good at Connect Four um I'm so good at that [ __ ] game
3:56:10
battleship is random Lolly feminine men are wrong why are they so cute also you
3:56:16
can never make everyone happy so you might as well make sure the people you care about are
3:56:23
[Music] I you have also been immortalized in ink
3:56:29
on my left booba smile huh
3:56:34
explain number one explain what also
3:56:41
um what explain
3:56:47
picks don't send me pictures but like explain
3:56:53
um it's probably not chat I don't think that I think it's gonna if I was gonna guess it's gonna be like a rose that
3:56:59
rings a bell I think it's not gonna be a picture like my face F1 and then your exhibit number one that
3:57:07
your gender is in your identity you're a man because you feel like one and
3:57:12
nothing else matters the most trans-positive take to have Emo
3:57:19
yeah that's that's a pretty good that's a
3:57:26
yeah I guess so [ __ ] based you know I can't disagree with that that's that's pretty good
3:57:32
that's a pretty good way of seeing it exhibit number one what am I gonna get like when am I gonna
3:57:38
get someone that reaches out to study me you know when's like a psychologist gonna like
3:57:44
come and and and and [ __ ] you know when I'm gonna get a
3:57:50
psychologist to be like when am I going to be a case study in something you know
3:57:59
bro I told you this months ago I have the purple rose tattoo oh yeah I was
3:58:04
thinking about adding an F1 somewhere close to that no I don't what if I [ __ ] up in the
3:58:10
future a rose is easily explainable and you can give it different meaning but like What if I
3:58:16
what if what if uh um I don't know what if I what if I
3:58:23
could committed an atrocity what if I did what if I did a war crime you know what if what if what if they've found
3:58:30
out all the tax fraud I've been partaking and you wouldn't want to have that you know
3:58:36
and no one would get an F1 tattoo for Formula One because they're not that lame
3:58:44
two blocker for boldness bro you know the [ __ ] [ __ ] in my comment dude look
3:58:51
at dude dude look at this [ __ ]
3:58:58
[ __ ] I forgot where it was they sent it to Ariza
3:59:05
hold on I might have texted it to Marisa before
3:59:14
someone someone replied to uh [ __ ] it was my last tweet I am currently
3:59:20
fine my female identity and your streams have helped me so much in being comfortable with myself
3:59:26
oh [ __ ] yeah hell yeah [ __ ] cool
3:59:32
I'm glad the uh I I wonder how many people I have uh
3:59:38
sent down my my pipeline I will never change the meaning of the
3:59:45
Rose I believe you're a good person and even if you were to do some [ __ ] up [ __ ] you did a lot for me and I never
3:59:51
want to forget that side of you [Music]
3:59:57
how do you know you are not already a subject of academic study
4:00:03
oh my God what the [ __ ] it's entirely it'd be really unethical but yeah in theory
4:00:09
what if like this dude what if this was all like oh
4:00:16
what if this was all a [ __ ] yeah you're all Bots and [ __ ] and like it's
4:00:23
all Truman showed yeah like oh dude That'd Be Wild
4:00:29
like everyone in my life
4:00:37
dude Maybe that's kind of wild oh [ __ ] he's
4:00:43
figuring it out yeah like what if that if what if we give you enough positive reinforcement to see what it [ __ ]
4:00:48
does hello it your daily reminder that you
4:00:53
are valid and loved no matter whoever you are and whatever you identify as much love Gay Pride intersection unless
4:01:00
transgender Pride asexual Pride lesbian Pride gender fluid Pride pansexual pride
4:01:05
non-binary pride I was hoping for like but
4:01:12
whatever you identifies unless and then like you know [ __ ] it I've I don't know
4:01:17
what else hope everyone is doing well the Truman showed illusion was a thing for a while
4:01:25
The Truman Show delusion
4:01:30
also known as Truman syndrome is a type of delusion which person believes their lives of stage reality shows or that they're being watched on cameras so that
4:01:38
one I don't I do think we're in a simulation though because I've just had too many [ __ ] like good moments that
4:01:45
would make for good TV you know I've had way too many like oh not good TVs I've I've had way too many like
4:01:53
there's someone out there pushing buttons just to just to see if they can see what my life does
4:01:59
you know NPC moment I truly do believe I am an MPC uh
4:02:07
that's it that's living a good life the producer of the Finster show
4:02:15
dude yeah that's just where my paycheck's coming from I guess like well we gotta give enough to live you know
4:02:20
like we gotta we gotta give him some we gotta that's what I mean it's it's a dude when does that [ __ ] happen like
4:02:27
doesn't it feel like [ __ ] wild okay look here's how this is why I think I'm
4:02:32
in a simulation right plenty of bad [ __ ] happens but the good shit's [ __ ] insane like okay right
4:02:40
every hobby I have ever had I have made it my job right I've monetized every [ __ ] like
4:02:48
thing that I enjoy I literally whatever it is I have turned it into my dream job
4:02:54
how the [ __ ] is that possible even this so even my little vague interest like
4:03:00
doing this [ __ ] for a while right this is like the most fun thing I ever have I can just like talk to all of you
4:03:07
all at once and should I get all my social action social interaction from that there's like uh there's a [ __ ]
4:03:13
dude pops up they're just like [ __ ] gives me uh the best part of half a mil
4:03:19
right or die also XD if you want to do some concrete
4:03:24
good just look at this stream today and it's positivity and then fix your hellhole Discord to be more like it I
4:03:31
don't want to fix that I don't think the Discord wants to be fixed I think that's that's their problem I wasn't going as
4:03:37
far as The Truman Show just that someone in chat could be studying you and maybe others for a paper
4:03:44
please do that could be fun but wouldn't you want like insight into my brain because like
4:03:50
yeah wouldn't you want like direct thing wouldn't wouldn't you want like what would this study be that wouldn't
4:03:57
that you wouldn't have any interaction with me though you know what I mean
4:04:05
what would the study be
4:04:12
hello I like I I figured this one out interview with chat to do that true
4:04:18
let's make a documentary [ __ ] yeah it would lack ethic well it just
4:04:24
wouldn't be very interesting you don't get any inside information Pavlov yeah How Stuff how scuffed can a
4:04:32
stream get more Eclipse like it is there's only a peanut in that skull what
4:04:41
sorry I found my new favorite trick they're like the [ __ ] just have my hand there for a bit and
4:04:47
just
4:04:54
they're like anime like the eyes popping out
4:05:00
the awuga
4:05:06
what someone's easily in stained yeah very much so
4:05:12
um
4:05:23
but like yeah there's like a there's a bunch of [ __ ] uh there's a bunch of [ __ ] like that I've had so many like cool
4:05:28
little like I've had just enough right like I've had just enough of like
4:05:34
life experience to it not being shitty and it and like I get to experience
4:05:41
you make non-sexual parts and boring topics so interesting I love hearing you
4:05:48
talk about the behind the scenes stuff thank you ah hey hi June thanks for the
4:05:54
thanks for the ride hello 39 people Argentina last in World Cup LOL
4:06:00
rip so did uh Iran
4:06:05
get [ __ ] England beat you come on let's go let's go let's go
4:06:12
um anyway hello Raiders um after just screaming booba
4:06:18
welcome turfs turfs oh no what happened oh
4:06:24
hello um I haven't seen lost Saudi Arabia
4:06:29
I love hearing you talk about your why oh funny there's um
4:06:37
Day in the Life YouTube video that'll be so good I'm boring uh look well you're
4:06:42
here it's live man all the [ __ ] that I do off cameras like do you want to see
4:06:48
what I do off camera I [ __ ] look I just finished this video it's here's the raw footage of part one
4:06:57
part sorry this is part two of like three and it's two and a half hours my poor editor it's just like is it
4:07:04
possible for a far right person to not be a bigot it seems inherent to the right wing also you are a hero for
4:07:11
people like me white flag very cool and I [ __ ] this is a
4:07:18
subject I know nothing about and well but look now we've got that on the side
4:07:24
oh yeah how what have you been doing Pandora now
4:07:29
no no I'm going to it now thank you
4:07:35
and pop oh and then I start recording again okay
4:07:40
wait for it sell all 35k okay we're sort of getting up there
4:07:46
in terms of uh money now there it is oh my God it's so [ __ ]
4:07:52
boring it's so boring like there's look it's
4:07:58
it's look the behind the scenes of my of my life that's not live is so dull I
4:08:05
don't know what you want to see it's uh there's there's nothing to it it's like I'm I'm streams they really help me
4:08:12
through my breakup breakup oh
4:08:17
how do I help with breakups fake reaction yeah welcome to Minecraft uh it's like a
4:08:25
it bro median demographic on the Minecraft channel is like I don't know 16. like
4:08:31
they're Minecraft videos they're Minecraft videos what am I gonna do I enjoy the game I just like listen
4:08:38
some shit's just gotta work for the video and some so there's fun [ __ ] to do in Minecraft but there's not always
4:08:47
there's not always um what's it called
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that the fun stuff isn't always good video content you know in the same way that like look I'd have
4:08:59
a lot of fun playing Rumble it'd be a [ __ ] stream but you know that's how it is I I'm pretty decent at coming up with
4:09:06
I I'm pretty decent at planning content around what would work and what what doesn't oh it is my job after all
4:09:13
um 90 of his reactions and videos of uh fake fake sales well you say fake but
4:09:18
like look but it's not really it's not really these aren't fake reactions or anything it's not like well a pumpkin it's like a
4:09:25
[ __ ] it's like all right I mean if you watch one of them a lot of it's like [ __ ] hell I have to make a goddamn
4:09:33
pumpkin farm and then when I finally finish farming I'm like I'm done I'm finally done
4:09:39
like a lot of it's like that way better what there you go also this there was this moment where I realized that like I
4:09:46
could make [ __ ] sorry this is boring that was over exaggerated
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uh this one I was a little so this one this one was listen Chad I don't give a [ __ ] but this one I realized that you
4:09:58
could spend like 20 times the amount of money and work to get the exact same
4:10:04
results not even 20 times it was something like a thousand times to get the results of just like placing the
4:10:10
spawners differently and I really did have like the reaction of that's [ __ ] stupid this is way faster yeah anyway
4:10:17
sorry this is so dull for you but for me it's interesting I just applied for the
4:10:23
dollar one K plus Discord rank that's more than I was spent on the free game that's Valor and lamal oh God
4:10:32
Valor mods don't give him the gunam rank he plays valoran
4:10:39
should I know your pronouns but you play valorant so
4:10:45
um I personally don't mind I I'm acutely aware that Minecraft is not an interesting game mode to you guys
4:10:51
especially on like Skyblock and [ __ ] hello do you want a mini fridge in the room so
4:10:58
you don't have to go down for drinks when streaming by the way did you change editor for the last video
4:11:06
ah you know I said like the main thing I do on off days is like sort
4:11:12
staff drama look listen though it's not it's not him it's not in it's not in anyone's best
4:11:19
interest for me to add grievances between people that work with me it's silly and
4:11:26
it doesn't matter but yeah there were differences with editing
4:11:32
um did it come out today has it
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no it's still
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oh the video's light we're now the videos now one two three four five
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days late [ __ ] yeah cool cool cool cool digital differences yeah work moment
4:12:01
true but um you know now last finish the live video yeah I'm
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on that's what I'm on about uh the I mean the one that was last uploaded so
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they're all the same editors uh they do different things though
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look so it should change it all the time it's this is not a fun there's not an
4:12:27
interesting thing there are several well there's two so there's two going on three editors maybe going on two who
4:12:33
knows uh someone used to do some different stuff and then they did something different that then help the
4:12:39
other editor and then the other editor has always done the finishing work but sometimes it's the other editor
4:12:45
so it's a lot
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there's a again this is
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you want to talk about Victoria do you want to talk about uh Minecraft and uh micromanaging the employees or do
4:13:05
you want to talk about bossy and guns and knives and [ __ ] cool
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[ __ ] I don't get it I do I would like a mini fridge the only problem is do they
4:13:17
not use a [ __ ] ton of electricity but yeah because all I do is just keep [ __ ] Lacroix in there and water under
4:13:25
hydration fridge I know exactly where I put it but like
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how about micromanaging employees bosses now that's an HR issue
4:13:39
that I can't do they more manage mine the editor the editors more manage my bossy because
4:13:45
that's what they're zooming in on and panning to you refuse to follow me to shopping yeah but I I don't know how much electricity
4:13:52
they use like how much they cost to run now because if they
4:13:59
hold on sometimes when people send like a one dollar donation I can read it but it
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doesn't show on screen so it's like sort of private
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oh [ __ ] fair enough
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well that's good [Music] but they generate heat I thought for
4:14:22
summer they dry heat listen your AC I don't have an AC oh I mean I have that but it's not on and
4:14:28
it's it's a terrible [ __ ] thing but it's on like all the time 50 a year it
4:14:34
ain't 50 a year there's no way it's 50 a year
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there's no way 50 a year then [ __ ] it I'll get that
4:14:46
USA's 90 watts per hour equals 263 kilowatts kilowatt hours a year what
4:14:51
does that mean for like price then the heat in the interior has to go somewhere oh [ __ ] that's gonna get
4:14:58
really [ __ ] annoying then hmm I have to dude I can just walk downstairs and get a kind of a can of
4:15:04
Lacroix it's probably fine eh solar still works in the UK
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um sort of barely but yeah oh same almost but the plastic crap one
4:15:18
just a lot of power and fair enough how's voice lessons going I don't know
4:15:23
what so they haven't been going they haven't been doing them but I do
4:15:28
have one scheduled for tomorrow so very nice uh I've got one scheduled for tomorrow
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um I have like a different dude the only thing with voice lessons and everything like that is the lessons are very
4:15:40
informative and I learn a lot the problem with it is I can't get over the mental block I can't get over the mental
4:15:46
block of actually like practicing and learning how to do it right like doing going about
4:15:54
going about like keep your appointments and I plan to but that was I didn't like I didn't miss an
4:16:00
appointment we just hadn't scheduled like yeah things like Kim impossible true
4:16:07
um do you mean today no it's tomorrow well okay sorry fine [ __ ] you it's today it's
4:16:13
whatever um no actually it is technically tomorrow because we do it at 7 30 EST so technically it would be tomorrow it'd be
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this time tomorrow so perhaps even when you're not in class
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well that's what I mean you can practice right now no I can't so here's what I mean I'm very rarely alone like as I
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said I'm always in calls with someone I'm always in calls with someone that
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like they're asking me questions and [ __ ] uh like figuring out what I what we need to do
4:16:43
I'm always doing calls with someone always in meetings or I'm like meetings I'm always in course of science or I'm
4:16:48
always like on doing this like I can't just like I'm I'm talking a lot I can't like record like if I set out an hour to
4:16:56
like record like listen do the thing record listen to my voice hear it back tweak it a little bit or even just like
4:17:02
I can't even like I don't even get too many moments to just sort of like maybe you could practice in the shower but
4:17:07
then I can't hear it because in my head I can do it perfectly but as soon as I
4:17:13
listen to it recorded it's the worst it's awful so I know that I'm doing it
4:17:19
wrong have you thinking of hypnosis trigger
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for the mental block no because hypnosis doesn't work I don't agree
4:17:30
um but like what would I like it's a mental block man I don't really know what I do you
4:17:36
gotta pay 300K put it dude ah
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look there's no
4:17:49
there's like sure like money but like dude I know it sounds it sounds really
4:17:55
easy to be like well there's a lot of money here that you got paid but like look you need to do it I am doing it
4:18:00
it's just [ __ ] I've sat in a call like
4:18:06
I've sat in a call for two hours like almost on on the [ __ ] Brink bro
4:18:14
because it was so like I I was so in my own head I was
4:18:20
like I can't do it this is never gonna work I can't do it it sounds so stupid I
4:18:26
cannot bring myself to sound like this dumb I can't do it
4:18:33
and then like and I pushed through it and I did it I well I I didn't do it that time but I
4:18:39
did it the next [ __ ] time was behind the metal block I don't know what's behind the metal block I just don't like to sound dumb I haven't thought about it
4:18:46
like I wish I knew because then I then it's like I I don't know what the [ __ ] it is
4:18:52
I just like I I cannot bring myself to like be at home doing like
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trying to do a girl's voice that I can't that I'm that is not even close it sounds so like silly
4:19:05
I just can't do it I don't know what the [ __ ] I'm doing I'm saying like I'm saying I can't do it but I'm doing it I
4:19:11
just can't do it it's so bad have you ever pitched a voice up in audio software
4:19:17
so it sound see how it pitching up my voice in audio software does not make it
4:19:22
pitching up my voice is just doing this and it doesn't sound like a girl's voice it just sounds like higher pitch me
4:19:29
it doesn't sound like it's not like a um you know it doesn't sound like a girl's
4:19:35
voice it just sounds higher [ __ ] because you wouldn't just pitch up a you
4:19:40
wouldn't just go like Mickey Mouse and then it's yeah sounds perfect
4:19:47
you're too harsh off yeah that's the issue but I don't know why oh hell and that said higher pitch plus gayness
4:19:54
yeah right now he's dude I've watched every
4:19:59
single [ __ ] video sorry we've got some voice training I
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know I don't regret it I think it's an I think it's an interesting thing just do it drunk it's worse drunk because I'm
4:20:10
even more in my head about it uh I've done that though we have done that
4:20:16
what the [ __ ] we have I have I that was it also it [ __ ] up your voice alcohol really does that but like
4:20:24
unless you're drunk drunk and even then that's not going to really help but like
4:20:29
if you're a little tipsy then you're just uh even more a bit like
4:20:36
I don't know I don't even get it those prescription glasses no these are not these are just I think these are
4:20:42
blue light blocking glasses so everything everything's like a little yellow when they're on so I can just
4:20:47
like wear these and like use a computer screen and not be sleepy I guess that's what but I don't use them they just look
4:20:52
cute I can hit the lowest notes on human vocal range and I can also sound like a girl yeah I know I no look I'm not
4:21:01
saying that like I'm not saying that it's not possible I'm saying that I can't do it
4:21:09
I was like I cannot bring myself to it 15 months apart it's so [ __ ]
4:21:15
oh bro I'm trying to I'm trying to diagnose what the [ __ ] is wrong with me but like
4:21:23
I don't know I even spoke to a philosophy too about it I said what did I text them hold on
4:21:30
oops my phone's on one percent
4:21:36
all right look at me uh
4:21:42
do you ever jokingly change your voice make more jokes with a feminine voice attempt because it will come off as a
4:21:48
joke no oh do you mean I have I I don't normally no I don't really do that
4:21:54
uh I don't really sing in the shower uh because that's the other thing like I'm dude okay put it like this it's not even
4:22:00
like a feminine like you couldn't even say like oh it's like a dysphoria thing it's like I don't even sing in the shower because I can't sing and it
4:22:07
sounds stupid so I don't sing does no one relate to this at all it's
4:22:15
like oh bro hold on I said honestly for me it's just getting over sounding really dumb in front of
4:22:21
someone uh I work with someone now who's like trained a few people uh and doing the voice and it's just the worst I've
4:22:28
sat in a call for two hours just not being able to get over it and just practice it's all a mental block and
4:22:34
they said like yeah it's pretty common but they were uh they were the
4:22:39
philosophy group said you know [ __ ] there are they said uh they're
4:22:45
drama school kind of inoculated me into feeling like a jackass in front of people all plus when I did it I was
4:22:50
determined to do whatever it took to become a powerful trans sorceress
4:22:56
there maybe I don't have the right motivation why maybe I don't have the right motivation to learn it but
4:23:04
because yeah I don't know thanks very true
4:23:10
I can't sing some songs I don't care [Music]
4:23:16
100 I'm trying to learn a new language and can't stand speaking when I know someone else can hear me yeah
4:23:22
I see okay I like reading that I'm not the only one in this
4:23:27
can we set it on no goal for a new Discord server dot yes I know how much work they can be and IM well well aware
4:23:34
of the mess I lived it but like heart to heart please for the love the community is worth it and it's been far too long
4:23:41
also phono miggle now because it was that and it turned into what it is it's
4:23:47
just a matter of chats Voice versus girl voice that would be fun
4:23:53
you could rate chat's normal voice versus go no uh that's the so that's the other thing
4:23:58
is that it's gonna be like number one I don't know enough number two I did the outfit review stream and I really liked
4:24:04
it because it I figured out finally that I could rate like an outfit instead of the person because I've been asked a
4:24:10
bunch of times to like hey write me and it's like well that's [ __ ] mean I
4:24:16
don't want to say anything bad I wanna like because if so if someone's like if the answer to something is like well
4:24:23
doesn't look great then I feel awful but if it's an outfit then it's like a choice you made and it's like well it
4:24:30
could be better like this um but like I don't know man I know that I think if someone said like
4:24:37
if I if someone was like now listen I'm pretty confident like let's say my makeup skills but like if someone's like
4:24:44
you're uh eyebrows look like really bad uh they need to be better probably yeah
4:24:52
they need to be better I'd be a bit like I don't know I feel a little hurt or
4:24:58
like especially if it was something like uh like that style of makeup doesn't complement
4:25:05
your face very well or something like that and like what would I do that's the real answer but like what would I what
4:25:10
it feels so awful and I know I could give like a little more in-depth tips but like I'm not that
4:25:16
you know I couldn't do it I couldn't do it the only thing I know anything about is makeup and uh I don't really know how to like
4:25:23
yeah so that's why I did the alpha review string because it's a bit easier to to do
4:25:31
where am I so I was like sound like Ben Shapiro is very cringe
4:25:38
hold on what was this why is that not working I understand your mental block I can't
4:25:43
bring myself to even start doing it in private yeah that's what I mean so like I'll be so I'll be alone in my room and
4:25:49
I'll be able to do it don't [ __ ] even get me started about where Maurice is here um I I don't do it at all uh I like
4:25:57
I've got the plan to do it tomorrow and I'm probably gonna tell Marisa to leave like go out on a drive go do something else I'm gonna be doing dumb [ __ ] I'm
4:26:04
gonna be doing gay [ __ ] in my room you gotta leave um so
4:26:10
I don't know it's it's very well hearing my own voice is fine I'm very
4:26:17
used to hearing my own voice and I I get that it's yeah okay someone else it takes time he's right so
4:26:22
I know that it takes time I know that it's like just just a thing you've got a power through and I know
4:26:30
but God
4:26:36
it's so bad
4:26:44
so bad because I'm also the type so here's a bit of a personality flaw I'm also the type of person that I will be
4:26:51
cringed out what the [ __ ] I will I will I can't listen to people sing if they
4:26:58
are not perfect at it like if they [ __ ] up once I'm like oh
4:27:04
I gotta do it because I can immediately imagine myself in that position I would know I'd hate it I'd like I can't do it
4:27:10
I know that like I was just picturing in my head like okay what if I did singing lessons like if you took it away and you're like singing lessons and I could
4:27:17
like well I can go into doing like vocal register stuff I could go like okay go up and kiss you I'll do all that [ __ ] or
4:27:23
whatever the [ __ ] but then as soon as like if you if they were like okay now go sing
4:27:28
this song as soon as I [ __ ] up I could imagine like never wanting to ever do it
4:27:34
again it'd be like awful I I can't do it are you willing to laugh at yourself over the girl voice no no
4:27:45
I can't so you're perfectionist yes
4:27:50
I don't know I I it's it's impossible
4:27:56
it's
4:28:02
these things it's hard as [ __ ]
4:28:08
it's really [ __ ] hard sounds like fixes speak to a therapist about these types of fears therapy is [ __ ]
4:28:16
the only meaningful therapy I've ever gotten is just sitting with the thought for long enough until I figure out what
4:28:22
was wrong and I just haven't done that with this and I don't know the answer I've sat with the thought for a while of why it is
4:28:28
and maybe it's that like look maybe it's that like
4:28:35
maybe maybe it's the perfectionism thing it translates a lot to other areas of my life maybe it's no it's that but like
4:28:43
it's just embarrassing not being able to do something that you feel like you should be able to do
4:28:48
same reason I took it took the uh I started driving in in automatic manual
4:28:54
just was not clicking for me so I was like [ __ ] this automatic bam I can drive this skill was not clicking I've spent
4:29:01
way too much money on this [ __ ] it's gone on for far too long it is not working for me and then I just went in
4:29:07
automatically I was like it makes complete sense I'm a great driver now like so easy um I just like yeah if I'm just not good
4:29:15
at something it's really hard to power through it because the thing is every
4:29:20
now and then a lot of like EV every now and then you'll talk to someone about it and they're like oh yeah I could just
4:29:26
like do it just start at 10 minutes a day and once you get used to it do it
4:29:32
longer and longer I think it's normal to hate your voice I'm not trans or anything but still hate my voice
4:29:39
whenever it's recorded that's just getting used to it thing that that's not okay that's different because the
4:29:45
getting to that one I do know a little bit about it's just that you're really not used to it and it's your perception
4:29:51
of your own voice it's the perception of what you hear in your own head completely different like in my head uh
4:29:58
I sound one way but I know what my voice sounds like I'm recording and it exists in two different parts of my brain in my
4:30:04
mind right so that's just the thing that like it's just like knowing it thing it's just a
4:30:10
fear fear of unknown you don't really like it [ __ ] with you because that's not how you think your voice is so it's different with the garmos thing it's like this is
4:30:17
a thing that I'm trying to do and failing I I equate it to like imagine watching a guy that can't do a backflip
4:30:25
trying to do a backflip over and over again and landing on this [ __ ] head but he keeps [ __ ] trying but every
4:30:33
time it never gets any better it gets maybe worse but it always it never gets
4:30:39
better and eventually you're just watching him going like just [ __ ] stop this ain't working out
4:30:47
that's how I view it like my own that sound like that how it is in my head
4:30:52
laughs it's a lot most people learn but when does that end when does it get better is
4:30:58
the thing like there's the thing of like okay if I've done at this point 15 to 20 like lessons of
4:31:07
this [ __ ] and it's not gotten any better since day one when does it when does it get not even
4:31:14
like when does it work when does it get better you know
4:31:20
because there's other there's other things it's like okay well uh whenever you advertise it you've got to find look going on today bro
4:31:27
confidence you've just doubled the number I gave you it wouldn't matter text more
4:31:33
um but like what's it called uh I've tried everything for it I was like well maybe it's a [ __ ] dish Fourier thing
4:31:39
get fully dressed up and then do it no maybe I was like I I was like damn maybe
4:31:45
it's like I I'm trying to do girl when I don't look like girl and then I went the other way it's like maybe maybe it's
4:31:51
just like a [ __ ] like I don't [ __ ] know it's maybe it's that it's so different to my personality I don't
4:31:58
think it's that either I think I just hate being bad at something that much that it's so [ __ ] cringe-worthy so I
4:32:04
gotta fail at uh voice it's important thing to keep trying it but but it don't that's the thing the reason why it's so
4:32:11
like hopeless is that it doesn't get better that's why it's so that's why it's such
4:32:17
a mental block is that it hasn't like gotten any better if if there was even like a one percent
4:32:24
Improvement I can immediately get into this place of like ah okay well I'll just keep doing it and my voice is
4:32:29
pretty high pitched so I've been working on a girl voice it is super tedious
4:32:38
too impatient it's been months it's been like half a year I worry the biggest tissue is that
4:32:44
you really don't want to we want you to you want to for us but you probably don't want to for you this is okay but
4:32:52
what next
4:32:59
and now Jenna hasn't uh I've got like voice recordings of me doing it uh so I I that that is something I checked I've
4:33:06
got voice recordings of me doing it when I like just was like I spoke to Nat for like the very first time I was like I'll try it and then I I record it listen to
4:33:12
myself okay that was bad let's not do that again I'll try to a few times whatever see if I get a little better
4:33:20
six months down the line or voice training 15 [ __ ] lessons of it two
4:33:26
hours at a time twice a week once a week twice a week all hours of the day practice beforehand record The Voice
4:33:33
exact same as it was at the start I don't know
4:33:38
I've spent like
4:33:43
at least a grand or two at least a few thousand on it and it's
4:33:48
not gonna any better but I'll keep going but Jesus Christ I don't really have much hope for it
4:33:59
uh when he took strings on the phone just try to get into a different character why would I do that the people that call me are like really serious I
4:34:06
don't get calls from like [ __ ] randoms it calls from like Hey Jude we need to talk about your will
4:34:14
I know what is it gonna do I got nothing for it like I can't I
4:34:22
don't know as I said I have no like um just do your customer service voice I
4:34:27
don't have a [ __ ] I don't have one I never did it
4:34:33
not a bad attempt like yeah but that's exactly that's normal kind of sound like you've already given
4:34:39
up I I had given up a year ago but I'm still doing it I'm still doing it I'm
4:34:45
still trying I'm just really hoping for any level of improvement
4:34:50
I have noticed with myself that the regretive inactivity because of fear of failure is usually bigger than the
4:34:56
possible failure itself yeah that's true
4:35:02
um but I also don't not do it though I also
4:35:08
don't like not I just just [ __ ] bear first time you pull the girl voice if you can prank
4:35:14
that so hard I know that's why
4:35:22
do it is like I want to be able to like I want to be able to like pull it out on stream and be like and just do it or
4:35:28
whatever but I'll show that and also by the way half the times where people say um
4:35:34
uh oh wow that was a great girlfriend you listen to it back and no it's not no it's not
4:35:39
it's not at all oh my God weirdly enough uh my vocal
4:35:47
range is pretty androgynous like not one not like now because this is how I talk
4:35:52
like normally I feel like I've now relaxed a bit on stream so this is just how my talk like normal speaking voice
4:35:57
but on stream I'm more up here and this is more like a note I'm yelling a bit more I'm a bit more loud and my voice
4:36:03
certainly goes up a couple pictures you know my voice goes up a little octave or whatever it was
4:36:08
um do the Hoist what the [ __ ] does that mean hoist girl voice the [ __ ] does that
4:36:14
mean Perfection using the enemy of progress but I'm just doing it
4:36:20
I'm just doing it wrong I just do it I just do it and it just doesn't get better you have improved on your
4:36:26
impressions slash weird voices in your streams since you started the voice lessons the main thing is confidence
4:36:37
uh yeah
4:36:43
you need to become the voice be one with the voice now scale voice is very heavy over the
4:36:49
top uh you always said yeah but you know ah the Block's only had yeah no I'm
4:36:55
familiar and I wish I had a reason for it but I just tend not to
4:37:02
I also sort of do know that at least online oh this might be
4:37:08
another thing think you're kind of down on it because you're scared of getting clocked or called out if you did it in public why
4:37:15
the [ __ ] would I do it in public God no
4:37:21
that didn't even cross my mind and no um I like that I hadn't actually even
4:37:27
thought about doing it in real life even once um
4:37:32
there's like so okay I'll give you a thing for the Uber rating yeah that was more joke but true
4:37:39
um but I'm not also I'm also not worried about that at all uh so all right one of
4:37:44
the um one of the things was uh oh [ __ ]
4:37:50
I had a great thing to say I know I've lost it Jesus
4:37:56
[ __ ] I lost it I don't know what the [ __ ] I was going on nevermind
4:38:01
you're spending thousands on your home you said
4:38:07
surgically swap your vocal cords to that of a woman yeah
4:38:13
I've just gotta like find it uh all right let's guess in progress not
4:38:21
really Petra's basically nothing to do with selling female TBH resonance in tone are
4:38:26
very way more important yeah I'd agree uh the problem is every one of those things is incredibly hard to do pitch is
4:38:33
important but most people find it easier to [ __ ] it like people most people find it easier to [ __ ] around with with pitch
4:38:39
rather than resonance and tone and and vocal and vocal weight and [ __ ] brightness and
4:38:46
[ __ ] and how you how you pronounce letters or say or how like you know you change like your
4:38:53
vocal patented like women pronounce s is a bit harder like there's a bunch of [ __ ] like that or like pronounced maybe
4:38:59
he's a little different to to how you know like that's vocal brightness and [ __ ] I've listen I know the theory I
4:39:06
just can't do it uh but like I sh dude and by the way with even with pitch I do
4:39:13
cap out like I do have actually a maximum like vocal range right now that I just can't push
4:39:19
um like in my voice my voice is most optimal condition I top out about two
4:39:26
pitches higher than my regular speaking voice uh which is not a lot two things this is
4:39:32
I'm sure I could tell you a note but I cannot go higher than that let's say you're saying no you're [ __ ] crazy
4:39:38
um I thought of the thing again that I was gonna say
4:39:44
oh that's what I was gonna say I know the internet too well as well now if you do something that doesn't work
4:39:51
out on the internet I know you might go well I wouldn't do this but subconsciously you might do and
4:39:58
you got to think just think about it as other people do it because it's true if you do something that doesn't work on
4:40:04
the internet it becomes everyone that saw it that's their thing they're not
4:40:09
thinking of like well that's going to get better or like well they're just gonna go well that's [ __ ] next scroll to
4:40:15
the next Tick Tock like that's sort of how it goes it doesn't have a like you
4:40:20
sort of need to make I know it's again perfectionist but like it sort of has to be a little bit it
4:40:27
sort of really does because anything less than that doesn't work especially with something like the girl
4:40:33
voice thing like uh
4:40:39
you know good thing twitch has no discover really true um jump to the worst case scenario that's
4:40:46
helpful it's not worst case well I mean all right no no I mean like that's just how it is like there's like um
4:40:54
okay let's say you upload a YouTube video right and the video is about uh
4:40:59
[ __ ] oh [ __ ] I don't know it's much [ __ ] it's harder to explain
4:41:05
with analogy than just the actual thing if you do if you're nope hold on
4:41:12
it took tones of compliments about my voice before I started to believe that my own reading voice was any good
4:41:18
please believe other people who give compliments about your voice I hope their different perspective can help you
4:41:23
break through your mental block
4:41:33
I've seen what you compliment though and it's stupid you'll like someone will pitch up my
4:41:39
voice in like [ __ ] uh audacity or something and they'll go he sounds just like a woman it's like no I don't have
4:41:46
you spoke to a woman like there's not it's not even remotely close well like the person said like oh yeah you just
4:41:52
hire your picture it's so easy like it's not even remotely close so I I don't
4:41:57
trust a lot of your opinions on that or like what I just did there with the little like funny little voice phone
4:42:03
call thing everyone was like wow that's so good it's not it's bad
4:42:10
stop getting one guide what does that mean because I haven't spoken to a woman yeah
4:42:16
they're in my streams what does one guide mean
4:42:24
isn't failure online actually kind of freeing [ __ ] it up once and then there's no more expectations to do it perfect the first
4:42:30
time good point but then when you do it what is there
4:42:36
you know like you know stop thinking stop assuming it
4:42:42
was one guy who did the pitch up video stop saying we all think like that yeah but that's the so when there is
4:42:49
compliments like that that's what they're on like that's what it's like so
4:42:55
yeah I have to speak a woman you can just be one true hormones don't change your voice now
4:43:02
testosterone does though right yeah wait does the testosterone change your voice like if you start taking
4:43:08
testosterone like trans guys they just sort of like have a guy's voice after a while wild but estrogen doesn't
4:43:14
apparently
4:43:20
yeah [ __ ] crazy what if I just do that I can't really look [ __ ] deep
4:43:28
yeah that's interesting wait but if you took so trans women take testosterone blockers does that mean it like makes it
4:43:36
does that mean it does change it a little bit or no
4:43:43
no weird very weird
4:43:49
this stops getting worse um how very odd how very odd
4:44:05
no I have to [ __ ] voice train me too buddy me too
4:44:11
kind of thinking vocal cords ah there's like a bone you wanna chat to you no
4:44:17
no it prevents you further drop a voice and uh fair enough let's get used to speaking differently
4:44:23
and then I couldn't go back like
4:44:28
um so at a certain point giving someone positive words of encouragement tips
4:44:34
over into invalidating their experience or perspective it feels like Chad's kind of doing this now
4:44:40
sort of look I there's no real good way for me to be like well this helps this doesn't you know for for compliments or
4:44:48
[ __ ] words of encouragement of something uh it does sort of go into a little bit
4:44:54
like well [ __ ] how am I supposed to accept a compliment if you compliment dumb [ __ ]
4:45:01
you know maybe just be maybe just be harder to give me uh to give me compliments I guess
4:45:06
can you mimic voices no not even close um yeah I've just never like uh yeah I
4:45:14
said I don't like singing in the shower I don't ever do that can you imagine like
4:45:22
get drunk and try it tried that doesn't work all right I really did try though
4:45:30
you don't want to be a good girl anymore I'm trying my best I'm trying my best to
4:45:36
be a good girl but it's so [ __ ] hard it's so [ __ ] hard it's so good I'm it's so good I'm [ __ ] I can't get
4:45:43
over the middle block of it you ever tried to sing high-pitched stuff uh that's the only tip I've been
4:45:48
given to get used to it and I I don't listen to high-pitched stuff I've realized I don't actually have like any
4:45:54
good songs that I like that like a woman sings or something that I can sort of do but even then
4:45:59
I tend not I tend to just sing in my voice even when I do listen to 100 x I
4:46:06
already do but like I tend to just sing in my voice I don't know how you could sing in a
4:46:14
different one I've I've tried but it just doesn't like work because then your voice like
4:46:20
it's just way it's way harder to sing than it is to talk
4:46:26
so like it's like a it's like a step two forward you know like what am I because the the trick the
4:46:33
the whole thing is like oh okay you're struggling to do this well try try singing like a girl instead of just
4:46:39
talking like a girl it's like oh okay that doesn't [ __ ] help at all it's not like it's too
4:46:46
you can't walk have you tried flying it's much easier you know okay now
4:47:00
it also just really is uh it's a good analogy
4:47:06
uh have you uh it's a little it's sort of
4:47:12
like training actually they're uh like a strong time yeah uh but like
4:47:19
there's no
4:47:25
it's such a confusing thing because okay so with with voice training it'd be like
4:47:30
okay so we're strengthening their strengthener and then but when you try and do it
4:47:36
it does so let's so when you try to do it doesn't work and then the tip is we'll just keep
4:47:41
doing it but there's I can't but there's no like way to get better at it
4:47:47
just keep practicing until you figure out the right way now
4:47:52
you got the muscles now you just gotta figure it out I just think that I I don't know how to figure it out I don't
4:47:59
know what I'm doing wrong when I'm doing it wrong you know
4:48:08
so oh listen hold on oh okay work I've seen a lot of lesbians and it freaks me
4:48:15
out how masculine they sound I know they're not trans because trans guys are much cuter
4:48:24
Jesus Christ but like so
4:48:30
there's a one and then head Pat so that thank you so there's like kind
4:48:36
of misogynistic but okay true but funny um so like
4:48:42
I had it I forget I really need to start writing [ __ ] down
4:48:52
oh yeah okay so like okay oh listen to my voice back on a recording I know it
4:48:59
doesn't sound like a woman but not knowing why
4:49:05
so like what do I do about it so like in my mind that's I'm doing
4:49:11
everything right but I don't know so I don't know what I'm doing wrong but listening to it it's clearly wrong
4:49:17
but I don't know why what do I do about that
4:49:25
yes I've tried many uh sorry I didn't actually I've tried a
4:49:30
trans vocal coach yes three there are trans voice trainers on Tick Tock okay well I'm already working with two
4:49:37
um try to vote coach yes currently I've also been offered a different one maybe I'll take them up as well get a second
4:49:44
opinion I've had a fourth should be able to tell you what's wrong tried to there's no like I I swear to
4:49:53
you it's just you'll get it eventually like every time I've paid like it's I've
4:50:00
talked to I've talked to trans women that have done vocal training for over two years now and you've gradually
4:50:06
adopted more feminine mannerisms and at least three times I've heard your girl voice slip out it's not perfect but it
4:50:14
is better and all women sound different just find your girl voice those are bad
4:50:19
coaches I have spoken individually to make and I know this doesn't sound like a lot when you put all those but like
4:50:25
maybe 10 10 or more just practice forehead [ __ ] you like 10 or more people
4:50:31
that can that have gone through formal voice training with different people two of them were the same actually but we're
4:50:37
different people and they've all I've said the same thing to all of them and they've all said yeah you just gotta
4:50:43
keep going yeah there's no tip there's nothing there there's nothing like there's no there's
4:50:50
just yeah man the science ain't there yet you just gotta keep going I don't know what to do about it I don't
4:50:56
know what to do about it that's the tip just keep going just keep [ __ ] it up
4:51:02
and not knowing why and then not get and nothing gets better isn't that like a sounds like a money pit doesn't it
4:51:09
uh you're like grinding there's no movement bro I'm [ __ ] chipping away at [ __ ]
4:51:16
Granite with a plastic spoon I don't know what to do and everyone's like well [ __ ] I get
4:51:23
it oh my God you I don't know I don't know uh
4:51:33
Christ it is a it is cut it is very
4:51:39
demotivating I won't I won't lie but like what do I do about Anna what's the yeah
4:51:46
Phil uh bass in your chest Yep lose that chest vibration how and it's like oh do the head voice how
4:51:52
like I do a little like this and then it makes like chest voice but it doesn't sound like it doesn't sound right that's
4:51:58
what I mean like look okay I know all the steps I do all the steps it doesn't sound right like it'll be like do you
4:52:04
feel the vibration there no okay well that's ticked off focal brightness okay doing that doesn't sound right don't
4:52:11
know why I'm like just off it just doesn't work
4:52:17
these are growing elbows levels yeah it just doesn't just hard
4:52:24
think Jessica Rabbit tried doing a voice watch the movie and tried doing fair enough
4:52:31
you tried moaning no well that's easier oh well I have definitely tried
4:52:36
definitely tried that that I've done that at live on stream uh once I'm around it first just get the fundamentals in front of your rest of
4:52:42
life oh rest of your life nice cool
4:52:52
[Music] you are too fixated to hearing yourself
4:52:58
can't you call someone you trust every day and talk to them in girl voice for some time so you won't hear yourself but
4:53:06
the other person can keep track of your progress I literally don't trust anyone that much I'll even say I don't feel
4:53:13
comfortable around literally anyone to that I think your Ruble as you like to work of hsrd data and you're not
4:53:21
getting any your trouble is you like to work off
4:53:27
hard oh your keys [ __ ] up you like to work off Hard dates where you're not getting any yeah
4:53:34
because everything has hard data but no one gives it here
4:53:40
like I appreciate those little vocal tracking apps or something so you can go like okay so all right pitch is in the
4:53:46
right range cool so when you record it then you do all that still doesn't sound right okay well that's the only data
4:53:52
you've got and the only other advice is like it's probably just you haven't trained your muscles right yet you know all the time
4:53:58
so it's just gotta keep going you just trust someone like your life well that's too sad it sounds like
4:54:04
learning to accept your girl voice as it is is just as important as learning to speak it in the first place
4:54:13
that's not an awful tip as someone who teaches a couple of different skills for a living people can
4:54:20
be broken into three categories those who are Naturals those who need help in teaching and those who can't be
4:54:26
helped just gotta find what category you truly belong in and go from there
4:54:32
I really do reckon I'm sort of the end one but I'm trying
4:54:43
I would like to imagine you're talking High pitching QC to a baby or a cat that wouldn't sound right
4:54:48
so my path I broke it down into several components then worked on understanding
4:54:54
and controlling each one for me I first started with pitch control then on
4:54:59
breathe control then on changing the location forward backwards sounding voice
4:55:05
then I
4:55:11
that I'm controlling soft palate that I'm controlling tongue then I finally put everything together yeah that's sort of like the that's sort
4:55:18
of what we're trying to do uh but like
4:55:24
it's just hot it's just really [ __ ] I just nothing ever clicks with me on that like yeah just nothing ever really
4:55:31
clicks with me on it so you've had it you've had like a lot
4:55:37
of wins in there and I haven't had one yet and it's been a very long time hello so I don't know
4:55:46
I'm watching mad for this [ __ ] it better be good oh it ain't this is uh what we're on the [ __ ] five hour mark and
4:55:51
I've been ranting for the last one uh hey
4:55:57
you need time to get good with makeup but there's that there's hard things in that there's like as I said the hard
4:56:03
data there's like there's reasons there's reasons why it's so insanely
4:56:08
frustrating when it's like there's no reason why I mean of course there's a reason why
4:56:14
but no one's able to tell you why or help it's so like
4:56:21
it's like it's like someone describing how to think in a certain way it's there's no [ __ ] there's no way to do
4:56:27
it there's no like there's no way that you can show like it's just an impossible task
4:56:38
Dot it's also been 18 months I only got to the put everything
4:56:44
together phase two months ago
4:56:51
fair enough
4:57:06
yeah it's fair point John but like it's not like it's all it's a it's really is like a
4:57:14
mental thing too so I don't know
4:57:23
now that's a look see how much my face changes when
4:57:29
when it's like just this versus like just when you correct your hair a little bit
4:57:37
they're a [ __ ] different ass person well
4:57:45
listening intently with the glasses yes there's that the [ __ ] bottoming book
4:57:52
well so vocal range you know what we you know what [ __ ] me up when we were first doing it they were
4:57:58
like um they were saying like okay we we're gonna try to learn that uh
4:58:04
like vocal fry it's a thing that's fairly important I guess so well sometimes I guess so like
4:58:10
try and try and do like that Valley Girl voice so like you know you know the one right and I could not
4:58:18
physically bring myself to do it for like a half hour
4:58:23
but I'm very good at I'm I'm really good at convincing someone why I shouldn't do
4:58:29
it I'm really good at it which sucks because I end up convincing myself
4:58:34
because like there's valid reasons and usually people aren't
4:58:40
usually people aren't equipped to deal with my [ __ ] so I don't know what to do
4:58:46
no one can fight me on it there's uh you were Your Own Worst Enemy
4:58:51
definitely definitely make them say something stupid they do
4:58:57
all the time it doesn't help because I hear them say something stupid and I go well I don't want to sound like that random [ __ ] go
4:59:05
there's no real help with it there's no like um with that like with that like sound something like that that it's very
4:59:12
quick for them to be like well I'll do a funny little boy funny little stupid voice and then I'll go well I don't want to sound like that and I don't know but
4:59:17
if they can do it perfectly and then I can't then I also go I don't wanna and I can't do it it doesn't stack up it's this I sound stupid in comparison
4:59:24
become masochistic it's only ahead I know everything's in your head bro I don't
4:59:30
know what to do about it
4:59:37
talking yourself out of doing something is very difficult to deal with um vocal fry
4:59:43
w i started on that one significantly helped learning to get
4:59:48
control of all the other muscles there first I mean isn't vocal fry like sort of an easier
4:59:55
one because you'd sort of do that in normal conversation
5:00:02
you got voice is stored in the balls we all know that I Jesus Christ then why
5:00:07
then why are mine soap with my and what is that why mine is so big when I do
5:00:13
finally crack the girl voice is going to be perfect uh what is your second like Choice after Jack Daniels I don't [ __ ] it it's
5:00:20
significant downgrade but maybe vodka I guess
5:00:26
I mean if you're going like if you're a whiskey then not for me not any whiskeys
5:00:33
not familiar for me really no [ __ ] fair enough
5:00:42
it's hard but you are used to dealing with hard things in all seriousness you
5:00:48
are an amazing person and if you put your mind to it there is nothing you can't do also improv classes and
5:00:54
tabletop gaming help get over your inhibitions [Music]
5:01:02
you will eventually get it it also depend on what kind of voice you picture is it a law or a pre-pawn voice is it a
5:01:10
pokemane voice some women sound very masculine it also depend with your
5:01:15
accent etc etc it might also sound older uh
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I don't know
5:01:29
I need to find a voice to look at as a goal I think I could help you I don't listen to I I haven't found a
5:01:35
piece of like female [ __ ] I haven't found a female content creator that a has a good voice and b i makes content
5:01:43
that I'm interested in you know what I mean
5:01:55
Iron Man God no I'm not that cringe I don't speak to women no I don't speak
5:02:02
to women and often I don't speak to anyone often enough to start emulating people's voices
5:02:08
um
5:02:16
have you tried doing an accent like an impression I can't do accents in the first place oh that's a good way to put
5:02:21
it have you ever like you know how cringy it is watching someone do an accent they clearly can't do they
5:02:28
clearly can't do or like think of it like with your own like your own like uh whatever your uh your native accent is
5:02:35
Right someone imagine an American doing it badly
5:02:40
doesn't that sound cringe doesn't that sound like the worst and if
5:02:45
they can't completely nail it it's awful it's like that's that's sort of why I
5:02:51
fit into it do an American accent no for the exact same reason I just said
5:02:58
the English language as a whole [Music]
5:03:03
John is Stefan to something if you're someone who needs subjective metrics then you must have a control or how can
5:03:10
you possibly measure progress
5:03:19
but what's the object what's the control what's the control what would the control be
5:03:30
oh you must have a control yeah what would the control be what sorry maybe I just didn't that
5:03:37
didn't click in my head
5:03:46
T happy [Music] um
5:03:51
I've just got to be trans I think that's the fix all right I'll ask razor for the
5:03:57
estrogen I think that's the fix I think
5:04:03
um yeah we did it boys
5:04:10
we won six hours stream that's however long I
5:04:16
want to guess we transitioned then
5:04:24
my God I usually tense my back what I usually tense my back my back of the tongue and
5:04:32
throat I farted so bad to be able to do the anime voice yeah I know what it's like I
5:04:40
know what weirdly enough I know what that sounds like because that's what I do that's almost
5:04:45
what I'm doing with the girl voice a little bit when I can almost do it
5:04:51
but I really have nothing for you
5:04:57
what what I wish is like oh look I'll just quickly try but I I [ __ ] I can already feel like straight up can't uh
5:05:04
bro girl voice because you you trans woke he's become trans to do a girl voice true
5:05:14
yeah I plan to keep at it I'm working on it it's going in addition to trying to go for anything
5:05:19
how much money you could make from doing a girl voice instruments videos that's very true but probably yeah probably not a lot it's an interesting it's a neat
5:05:26
trick it's a neat trick it's a neat trick but then you know there's I mean
5:05:32
there's more content in it I guess but like
5:05:37
I'm sort of just doing it to do it you know what I mean there's no real reason for it
5:05:44
I don't have a need to do it I'm just sort of doing it kind of because I just wanna
5:05:51
I wanna be able to do it but not
5:05:57
but in the same way that like it would be nice to be able to sing it'd be nice to be able to do the
5:06:03
government it'd be pretty cool but that's kind of the end of it
5:06:08
you know sounds like a cope from what wanting to be able to do it is
5:06:15
valid yeah look at the viral Clips truth truth
5:06:21
I'm so much better I'm so good at coming I'd I had so many good ideas if I could do a girl voice so [ __ ] many think of
5:06:29
it for Among Us VR bro if you could just switch complete voice on a dime I already gave them that that I do and
5:06:34
didn't [ __ ] do it such a good [ __ ] such a viral [ __ ] video idea I didn't do it
5:06:41
when Among Us was popping off God damn
5:06:48
yeah imagine the content I know I know it's all good
5:06:56
foreign
5:07:02
how do you mean just every day sorry Visa I've got to
5:07:09
just insult the [ __ ] out of you so I learn the girl voice you're short and you're [ __ ] you're shorter than me
5:07:15
and you're stupid and dumb looking and
5:07:20
and I and you're [ __ ] and yeah you got less followers than me the
5:07:28
mimicking part really doesn't sound like she doesn't she doesn't Voice train though so she doesn't have like
5:07:34
um she she I think she wants to start but I couldn't like if I mimicked Marisa [Music]
5:07:41
you're not very good at insults well I'm not actually going to insult her I'm not actually gonna be genuinely mean would I
5:07:47
what the hell um still a higher pitch Reese's voice is not really a higher
5:07:54
pitch than mine I have a thing then again my head versus what I hear it'll teach you the girl
5:08:01
voice I got you I have thought of so many videos you could do yeah
5:08:12
uh yeah you could be cute what could be cute fake pink Vine flowers wraps around
5:08:19
the mica that is pretty cute actually that's not a terrible idea
5:08:25
that's not a terrible idea I like that I will I'm storing that in the in the memory bank
5:08:33
good enough reason for you get over and securities about it yeah try hypnosis bruh
5:08:40
not real Darren Brown having [ __ ]
5:08:47
sorry I know this stream's gonna a lot less uh a lot less more hyper
5:08:53
entertaining and more just like you know I'm now I'm just now we're just
5:08:58
like talking to you but hypnosis really helped me you got a
5:09:04
[ __ ] therapist about it or what the [ __ ] was that hypnosis is real I've had it done to me I don't believe you I think that it's
5:09:10
all in your head oh yeah but like I just don't believe it is the
5:09:16
thing I just don't I I just like I just I think that it's the same thing as like
5:09:23
placebos really work for me it's like well [ __ ] because what are you doing step sis
5:09:32
I do have the this is the step step CIS glasses isn't it
5:09:42
hold on
5:10:01
sorry just looking at myself Jack Hunt chant help me my brain is
5:10:07
stuck what do you mean whoa hello
5:10:14
you move too much I don't know if I still trust anyone where it could be a perfect subject for hypnosis
5:10:20
what it won't work but you will be a perfect subject for hypnosis why would I be a perfect subject for it
5:10:27
what would that work [Music]
5:10:32
when are you and not doing another video together I don't know there's we haven't like
5:10:37
well Nat does different [ __ ] now so I don't really have any ideas uh if
5:10:43
Nat has like if Nat wants to film something um feel free to ask bro I'm free uh
5:10:52
but Nat does completely different [ __ ] now
5:10:57
he does like uh valorent videos
5:11:06
[Music] does anyone else ever think the audio
5:11:12
isn't synced up because Guy voice but looks so feminine happens at least once a stream to me
5:11:18
so sorry there's been someone doing a voiceover for the last little bit the only reason I can't learn the golf voices I don't want to let them let the
5:11:24
mask slip of how far of my perfect girl voice uh
5:11:30
after uh after Finn the voice of a guy you know comes in and does his work
5:11:35
oh wait you're full of imagination and like to create things hypnosis does talk
5:11:41
taught his I'll talk to that side of his of the wait toast outside of the brain
5:11:46
your subconscious is vast saying [ __ ] though
5:11:52
to get it man no one's ever oh bro Alex is Alex here Alex come hypnotize me like
5:11:58
real quick let's do it are you here let's do it now is Alex the mod here who's here right
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now bro [ __ ] where is he
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and that's [ __ ] bro I need them here I need um actually I need to I need I need Alex to
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come hypnotize me bro I'm up down
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I'm here random guy called Alex and chat I'm here
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[Music]
5:12:41
I know a guy that who did voice training to get more clear announcing uh announcing voice for auctions yeah
5:12:47
um I I'm usually all right with that there's no like um I don't know
5:12:54
yawn once go to bed I've been yawning all day stuff it's not a not a not a it's I just I that's just how I am
5:13:03
uh let me begin with but see my friends of mine being hypnotized I'm not scared of now scared to being hypnotized
5:13:10
okay but do you see the [ __ ] the thing of like if you don't think it's gonna work it's not gonna work it's a
5:13:17
placebo it's the same thing it's like if I give you a pill and say hey this is [ __ ]
5:13:22
this gonna it's gonna make you feel tired and you take it and you feel tired there's nothing in it so Placebo works
5:13:29
it's like hey I think this guy's gonna make me think about something else and
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then he says to give us something else you go wow
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but then if you if you have the thing of like well this isn't real it's just [ __ ]
5:13:48
then you just you can just not you just not think about the thing or not even if
5:13:54
you try to if you just don't think it's real it's not going to change anything sorry about that I know I've been
5:14:00
rambling for now you've got a license for that knife no
5:14:06
this shit's illegal to take outside but that's why I keep it indoors where it's nice and legal
5:14:12
you can't even get knife licenses that sucks by the way like everyone's got the same rights and then you can't like
5:14:17
there's no it's easier to get a gun than like a butterfly knife in the UK because there's literally no process to get one
5:14:24
there's no Pros there's nothing you can ever do for it it's wild
5:14:30
please do a collab with Frank Castle for no reason yeah bro Frank hit me up
5:14:37
Frank hit me up I need a bit of uh [ __ ] Hypno bro okay listen hypnosis Works me at the
5:14:45
start I didn't think it worked but it worked
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yes if you explain the placebo effect then say it's a placebo but it will work because it work
5:14:56
to explain it imagine hypnosis like physical therapy I can't fix your body
5:15:02
if you don't relax and let me move you around it's the same with hypnosis if
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you don't let me and I cannot talk to your subconscious smile it's about letting go of control
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[Music] so if I give you a pill and tell you
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that it's going to make thousands of people attracted to you online and it works even if the pill has nothing in it
5:15:27
that pill worked you made it happen my manifested it the pill Works choose to
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believe yeah I'm not like I'm not saying it's fake and [ __ ] it's a placebo I'm
5:15:41
saying it's a placebo it helps because it's a placebo it's
5:15:47
glass have been dirty this entire I was about to use my hair to clean the glasses I swear to God
5:15:52
um but like you know if you
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yeah it's like I'm not saying placebos don't work I'm saying that
5:16:06
if it helps anyone I'm saying that because I know it's a placebo it won't work that's what I mean I think it's
5:16:13
very handy to be naive and believe whatever and then you can get into it but
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I'm not sure whenever you look at it like when you
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start doing research on it or anything like that you'll never find any like papers that go like oh yeah this
5:16:32
definitely works it almost seems like failure it's not an option for you while learning The Voice yep failure is part
5:16:39
of learning even if it feels like you aren't making any progress you'll get there at some point we
5:16:46
believe in you Finn now it's time to start believing in yourself cheer 100
5:16:53
could you guys see my uh [ __ ] and balls there or no hypnosis won't work on me because I
5:16:59
can't ever relax ever I can relax so easily can you can you guys do that thing where you can think about absolutely nothing
5:17:05
like no I've always heard this is like a special [ __ ] ability that I have I can just go
5:17:14
just no thoughts brain empty
5:17:20
it's great thin Finn on a scale on one to ten how tired are you right now
5:17:25
I drank a Red Bull again like a half an hour ago I'm fine empty no Thoughts by my brain yeah
5:17:31
pretty much
5:17:37
I am back did I miss anything so relaxing it's like a little it's like a little um
5:17:44
it's like it's like a little brain massage a little bit you know it's sort of like just
5:17:49
um because I can just can you not just think of like or not just think about it
5:17:56
just like there's nothing just let's take a minute to get the chat
5:18:02
don't look at the screen look at like a blank space on your wall and just [ __ ]
5:18:10
just think about the wall for a minute not how it works just like the spot that you're looking at until you just sort of
5:18:16
don't care and then brain empty
5:18:23
it's so easy it's me all life it's so good it's so good
5:18:30
hey Rose thanks for putting your measurements in the chat I'm going to make you a twinsie of the dress I'm
5:18:35
currently sewing for myself I just end up in a did I just end up in
5:18:40
a meditation audio Yeah Yeah
5:18:47
I just think wall well [ __ ] it one thought's better than a
5:18:54
billion that's used like that's usually why my brain's at it's either like a ton of [ __ ] at once or just and then I
5:19:01
can just go I'm thinking too much
5:19:10
do you have ADHD I do that when I relax my eyes too much I don't think so I took a took a little
5:19:18
bit of a I took a little bit of a drug for ADHD it was uh I think it's a v I
5:19:24
think I've told the story on stream before but like I took it nothing happened which either means I don't have ADHD or I definitely do
5:19:33
vivance yeah yeah so I took vivance uh and you know
5:19:38
it you know I either definitely do or definitely don't because it did nothing
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it didn't help they didn't make anything worse it didn't make me feel wired it didn't give me any effect it was like I took nothing
5:19:51
it was like I took a placebo they make you high otherwise well would it okay if my brain functions the same
5:19:57
way on and off it then then I probably don't have it
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they gave my autistic ass riddling they didn't know yeah reasons had some bad reasons I
5:20:19
did reason the reason why I know I don't have ADHD is Riza has ADHD and I am
5:20:24
around her God look
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I am I promise I swear to God I am not one to talk [ __ ] about a legitimate
5:20:38
Mental Illness but good Lord it is hard to be around that [ __ ] sometimes
5:20:45
it is really hard to like uh oh salus good night good night but um it is it is
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it is hot it's like there's a note yeah but
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like the thing of like telling someone info and then just like you know the
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face I make where it's just like brain empty the that just getting that in return and
5:21:09
then going did you you okay you go yeah yeah
5:21:14
uh can you what was what was the last bit again I got it was this there you go
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and okay so the can you say that again say it again and then like
5:21:26
the [ __ ] like no no I don't understand can you repeat the whole thing and then I repeat I go okay the
5:21:31
whole thing I'm talking about she went I didn't listen can you do it again it's like bro
5:21:37
uh I know that I don't have ADHD because there's not a
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that's not I'm not like that I'm not even remotely like that
5:21:51
I have random little symptoms but nothing I'll just dozed off right there oh my
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gosh got down my Hobbit you know reason that's the message no
5:22:04
it'll be like a really serious conversation too I'll have like I'll be talking to reason about like
5:22:10
well if it's sometimes it does get very I I can't like get you just gotta take my word for it they're like serious
5:22:15
enough that like if you didn't listen you definitely definitely be in the
5:22:20
wrong like the sort of [ __ ] that I could tweet and it would reason would be canceled about you know what I mean like
5:22:26
like the sort of [ __ ] you really should listen to and it's just [ __ ] like
5:22:31
there's no there's no storage of info for a while well there's no storage or
5:22:37
info sometimes like it's so weird to watch information go through someone like that low around
5:22:45
me yeah yeah oh God it's interesting
5:22:50
but I know I don't know that actually I don't I'm fine
5:22:56
write only memory well I guess she has redowning memory
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right where it's just like she can rattle off what she knows but then not take any [ __ ] how many HDs do you think you have
5:23:09
we just got ADHD I've got like 30.
5:23:17
Channel deafness is a magical thing what does that mean being the only one what do you think of
5:23:22
top G I got a better uh I gotta I honestly I've got a better opinion of tape than I think people would think
5:23:29
that I have I think he's a [ __ ] I I think he's I think he has very like normally
5:23:35
opinions doesn't he a bit like I don't like I don't agree with them but like it's not
5:23:41
shocking it's like some people's like first time hearing a lot of this [ __ ] and then like boys with ADHD most girls
5:23:51
are diagnosed later because the symptoms people experience can be very different I was diagnosed as an adult and find it
5:23:58
hard to relate to most people with ADHD also bro Minecraft Google hyper hyper
5:24:04
fixation uh yeah I do that [ __ ] a ton but then what is that like look
5:24:10
I [ __ ] okay yeah look there's tons there's tons of [ __ ] they're like
5:24:15
there's tons there's so much [ __ ] that I that me and Marisa like let's not even remember there's tons of [ __ ] that like
5:24:21
if you look if I started saying all the symptoms and [ __ ] you'd be like wow [ __ ] ADHD or Autism or some [ __ ] like
5:24:27
it's probably orders ah it's probably not ADHD it's probably a
5:24:35
little bit of autism uh is that's the most likely thing that I that I think
5:24:41
uh that's what I more line up with selective thing fair enough but um real
5:24:49
my God there's um it's all thank you so much
5:24:57
bottom true lucky thinking that yeah uh you know
5:25:04
I think I remember having a conversation with the vocal tutor and they were like so part of the reason they were like they were trying to get me to like just
5:25:10
just [ __ ] say the thing it was probably like the valley girl thing they just wanted me to go like oh my God that
5:25:16
they wanted me to do that and I just couldn't [ __ ] do it and they were like um you've gotta like
5:25:21
and they were saying like just don't think about it you just do it like you know the next thing in a conversation you don't think about what you're gonna
5:25:28
say yeah I know I did it I'm good with that we let's move past you don't think you don't think about the next thing
5:25:33
you're gonna say you just say it and I go what like can we just go on this for
5:25:39
a while uh and I and she's just saying like like you know you just carry on talking you're not thinking about exactly how
5:25:45
the conversation's gonna go before you have it and that was just new information to me
5:25:50
you guys just talk and you don't think about it beforehand is that why people say so much [ __ ] up [ __ ] can we just
5:25:56
talk you don't think about how the other person is going to receive it you know plan the next sentence another thing
5:26:04
what the [ __ ] said like no it's not what I do who does that she goes oh you're [ __ ] autistic
5:26:10
that's what it is all right cool so that's new
5:26:19
uh I need to slow archives it's never ending stream I'm so sorry I'm just not gonna sleep what if I did that Helen
5:26:25
what if I stream for the next 48 hours uh viewers have the hot one sources [ __ ]
5:26:32
yeah well oh yeah but with that like with little like girly [ __ ] Valley Girl
5:26:38
thing it's more of a voice it doesn't really help with like I can do that but it doesn't really help
5:26:43
with anything it's when you sort of like pull them all together like if I can go through each individual thing and sort
5:26:50
of sort of do it but like when you put it all together it doesn't sound good so like
5:26:55
[Music] um what
5:27:02
this national holiday week in America what the [ __ ] does that mean you just have a holiday that's just a
5:27:08
week that's just called holiday it's just the national holiday week holiday [ __ ]
5:27:16
which one are you bottom oh my God you're all goddamn bottoms what sort of community have I fostered
5:27:22
bro if you do get diagnosed with autism I will welcome you to the club by sending a weighted blanket to your P.O
5:27:28
box I have one
5:27:34
I got one it's pretty cool but it didn't give me like any crazy Comfort like anything like it wasn't
5:27:40
wild I have one though I got one
5:27:45
I got one they're pretty cool and they're like it could have been heavier weirdly I I so I've got one that's like
5:27:51
just over 10 in my body weight and I've been told it was a gift from someone and my first thing was like this
5:27:57
could have been way heavier this could be four times the weight and it'd be pretty cool
5:28:02
I want to be crushed that's what I want and it's just casually autistic foreign
5:28:09
yeah no I'm like look if there's any autism in me I'm at the lowest end of the spectrum even I've got like a couple
5:28:16
of the [ __ ] little quirks a little quirky I have a
5:28:22
friend with a ghd and autism LOL Wombo Combo do you know what okay truly can you not
5:28:29
like read my eyes a little bit when I do that can you not like when okay
5:28:35
you can't like see me do like a little mental like stuffed animals if you do how many I
5:28:43
sleep with seven best thing to sleep with there's like um no I don't there's I
5:28:48
I've I uh I used to but the thing is I had like a
5:28:55
friend when I was a kid uh who slept with his ah bro I can't expose him
5:29:04
I wanted to but well okay look I had a friend that slept with a teddy for way too long
5:29:10
and um and I I always thought it was a little cringe so I just never got into
5:29:16
it really um I'd like a little little toy done at least I really like dinosaurs it's like
5:29:21
a little dinosaur when I was a kid a little little plush little dinosaur guy I don't know where it went
5:29:26
but yeah multiple flash yeah I just like
5:29:32
look I only go to bed when I'm barely able to stand like I better bed is for sleeping so
5:29:40
much so that my new house the the bedroom that I've picked to be my bedroom is the smallest room in the house
5:29:46
it's just the it's just the sleeping room
5:29:52
because there's every other room is like the room you do something I just need like a I I don't even think like
5:29:59
there's a different room that would be the closet different room for like taking photos getting dressed bathroom everything like
5:30:06
that that's nice for stuffed animals usually snuggle the blah and an anime
5:30:11
body pillow because life is too short to not be cringe all right you've redeemed it at the end
5:30:17
you're pretty cool you're yourself a little bit of self-hatred
5:30:25
a little bit of uh knowing it good job I like you I like you again
5:30:36
I mean look I think I just get annoyed that something's in my bed that I don't like
5:30:41
that I just get annoyed that I can't stretch out more I just need a giant maybe if I had a really big bed I could
5:30:48
get into I could get into it that would be cool but like I don't know what size bed I I
5:30:54
am I have but I just want to [ __ ] really big bed oh
5:31:00
that's also an autistic straight what the wanting to stretch out
5:31:05
everyone likes that that's not an Autism thing
5:31:11
you're telling me that like no one they wouldn't make beds that big if that wasn't an everyone thing
5:31:18
California thing's huge I know I don't have the room for any of that but like I sort of just want a king
5:31:25
any questions waited dino toy I still have the stuffy
5:31:30
my ex gave me over two years ago even though we broke up 1.5 years ago
5:31:36
Stuffy's rule I gotta do all this stuff is
5:31:46
toilets oh like a plushie okay all right that's cool
5:31:52
I just like you know oh that's what the [ __ ] rice paper thing was by the way I was looking
5:31:58
at it like per 100 grams uh yeah I was looking at it per 100 grams
5:32:05
and it's like 330 calories per 100 grams so it's like the same amount of calories as like cheese
5:32:11
some cheese so I sort of like mentally was like whoa that's not great so oh no what's like a
5:32:18
tortilla per 100 hold on
5:32:25
yeah like a 100 grams of like tortilla is [ __ ] less calories than 100 grams
5:32:31
of rice paper it's like it's more calorie dense that's what we were talking about before sorry thing gives
5:32:36
off little spoon vibes
5:32:44
I'm allowed I'm I'm allowed to be listen I'm lit
5:32:50
listen I don't want any insults that I that maybe I like that okay
5:32:56
all right I make lotion all right all my day is meant is spent making big tough
5:33:03
decisions and sometimes I just want to be the whole spoon what about that huh what's so wrong about that
5:33:11
like a tough businessman all day I'm gonna come home and be a
5:33:16
little spoon well I'll hug for a little bit what do
5:33:21
you mean jeez bro make me so mean
5:33:26
I would consider myself a switch of spooning
5:33:32
what the [ __ ] I consider myself a rhesus gumball I just heard a noise Jesus uh I
5:33:37
consider myself a switch in the spooning Department I'm uh I like last girlfriend
5:33:42
uh yeah complete 50 50 really pretty great pretty solid
5:33:49
what was that not just a [ __ ] someone breaking him happens all the time in Birmingham I don't move unless I hear
5:33:55
like something break because then they haven't got out cleanly you know then they've got to fix a window
5:34:03
I'm six foot eight I can probably be the big spoon [ __ ] little spoon is best spoon that's actually used the
5:34:09
aforementioned body pillow as my big spoon
5:34:18
why does that make it worse what psychologically
5:34:24
why did why does that make it so much worse I can almost get behind cuddling a body
5:34:31
pillow because of the Comfort like with the body position but wanting to be spooned by the anime body pillow
5:34:40
sauce extremely so you know
5:34:46
that that screams that there's more to this you know what I mean that it's not just a comfort thing
5:34:55
who knows my wife is smaller than I am because I'm amab trans Femme and she's
5:35:00
my little backpack at night I like being a little spoon [ __ ] yeah it's great
5:35:08
don't just me too harshly I've got four official psychiatric diagnoses Rose
5:35:21
okay well listen
5:35:28
I just don't want to be diagnosed with something as soon as I choose to be unlock the [ __ ] Infinity Gauntlet of
5:35:34
mental illness I will I will be diagnosed with everything
5:35:41
[ __ ] I'll have it all [Music]
5:35:46
uh [ __ ] oh good lord that'd be quite good
5:35:51
the what The Infinity Gauntlet [ __ ] anxiety uh autism
5:35:59
depression ADHD oh [ __ ] what's another good one that's another good one what's
5:36:05
the fifth I need a fifth is that six or is that five
5:36:10
six right not by part there's no way I'm bipolar OCD there's no shot for [ __ ] sake I'm
5:36:18
gonna do this Ed like erectile dysfunctional eating
5:36:24
disorder either way both of them no uh
5:36:30
manic but Jesus Christ social phobia there's a word for that one
5:36:36
that's not that it's been the the big one in the middle is [ __ ] like this
5:36:43
big one in the middle erector
5:36:48
[ __ ] you know man what's the what would be the the middle one the sixth the sixth sounds I'm
5:36:54
trying to think of like my my what my probably autism probably autism
5:37:00
horny horny oh my God yeah
5:37:08
we've gone through all them at least once dissociative identity sort of bro it's so fun to dissociate a little bit
5:37:14
sometimes as long as it's consensual with your own brain it's a little fun
5:37:19
like have you never like stared at you this happened to me when I played VR a ton so
5:37:26
I played vraton and I remember like getting off VR after playing it for like eight hours because it's pcvr just last
5:37:31
[ __ ] forever so and then doing it every day I remember after a few days it was like
5:37:38
um when I first like after a few days I'd be like looking at my phone and I'd be moving my hand and not I was
5:37:44
dissociating I was like this isn't [ __ ] me bro I was like it's not even me moving it doesn't feel like I'm do it
5:37:50
I remember like feeling so weird but it was like kind of trippy it was fun um
5:37:56
I can imagine that would be terrifying if you would if you weren't like into the idea of it if you weren't like cool
5:38:03
with it dissociating is based on ADHD product no just happened with VR because like it just completely like separates your
5:38:09
reality a bit I think that's why it happened is associating not fun no but
5:38:20
when it happens like every it happened to me like it's happened to me like 10 times in my entire life
5:38:27
so you know if it was a disorder then yeah no fun no fun everyone's having uh that with my legs
5:38:34
when I was hover when I used a hoverboard for a while oh yeah yeah it really is just like a [ __ ] whip yeah
5:38:39
I got it when I did VR for a bit that's Brian still accept a long session actually moving my legs to walk after the controllers whack yeah true
5:38:47
yeah you feel a lot when you're outside did you include anxiety on that listen buddy oh yeah sorry listen just in case
5:38:54
that wasn't clear I was not serious about The Infinity Gauntlet of mental illness
5:39:01
um there was you know I I fit into the category of I'm
5:39:07
probably mostly fine like sure if I really went somewhere and
5:39:16
said like this is what I'm worried about here's what I feel like yeah I'd probably get diagnosed with a
5:39:22
bunch of [ __ ] but like I don't it doesn't it's not life afflicting it doesn't like affect my life
5:39:28
um there's no it like this you know I I can like
5:39:34
there's no mental stuff that I'm like I've never been so anxious that I did that I couldn't do anything uh
5:39:42
I've never been uh I well I have not in the last
5:39:47
five years been so depressed that I couldn't force myself to go do something uh and and be happy and then there's
5:39:53
like and you know sort of go through process brain okay cool got it and then
5:39:58
like move on uh I've never been so uh what the [ __ ] is it called I don't know
5:40:04
I've never been so socially anxious that like I couldn't like go do a thing it's just like an it's just like a small
5:40:09
thing back in the head sort of thing [ __ ] it who cares I can only I I need your ability to roll
5:40:15
dog depression yeah because uh you know what complete opposite opinion on like
5:40:21
depression and the girl voice I knew with that that I was just like well this shit's not gonna last forever so might
5:40:27
as well just [ __ ] deal with it [Applause] like that was it complete opposite
5:40:33
opinion then I've got to head to bed gotta interview in the morning I hope you have a good night Purple
5:40:39
Heart I can't I've got to like meet someone at like 8 PM so I'm gonna be awake for
5:40:45
[ __ ] years you've spent too much time on your in your own head in your in your own house
5:40:51
and don't interact with people you can become agoraphobic oh I don't have that
5:40:56
I just like tend not to it's just like too it's just more work raw dog depression is a good one yeah
5:41:05
I have the ability to Raw dug basically anything but no like I mean if there's like a
5:41:12
problem usually that's my solution is like deal with it like this it sucks
5:41:19
but it dude that it works until there isn't an answer
5:41:25
it works until it's so so there's been I can't talk about any of that I can't talk about like what it is or you know I
5:41:32
can't talk about any of the details but like it's been a there's been a decision that I was presented with that I had to
5:41:37
make um that was
5:41:43
I'd say I'd I'd say I had my top three worst days of
5:41:48
top five worst days of my life ever uh
5:41:54
uh and I remember having to I had to make a decision on one thing and I remember being so overwhelmed about it I think I took a walk
5:42:01
at night for like I think like four hours I just walked around because I was so overwhelmed
5:42:08
about it because I couldn't come to a decision on it because I couldn't like I couldn't raw dog it
5:42:13
um it was very bad but that so it works until it doesn't
5:42:19
you know what I mean usually did you smoke no no no no no uh if you ever dude
5:42:25
no I'd never use um I wouldn't absolutely never
5:42:31
advise or do myself I would never do it's not even I wouldn't advise it I would never use drugs as a way to get
5:42:37
over a situation like that like a like a cope I wouldn't use I wouldn't use any alcohol or whatever it may be or or
5:42:43
herbs uh as a cope for something because it puts a real
5:42:49
it doesn't help I I like the temporary feeling better thing
5:42:55
I try not to even do it with food but I do
5:43:00
uh but I guess technically I'll deal with that or like if there's if I really need to give myself a bit of [ __ ] pep
5:43:07
then I'll repeat but that's about it but yeah you don't want to get into that
5:43:13
doesn't help in the long run yeah it makes you feel temporarily better but especially with yeah but
5:43:19
definitely definitely so fun uh
5:43:26
a TT bin yeah my Tick Tock got banned but yes so whenever like so you can raw
5:43:33
dog basically anything um any like well at least I can and then
5:43:40
um but yeah I just tend to get like it's really really hard for me to get overwhelmed
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uh but but when I do [ __ ] it hits you know like it's what your celebrity
5:43:52
crushes when you were younger we already know about Ryan Reynolds I always was in
5:43:57
love with Transformers one Megan Fox my God um
5:44:09
I don't think I had [ __ ] any Luna Lovegood never mind I definitely did when I was a kid I think let me look up let me look her
5:44:16
up yeah dude yeah she was the she was the [ __ ] Blonde one in Harry Potter
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[ __ ] uh based that [ __ ] was so fast
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it was um yeah I remember I remember that it looks like girl Malfoy
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that's what it was um there you go but that yeah I mean
5:44:43
celebrity celebrity though I don't think I really paid much attention to like celebrity [ __ ]
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um also there's just too many hot people now have you noticed that that like
5:44:55
celebrity crushes aren't like I don't know how maybe it's an age thing but like okay if you use tick tock you may just
5:45:03
not be interested you may just not have that same celebrity crush thing because you see so many people that are
5:45:11
an unobtainable level of beauty like you like I've never seen a human being that
5:45:18
looks like that even close and you scroll through 20 of them in a minute
5:45:23
it's wild it's such an over stimulus so like
5:45:29
you'll it's nuts it's absolutely nuts like you what do you mean like me I'm an
5:45:36
average looking guy I really am if you saw me in real life I'm an average looking fella I do not I'm not a turn
5:45:41
head type of type of [ __ ] foreign
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we were never meant to see this many hot people in a lifetime no and you weren't meant to talk to this many people in a
5:45:54
lifetime either that's the other thing like do you you know what like how many people you you'd meet like throughout
5:46:01
your life like non-social Media stuff it's something like in in a lifetime you'd meet 80 000 people
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in a lifetime and that counts like casual like
5:46:15
Uber driver you said hi to that counts eighty thousand in a lifetime
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80 000 different people acquaintances you briefly nodded at everyone 80 000 a lifetime
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you she [ __ ] uh it's nuts it's nuts it's not especially
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on my side of things because [ __ ] what the hell am I doing here it's [ __ ] three thousand [ __ ] oh it's okay two and a half thousand you know
5:46:38
I've knocked out [ __ ] you know I've heard that is not it does oh my God
5:46:49
your reach is millions uh yeah 67 how many people just on the [ __ ]
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Minecraft Channel uh how many Impressions does my Minecraft Channel have 67 while I was bang on what the [ __ ] 67
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million views on the Minecraft channel on the live channel it's going to be more like 30.
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that's the wrong button
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let's press go 54. wow that went up 54 million on that one
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and that is a small YouTube channel too Wild
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crazy crazy [ __ ]
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anyway what was I doing how many of those overlap
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uh in like oh in views [ __ ] most of the definitely like most most if not all
5:47:54
Markiplier is so many it's crazy yeah it's insane that's what I mean you should have dude
5:47:59
I [ __ ] oh I don't know how the hell we got here
5:48:04
all those people loving themselves a hot fanboy ER so the best the best compliment I've
5:48:12
ever got in real life was like um I met someone I met someone that was like familiar with my content online and
5:48:18
was only familiar with my content online and when I met them I was like oh wow I thought you were going to be like a dude dude I thought like this is like angles
5:48:25
in [ __ ] lighting and makeup and I was like it is but yeah I'm glad that I struck like I struck the femboy I strike
5:48:32
the femboy chord in real life too so that's cool that's nice good to know
5:48:38
like uh I can at least I at least stack up I guess um
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yeah been taking only 2.5 and maybe see if I
5:48:52
get five in a stream [ __ ] yeah man only 2.5 000 people no it's [ __ ] cold
5:48:58
you sound like British Swagger Souls foreign
5:49:06
no you mean this is not all motion capture oh this is all CG you just don't it's just highly about this is like you
5:49:13
uh [ __ ] Unity 5.1 kind of late join us get a fit check please oh [ __ ] I haven't [ __ ]
5:49:19
shut I mean look it's listen it's not a crazy fit
5:49:25
I gotta I got a cool shirt that I wanted to show I got this thing like today neat
5:49:31
but you know how it goes I like nice it's like a large shirt so
5:49:38
it's pretty baggy and I like it like if you pull it like
5:49:43
most why why can I not like get I like baggy shirts a lot but the only
5:49:48
thing is that I really don't show off my [ __ ] hell my waistline that I've worked so hard for
5:49:56
gone but it's very nice very comfy very good
5:50:01
shoot look at this one this one this one this
5:50:08
one probably down probably uh top tier waistline uh
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Smash Bro
5:50:32
whoa whoa we're like perfect
5:50:45
I'm gonna like line it up
5:50:58
I'm trying to perfectly line up like my face to it
5:51:10
jailbait what the [ __ ] I'm 18 there buddy there's no there's nothing here that I'm
5:51:16
not a legal adult for what the [ __ ]
5:51:21
somehow more Femme without makeup and the magic of eyebrows and lashes well I mean I'm wearing makeup but like just
5:51:28
way less than this screenshot I took and posted on Reddit that you used in your Twitter post I
5:51:34
felt honored when I saw it [ __ ] yeah oh yeah yeah I completely stole your
5:51:40
content thank you it was great I was gonna use the other one you did with the gun it was a good one but I already took that photo and I wanted to use it
5:51:47
um but sincere game is insane uh I'm wearing I'm wearing makeup I've
5:51:53
got concealer over little spots and [ __ ] I'm actually having not great of a skin day today weirdly like
5:52:13
what is that a little piece of string what the [ __ ]
5:52:32
not the worst not the best [ __ ] fair enough
5:52:43
[ __ ] what's your favorite outfit you wore on stream oh by the way speaking of outfit the uh
5:52:50
so this is what I mean by like I think if I was getting into an Uber dress like I keep finding I think if I was getting
5:52:55
into an Uber dress like this laser is prominent [ __ ] you if I was getting into a can I have less of a lazy eye back
5:53:01
then when I was getting into if I was getting into an Uber just dressed like this right then [ __ ] yeah it'd be fine
5:53:07
it would work but if I dress like this never
5:53:13
it's like look but like obviously girl would look better in that I would look worse in
5:53:20
that you know what I mean so you gotta
5:53:25
got it not everything that looks better will look better on you that's the tip that I there's that not everything that
5:53:31
looks better will look better on you and makeup is very much a minimize and you
5:53:38
want to be you want to be at like you want to be at like [ __ ]
5:53:43
the the minimum that you need you know or you're doing some crazy look but like
5:53:50
yeah it depends the minimum that you that will look good
5:53:55
but the minimum that will not go look good not the maximum that will look good think of it like that I guess
5:54:01
and then add to it instead of you you want it you it's worth going
5:54:07
slow and building because otherwise you'll be left with what I have which is a friend did a
5:54:14
makeup look on me and then me try and emulate it and [ __ ] it up
5:54:20
but it but me thinking it looked great so there are photos of me like going
5:54:25
not really but as far as I took photos there I was like wow holy [ __ ] I did that that's neat that's new and those
5:54:32
photos exist in normal ever see them uh
5:54:37
terrible terrible I have school in five hours
5:54:47
School how [ __ ] old are you cool
5:54:55
thank you Joan Adams Jonah Toms
5:55:01
Joanne Adams Joanne Adams [ __ ] yeah hey Joanne like hey Raiders
5:55:11
the 59 Grammys Lady Gaga on stage singing monsters away nice um I have two
5:55:17
two essays to write by next year El bozo shout out intellectual Scholars enchant
5:55:24
El bozos imagine homework
5:55:29
do you guys listen adults do you guys ever have that like weird dream I don't know maybe you're in uni or something but lower college but do you guys ever
5:55:36
have that weird like that weird nightmare thing where you'll wake up thinking that like holy [ __ ] I can't
5:55:43
believe I I haven't done that homework yet and then go and then having the [ __ ] it's bad but then you have the
5:55:50
the Most Blessed feeling of going
5:55:55
it's not real oh oh my God I never have to ever have that
5:56:03
feeling again and it's this most oh if hypnosis can do anything I want that
5:56:08
feeling oh my God it's the bestie and I go to UNI for a woodworking master in
5:56:14
hopefully five years also no I don't have homework ah fair enough
5:56:20
pcsc dude dude yeah
5:56:27
lucid dreaming is the best ever had that no I'm so [ __ ] jealous but I'm also Reese just told me I'm so
5:56:35
ungodly afraid of sleep paralysis
5:56:40
so afraid of that because it sounds like the most
5:56:45
terrifying thing because I've also heard Marisa Marisa
5:56:51
has had sleep paralysis done and she tells me about it and it sounds horrific
5:56:57
I'm it sounds awful so I I just can't bring myself to like look into the practice of it
5:57:04
I can't I can't
5:57:10
had it just terrifying it passes [ __ ] hell though it's only definitely terrifying the first couple times fair
5:57:16
enough I don't want that though sleep paralysis the worst thing ever yeah
5:57:22
it's horrifying if you sleep face up that's what I mean I don't I sleep like
5:57:28
sort of face down or sideways like belly like have you ever seen those Tick Tock people where they're like if you sleep
5:57:33
like this you're gonna die early like but it's like the most comfortable
5:57:38
position it's like that one that's like sleep on your stomach one leg right angle to the side cuddling a pillow like
5:57:46
that and like also you will literally MX-5 myattus I don't give a [ __ ] about
5:57:52
cars I literally I don't give a [ __ ] about cars I I I hope that the mileage is good and
5:57:59
they are smooth to drive and that's it I'm 26 and I still get PTSD from hearing
5:58:05
my old ringtone in public since it was my alarm from grades 6 through 12.
5:58:10
yeah it's wild the um dude it's such an insanely wild like [ __ ]
5:58:19
bit of like anxiety
5:58:25
oh [ __ ] you know like hold on
5:58:54
oh [Music] it provokes such what I'm up I'm up
5:59:03
it provokes such an like such an anxiety like reaction it's crazy
5:59:08
how did chassis added block term I will kill you
5:59:17
[Music] don't even feel awake I bet you feel more tired but more annoying so I have
5:59:23
the sensory aspect of it basically I could feel like someone sat next to me
5:59:28
in my bed even though I lived on the fourth floor worst part is hearing a voice say shh I hated sleeping because
5:59:36
of this Jesus you know what maurizer said so guess what I apparently have been
5:59:41
Maurice's sleep paralysis demon that's fun to hear so like apparently so here's what Marisa here's what happened with
5:59:47
Riza when she was staying over here she had sleep paralysis while she was here and so she described it to me and I think it's hilarious but also terrifying
5:59:55
so what happened was she was like facing like laying sideways
6:00:01
facing the door because the bed's like angled where you can see the door if you're looking like down the bed right so she's like laying like she's like
6:00:08
laying like that right looking at door so like what she sees is me but like
6:00:14
stretched out sort of thing unlike all black like a demon sort of thing
6:00:20
and then quickly Scuttle behind her and lay down in bed and just go and just start
6:00:26
breathing just right behind her and she and she's like saying like Finn like if
6:00:31
I she wants to she's like stop like you're kind of not like wine but like long like lanky like [ __ ]
6:00:38
and then like just being [ __ ] terrified of me which was great like so
6:00:45
much so like while she was describing at me while she was describing it she was like looking at me weird
6:00:53
slenderfin yeah yeah yeah so like wide finger gobble mode forgot you're British
6:00:58
what so like demon version of me
6:01:05
oh you are so pretty glad to be here I know
6:01:13
thanks for the membership fee for being here to look at me if you think sleep paralysis everyone
6:01:19
else is scary look up anesthesia awareness yeah oh dude so I talked to uh
6:01:24
I talked to Tim about that actually a while ago um and I was like I've heard that little
6:01:30
myth about like people doing this he was like oh no that's real I was like
6:01:35
he's like yeah it's very rare but like
6:01:41
it's like completely a thing it's like so if people don't know it's
6:01:47
basically um when you take yeah that'd be horrifying let's say you're going for a surgery they give you anesthesia you're supposed
6:01:53
to knock you out it just doesn't it just doesn't
6:01:58
so you're you can't move feel everything
6:02:05
but can't say [ __ ] well there's a surgery going on
6:02:17
and that's a real thing that you won't know
6:02:23
until it happens what bro
6:02:34
as long as you can't no you can feel the pain yeah
6:02:40
it's like it's like a it's completely a thing it's wild I think probably some of them
6:02:46
you can't but like even if you can't and [ __ ] imagine
6:02:52
well the thing is you're not really supposed to do a test run of anesthesia because it can be kind of dangerous so
6:02:57
like I should not God lord has been sort of automated solution I
6:03:04
don't know I genuinely don't know he's all [ __ ] you know I'll figure it out
6:03:11
foreign I'll find a doctor and ask him
6:03:16
but either way new Fair unlocked yeah congratulations good job um anyway
6:03:25
surgery with local anesthesia
6:03:30
nah oh my God no oh Jesus Christ never mind
6:03:42
oh that's that's bad I am [ __ ] Jesus I'm gonna take I'm gonna let my blue
6:03:47
light blocking glass again but take care of these eyes to make that
6:03:53
not happen [ __ ] hell happened to my cousin more getting his
6:03:58
wisdom teeth removed oof you're not knocked out for that though you're awake while you get your wisdom
6:04:04
teeth removed right why do I look like this
6:04:11
see what I mean by like I'm an average looking guy I don't look like Sam Hyde
6:04:31
and I want to put my glasses under my hair what's wrong with this it also it also makes it look like I don't have
6:04:36
eyebrows so it's pretty good
6:05:01
oh all you need is a light boxing scar
6:05:08
someone who would I do who would I fight
6:05:14
say something cringy to really sell it no woo
6:05:22
what would I say that's cringy I've never said a single thing that's cringe
6:05:27
also I think we've I think we've already shown that I'm not good with this this whole say something cringe thing
6:05:40
you got the most [ __ ] crazy ass people in my DMs man
6:05:46
you know
6:05:51
what the [ __ ] go fight Brock Lesnar oh my God I mean like a you know a femboy or some
6:05:58
[ __ ] come on man like someone someone Fair sometimes I want to be a little spoon uh
6:06:04
shut up listen I'm tough and I'm tough and I'm strong anyway [ __ ] it fellas I'm I feel like I'm I'm wearing out
6:06:11
foreign ly I'm finally about done with the stream I think
6:06:16
do the long eyelashes not annoy you sometimes all right you'd be super when they're
6:06:23
when they're like eyelash extensions it is a different thing completely different feeling
6:06:34
hold on just working on something
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[Music]
6:06:54
oh my God
6:07:33
okay I'm good that was so distinct bro but it was a
6:07:39
[ __ ] neighbor Jesus Christ I gotta move [Laughter]
6:07:46
oh Jesus Christ
6:07:51
I don't know if you could hear it it's like just very clearly like the sound of like footsteps from directly onto me and
6:07:58
I was like oh okay it's just the [ __ ] walls Jesus anyway you can yell at no PornHub Jesus Christ
6:08:06
well anyway fellas I'm about done I'm at
6:08:12
I'm gonna go [ __ ] make a a rice paper spring roll or summer roll
6:08:18
I think they're called and then go to [ __ ] the bed ciao I shall see you
6:08:27
crazy ass what the hell all right
6:08:32
fellas goodbye till next time Mark it's so good I'm
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foreign [Music]